Yeah It's Alright

That's the life right there.

Hugging and kissing your wife and kids goodbye, meeting up with your best friends, partying out to a crowd of forty-thousand, roaring songs you wrote about life and the people you love, and returning back to your beloved family for another bout of civilian life, only to do it all again.

It's so easy for some ain't it :P

Nowhere Seems Like Somewhere To Go

Term 2 draws to a close. I'm not wiser, not not smarter, not at all more accomplished than I was two and a half months ago. I'm a mere 4 months away from A Levels and yet I'm not revving my engines yet. I am not doing anything with my time, yet I say there's no time at all.

Top priority on my mind right now: VJ Choir. Like, forget the fact that we're a mere 17 days away from Vienna, there's still so much boiling over in choir that's enough to keep me agitated and lethargic about it all. Poof. And I'm not even on the frontline of things. Hahas, I doubt I've ever been this passive before. Good thing is I have yet to lash out I guess? Bad thing is I have yet to do anything at all HAHA redundancy.

Dad's drumming now upstairs to music I can't make out. But his beat is always so tight. So controlled and conservative is his Jazz drumming, versus my ever over-zealous, stick-breaking rock beats. I guess it mirrors our personalities too - I should try being more calm and collected like him, yet actually being productive when in that state instead of switching off LOL.

Holidays. I promised myself to study. Okay, admittedly I'm not good at keeping promises too.... :(


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Let's change the subject to someone else
You know lately I've been subject to change
Normally I reel in the strange
Hangover, I'm older

You're one to talk, the heart is a clock
Just like a bomb it keeps on ticking away
Counting down to detonate
You will need an army to summon me

It doesn't matter much to me
If it doesn't matter much to you, ooh, ooh
It doesn't matter much to me
If it doesn't matter much to you

It's just a matter of time before, before
It's just a matter of time before, before
And though I hate to rewind before, before
It's just a matter of time

My past is getting us nowhere fast
I was never one for taking things slow
Nowhere seems like somewhere to go
Come over, and over

Doing my time for line after line
When will I learn to sing these crimes to myself?
Prisoners to share a cell with
I'm holding, still holding
Holding you in

It doesn't matter much to me
If it doesn't matter much to you, ooh, ooh
It doesn't matter much to me
If it doesn't matter much to you

It's just a matter of time before, before
It's just a matter of time before, before
And though I hate to rewind before, before
It's just a matter of time

Where the hell are you? Ooh, ooh
Where the hell are you? Ooh, ooh
Where the hell are you?

It's just a matter of time before, before
It's just a matter of time before, before
And though I hate to rewind before, before
It's just a matter of time

What does it matter now?
What does it matter now?
What does it matter now?
What does it matter now?
It's just a matter of time

Mad At Nothing

When you're feeling petty
And overwrought
I'll be there to be your target
You can throw me what you got
I will take it with a smile
You can dole it without shame
But I will never be your problem
I will never be to blame

Do Whatever You Like

You can be your own spotlight~

I guess I'm just not putting in enough for art. Like I know I'm putting in my all, but I'm only now realising how little I actually am doing heh. 3 sketches on and I've done more than I have over the past 4 months. Shit. Why am I doing this to myself hahas~

And I guess Mr Tang kinda jolted me to the harsh reality of life. Audio Engineering won't get me far in Singapore, or in most parts of the world for that matter. Gosh, it's such a niche field I don't even know if I'll excel in it... Do I still want to pursue that field of interest, or do something else that offers much more realistic prospects?... Alternatively like Mr Tang said I could just live by myself and only have to worry about providing for myself, therefore being able to do anything I want, which used to be ART but now AUDIO, and tomorrow...? x.x

But then again:

They might try to tell you how you can live your life 
But don't, don't forget it's your right 
To do whatever you like, you like, you like
You can be your own spotlight~

Of Stamping And Clapping

YEAAAA!!!~ Gosh, it's been 3 nights since SOV2012 concluded, yet it still feels so surreal that it had simply come and gone just like that, in the blink of an eye. I'm so proud of the choir for putting up a really good show for the audience, and without much incident even though things behind the scenes of even the regular choir member weren't running as smoothly. And as always, I am grateful for having such a strong and devoted team of Exco members who cover my many inadequacies and made sure the admin went well, a bonded Musico that ensured the music was good, the teachers many of us treat like great friends, because they are, that got us through the hectic day and made the admin that much easier for us, and Mr Kwei, unquestionably as the one who tied the entire thing together. And for all the songs that I grew to love singing, for all the hours I toiled away with the rest of the unwavering members, for all the times all of us fell ill, yet pushed on and sang through sore-throats and phlegm, I'm sure we all did ourselves and the brand that is VJC Choir proud.

And I know that for sure from the rave responses I got from all my friends and family who were present for that one beautiful night. Sure, chorally inexperienced as they are, if they are able to even remotely appreciate our efforts to begin with, then thats reason enough to celebrate!

I don't even know why I was so anxious and nervous to begin with, back stage. I somehow forgot in that split moment that I was in the safety of my comrades, dressed to the tee in the suit and tie that's seen me through some of my proudest choir experiences. But it all came back to me once I turned to face the conductor's stand after walking up on stage, and all the worries melted away, and I enjoyed myself in those two hours. Bliss. Sheer bliss :)

I doubt I would have ever gained the same form of satisfaction in anything I ever did if I hadn't joined choir in that fateful sec 1 period. I owe choir a lot for shaping who I am as a person, tolerant of putting in hard effort and concentration time after time, learning to care and cater for the needs of others around me. Woosh~

Hahas and 3 nights on and I'm still caught up in the glitz of the moment and not really paying any attention in school or having a productive time anywhere else, but WHATEVER I shall readjust to post-SOV in due time :)


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And I'd brave it all with you, if you want, and dare to take that journey with me :)


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Sheer Prog genius!~

Really?

Just when I was happy and ready to venture off into the wonderful fluffy world of slumber, work comes in. What the f***ing hell sometimes people really ask too much of designers. Feel like shit asking someone else to stay up and pull off an all-nighter for a job I know I could have easily undertaken myself but am not supposed to, and it's not that persons fault at all for the late hour work. Dafuq. Now I'm staying up to remotely supervise.

The funny thing is I wouldn't have been frustrated if I was the one slogging at it. Heh, call me a control freak or artbitch or whatever, but sometimes demands of last minute major changes really just doesn't add up in my head. If you wanted it changed in the first place why keep your comments 'til the last minute, and yet expect a top notch booklet the next day. Sure it'll be realistic if we had all afternoon to do it, but alas, there's this thing called school. Compromise. Okay, look down on me for ranting. Let's go.

24

Life has been crazy this past few weeks, but there's been one thing keeping me grounded and I'm so thankful every single day. 8 Days away from SOV, yet I have so much unfinished work, am half dead being sick, and needing to settle so much in-house drama. Well, I have to press on; we all have to don't we :P

Thank goodness I pulled through NAPFA today and shocked myself with a relatively easy Gold award for it despite my flu! xD Woosh~ I managed to get a C grade for my sit-ups and 2.4km, B grades for my SBJ and pull-ups, and As for sit-and-reach and shuttle run! :) 2.4 was rather disappointing actually... everyone today clocked in a time slower than a dismal 11.01mins, myself getting 11.18mins, almost a full minute up from last year =.=" I would usually blame it on the blistering heat and the fact that I'm still recovering from a flu, but gosh my stamina has really spiraled down :X Proud of my pull-ups though! Got my all time best of 9 pulls today which was one shy of an A, but that wasn't what I was aiming for anyway when I did some target setting earlier on in the year hehehe :) And considering that at the start of the year I was still stuck at 3 pulls, I'm really content with my improvement :) Awesomepossum ego boost after days of toiling over life HAHAS~

No more NAPFA nonesense anymore!!! Well, okay there's IPPT to worry about, but meh, shall worry about that later on :P

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And then maybe things would be easier.

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New song from LP. Nice I guess, not great, just good. Seems to be lacking something, some spark that was there at the dawn of LP that I think they've lost a wee bit. Still love 'em to bits though (Y)