lets see...

im tired.

and horrors of horrors. i sang in church during rehersal today. lol.!

really. the horrors. hahas.

im just sooo tired.
got sch at 8 tml.

hahas. im kinda proud of maself. =)

hahas.

kk la. just a short one.

nghts peeps.

wth.

im pissed.
why the heck is this happening?

can't u guys just..

do somethg sane?
somethg logical.
somethg tt not supid?

fuck

wadeva.

its me tts gonna suffer, im gonna be stresed

not u.
u and ur stupid thinking, stupid way of doing stuffs

childish

fuck..

just .. act like normal can?

cos. im suffering alr.

must u cont to do tt?

im stresesed enough alr.



u noe wad.?

wadeva..

go screw up..

i dont care.

cos ur just too FUCKED up alr.

i dont care.

why must i?

just do ur childish thgs.

good riddence.

OMG!

i've got a love letter.
can't believe it.
i mean.
since young, i have know that i would one day recieve this love letter.
i mean
our relationship with each other is very relax
it was a great relationship.
i would do give in and the other party would also give in at times
it was a relationship that would please most parents.
when it was time.
the relationship would please the fathers the most
they would be happy that the time has come for me the boy
to step forward
and take control of my life.
and the other parties'
but it was a relationship that would make mothers cry.
they hate this particular time.
but
its a relationship tt has to be fufilled
i had to accept
even though i actually dont.
even though i hated it.
but.
its a relationship that HAVE to be fufilled.
a dream for the other party.
but a nightmare for me.
for a lot of others.
but.
it has to be done
so i write to you with a broken heart
with a heavy heart.
yes.
i'll be there.
i'll be waiting.
for you
not becasuse i want to.
but because i have to
i want to make my parents proud.
i'm gonna see you.
and be together with you.
even though im not in love with you

i'll see you soon..........



CMPB

hai. why?

the qn. why?

i mean... at least. just. u know?

but..

haiz...


nvm.

guess im used to it alr le la..

haiz..

yea

im just..

dunno wad to say.

nvm.

peeps

lets see. i just tricked shan into thinking tt she gotta enlist for NS lol.! i feel good!!!



really? do i?

u know. its like.

i feel tt i shd really just..

honestly

be a dog?

cos.

i mean.

how'd u treat a dog?

right?

guess u know how i feel like right now. =)



And i'd give up forever to touch you
Cause i know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
And i don't want to go home right now

And all i can taste is this moment
And all i can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And i don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And i don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am

And i don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am

And i don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am
I just want you to know who i am
I just want you to know who i am
I just want you to know who i am

lets see. i just tricked shan into thinking tt she gotta enlist for NS lol.! i feel good!!!



really? do i?

u know. its like.

i feel tt i shd really just..

honestly

be a dog?

cos.

i mean.

how'd u treat a dog?

right?

guess u know how i feel like right now. =)



And i'd give up forever to touch you
Cause i know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
And i don't want to go home right now

And all i can taste is this moment
And all i can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And i don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And i don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am

And i don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am

And i don't want the world to see me
Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am
I just want you to know who i am
I just want you to know who i am
I just want you to know who i am

i really hope everyone's fine.

i mean, all my friends, my poly mates, sec sch mates, pri sch mates, my other mates fm here and there, church peeps. all

cos.

i aint.?

im in like.

church now, helping j.yang do some recording.

hahas. fun la.

he's with his friend. and yea. abt tt. i shall stop, cos i dont wanna leak out any juciy gossips

=)

lets see.

im currently addicted to..

this cheena song called, qian li zhi wai, and iris and. this PS song tt i can't rmb how to spell. lol

hmmm

i dunno man..

i wanna like. just go out every day with friends, have some fun. and not think. right? great wad. no?

lol. just came back, learnt to play iris. lol. =) its like. quite fun to play. wakaka.

anyway. back to topic, i guess, im just trying to keep myself occupied? hahas. i guess i think im okay with it? i dunno. its just. different? like..

lonely?

hhaahas. =)

i need friends. i mean. no one gives me testis le. =(

so sad. guess, u see this. gimme testi leh! rahh

hahas. i wanna stop le. go play a lil bit of googoodolls and goodnight! =)

its disappointing. hurr. cos. manutd lost.

why??

cos..

they dint play well.

no killer attack. and they lost concentration.

everytime.

stupid passes,

poor everything.

attack, tho nice, didn't attack well

haiz..

i dunno wad to say..

stupid crap.

sucks man..
suxor!

manutd

they deserve to lose

haiz...
so sad..

meng yao gonna make loads of noise. LOL..

but. nvm..

sad..

rah!!!

its like. 1.30 in the morning, and im listening to jie kou by jay zhou. hmm. im listening to china song! hahas. and im like. watching ppg? lol. power puff girls. lol.


thgs just havent been exactly going very well for me. at least, loads. cos, thgs are diff for me? hmm. lets see, i dunno what i've been doing. hahas. im like. watching ppg, bubbles so cute. hahsas. =x but. wadeva it is,back to topic...

lets see, monday was tw bdae, went to celebrate with him and the guys, zhu and ken, cooked steak for us and his family, like, 8 of them, lol. ribeyes, wonderful delicious steak. hahas, and played risk. stupid, lost cos stupid zhu and ken fighting each other, nv think. hahas, just whack whack non-stop. hmm.

tues went to tw hse again to watch soccer. lol. watch liverpool draw with sm club, psv. oh. played tennis with jon also. hahas.

wed. went shopping with jon again, ate like, family feast, took 3 chickens and he ate like, 5 crispy. lOl. idiot.

hmm...

lets see. today went to church, for wedding rehersal and all.

ok la.


for those who know, dont u think tt im like. trying to distract myself fm somestuffs? cos i feel tt i am? but of cos, i might no be.? lol

hmm. lets see, once again.

i guess there's a billion and one thgs in my mind, cos. i really am. but. i guess.....

its just stuffs on my mind? hahas.

hmm. sch is stupid/? i gotta go like. find thgs like. using active RFID implementations using current cisco wireless APs? lol. this is stupid, but its damn hard actually. cos. i dunno? individual stuffs are damn easy to find, APs, RFID tags, and all. but, the stupid programming and all sucks. i think i'm gonna like., die? hmm. kk. not just me. my grp. Lol. hmm

also. i passed my modules. quite happy la. =) tho i wished i cldve like, done better, but. im kinda happy too. well

glad my results glorify God. =)

kk la..

i guess i shall just go off le. i dont wanna say too much, im lazy. hurr.l..

ahhh!!! my previous post wasn't published! cos. i have no frigging idea why. hurr..

must be blogger, shall one day send a trojan into google's svr one fine day. (that means, i gotta learn C++, which i suck at, learn more abt tcp, which is. what the hell is tcp? and someone who's working at google, so i can send them the file. no?)

but anyway. its a good thg my previous post aint pub, cos. im sure, im gonna get hell when some certain obnoxious people who only think that they rule the world, reads it. so. yea

tho im still gonna get whacked up, i dont care. freedom of speech rmb peeps? sue me baby. i have a lawyer. =)

you know. was at a christian event, if only for a while, however,, its like.. there's like. many new songs. and omg. i am like. so old la! hurr.

wadeva it is. its like. quite new, and i feel so old le!

omgomgomg!

this sucks man. i really think i shd start buying more cds, start dn/lding more songs. (hahas. its illegal peeps. dont think about it.) and all..

and most impt, finsih up the song i'm trying to compose, omg. can some one help me...?

one more thg is.

i feel.

so.

alone.

i dunno why..

okay. fine. i do.

and i just feel, that thgs are different.

btw me and all my friends im just not the same erson i use to be. there's people i wanna meet, my childhood friends i just wanna hang out with them, just call them and say. hey. catch a show? or dinner? or smthg lidat. but. for some reason or other, all my friends tt grew up with my are all busy with their lives, or overseas mugging, and another funny thg, like. almst all of them is in aussie? studying. expt like. dan and sam. who's in the us of a dating each other and mugging there. and one or two more. dont rmb.

but the thg is. we just dont keep in touch anymore. i mean, we meet like. once in a blue moon? like. how oftem do we meet after we sep in, sec4, pri 6 and other times. we just all have our own lives, get involoved in relationships which some fail and some just goes strong, u'll see the different thg there.

u think that in p5 p6, u think that, we aint gonna sep with each other, at least, meet damn often and are gonna cont ot be best firends for life, budden. a few mths down the road, it just isn't the way u'll hope its gonna be. you guys seperate, and. nv meet at all, expt prolly on hols like new yr and christmas, and even so. it might not be so cos, either one might have their own agenda, going out with bf/gfs, friends and all.

its just a long story for people who have time, and unfot, i have time to think tol reflect.

i just. dont wanna loose peeps whom i've built a rapport with, like, hans, andy and quite a few peeps i've met and cherised.

and also, really hope i cam like. met those peeps i've lost contact, or almst lost contact with.hahas

nwae. i dunno lah.

im just a lil lost boy, lost and confused.

its losing my directions,

heck,i find church quite......

lets say. different?

i shdn't be, at least, not church, the youths. i feel so empty. man.. this sucks.

its so hard to be me..

im tired.

im going off..

lets see. i just did another sig, but i think i over did it. hurr. =x but. hey. comment on it yea?



anyway. yea.

i shan't think. and just go slp.