
I have been trying to keep my head above water the last couple of weeks. Running from Christmas event to Holiday party, dinners with family, weekends with friends, packing and unpacking, weddings and more weddings, checking out interns, and work. This morning my head is spinning.
We didn't even put up a Christmas tree this year...there was not much time. And going to the Home Depot in the middle of DC, literally dodging bullets on our way and trying to pick out a Christmas tree, pay for it, and put it on our car before someone steals our car did not sound like fun this year. I didn't even get a wreath.
I did however get a balsam fur candle. Our friends joke with us. Everytime Cody comes over he says, "Wow, your tree smells so good."
To compensate for our lack of Christmas flair in our apartment, I have been hijacking the comfort of lighted trees and wreaths from friends and my office building. This weekend I stared at my friends gorgeous Christmas tree and her decorations, on some level thinking they were mine, thinking about putting the lights up and the ornaments on.
When I run in the evenings on the Capitol Mall, I stare at the Christmas tree in front of the Capitol and pretend it is in my living room. It looks beautiful against the backdrop of the Capitol. When I walk into my office at work I stare at the wreaths on the doors, pretending I put them there, pretending they are hanging on my door at home.
It is the event of cutting down a tree, hanging a wreath, and decorating that I miss. The hot chocolate and Christmas music in the background as you seperate your ornaments and gently place each one in its proper spot on the tree.
I am not even half way done with my Christmas shopping. Tim and I are both looking at a long week at work. Congress is still in, wrapping up business before they depart as well. We are also both trying to fit in workouts...preparation for long days of eating ahead.
Have you ever looked forward to just driving in a car? To not thinking, doing, or acting...to just being? I am looking forward to driving to Pittsburgh, then on to Philadelphia and Doylestown. I am looking forward to staring out the window...praying for things and people who pop into my head, listening to books on tape, talking with Tim. And I am looking forward to tomorrow, when life will hopefully slow down.
"Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done..."--C. S. Lewis, from a letter "To Mrs. L."