The Twilight

Yep, this is indeed the Twilight season not the TWILIGHT SAGA SERIES.

I'll explain it but first of all,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Together with the season of giving, this period of time is actually the twilight zone before the dawn of the new year 2010 ahead!

This is the time where we evaluate the good and bad we've been through this year. Be it ahievement or failure I think it doesn't really matter much anymore because its over! Its good to recount on those interim successes you may have seized, but an over appreciation for past ahievement may well impair your future. On the other end, its not healthy to dwell on the negativity that might have happened as well.

So what am I getting at?

I'm so so so glad that I've soon in 5 to 6 days more conquered this year.

Anyway, I think this year is the one of the many many more challenging year yet I've been through. For starters, its the O' levels; its really the first time that I've really studied hard and did what I'm supposed to. Then the rest of the stuffs ranged from family issues to handling of bigger responsibility as student leader to disappointments here and there. Through all of these "hard" times what is the only outcome? You only emerge stronger as a person!

Carpe Diem! Seize all the opportunity you have in the coming year!

Have an awesome year ahead!

Just to side track, I recently heard a true story that I'm really touched. I figured this is a good time for me to share with you guys and also for me to keep a record in the archive.

So here it goes:

Now there was a prison in asia. This prison was holding a sporting event for all the inmates for all the long term prsioners who have spent more than 20 years incarcerated. They have decided to have a day of reunion for the inmates and their families. So all their family members were invited. Now, if you serve a prison term of more than 20 years usually it means you must be a serious criminal.

On that day, the entire prison ground was like a carnival. Families were reunited after decades! They were all eating and laughing; having so much fun with each other's company. But the highlight of the day was the final game, the final event. The prison inmates were going to carry their parents on their back and run one round the track.

As the final game was about to start, the whole atmostphere in the prison ground began to change. It got quiet and solemn. The parents didn't want to be carried because they look at the weak and thin bodies of their sons who had been imprisoned for so long. How could they want their son to carry them? The prison guards nonetheless proceeded with the game. He blew the whistle "beep!" and the race started.

However, not a single inmate was running hard. It was a strange race because the players tried to reach the finishing line as slowly as possible although the fastest one was going to win the prize. They all wanted to go slowly because for most of them this could be the last time they could touch their parents, kiss their parents, hug their parents. They do not want the moment to end. They don't want the race to stop. They wanted to prolong the process as much as possible.

There was a mother who kept wiping away the tears of her son although she couldn't even wipe away her own tears. There was a father who couldn't even be carried on the son's back because the son was so frail and so weak. None of them wanted the first prize. What they wanted was to extend their moments together for as long as possible even for a few more seconds longer. Soon the entire field was filled with tears.

Everyone in society have deserted them because they were hardcore criminals and they were locked away. But the love of their parents for them never changed. The love of their parents for them was confirmed that day! Their parents love them as much as before they went to jail, as much as they were when they were kids. The love of their parents for them was as great as the day that they were born!"

Hope you like it!

Til then I'm off :D

Life never gets softer

What a title!

Yep, it gets harder by day; from transition to transition.

I'm now two weeks into my working life as a part-timer and all I could say is that I've already grown weary of this kind of lifestyle. When you start working, its true that you're making money but at the same time your expenses shoots up like mad too. Food prices are up and transport included too. What I hate most about my job is the "getting to work from home" process.

The working environment where I'm confined in reeks of negativity all over. Most of the people are short tempered, uncivilised and do not take pride in their work. Well, what can we expect? Most of the people working nowadays do not quit because they have well become slave of finances.

However, just like anything that we do in life. The roots of it is sheer bitterness but the fruits of it is sweet. We just have to keep pressing on and keep on keeping on. This has caused me to realise more that money is not easily earned and at the same time learn how to better manage it wisely. Thank goodness I've conquered two weeks of work and half a month's pay is coming up real soon! Two more weeks more to go and I'm off!

Come to think of it I really miss my secondary school life a lot! I miss how we could all have fun during recess time in a big group together instead of having lunch alone. I miss the atmosphere of non-serious politics that could be gotton over easily. I miss how we get to exercise our brains rather than doing very routine stuffs like a machine. I miss P.E where we use to have our ball games rather than sitting down all day long. I really miss how I could have enough time on my computer and work hard for studies simultaneously rather than not having any time and not being productive at all. I really really miss all of my friends and teachers!

I feel I've really gone down a level intellectually. During those day-dreaming when no one is around moment at work. I tried forming a few A.Maths questions which might be wrong and I don't even know how to solve them already. This was what Mr Chew, my mum and many others said, its not all about the content but its about the critical thinking process.

Well well well, all of these would have to wait to be proven. For now, my main burden is the release of O' level results. I'm picturing too many what if's and what if's situation, and I'm really starting to get real fearful of it. Well some of you would say, "Hello? Are you kidding me Gerald? ". On the contrary, I've gone through a lot myself to know that there are no absolutes.

Wordy post? Well, the days of pictorial posting is over for now already.

Kissing goodbye to my once active and averagely 55 unique readership per day statistic blog!

Genesis

Hey ALL!


Behold, the day . . we've been longing !

AND

I'm proud to say that what we've suppose to prepare for four years is now done and over!

This is a cliche but it never fails to surprise me, time flies! I still remember I had an English teacher back in Sec 1 days. She told us not to think the days to O levels is forever and four years would just past so fast; by the time you know it you are already in the exam hall.

THATS exactly what went through my mind when I sat for my English Paper right on the very first day!

Well here are my thoughts for this year's O levels. For starters, I think the schedule really made life miserable for most candidates. First week, the first was English paper obviously and followed by "THE MATH ARMAGEDDON"; where we have E.Math P1, P2 and A.Math P1, P2.

The obvious thing to do will be to practice the math like crazy a week before and I DID THAT! Gosh, I've never really done my E.Math before and I'm proud to have completed at least 3/4 of the TYS I bought! The trend for math is that its always easy and tricky but yet the A1 cut off always remain high. For A.math my A1 is ruled out, I only got 75% maybe a A2 or B3 at best? Only those elites up there get their A1s. For E.math I still stand some chances though.

Here's why the schedule made life miserable. Guess what? The second week or should I say by the last day of the first week when I tried revising SCIENCES, it seemed like I've totally lost touch with it! To make things worst, the science papers was coupled together with elective humanities; subjects like Geography and Social Studies. These two subjects, I studied with my fingers crossed!

I employed the spotting and studying smart "thang" and it worked in some ways but yet I think it was screwed anyway. For Social Studies, I only studied and memorised for one theme Globalisation. For any normal SS student, tell that to them and they will tell you its suicide! Well, my spot was correct and for those many many people out there who studied VENICE, C'est La Vie. For Geography, I felt like I wasn't sitting for my syllabus at all. High weightage questions came out but never learnt before and no map work! Combined Humanities, a B4 at best?

YEAP! This was the last paper I sat for today!

It ended with MCQs. I think I got a 37/40?

1 mark above the national's average, secured A1? I'm not sure. But I did my best!

Frankly speaking, I already burnt out since the second week of papers and the studying level wasn't as vigorous as the week before Os.

This just meant I've prepared sufficiently wayyyyyyy before!

RIGHTT!

Enough of the wordy post!

What sort of pictures do you expect from O levels yea?

I believe I'll be filled with satiation when I get back the result next year! Minimally L1B4 would be at 15 and the best 7? I'm aiming real hard to get below 11 and I'm confident; wish me best of luck!

And here's giving credit where credit it due to see me through my Os!

Thank you Atikah Ali for the calculator!

I'll return it to you real sooooon!

Til then , I'm out xD

26 days more to Genesis!

Yes!

26 days more!

Look closely, its not the date of O's, but the coming of the end!

Oh, I really look forward to the coming of it; tonnes and tonnes of paper waiting to be recycled. Its like what the title says, Genesis! Me coming into being again!

Anyway just in case you're mistaken, nope I'm not declaring I'm done studying. Since I thought that today was quite a fruitful day, i'm just taking a little short break that I have to update a bit.

Well, as always I hate to be in the position I'm in. It's as though all of these "burdens" should be on me when it really shouldn't be the case.

Anyway, the start of Genesis will also be the end of Shannon. Well, he's been staying with me for more than half a year now and in just two weeks time, he will not be anymore.

I really want to thank him for being such a nice tenant; being able to put up with me. I know I'm someone not really many could stand being with, even in school and what more staying together? And guess what!? Trust me, we've never once even so called "quarrelled" before. With him around, there is at least someone just a table away almost 24/7 from me that I could be human with. Otherwise, i'mma pure loner. So thanks a lot bro!

He once asked me, when there wasn't anyone around except the two of us; if I don't feel lonely like this and what more if he wasn't around. Being the ME that I am, I always have an answer. However, during the time I was like totally caught offguard, I didn't know what to answer.

Pathetic yep? Well, so like what you always said,

"live with it"

And I believe like what Mr Adnan said,

"If you think the condition you are caught in is that bad, there are even people worst than you"

No idea why I have to deal with the trouble
when I've created none for all of you
when will the pushing of responsibilities stop?
Its really time to own it and give it manzx
I'm just an ordinary 16 year old kid after all,
just as humane as everyone else

"Even when you're struggling and everyone have given up on you, don't give up. Don't ever give up on yourself"
Barack Obama

PRESS ON! You can do it Gerald! Don't give up,

45 days. .

Jaded

An imminent deadline looming,
the finishing line so nigh.
Weary of the routine round round the loop.
Staring at the words, the words,
So lifeless but yet necessary.
Equations, theories, formulae,
Words words and words revolves.
Longing for the satiation, where the pay off comes. .

One and only 16

Hey all!

Back to blog about my BIRTHDAY!

It falls on the 28th July and its some time very close to the new month but remains yet in the same month. This is the period that most people slog through, awaiting to the new month where pockets are replenish.

Here's giving out my BIGGEST THANKS to every one that had contributed to my BRITHDAY, from taking the effort sending me wishes all the way to planning the "SURPRISE"! Its very much appreciated and all of it make a difference to me.

I'm glad to say that I've such a bunch of AWESOME friends around me and its really really such a blessing and honour that I've been made known to them! People that made CARDS SPECIALLY for me and also those that gave me PRESENTS! It really didn't occurred to me that there are people who would even go to the extend of CUSTOMISING a CAKE for me! Tell me how COOL is that!?


Anyway talking about the celebration, we went to "SAKAE SUSHI" at Causeway Point to CHILL OUT! At first I thought it will just be the standard few of us going out for a meal but it turned out that I UNDERESTIMATED.

People that went includes: Alan, Shannon, Qin Hui, Xiang Rong, Yue Ting, Alicia, Lionel, Bryan, Threvin, Colonel, Jian Peng, You Chuen and Chin Ann!

Quite a a big group of people RIGHT!? They were telling me that my birthday celebration seems to be one of the most "LONG ZHONG" ever.


This was the cake they made for me! Small in size but DEFINITELY COOOOOL!

Going to SAKAE, with the free WASABI going around the belt, its a sure chance that someone would be pranked on.

Indeed someone got tricked and it was none other than ME!

We sat in groups of 4 and 6 respectively, so they did the "WASABI" thingy at other table and passed over to Alicia. She wasn't feeling well and said she couldn't finish the UNAGI sushi, so I ate it and . . .

AHHHHHHHHH! It was filled full with WASABI! My face was totally clenched lahz, like "gek sai"(trying very hard to shit expression).

Luckily, no PICTURE OF THAT =)


We didn't have a real camera around, the picture quality wasn't quite the ideal standard. Nevertheless we still took some pictures!



I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO IDEA THIS POSE WAS MAKING FUN OF ANDIKA! I'm SORRY but still, NICE ONE ANYWAY! CHEERS =)

Friends, friends and friends..
but where is the place closer, like family?
Are you all dead and gone?
Sorry, Mum, but I don't miss you
father's no name you deserve.

The void that can't be filled

Gift Of A Friend

Hey all!

Back to update a bit about my life once again.

These times, things are really not easy for me. I really hate the situation I'm caught in right now. Every choice and words I choose to say or do so right now is quite crucial, and if I happened to stumble upon the wrong choice of words, its finished. However, things seems to look better already. At least there isn't a need to feel all guard up now with fear in the air and to mingle in the indescribable frustrations. I finally feel a tinch of peace =D

Blessed are the peacemakers!

I went over to town today and met up with my mum for dinner to catch up on how things are going on. I'm glad at least some misunderstanding was cleared and we're able to spend some quality time together and well, it seems like its the first time things were like this. Kinda ironic though, having to travel to town to have meal togther for mother and son; and then part our ways after that.

Anyway, to the main point of this post. I really want to thank those of you that were there for me and those that care enough to leave note of encouragement, its very much appreciated! Its seriously not easy for me and other than my friends I seriously don't have anyone else to turn to for morale support. To all my friends, I love you!

And here's a song which is definitely appropriate, dedicated to all of you my friends out there! I'm sure you'll like it, even for your other friends out there!
PLEASE READ THE LYRICS!

Its a brand new song by Demi Lovato, Gift Of A Friend:

Irony and Uncertainties

In the midst of O level Prelims exam now.

Just left with Add. Math, Chemistry, Physics paper 1 and POA papers til next Wednesday. Up until now, I would say its quite impossible to really score well this time round. Subjects like POA and Humans, I doubt I will barely make it. There is just insufficient time to prepare for papers that is not meant for O levels standard.

I'm feeling really drained mentally right now for the different things happening at once. For one, its the overwhelming Prelims and next, having to deal with sudden probable insane stuffs that might happen at home. Mum bid farewell just two days ago and she ain't coming back home for good anymore this time round. This is nothing too much for me as it makes no difference from usual. The bad news is what happens next at home. From what I heard, there are just things that will inflict the constant fear at the back of my head. Things like throwing the kids out of the window and stuffs. It sounds impossible but, you never know.

However, I think this is pretty much a necessary pain we have to go through. I'd rather go through hell for just a period, than to exprience distress everyday when I'm doing my work during the night. I could not stand the false hope that everytime when things seems so alright, and suddenly its hell once again.

I really don't know how all of this will end, but I really hope its gonna settle down real soon, especially when this is a crucial year for me. My studies is the only thing I have left in control with, which I'm gonna make the best out of it.

Sweet sixteen, what a nice gift to behold in irony; how "sweet" could it be?
My simple wish: Quickly get it over, signed and done with.

Now Is The Time

Hey ALL!


New Term, New Hair =D

School has started and its now even nearing the dawn of O lvls. I really wish there were much more time than now to prepare for the upcoming prelims, which is like 10 days later.

I think I should be able to do pretty fine this time round, provided if I'm able to follow closely my personally calibrated "ultimate" time-table.

Well, I believe most of you would have noticed the ultra long post previously. It doesn't quite carry any meaning unless you try and look at the bigger picture, reading it differently.

I had my reasons for doing so and I did spent quite some time crafting it and making what I want to try express to look as hidden as possible. I succeeded. I Bet no one that I told to about of the "key" to the puzzle had been able to de-code the message.

Good for me, cos its meant to be like this, but I guess its pretty much pointless now already. I'd already know what I need to know about the truth and now, its time to move on.

Its a good lesson learnt to better communicate across properly to anyone and not always just assuming things to be as it is. It certainly sucks a lot to realise you've always been waiting and hoping for the wrong reasons than the right ones.

Now I really am convince that it definitely pays to be observant and thoughrough with your surroundings, and one day you will find out about what you never thought could be true. Though, there are really many things I don't understand of but I believe all of these could have been avoided only if it was communicated just right from the start.

Hurt? Well, definitely yes. This kind of laceration can't really be contained, if you know what I'm talking about. Seems like this kind of things, always ends up like this for me.

C'est La Vie - everybody lies.

Anyways, I've been thinking quite a lot about stuffs and got my thinking straight. Since whatever that is, is the case, then letting go will be the best. No room for grudge and resentment but I'm not sure about guilt, its beyond my control. However, judging from what has been so far, I think guilt shouldn't be a problem for you. At the end of the day, we do not want to force happiness yea?

What goes around comes back around though.

Here's wishing the best for your desires =)

Peace

25 more days!

What You See Is What You Get

The plot of The Matrix is unbelievable, mind blowing and enlightening, sometimes.
It is a movie put up together by the Wachowski brothers almost like ten years back. I

thought that the visual effects shown in the movie, ten years back was incredible. I Doubt

anyone who have yet watched The Matrix, will believe it was first shown in 1999. Isn’t it

amazing visual effects were already that advanced in the past, like the present day? But

ten years have gone by and what we now see in present day hasn’t really changed. I

have no idea why there haven’t been big improvements made from the past and am

wondering what could have stifled the lack of progression for the better. It’s convinced

me that whenever good progression is made, it’s hard for human to get over it just right.

They tend to turn complacent and will usually be overjoyed by their interim success now;

they could not transit to the next phase of life. A saddening weakness of man that I’m

sure most of you could relate to, I think. However, I deeply believe in my heart that in

this weakness, mankind could still find favor in life. Other than all the success in life, love

is the captivating power that keeps things moving. Something you should agree with

me, if I’m not wrong. Imagine you already achieved all the goals that, from start you

had already set out for; maybe world domination or even ownership to everything and

any material stuffs that exist. Trust me, at the end of it only the feeling of emptiness will

be the end result. You just have to spend some time thinking about it and it will not do

you any bad. What’s your purpose here? Is it fate or destiny? Or is it just taking whatever

which was given to you? If your purpose is just only to achieve then you would have it

all figured that life is actually quite meaningless. After all, there is just that much to take

with you in one lifetime. Anyway, in the movie; The Matrix, nothing that we ever lived to

see is real. Everything about the twenty-first century was an illusion world. What could be

true about life might just be as delusional as it is. “The Matrix” is the fake world that with

time, the AI had almost made it foolproof. Weird as it is but what is life? Everything you

had felt and experienced were just merely electric signals from your brain.

The real world is situated from around the year 2136. The AIs had dominated what you

now see as Earth. With you, dead in a virtual world would mean that your brain have

already died in the real world. It made sense right? Without the brain in our heads, no

one could function as they did. The real world humans then, had the rights and reason

to resist the AIs from what should have been rightfully theirs. Some would travel back to

“The Matrix” and wake some potential individual from their delusion and they believed

in due time, the savior to the human race would be found. Confusing it seemed to me

at first. I could not understand what the plot was at first and it kept me in suspense, but

as I continued watching on; I understood what the plot was all about. Moving on, I

somehow thought that the directors were quite philosophical. Throughout, they have

been saying that where we see coincidence, they see consequence. And it’s been

repeated over again and again that some things are just inevitable. The Agents doing

their job to serve the AI’s purpose; keeping human in delusion had come across what

they call an anomaly in “The Matrix”. For the first time in the illusion world, a human you

never imagined to be; defeated and stopped an Agent from pursue. What he wanted

initially was just to find out about this person called Morpheus. He’d done it and trust me

he really made a hell of a choice. He is none other than the main character, Neo. To

say he was the ‘savior’ at first, really sounded unbelievable. He was not even able to do

half of what he eventually was capable of, without the epiphany of the truth. Lo and

behold, he now understands the essence of “the matrix”. All he needed was keeping

the fact that everything in “The Matrix” isn’t real; and this was when even the promised

law of physics failed in the “reality”.

I hope no one is really reading all of contents I have wrote above. It means nothing it’s

just some random thoughts running through my mind to piece something that I’d been

longing to express since aeons ago. However, it could not be done openly without nine

hundred words. There isn’t a lot of time left for me now to ponder much; it’s but months

to ‘O’ Levels and time really flies. I really hope I had much more time to prepare and

get ready for the prelim exams coming in 24 days. I know it doesn’t make sense and my

thoughts in all these are too much for me not to vent. I’d remembered how much I love

to make my post in essays form in the past. It was always boring and all philosophical for

most people. I guess these writings make no sense at all, especially when none of you

or me actually understands why things happen the way they happened. We will only

find the true meaning for ourselves when we, as humans have chosen the way to grow

and look beyond needs, but purpose. This is really crazy and I know that I know that you

think that I’ve reached the stage where thinking too much applies. Well, who never

thinks? What is the measure of over thinking? Nope, no one knows. This is where we fail

once again; our weakness. By the way, for all you know everything that we learnt from A to

Z might be wrong. All is based on assumed work by humans. One plus one may appear

to be two. Ask yourself, why not three? Who defines all of these? Why so complicated in

all of these you ask, but why not? That’s life I guess, and it’s never easy, but I still do my

best in everything that I can in my ability. This is one way I have, to achieving dreams

that I set out for.

Summing it all up, Neo the ‘savior’, eventually managed to save the real world. I

believe his failure from the start was all due to his identity crisis. Neo could not really

accept that he will be “the one” to release the remaining from bondage. Who’d want

to carry the weight of the world upon himself? It was actually a lie made up in a bid to

keep those alive in the real world in hope. Nothing was predestined to say who will be

“the savior”. Someone just had to believe he/she is able to do it. I’m going to share with

you my personal experience in a camp. My body literally turned to a steel rod and you

would not believe it unless you see it with your eyes. It all lies in our mind.

I think this is really one movie that had made me think a lot and I really

love to relate this kind of movie to my life, in deep thoughts and penning it down.

You think its all pointless and wasteful of time but I think its all worthwhile afterwards

when you see the end result.

Gerald

"Holiday!"

Hey guys!

I Bet this is the most "delightful" month for most of you out there, as we are in the midst of JUNE school "HOLIDAYS"!

What's up with the inverted commas you ask. Well for starters, this holiday is meant for all Sec 4s taking O' Levels to MUG hard and prepare, as opposed to playing all day long!

Anyway, I'm back here once again to give a really SHORT update.

Last week was the last week of Term 2 and it also marked the end of 1st semester in our school. We received our report books and all I can say is, I really need to IMPROVE well in the area of my language, especially English. It caught me off as an irony for me to score better in my Chinese than English which should have been the opposite, if you've known me personally.

The rest of the subjects were okay, just that we all really need to work more on Amath. Most people dropped from their distinction in AM to getting just a C5 and I'm one of them.

So here's the summary of my Mid-year Exam:

EL: C6
AM: C5
CL: B4
COMB HUMANS: B4

EM: B3
PHY: A2
POA: A2
CHEM: A1

L1B4: 14

FYI: I'm using the score of prelims for EL and CL to reduce discrepancy.

You would have noticed a drop from my previous reportbook which features a L1R4 of 8. Well, the drop could be attributed to subjects like Maths and Language. However, I'm still quite satisfied that I did well for Physics and still managed to sustain my Chemistry and POA results.

Alright now, moving on..


Saturday

As promised to Ming Zhen, Lionel and me went to the mini-EMERGE conference 2009 to support her on a cheerleading programme call "Parade of Schools".

I really enjoyed myself through out day and its really different from what I would have expected it to be. The people I met with are really changed as compared to the past impressions I had. It's really incredible when you are able to see change happening like this. I really love hanging out with you guys, a really really cool cellgroup!

Thanks Ming Zhen for the invitation! You showed me something that was different than what my mind comprehends. Next time yea?

Monday

Everyone of you will now be thinking, "Gerald, are you seriously out of your mind?" Its actually O' lvl for Mother Tongue and you could spend your time out there instead of studying for chinese!

Well well well, language isn't really something you could master overnight or even over weeks. For the past 8 days of mother tongue intensive, which produces work equivalent to that of 1 semester of any Sec3 CL students, I felt its quite enough for me already.

Seriously speaking, what we mainly study on are topics in the news and internalising those informations and points of those hot topics. Mainly what's the problem, why it happened, what influence it has and how it can be solved. All of these could be done through logical and rationale thinking and we all know that what we read and write isn't actually true anyway. If those problems could be solved that easily by giving those 3 points, there will be world peace now.

Therefore, during the morning while everyone was still all nervous and afraid of the MT papers, I was there trying to relax and think through that there will be one burden lifted off me after today.

Which brings me to this...

I'm HAPPY that MOTHER TONGUE : CHINESE is finally OVER!

Well, after the papers we went over to causeway point to catch Terminator Salvation!

Its really an AWESOME show that I think everyone of you should turn your heads to! It features AMAZING sound effect and its an action-packed movie! Go on and choose Terminator, if you're planning on movies during the holidays!

TODAY

RIGHT! This is the main reason why I'm posting now where I should be trying to complete my English assignment. Well, in line with school's official opening of the Environment Education Hub, we've caught hold of some media attention.

Together with JingJing, we've been going around for certain interviews and etc. Jingjing got herself in the papers on yesterday's Lian He Zao Bao.

And today, the TODAY's newspaper actually featured an article about both of us and the school!

It's titled "Coffee with two young 'champion' "

http://www.todayonline.com/pdf_main.asp?pubdate=20090602

Deluded. .

There and then,
I wish I was wrong...

What happened just prove otherwise.
Deluded I am, living in delusion.
Companions I have, now it seemed so bleak...

Condemned am I to the likeness in my face

I guess humans do possess the rights to feel?

UPDATES UPDATES

HEY WORLD!

Here I am, back once again to UPDATE!

Its REALLY been a while, around 1 month since I last updated! This post will summrise my highlights of the month, May. It is quite a HAPPENING ONE, considering the amount of day left to O LVLs!

Well, I'm sorry to say but the frequency at which i'm gonna update is gonna get lower and lower, so pardon me if you manage to catch some flies xD

So lets begin right from the start of the month!

7th May

Well as the pictures says it, it was Shannon's Birthday!

This year's celebration is really what I call a celebration manzx. For the past 3 years, it was just gift giving and then verbal wishing but there weren't really much of the "partying" part.

This year what's different was, Shannon is staying over at my house and we get to hang out all day long till late night!

I don't know how many have realised but he's actually a tenant over at my house! We've been coming to school together and stuffs, so don't speculate no more!

The view over at the Esplanade bay was SPECTACULAR YO! We saw many couples spending their dates over there and the ambience was really awesome! So next time, if you've run out of places and have nothing better to do, you know where to look out for huh?

Anyway, just some quick mention. We went over to dine at "Waraku", a Jap restaurant suggested by Foo Chuan Wei. You can't see him in any of the pictures. For some reason, he just hates having himself in soft copy! Lionel, Xiangrong, Qinhui and me got Shannon a Zinc Bag, while FCW treated Shannon the meal.

The bowl they served was really HUGE! I would rate the restaurant "okay" only. Its somewhat too pricey and the food ain't really that fantastic as well. Imagine 3 small pieces of RAW SALMON cost 8 BUCKS!
Well, I really treasure the moment we had yo! This could be the last year or maybe last time of such outings already. Its sec 4 and its O lvl, once we graduate and BAM! I believe most people around me will be gone! So this year, do try to engage yourself in as much activities as possible. These people you see around you might not be there anymore once this year is over.

Don't be sad... People come and people go! That's LIFE YO!

16th May

So this is yet another birthday celebration; and its none other than Kam Lin's!

Basically, we met at Causeway Point that saturday morning and proceeded over to Upper Thomson for the lunch! We ate at "Kim's place" if I've not remembered wrongly and all I could say is, I MADE THE WRONG ORDER! Other than that, I thought the food over there was generally not bad.

HEY! This was really a RANDOM PIC! I was trying out Marcus' brand new test camera and I was... should I say LUCKY? =X

Alright, so that summerises that first part of the day! The 2nd part of the day was just watching the movie, "the Uninvited" over at BISHAN J8 GV. I thought the 2nd part of the day was quite a drag as more people got together but still, things went on!

We had around 15 or 16 people together and WOW! When big groups comes together, everybody look manzx!

21st May
And so it was, together with Jingjing we've reached the final lap! On the 21st of May, Official opening of MSL's Environment Education Hub, marks the last Emcee for us in MSL and also duty for major events, being an Environment Champs!

Our efforts were paid off! The event ran smoothly and we got praises here and there! I'm really glad I did not screw it up, as I did previously with other few public appearance.

I've worked with her quite a few times before and in comparison to the past, I think we've come quite far together in terms of the working spirit! It was fun working togther with JingJing, there's practically all the stuffs to talk about and to make fun of! Sorry for the "irritating" part of me, but thats how jokes come about yea? xD

I still remember the first few times meeting together to practice, we had to correct many of our pronunciation and dictions. It was indeed very tiring, especially this week! Rehearsals and rehearsals and PRACTICE.

In addition, the Sec 4 express is also having MT O lvl Intensive studies. So really, it was really very mind and body draining!

To JingJing: " You're really an AWESOME Emcee, leader and working partner! And most importantly, I will never forget about the HEELS, STOOL where your feet rest on, and your ENERGY and WATER! HAHAHAs!"

Like Finally..

Hey World!
I'm back right here to blog about the recent happenings yo!
Hmm... Actually there isn't really much of any happenings to update about too.

Right, so I realised its been quite a while since I went out to town to shop, to walk, to whatever, you name it. I literally missed taking the MRT and travelling in Singapore!

So in line with Mother's day we assumed to be this Sunday, we went out to TOWN to CHILL and also not forgetting getting mother's day gift as a good reason to hang out. Anyway, I went to check and found out that Mother's Day is always celebrated on the 2nd Sunday of May in Singapore. Interesting huh? Different countries actually celebrate it at different dates.

Right, have anyone ever realised how hanging out in big groups ends up with people breaking into smaller cliques?

Yesterday, was the one day that only the 4 of us hung out mainly at BUGIS!


ME Lionel Xiang Rong

Qin Hui

Notice the guy at the back?! LOLS Using full resolution photo at 5Mp, we can actually form a photo of himself, totally what the hell @.@.

So next time, do not think that just because the lense is not actually facing you, you're off the capture.

Where we went to:

Actually we planned to go Orchard to do the shopping.

However, since I wanted to get something from Sim Lim Square, so we headed to Bugis instead! Our main objective was to get mother's day gift but they ended up accompanying to purchase my COOLERMASTER V8.

You shall find out later what exactly it that!

After rounds and rounds of walking about.....

I FINALLY decided on getting a book for my mum.

Really an interesting book, it explains the human mind and the process at which human actually rationalize about stuffs. Things like why do our headaches persists after taking cheap painkillers but eases off after taking expensive painkillers?

Interesting huh? Well, if you have an interest in reading people, this book is highly recommended to you!

The rest of the people got wallet/purse for their mums FYI!

And SO IT HAS COME!

COOLER MASTER V8 Finally after 1 months of my CPU suffering with Intel Stock HSF, I've gotten myself a aftermarket HSF! Its none other than Coolermaster V8 once again. Yes the iteration! Its really a cool product and by cool I mean LITERALLY COOL!

For all those PC builders and Overclockers out there, I highly recommend this if you're aiming for decent Air cooling with budget > SGD$80. Its able to keep my CPU at stock speed 2.8 Ghz at 35C and load at 49C. With Overclock at 4.01GHz its idles at 45C and loads at average 70C-75C. Still not that low for temps but mind you its 4.01GHz!!!

The installation is kind of troublesome but trust me its all worth while. I actually took out my whole motherboard to mount it to the back @.@.

And YEA! This is the final RESULT:

Looks much better than how it looked before!

And Right,

CONGRATULATE ME!

I succeeded a STABLE OVERCLOCK AT 4.01 GHZ with Core 2 Quad Q9550!

Til then, ME Signing OFF =X

Hey there!

Well, lets see...

Right, this few weeks had been quite a busy one for everyone, or at least myself. All the stuffs ranging from SYF, choir practices, common tests, rushing of syllabus, Earth week and homeworks to the transition of my mobile line.

So, for starters, lets talk about this particular CCA I joined since Sec 1.

Lo and behold, we got Bronze as I've expected and foreseen for SYF.

To be honest, the little passion I still hold for choir actually vanished the day when I was the only guy left. For one, its really weird and I think I'm practially a living joke in school.

Once there's this new staff in school and the very first conversation he initiated with me was,

"Hey! aren't you the guy that is the only guy in choir?"

Wow! How encouraging can it get?

Anyway, I can't really sing smooth in the Soprano section. Its seriously damn unfruitful and I really felt like my time is wasted. I estimate the time wasted and it all adds up to about a 100 hours. My goodness, this 100 hrs could really help me in the lack of sleep.

Also, since I'm the only guy. Those practices could really get very boring and this really motivates me from compromising my attendance.

My point is...

THIS WEEK MARKS THE END OF CHOIR IN MY LIFE! WHOO! AND MY LIFE WILL NO LONGER BE WASTED AWAY OFFICIALLY!

Next up, its about My studies!

Well, I'm really really DAMN GLAD that even when all things could go wrong, my studies remains the one that stays consistent.

Here are some good reports, I actually got 1st in Physics test for the first time, 34/35! For Chemistry its a 29.5/40, still managed to get A2.

However, for Amath there had been a slight drop and I'm kinda lacking behind already.
Now that I can have a PEACE of mind not wasting 5 hrs everyweek, I think there should be no problem anymore. =)

Next, its EARTH WEEK!

I practically made appearance everyday of this week!

Things were somehow not where it was supposed to be here and there, and most importantly I really think I messed up bigtime last Wednesday morning. It came to me quite hard and tears were practically all around my eyeballs, I struggled hard to keep it in place.

Whatever the case, whats done cannot be undone, so I'll just have to live with it.

Its becoming more evident to me that some times or even maybe all the time, life sucks and thats just live and we just gotta move on with it. How many agree with me?

Even my ex vice-principal said that, what else could hold true?

Alright, enough about it!

So talking about my mobile line...

I believed for those that still keep in close contact with me had already been informed about my change in number.

With the change of number, I had also changed my phone to F480!

For those we wants my number, either get it from me in school or in msn!

Me Signing OFF =X

Redemption

Hey GUYS! Wassup yo!
Right! From the picture above you would have guessed that NG QIN HUI birthday had just passed and I'm sorry for the LATE LATE update about it! xD

So we went over to celebrate together at Ajisen Causeway point. Its kind of a hectic week for us I remembered, ergo we just met up in our vicinity right after school. Well, together with Kai Leng we "spon" NQH the MEAL.

And the chinese saying goes " There's no free lunch in the WORLD!"

RIGHT! Kind of agree with it too manzx. When you receive things from people, it means you've earned it and deserve it. So next time, don't reject people's goodwill. When anyone feel glad to give, BE GLAD TO RECEIVE!

Though its not really much of anything we've done for a KICKASS celebration but I'm glad I did something for, I could say one of my BEST BEST BEST FRIEND! She is one person that understands me and know how I think. When we get together, there is just endless things we can talk about! (Opps... Is it gossiping? @.@)

NEXT NEXT NEXT

Well ANYWAYS

the other major update for me will of course be my NEW DESKSTOP!

I've actually planned for to build a computer since last year and all along I cant manage my budget well. So I got sponsorship from both parents amounting to around $680 and then paid the rest myself.

In total, it costs me around $1300. So do the math if you want to know how much I forked out myself.

I practically got my stuffs part by part and assemble it all by myself. Well, call me a comp geek for all you want but I just love comp tech stuffs and it ROCK!

For those of you that are INTERESTED!

Here's my System Specification:

Windows Vista™ Home Premium
Intel(R) Core (TM)2 Quad CPU Q9550 @ 2.83GHz

3.25GB RAM

ATI Radeon HD 4850 GDDR3 512 MB, 625/990MHz Core Clock

ASUS P5q Motherboard

Hitachi 500 GB HDD

Well, What can I say ? I guess just a complete status on the surface doesn't make thing better yea? I'd rather we have peace and happiness than having to stay unhappy because of some obligation. Life goes on as usual and I'll just live with it by having just a little faith for things to go on well.

Yea and now what?

Everybody just walks out of the house and all the responsibility gets thrown to me?

DAMN, it seemed like whatever things I'm associated with, it will ultimately screw up.

Am I a SCREWED up person?

I highly doubt so...

On the contrary, my predicament tells me otherwise....

I've just screwed up the performance yesterday.

I've screwed up my studies last year and I'm betting it will be soon this year.

I've screwed up with pursuing the only one person that I would ever want to do so much for.

I've screwed up as a son to my parent.

I've screwed up as a leader, nothing always goes as planned and thereby failing in the monitoring, ergo causing a surge of failing domino from the top and even myself.

I've screwed up as a friend. All these while, I simply just cant symphathise with others problem. When I looked at mine and compare, and yet I'm still doing fine outwardly, man I always want to tell them "that's life". However, I'm gonna tell myself that's life and it suck big time.

I've screwed up as a 2nd elder brother in my family. I'm really to busy to care for my own lil bro and sis, thats really just excuses. Its when you love, you give. You give your time and your sacrifices, why can't I just love.

I've screwed up as a student. Why can't I just do everything as told and accordingly to all my teachers?

I've screwed up as a Soprano singer. It just takes so much effort for me to sing like a real soprano would sing and I just cant adapt, even so after for nearly a year.

I've screwed up as a member of Church. Really a great place to be but I'm a disappointment to my leaders. Not many of you know it but I've left church already. I have my reasons and I ain't going back.

And Now, I've got a screwed up family...

Tell me, how would you feel if when every night you try to study for your tests and do your work, and your parents never fail to not quarrel every night?
Tell me, how would you respond if your dad told you its finished, once I'm cleared of bankruptcy I will divorce?
Tell me, what will you do if your mum wrote you to take care of the house and stuffs, while she will be away but still providing the funds and that she's gonna fight over for us, the house and then divorce? What happens?
I will be the one going to the market.. I will be the one giving pocket money to lil sibilings.. I will be the one checking their work.

Damn, I really don't know how long more I can take it. Everyday I'm already tired enough and now this...

You ask me how did I managed to get that kinda score last term? Well, one thing I'm uncommon with the rest. I don't sleep so much more than all my friends.

Maximise your time though.