this will definately be the last post in this particular blog.

so i guess i'll end it in a dramatic fashion.

but before i do, i would like to let you guys know that it is currently, 3.42am in the morning, 21st of march 2007. my flight will be at 2.10pm later. in around 10 hours time.

yea. i'm still packing and doing some stuffs
but i absolutely cannot stop thinking about certain stuffs
but i guess, thats what is happening right now.
i must stop.
and i must move on. =D

so i'll leave you with a song, a song that tells you what im feeling. its not the words, rather, not JUST the words. its the meaning of the video itself.

miss me will ya? but i know you wont.




on the mirror:
"il m'aime" — he loves me ...
on her hand:
"un peu" — ... just a little bit?
painted on the wall:
"beaucoup" — ... a lot?
on her arm:
"passionément" — ... passionately?
cut into her leg:
"a la folie" — ... unto madness?
on the mirror, she adds:
"il m'aime ... pas du tout" — he does not love me at all.

*the game of. love me, love me not

And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That I’ve already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

‘Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes ‘round and everyone lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

So who’s gonna watch you die?
So whos gonna watch you die

and you love me not

so i'll move on.

im now residing here : www.urbanlegendmyths.blogspot.com

move on

thats the word on my mind

just move on..

anyway.

i wont have time

or energy for a relationship

and i shouldn't plan to be in one

not yet.

not just yet.

so. to show that i've moved on.

i'm also changing my blog

i think i should

this blog has been with me for quite sometime.

its passed its prime

say goodbye to the me you once knew.

and say hello to the new me.

oxymorons to live by. =D

Act naturally
Happily married
Microsoft Works
Holy war
Found missing
Resident alien
Minor Catastrophe
Affordable housing
Near miss
Great depression
Canadian army
Phone sex
United nations
Advanced BASIC
Genuine imitation
Death benefits
Airline Food
Women's rights
Good grief
Same difference
Almost exactly
Sensitive man
Government organization
Everything except
Civil War
Good kid
Sanitary landfill
Alone together
Legally drunk
Silent scream
British fashion
Living dead
Small crowd
Business ethics
Soft rock
Butt Head
Military Intelligence
Software documentation
New York culture
New classic
Sweet sorrow
Childproof
"Now, then"
Synthetic natural gas
Christian Scientists
Passive aggressive
Taped live
Clearly misunderstood
Peace force
Extinct Life
Temporary tax increase
New and improved
Computer jock
Plastic glasses
Terribly pleased
Computer security
Political science
Tight slacks
Definite maybe
Pretty ugly
Twelve-ounce pound cake
Diet ice cream
Rap music
Working vacation
Exact estimate
Religious tolerance
Freezer Burn
Honest Politician
Jumbo Shrimp
Loners Club
Postal Service

Synopsis

Don't miss what promises to be a landmark production in Singapore's theatre history!

Ten years after SRT brought you a gripping adaptation of Hamlet at Fort Canning, 'Shakespeare in the Park' returns this summer with a sumptuous, contemporary take on the bard's comic masterpiece. You are invited to come picnic with this comedic cast of characters in a unique night out under the stars.


DURATION

Approx 3 hrs

Interval
Approx 20 mins

Date
04 May - 13 May 2007
7.30pm

Venue

Fort Canning Park

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)

Standard - S$43
Advance Ticket - S$33 (available until 10pm the day before performance)
VIP Package - S$78
(Includes seats under marquee and free glass of wine.)

ripped this from kenneth. damn fucking shit! im only back on the 16th may, and im gonna miss this.! oh wells. i guess the only console i'll get is that, i dont have anyone to go with? not that it matters, been to some shows purely cos i wanted too. but. yea. i only watch shows when i need some kinda alone-ness thingy. =x

fucking crap. haha.

im gonna miss a good production. man..

anyway. for the unupdated. im leaving soon. but i dont know to be happy or sad. nervous or excited. like i've said. im leaving so much behind. oh wells.

so here goes nothing.

leaving everything into God's hands.

and letting Him take charge. i guess thats the only thing i can do. esp since i have some. well, stuffs that im fretting over. okay. thats it.

cs time. im gone.

The ballet people are champagne drinkers; a younger, more exciting crowd than the opera people. - Walter Nurena

its ends tonight
just a little insight

i can't say that i've been the best of late.
okay.
i havent been in the best of moods of late

been being short fused lately

and reacting quite,

inappropriately.

nono. not flirtatious or wadeva, but rather. emotionally wrecked. tired.

physically strained. pushed to the limit.

mentally overloaded.

dont ask why.

i need alone time.

but im not getting much actually. not sure if its a good thing or bad, but so far, been okay.

anyway. shall post pictures on the zoo trip, and erm. yar. thats about it. =x
















i was damn bored. haha. but zoo was fun. i dont mind going again. this time, i'll make sure i'll go with a dslr. =) nature shots are what im best at. nature and scenic. period.


anyway.

here's the songlist. confirm songlist for sunday's.

(song title - composer/group/rippedoff-from)
1) the song that went hello you - josh
2) love at first sight - josh
3) forever - damage
3) i will follow you into the dark - death cab for cutie
4) (some chinese song by jay chou)
5) how could you - harim/josh
6) im missing you - dominic
7) gone - ah xiang
8) what can i do since you're alr gone - dom/mel/josh
9) what sarah said - DCFC
10) the acoustic song - RJA
11) it ends tonight - all american rejects
12) straightjacket feeling - all american rejects
14) let you go - hok tiang
15) if only - josh/mel
16) walking away - craig david

okay guys, here's the songs. please drink enough water mel and harim. haha. i dont want you guys to croak our songs up. =D 8 songs own composition. coolness. =D

feeling shitty suddenly. oh wells.

go slp. thats the best. cos.i need some kinda help.DUH! =D

yes. new template. but it was a ripoff. i admit, i didn't do this.

okay. im here to rave about the movie, 300

so please, shut the fuck up and open your ears.



A movie adaption of Frank Miller’s graphic novel, 300 tells the story of King Leonidas who took a “walk” with 300 of his strongest men as “bodyguards” to stop the Persians from invading his land.

If you are a fan of SinCity, Gladiator and Braveheart, you will, beyond any reasonable doubt, fall head over heels over 300 with a tinge of bloodlust.

It is the best damn shit you’ll feast your eyes upon ever!

The dark, solid red from their capes and blood (OH GOD SO MUCH BLOOD) stood out EVER SO BEAUTIFULLY against the washed out yellow-hued background. For an almost monocolour movie the colours were so rich you could almost EAT RIGHT OUT OF them. It wasn’t just a COMIC. It was pure art. It was art COMING TO LIFE. (think about jumbo coming to life. This is absolutely FANTASTIC!)

Highlight of the movie were the bloody battle scenes, which basically, IS the ENTIRE MOVIE. Like a perfectly choreographed ballet/acrobatic routine (less the tutus and the pointe shoes; add gallons of blood and violence), it was nothing short of BREATHTAKING. From the first moment you see the Spartans’ raising their shield in their first battle, you’ll realise that it’s gonna be a ride of fucking PURE PERPECTUAL PERFECTION. To see the men suspended in mid-air for one tenth of a second in slow-mo right before he pierces his spear into his enemy in real-time, splattering his blARdy remains everywhere - Pure Unadulterated Magic. Bloody. Brutal. Graceful. Priceless.

Mind-Fuckingly Beautifully done.

The soundtrack which accompanied these fight scenes were so powerful it makes you want to JUMP UP, grab the nearest OBJECT, TEAR your cothes off, RUN into the screen, YELL a war cry and join the Spartan army to kick some Persian ASS. It MAKES you thirsty, lusting for BLOOD, to taste it on your LIPS.

The exaggerated, perfectly sculpted bodies of the men akin to greek gods. The mutant beasts of your nightmares. The god-king which reminds you of the Unraveler from the second act of Diablo 2. All these fantasy characters were you can actually believe that THEY COULD BE REAL. That a man could be 4 heads taller than you and still look normal. That a man could endure the piercing of 3 spears move around as though it were a scratch. That elephants the height of a 10 storey building walk among us. That men of such valour, such passion, such fierce strength, such insane loyalty; could ever exist in this world.

SHure, the lines were pretty damn cheesy and predictable. Sure all the steamy sex scenes were cut off.(Not that I really BOTHER about that.) Sure, the blood looks exaggeratted somewhat. Sure, the ending was too sudden. But you won’t CARE. All these tiny shortcomings are all negligible to how beautifuckinglyful this movie is, if ever a violent blood-thirsty war movie can ever be described as beautiful. This movie should be GORE-TIFUL! Your only real regret would be that it ran for too short.

I absoFUCKINGlutly do not know how to describe this show. My poor command of the English language just isn't enough. Please, stop reading and START booking the FUCKING tickets! It is well worth the buy.

Can't wait for the original director's cut and DVD to be released in Singapore. It will definately BLOW YOUR MIND! MIND BOGGLING!

SHOO! go WATCH it NOW!

You will definately not regret it.

how do you do the right thing, even when circumstances dictate that it shouldn't be done? or if it will hurt?

how?

by just doing it.
no one has to know that im/your doing it at all. just do it, cos you know, someone/something will benefit from it. and you'll feel better cos you did the best you could. =)

so here i am..

and im gonna make things right. rather. im gonna do the right thing. =)




damn, my knee hurts kinda. think i twisted it slightly. damn. oh wells, no tennis/badminton for me. soccer is YES. =D

enough of the temporal depression syndrome im having of late.

british humour is good. watch and UNDERSTAND. its quite simple actually. at least, wait till i give you the real wicked ones. =D

soccer in a different light =)



well, and the media says that soccer players are DUMB!. watch and WEEP! =D


also, lets see what a dirty fork can do to the people in a french resturant =D




anyway. had tennis at fort canning. legands country club. haha. quite a cool place. had lunch there w wh too. we literally pigged out, like, poach salmon fillet on spinach for me, and some kinda beef thgy for him. his looks damn good. haha. had a cuppa cuppocino. yea. thats what im missing, and needing badly. i need GOOD coffee. the only place where there is good coffee is not coffee bean or tcc or any. its actually in ulu place near commonwealth where the coffee is absolutely FANTASITC! what's lacking is the atmostphere there. so tcc,coffeebean will have to do.

lunched, church, and movie. watched 300, the ending was kinda gay, the first 30 mins of the movie were kinda, porn-like. the movie, on the whole, was a stormer., CG was excellent, though some were kinda overkill, the plot was good. and the best quotes are :
- i've killed too many of your soldiers, and my leg's getting a cramp. i can't kneel
- Spartans! Enjoy your breakfast, for tonight we dine in Hell!
if i rmb more, i'll let you know =D

okay. zoo-ing tml. better slp. nights.


the billion and one ways of saying. dead

omfg. did something really stupid.

stupid thing was : waking up at 5.30 in the freaking cold morning to jog all the way to tenah merah mrt, onwards to uppr changi south lane, back to tampines and home. RAH!

that meant, close to 12 click worth. this is getting terrible.

just got home, had a 45 min nap

im freaking tired.

and im meeting wh for tennis in say.. 1 hours time!

and i have a soccer match in the evening.

and i have a running scehdule later

and i think im gonna die of exhaustion

oh wells. it can't be all that bad right?

like i've said. i should do some catchup with people.

man. i really should send out an sms really soon, so people can pray for me, and cos, treat me lunch/dinner/breakfast/supper/wadeva.

okay. tennis is calling me.

rather. wh is. =D


anyway. supp with the fuglies hanging around man..??!?? im damn lost! haha.

been a typical week so far.

you try to make life interesting, yet sometimes, it just falls short of what you expect the week to be

of cos, there's times where life does get interesting, and you really enjoy yourself. like just hanging out with friends, walking around simlim after you got your pay. (my fav! and most hated thing to do, part with your hardearned money)

or just meeting friends to apply for the stupid visa, dan running all over the place to get a passport photo cos you kinda clean forgot that you do need a passport photo for a business visa(and yes, my occupation is - IT consulatant) and following that, going to vivo for coffee at pacific coffee, just slacking there talking about what to bring to the trip, and taking pictures of the scenery. which kinda sucked cos i dont usually bring a camera out, so all pictures were phone cameras. but still. it was pleasantly relaxing, and thats something i need to do. hazelnut latte (my absolute favourite, cos, i dont mind a hint of baileys in it) i shd learn how to make a hazelnut latte, instd of having coco drinks with boiled milk when i need a relaxing break. its something i should do more often in life. just stop all craziness, and smell the roses. bring a book, get a grande hazelnut latte, and just, read and take forever to finsih the coffee. and waste half my day there. yes. thats what i can do, but i dont do it so very often. haha. =x i think i'll hangout at pac coffee more. =x the other place is at the tcc at clark quay, it kinda has relaxing atmostphere there. thats life man. just get some friends, go and have a coffee. spend hours there. chatting. catching up. thats something i need to do. i have a billion and one friends to catch up with. but no time. rather, i do not prioritize my time properly.

so i guess, i should do it. i shd meet my cousins, my close friends, secondary school mates. just for a cup of coffee, and yea. mel. read this! haha. buy me coffee before i GO! =D

oh wells, its now seven more days before i leave singapore, for 2 months. the flights kinda confirm, leaving on the 21st march, and back on the 16th may. i'll leave more details the day before i leave..

just wake up and smell the roses
time will just stop for you
and you'll realised what you've missed
and the time you've lost
the memories you cherished
will all come flooding back to you
and you know
you wanna make it right again
for you.

well, this is why terrorist hates america. haha.



and this is not meant to diss the terrorist, just that all of us makes mistakes.



well, we know what the americans do everyday. oh wells.

anyway.its like, close to 10 more days be im gone. for close to 60 days. oh wells..

An army of skeletons
A desert full of people
No heart to feel
No voice to sing
Wake me up before I crash and burn
An army of skeletons
A desert full of people
Dying to know the breath of life again
Reaching for the end
Please
Wake me up before I crash and burn....

rah! im BROKE! just came back from clinic. all the little kids. haha. no fun sia. oh wells.. drank a lil, dan zhaoed. cos i was too sick. =(

anyway. yea, the show finished today. =)messy and all, had some pictures taken. well, not just me and my mates, but cos, with every show, must take picture with the people there right? like pictures with the sony girls. and all, damned, didn't take with the sony alpha ones, cos there were well, better looking than the ones in white, but oh wells. you can't win them all can you?

anyway. the place was damn messy, stupid singaporeans. can't you just throw it into the bin instd of throw it all around the floor? tsk.


problem with me is that i know i can, yet i dont. why? asking myself why im doing this.

nvm, gotta start recording songs for sunday's livegig liao. shall do something that will keep my mind's attention for more than an hour. =)

suddenly i ask myself. why is my life so boring?

what do you do when you're done or bored with a particular game?

you kinda move on to the next game right?

so its the same with other stuffs. you're bored/done with a thing/person/animal/object?

move on, get a new thing/person/animal/object to play or use. no?

logical isn't it?


so that's what people are doing now huh.?

i may not know why. but its logical. =)

so. everything is logical. and therefore, it works! =D

blardy tired. will be working till sunday. rah! major tired. =(

anyway. heard the best joke of the millenia! ahah. me and my friends, we were talking about well, ice-jelly, a dessert for those who just came outta mountain caves, yea, so we were talking about, just that, eating ice-jelly cocktail.

so this was how the conversation went. (names withheld to prevent pai-seh-ness of the party, and partly cos he's not a minor anymore.)

person L : so here's your ice-jelly
person S : *picks at it with spoon, and takes a bite "Hey, this isn't as good as the one at changi V!"
me : DUH! Changi V go bahpos wad!
person L : *grins
person S : "No lorh, somemore we call and they deliver all the way to our camp leh!"
person L : "the Bahpos??!??!?!??!?!"
me : nearly died laughing!


like. WTH!? i swear, this is the first time this month i actually laughed so badly. haha. i badly need to laugh more. its good for the body. it releases some kinda hormones that will, well. make you age slower, and make your body healthier and buildup your immune system.

but seriously. what the fuck was that? haha. i still can't stop grinning at that! poor him. haha. i bet he's gotta be sooo embaressed by it.

okay. i have to slp. im blardy tired. need to slp so i can well, sell more tml, cos i've been talking for a fricking day, but i guesss, my powers of persuasion just isn't what it used to be. =( oh wells.



Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

Chorus:
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes
to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone

Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

Chorus:
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
On top of them lookin' down
I soar with the wings of EAGLES
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

Chorus:
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe-

I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
Cause Jesus you are the voice of truth
And I will listen to you, you are

lets see, next week, i have a gig next sunday if im not wrong. yea. it at those pubs that hosts people like busniessmen n all. yupps. also. it'll be the last time we'll play tgt as a band, cos we're all going to different areas of our lives. one's pursuing his career, one's gonna do his masters, im gonna go myanmar and dan army, same as one mroe, the other is gonna do her degree somewhere. haha. so yea. its like. its the last gig we're gonna have.

yea, had fun. =) you learn alot from being in a band man. =D

its been close to 2 years, and i think close to 4 5 gigs alr? i know, its kinda crappy, but, well, we've been to and played at the esplande there. that was probably the coolest thing ever. i wouldn't mind forming a band man. haha. applications please! =D

anyway. yea. fin work. tired like hell, phone wouldn't fucking charge, think its spoilt, like my brain. haha. yea. got a phone though. hmm..

anyway. i gotta start practising my songs and all man. haha. and better yet, my VOICE! im fucking gonna sing solo! haha cos i wrote a song! and im NOT DONE YET! haha. it sounds weird.! hmm. yea, this time we aint doing covers. we're writing our own songs. haha. oh wells. im gonna get screwed badly. i kinda hate my voice. its terrible. totally. fuck man. haha. the people are gonna curse and swear on both sundays. rah! =D

okay. i wanna go wow a lil and slp. =)

myanmar prayerlist will be up soon. =) hopefully, i'll get people to pray for me, and fund my trip there, im lacknig about, 1k more, and its like.RAH! only 12 more days! haha. oh wells.

12 more days, i got a few stuffs i gotta clear and do b4 i leave. putting it in God's hands. =D

omg! haha this video is damn funny. better watch it.


Smart Ass Kids - The funniest home videos are here

anyway. yea, i kinda aced my exams, well, all expt for one sub, i just passed it.okay la. i kinda expected that kinda result for my embedded. but, oh wells. i can go WHEW! =D


Emad Give U - Watch the best video clips here

this is a really stupid advert. really. dont ask why. i was SOO bored. haha.

and finally, a story from a friend. haha

im quoting a friend of mine..


Our squad was maneuvering on foot near LCK cemetery at night during an exercise. We were all nicely camo and face painted, making our way to our objective and came upon a parked car in a distance away. We immediately heard the unmistaken sound of love making. (The couple must have thought that this is really an isolated place and winded down the window and the guy was making all kinds of moans that were loud and wild.)
One, of my men, Mark, determined not to waste the opportunity asked me for permission to recce the car. I agreed and we all leopard-crawl towards the car silently. Mark was gungho (no doubt he wanted the best seat in the house) took lead and was next to the car and rose slowly up to peek at the fervent couple and give us the thumbs up signal. We followed closely behind.

The couple was at it in a doggie position. We couldn't see the girl clearly as the guy's back was facing us. But we waited patiently, all arosed & proud of our ability to sneak in silently and peak. About a full minute later, we heard the girl's voice and saw the girl when they changed position slightly. But she turns out to be a he! It was a gay couple at it. Mark was shocked and digusted & instinctively shouted KNN, which alerted the couple of our presence. Both parties were now shouting!
In the midst of disgust, disappointment, shock, confusion. I shouted "fall back fall back". We all backtrack like crazy & disappear into the jungle half cursing, half laughing at ourselves.

From that day whenever Mark asked us for a show, we wld reply, what kind? and have a good laugh.
Till this day, we still laugh at the incident when we were back in reservist.


yes, totally OMFG! haha. poor idiot. haha. omg! i hope when i have field training i dont get to see. indecent acts! haha. major crappfied man. oh wells.

anyway. yea. i think i shd try to cheer up and well, yea. i think i try to smile more. instd of being the emo person that everyone tells me that i am, emoboy! emoboy! like. diao. haha. but yea. i shd smile more. and not be over-emo also. =)

but. im still gonna try to win you. i hope i can. if i dont, im wishing you all the best. =)


Kids Are All Joy? Or Not... - Funny video clips are a click away


i bet many people dont watch the videos. oh wells. haha. i shall post them still. =) act of defience.


DHL Deliver Everything - Funny home videos are a click away

this is a MUST WATCH!

i wanna go clinic! haha. though its underage party, i wanna go cos, its like. probably the the one and only chance i have? cos after that, myanmar, army dan ord, i think The Clinic close down liao. haha. oh wells. see how la. am working on that day, hmm..


i think i'll go to the clinic, and tell the bartender, BRO! one HL milk on the rocks with cornflakes! yes. with salt. thank you!


damnit, my hamstring is really not feeling good. its pain, yes, PAIN, not aching. i can barely walk properly after todays game. oh wells. at least we won. =D closer to be CHAMPIONS! haha. okay. maybe not. lol


but seriously. im totally addicted to these songs
death cab for cutie - i will follow you into the dark
death cab for cutie - what sarah says
nickelback - photograph
nickelback - follow me home
nickelback - if everyone cared
nickelback - far away
the postal service - (dont rmb the song title. haha).



i think im crapping. but seriously. i think i'll just post one song and lyrics again b4 i leave, something to remember me by. in case i die.


And when i see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around

If you feel discouraged
That there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seems
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's a to z

This fact not fiction
For the first time in years
And all the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone

To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home
But i know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay [x3]

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years





damnit. the feeling's killing me. sometimes, i wish i can control myself better. oh wells. its done, i dont regret, but i've made that mistake. and i might have to pay for it. hopefully, i dont, but honestly, i think i went overboard. there's a fine line in most scenerios, and i think i crossed the fine line cos i wasn't in control of myself. that is something i have to learn to do better.

i dont know man, im like, rebuking myself every single day since the incident, i tell myself to take things slowly. but NOOOO. i didn't listen to myself. i got my hopes up high. so high, based on few clues, but not definate ones. i guess i let my emotions carry me away instd of sound logic and mind which i kinda pride myself at, well, doing things logically and practically. but its always these kinda thgs, at relationships, inter-personal relationships, i kinda screw things up. yes, i concur that i can be a very... sensitive? dont ask why. this sucks. i was a real cold and dead person, one who never shed a tear, at least, until like. sec4. damn. im like. telling the whole world my life. haha. sucky. ohwells. this is damn fucked up. my life is screwed, yet i believe God has His way in me. so i guess i'll let Him decide. *fingers crossed, but i know that God has a plan. though i hope the plan is what im hoping now, its His plan. =D


anyway. results out tml. and yea, hoping to ACE them man. =) just worried about one module only, the rest is think is fairly fine. =) okay. i shall stop, i need to occupy my mind. WoWing time. =)

i only have time for one last dance with you..

im at a mental loss of wad to blog. i think i'll do something about my layout later after the game.


i know people dont usually read lyrics, okay. i do, but usually, people dont. so. please, just read this. it will definately tug your heart.



And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That I’ve already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

‘Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes ‘round and everyone lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

So who’s gonna watch you die?
So whos gonna watch you die

i was totally BORED! haha. so i decided to take pictures of my wonderful sexy guitar. dont ask why. i was bored, plus, i was practising la. haha.


















yupps, all unedited. all not post-processed. yea. my pad is damn dusty. haha. its been like, close to a week sinced i last used it? haha. but i think the pictuers are okay la. (though its a crappy cam i used. haha) ohwells.


okay. back to WoWing liao. =D

just had a long talk with mel, haha. really enjoyed it bitch. haha. dont ask me why i call her bitch. maybe cos when i first knew her i think she was a bitch. haha. and she still IS! haha

but yea, our topics revolved around well, relationships and death and life. haha. i know. this is really crazy. actually, we talked about everything under the sun. haha. thats kinda usual actually.

i kinda miss that time where we'd just hang out and chat for like. damn long. but i guess we have our own lives, and all, and yet,yea, we still kept in touch.

yae, one of our main topics was relationships. she and her ex, and me and my.. well. me. im still single. =x enjoy singlehood while you can. it wont last for long for many. so yea. please enjoy singlehood... =)

was talking about death. partly cos, ytd attended a funeral. its not some person i really know or anything. i probably i havent even met him. (the dead guy) but yea, its somethign that thugs your heart and mind. you will just think about it. death.
who will cry for you when you're gone? who will be at your funeral? will the people be there because, they love you? or just because, they're nice.?
will they be there to cry along with those who love you?
or will they just sit, and appear sad and broken.?

how will they take your death?
who will cry for you?
will the one you love cry for you?
because you are gone? and that they can nv enjoy themselves in your company ever again? and be left with a void in their lives you've left them?
or will they cry only for taht day because they know you.
and shrugg it off the next day.

you will never know
until you are gone.

will you, cry because you love the one who died?
so truely? so madly? so deeply?
or will you not even cry?

you'll never know how much that person means to you till he/she is gone.





Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark






watch this video, serious

on the mirror:
"il m'aime" — he loves me ...
on her hand:
"un peu" — ... just a little bit?
painted on the wall:
"beaucoup" — ... a lot?
on her arm:
"passionément" — ... passionately?
cut into her leg:
"a la folie" — ... unto madness?
on the mirror, she adds:
"il m'aime ... pas du tout" — he does not love me at all.


who's gonna watch you die?
who's gonna watch me die?

will you watch me as i die?

i feel like i've did badly.
like, i kinda sucked?

doing things without thinknig.
how many times have we done that?

doing the things we do without properly thinking about it..
usually, we get away with it.

not for me though. i probably wont.

its a choice i made.
rather, a decision i made at that point of time

and since i alr done it,
i shd go ahead with trying to correct it.

and not whine.
or rant about it.

whats the point?

i guess i just need to get it off my chest.
but its always there..

doesn't help that i still see you in my dreams

doesn't help that my memory is working fine

doesn't help that im the one who's so sensitive.

i guess i shd take the blow

and the fall


ever had high hopes? only to be dashed by reality? i think thats me.


you - wishing you all the best in life..

yea. my exams results will be out on the 7th, hope i'll. well. as she used to say it. ace my exams. haha. i think its an obvious clue to you. yupps. you. i like ya. =)
but yea. hope i'll ace them. im just worried about my embedded. but im quite confidant about everything else. oh wells.







woots! the clinic is opening it's doors to UNDERAGE GROUPS! (but still, 16 and above!)

haha. i really wanna go? cos i've heard about it, but i can't go cos its well, 23 for guys, which is kinda sucky. but this time round, its like. 16. wahhaha!

now must find kaki to go. =x


anyway. im planning to go la. intending too. so. lemme knwo if your interested. msg me or smthg. =)


i might be able to get free tickets in. =D


also. there's a uniform party in butter factory on the 14 of mar. cool. haha. i might wanna go too. but i guess my financial status right now allows me to only go for one. =( so we'll see how. haha

You can slash me in the face
You can scream profanity
You can shoot me in the leg
and leave me for dead.
but i still will......





its sunday.

im not sure if i would call it a great day,

or a sucky day.



i still dont know.

but its alright. i guess.

myanmar soon.

2 months, and after that, army.

i might even just die in myanmar. (how i wish)

but its not helping that you'll be in my dreams.

you'll always be.




doubt if you'll read this. if you do.. please know that you're on my mind.

and i hope that im on yours too...




well.. hopes and dreams, crushes and promises.

they're meant to be broken.




Well you can dig me up a grave
And try and stick me in the ground
Well you can tie me to the bed
And try and beat me half to death
But you can never keep me down
Well you can stick me in a hole
And you can pray all day for rain
You can shoot me in the leg
Just to try to make me beg
And you can leave me there for days

[CHORUS]
And I'll stay alive
Just to follow you home
And I will survive
'Cause you're my Mississippi Princess
You're my California Queen
Like the Duchess of Detroit
And every city in between
You can slap me in the face
You can scream profanity
Leave me here to die alone but
I'll still follow you home
I'll still follow you home

You can make a couple calls
And tell your brothers I'm in town
Put a bounty on my head
And tell my parents that I'm dead
And hope to hell I'm never found
You can steal me the keys
To your daddy's Cadillac
You can tamper with the brakes
Call it a mistake
And pray I'm never coming back

[CHORUS]

You can dig me up a grave
And try and stick me in the ground
You can tie me to the bed
And try and beat me half to death
But you can never keep me down

And I will survive
'Cause you're my Mississippi Princess
You're my California Queen
Like the Duchess of Detroit
And every city in between
You can slap me in the face
You can scream profanity
Leave me here to die alone but
I'll still follow you home
I'll still follow you home



haha. i know. i sound so emo man. this is getting funny. yea. guys.im okay.

im really okay.

i hope. =)

think about this scenerio.

you are the head of a IT department. and you realise that your company's network is sluggish, and slow. so you decide to conduct and investigation. you find out that the reason for the sluggish network is due to the employees watching youtube, chatting on msn, and viewing friendster and hi5 profiles. not that they are not doing work, but by streaming videos and music, the employees are eating up the company's bandwidth, forcing the people who really needs the bandwidth to be less productive.

so you've decided to be the well, bad guy, and start blocking connection to youtube (208.65.152.0/22) and hi5 (204.13.51.241, 66.28.245.26) sites.

so now, even though the bandwidth is better, the people there hates you. they find you a bad guy. its alright. you'll point to the company's policy and ta-da, you go scot free.

but think about it. you have the right and power to do that, but however, when you get into your office, you switch to youtube and start streaming videos. yes, 1 person streaming isn't going to affect the bandwidth much, but. think about it.




you are the only one who blocked the HTTP site connection, however, you are the only one who KNOWS how to GET AROUND the site connection also. right? ironic right?

think about it.


i guess its kinda. hypocritical..

seriously. i can't exactly rmb what the word was, but yea. i think its like, you as the leader, have to lead with responsibility, and you have to do exactly what you said everyone shd do. you shouldn't by-pass that cos only you know how too, but rather. you shd "suffer" with your fellow friends and colleagues.

i guess you shd, lead with example. i mean, the people around you will take notice and see that you've humbled yourself to do it.

yea.



anyway.

was supposed to go mos today.

but i didn't really wanted to go.

i just didn't have the mood,
nor financially strong today.. =x

but seriously.

i'm kinda like..

tired of the way im living my life.

tired of making the things i want work

tired of just wandering around aimlessly.

tired of the everything.

tired.

really really..

tired.

mentally physically emotionally and spiritually


total burnt out.

and freaking i didn't even do much.


dont know why.

i kinda agree with what sam says?

repulsivity = stupidity. haah. kinda sucky. but. isn't it true?






i guess. the higher your hopes are.



the harder they fall.



goodnight











i wish the truth will be out. for me, for you to know.

but.

in the words of homer simpson,

you want the truth? you want the truth? you CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH.


can i?

can you?

i really dont get it

but when have i ever really gotten anything?

nvm its alright.


drinkingmysorrowsaway. =D




MOSing tml. who wanna go?










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I'm going. are you?

its currently 6.23am, and im up, and im off to work. rah! reason why i can blog is that, GIGI is still NOT ready! rah! she's damn slow. rah! ltr!!

im having a terrible headache. stressed and very very tensed..

why?

cos i still cannot make up my mind.

and that sucks.

what to do?



alcohol is good. =)

its a muscle relaxent. =D


cool right?? =D