the one about separation i never knew complacency to be a bad thing.complacency provides assurance. and assurance breeds confidence, no?

then i see his still body and think about all the times i could have done much more.

now i see how complacency breeds regrets. and how regrets breed devastation.

separation. between factions. within factions. i have no wish to be embroiled in politics. the simplest of wishes, to respect and honour; is that too much to ask?



i hope you see the luxury, extravagance and vastness of the beach; never the gore and bloodshed on the other shore  ¶ 2:16 AM 0 Comments

  an eulogy almost exactly 10 years later.

he loved reading. his speech was always littered with quotes from shakespeare, austere jokes about winston churchill and most often, from LeE KuaN YeW, the person he looked up to more than anybody else in the world.

he had a zest for knowledge and was always in touch with politics around the world, his favourite channel being CNN, and when that wasnt available, the bbc or cna.

and he loved ballroom dancing. i once peeked in on him waltzing to music by himself, a lonely dance with no partner and none he could think of asking.

his battle was a long drawn out affair. blow after blow, time after time, his body bore the brunt of the damage. his mind was clear, but his body gave up on him sooner than he had hoped. even then the battles continued, more for name than for his wellbeing, more for themselves than for him. he was constantly divided and caught in endless rounds of gunfire and provocation. which might explain why he chose to leave the way he did.

i hope you have finally found your peace ah kong.  ¶ 11:32 PM 0 Comments

  the one about cny... d'oh. im annoyed. again.

because she's so pessimistic it makes me bristle.

hello? i need positive energy!! (and while we're at it some kind soul please gimme more money cos im so broke it hurts.)im deeply in debt.

cant wait for cny and money and food. im supposed to keep a food diary and im anticipating it to be pages long. every day.

and translation's turning out to be a pretty fun and stress-free module. must be the best choice i've made this sem. oh oh i guess i should at least wait until i've taken the quiz before passing judgement. i take it back.

cny. bak kwa. pineapple tarts (homemade ones ooh). mandarin oranges (about the only kind of orange i dont need any probing to eat). kueh belanda. buah keluat (even though i dont really like them but it makes me feel special that we have them). kueh bangkit (and i dont like eating them either but they're so white and pretty).

and family reunions and holidays. love those.  ¶ 12:27 AM 0 Comments