Thursday, January 26 ♥
well we've been together for almost 3 months now and honestly, i do miss being single. maybe cause ive been single for too long. i mean i do date a lot before i was attached but bleah... im lost. im lying to myself and living in denial everyday just to please others.
and the only way to be me is staying home and wtch dozens of youtube vids n discover new bands. sounds boring?? but ive been living this kinda life for quite sometime.
i miss going out with my girlfriendss. late night rendezous. star gaving. bitching, laughing and just be us not caring abt feelings. sighh. i miss being single.
work is the only way out from problems. thats where i spill out my beans and vent my anger on. honestly sometimes i'd rather be myself and alone n be ignorant for a while.
my dream off day would probably be alone at home, docking my ipod
in my system and blasting the songs in my ipod. adele, michelle branch, dirty heads. chill back. read books and indulge myself with something sinful although i know im still "sick"...
ive been my sucky state for the past 3 weeks almost a month now. its quite tiring controlling myself not to puke and stuff but im loving the fact that im losing weight! haha.. awesome.
dust off, its been months sice i last update my blog. tash and jenna never fail to make me laugh and ponder about things that's been bothering me. jenna is my hero. tash is like my bestfriend. goofing around and crack me up hard. loving them.
i guess ive got to go! toodless..!
Thursday, June 23 ♥
dust off. i dont give a shit when i last update my blog who reads it.
Im having enough shit at work with everyhting. i cant take your attitude anymore.
why dont u just give up one me like i told you before. ure just fucking naive
Thanks a million (:
Wednesday, October 20 ♥
Mom and dad totally make up for yesterday's dissapointment. They did. They fetched me from school. Abang was there too! I thought of going to Sakura but we were late. We went to Manhattan Fish Market instead @ PS. Abang's idea since it was opposite school. Oh, my maid was with us too. Meet up with her at Dhoby Ghaut MRT station. So jyeah, The table was fully spread with! We spent $145.50 for 5. The food was okay. But i looove the Garlic Butter Mussel. Superb i tell you. I love my mocktail. Something like that. Sodaaaaaap u know! Gummi bear flavour only that it was carbonated.
After all that, sent abang to work at Queensway Police. Like wth, my brother is working in the police force. Boring... Hah! Joke. Oh, then we went to Sheng Siong! haha.. Jahanam kan parent's money. Like seriously. Mom spent a lot today. I had fun today. I really do. One of the most kecohrable birthday celebration. With classmates, BBQ pit with classmates and yups, with family.
Mom bought me the necklace at SK jewellery. hah! She asked me along cos she just loves her diamond. So i thought she was buying one for herself (which she actually did. In fact she bought a ring too! Pffft!)Mama random seh.Thanks for the necklace mama! Thanks for the scrumptious meal papa and thanks for the ehem present aunty linda. Hah! im wearing it now since you kept bugging me to wear it and if it fits. Yup! it fits perfectly. and oh yeah, the pics around it are people who made it special and my awesome friends.
PARTTTTEEEEEEYYYYYYY! :D
Saturday, October 16 ♥
Went out yesterday to different parks around Northern part of Singapore. It was fun. Driving around Northern area. Played with water, blasting loud music in the car, winding down windows and screaming at the top of our lungs, sticking our head out of the window. hah! It was girls' night out. Reached home aroun 5.30 am. Thanks for the awesome ride Sasya and thanks Daya for the laughters..
Wen to Seletar reservoir, Woodlands Waterfront, then to idk where cos it's like a bridge that leads you to punggol area from woodlands. Then to Chinese Garden. Sasya almost parked her car at the carpark but we abandoned the idea cause it was freaking ulu. Trust me, i got goosebumps. Then we decided to hang out at the void deck at my place since west side happened to be soo dead at night unlike North and North East. We sat at the bbq pit area. We kinda felt something and Sasya kept staring at the tree right next to us. Got to call her out a couple of times so that she won't get so engrossed staring at the tree. Ouh, saw loads of big bikes!!! I am never into bikes actually, but they are nice to look at sometimes. But yestrday was not cos like everybike that whizzed pass us, are like big bikes. Don't ask me brand, models etc. I can never get it right.
Trust me, if you wanna move anypart of Singapore, do not move to Bukit batok, Jurong, Clementi area. It is so dead! No good food especially Bukit Batok. No night life. The place is so old. Nothing new. West area is so boring! Hahaha! I've been living at the west side since i was born and now i realise how dead these area are! hah! Darn...
Tuesday, October 12 ♥
haven't been giving enough attention to my dear bloggie. Life's been pretty great now. Except for yesterday. kinda flop my paper. Hah! damn it. Anyways, over the weekends, i decided to accmpany siti since she was punk'd by her friend. Accompanied her the whole night at the void deck. Talked the whole night at the playground. We talked just about everything but mostly relationships.
She slept for about an hour. i took ten mins nap cos i had to wake her up at 8am. So jyeah, it was fine. Oh! Oh! i watched soccer match at Mcdonalds. boy, it was fun! but you can't scream obviously. That's the boring part. Hurhurhur. Yelah, bukan kedai kopi per... Anyways, It was pretty tiring for me. I was in the morning shift then i ahd to rush for my tutoring job then i took about 45 mins break at student's place. Then i had to rush to Bukit Gombak, meet up with Masyitah. Then around 10.45 rushed to Boon Lay to meet Siti and Abg Zul. Hectic kan? Oh, the next day. I took like 15 mins of sleep at uncle jamal's place, then had to rush home cos Masyitah came over. My whole point was, i stayed up for like 30 hrs and i only had 30mins of sleep! yeay. And the following monday, i had exam which was yesterday.
I wanna keep myself occupied. I really do.
Exactly a week! yihah!!!! nah, im not lloking forward to it actually since i had earlier celebrations.
Birthday Celebrations!!
Wednesday, October 6 ♥
Had the best birthday celebration yesterday since 2006. Thanks crazy people! I love you guys much-much. I really had fun last night. Thanks for everything. Eventhough its 13 days to my Birthday, but u guys celebrated it like it was yesterday. Thank you very much. And thanks for the class celebration last Friday. To the twins, thanks for the thoughtful adv birthday present! It was cute and you guys stuffed the saving box with my fav chocolates (Kiss, Mars, Picnic, Kit Kat) Thanks a million. I will make full use of the saving box. Sindeh nampak! hehe. And oh, thanks to the 3D birthday card. Cute!
And so, i meet up with Sasya and Daya at Khatib Mrt after work at Khatib Mrt. Cab to ECP. We do what we had to do. And that is: set upp the pit, start the fire. Basically, we set up everything. The Sabo was awesome. Thanks to Abg Hairul for the cake. Oh yeah, he carried me and threw me into the sea and mind you it was 9 plus at night. Daya was smoking and i pulled her to the sea. haha. there goesher ciggies. Kinda sat on Sasya. Oh yeah, it has been a while since i last had my shower under the stars. And i did just that! Fun! Fun! Fun! It was superb. Really.
Will upload the pics on my next post aite? And you will see the ugly side of me. Hehehe.
Next stop will be Sentosa.
Wednesday, September 29 ♥
Maybe it ends at 20. Unless miracle happens or i got away with murder, maybe a lil longer? I don't know. My whole world just stop for a moment this afternoon. It made me stop and ponder for a moment. WHat brought me to the situation im in right now? I'm not gonna sound dead but really, i regret knowing one person. And believe it or not, she used to be my closest friend. Sakinah.
Whenever I tink about it, why am i so stupid to listen to her all the time? Why was I soo stupid? Honestly, i regret knowing her and being close to her for a moment. In fact, why was i even closed to her??? I always bowed to her needs. I know i sound so wrong. but what i meant was, i've never argued back whenever she disagree with me when i knew i was right. It's like as if i've been charmed.
Engkau tipu. Engkau penipu besar! You lied about the Fossil watch you bought for me. Ape kau ckp? kau beli kat KL? Hah! Sial! kau beli kat City Chain Singapore lah, pundek. Guess what, KAWAN, the watch didn't even last a year. Kau beli dgn saper? Akil? akil teman kau ey kat KL? Butoh nyer budak! And why were you in KL? Check up? Fuck! Kau sakit aper? Breast cancer? Critical stage ehk? Asal kau tak mati-mati lagi? Kau tipu aku lah sialen! U lied to me about kau sakit breast cancer. You should be dead by now luh. KAau tinggal kan aku sorang sorang. U made me miss out a lot just because i had to cover up for your work. Aku nak kau bayar balik eevrything.
As musch as i hate my ex besty for leaving me, your case is worst sakinah. Dunie akhirat aku tak maafkan engkau. MARK MY WORDS. You made me end my life.
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