just back from my class chalet.

chalet was quite okay actually. had some fun, played some games, slpt somewhat. did enjoy myself actually. =)

however, thgs were on my mind. for one, that issue that has been playing in my mind. well. i tried to put it aside, and yea. wasn't really good at that. lets just say. im still at this crossroads, thinking still which path to take.

the other major thg is. this classmate of mine. yea. stuffs hpned. im like. bloodly pissed la. and i mean. im dead sure that this guy is lying, not just to me, but to his friends and than somemore. you know. i kinda get the feeling. that. if this "play" continues on, im prolly gonna just kill someone.

you may ask, what is it abt? hahas. =D

you know. if i had to tell you, dan, i'll have to kill you.

but seriously. im pissed.

oh.

there's this, 24/7/365 prayer thg. hahas. and it actually means, you. yes YOU one person gets to pary for the church, singapore and all for a whole hour! meaning, yea. for that one hour time slot u've booked, ur praying for the whole of SG and prolly the world! =D how cool is that? i mean, interceding at a inter-personal lvl is okay and quite alr v challenging for some, but, the church? the nation? the WORLD? WOOT! hahas. its quite a responsiblilty, and one. that. i dint take well. im supposed to have 2 slots, and last min, one more like. ytd, which i totally forgot! and rmb for just a short while. i dont have the mats for ytd. so just did a simple one. hurr. hahas. my next one is on fri, 2 am with ken! hahas stupid ken. u better pray horh!

=)

lets see. im actually quite free. but im lazy to blog. hurr. =x

i wanna go slp dudes. i'll cya ard some time. and i'll blog more tonight or smthg lidat. hahas.

wherethelovelastsforever

lets see..

im done with my exams alr. hahas

yea

so. im free.

and yet.

well

shall not go abt tt yea?

but anyway.

made my first siggy! =)



hahas. wad u think? comments pls =)

anyway..

it slike..

gonna be two liao

i wanna go slp lee.!

and im gonna make more sigs on..

my pod xt and variax. =X

tellme.doyou.ordoyounot.cos.ido

its been aeons sinced i posted no.? lol.

ok la.. just 4 odd days la..

and in that four days..

2 exams have gone by.

felt the reliveness, yet anxiety of it all the results will show whether im fit for the last sem. or do i say goodbye poly, hello army kinda setting.

hmm. tml is sunday.

my hamstring is terribly achingly painfull

and i've decided to.

learn maya 7. =) isnt that great?

and mabbie, make a wonderful 3d render for my fyp. hahas. like i've said. as long as i aint kicked out. and kwp my module co-ordinator lets me cramm 1 core mod n 3 electives, coupled with my fyp. yea. =D

nwae. leaning is hardd and tough.. esp since im not using mac, its like. a headache of memory eating app man maya.. but. its okay la.. dont run too many bg stuffs. works okay. just takes awhile to render. but. yea. =)

okay.

im gg off liao. cos im waking up early for church tml. =D

bb


ohhhh.. btw. delirious? drummer stew smith joins the ironman triathlon. lol. if im not wrong its for charity. hahas. nwae. view his progress here

screamscreamtillithurtsureverywordcutsmeintopieces

you know

maybe..

i shd just..

keep quiet.

cos my mouth doesn't make people.

it breaks hearts and souls

it hurts pple..

know what?

i'll just..








SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!






and...

hatvaymuthmla.ehhfurscm.wesdsatqt

=D

phaseshiftwithworktink =) forthosewhowannaknow. andtoremindmewhatthesewordsare.=D

N.B.Z
W.A.N

fuck la..

why does the whole fucking world think abt themselves only??

why must i be a nice person and always help them do this

do that..

and cos of that..

i neglect my studies

fuck

everything is going wrong..

i wanna be nice...

and look where that lead me too?

i failed my fucking maths last sem

im seriously fucked up right now

this whole mth just didn't go right

aircon leaking..

THAT happening

and now..

my exams

cant i just study?

why must i be fucking so omg nice..

know what?

its time i cared abt myself

i gotta past my exams

tho there isn't much hope

only hope i have is..

im screwed

HA


well done dominic. =D

im struggling..

the wanting to..

i wanna.

i have to

but..

my head said..

nahah..

i dont think you shd

cos.

it might send a wrong signal

and yea..

guess it did.

when i dint msg yoo..



was walking thru the neighbourhood last night

seems like a nice plc to walk ard

the coolness of it

the tranquilety

ohh.

the irony

the peace that surrounds me

doesn't seem to calm me

the turmoil of everything swivling ard inside of me

everything

in my mind

i hope yoo are well

i pray yoo'll be fine

i pray.

and i pray

for yoo..

to come back.............

to be here with me...


my hp just stares at me

the msg i've written

its just there..

for all to see

for me to ponder

for me to think

and for me

to know that i've failed.


terribly

whenallyoo'vewantedwassomebodywhocares



HA

yea

its

supposed

to

be

me

and

yet

i

din

appear



how ironic

i promised yoo..


and i failed yoo






imfallingimfallingimfallnigdown



i love yoo*

reach for the stars, but it doesn't seem to be as ur wish, but it doesn't dirty ur hands

伸手摘星★未必如愿; 但不会弄脏你的手


thks for the xlation fred =D

and. only yoo know wad and where....................

but yea..



in life
things are not always what you want
or what you wish for

rather.
you hope
you pray
you work for it
you try and reach for it
but

sometimes.
yea.

u just dont seem to get it.

but.

you aint unhappy abt it
you tried
you know u've done well
you've felt the purity of what it wld be

and you happy

yet sad




why do thgs hpn this way..

cos. well

God said so.


so.........


hey.

thanks for everything jie.
i enjoyed every min of it. =D
you rawk jie
=D

this is dumb

in 5 hrs time..

i have an exam

which is damn impt. and tt i gotta do okay for it... budden! im like. doing some quiz on penguin?? yea.. DIAO!!

like. wth la. hahas. my exam is network mgt.. not penguins. hahas

but hey. its interesting man..

anyway..
managed to mug quite a bit ytd..

did 2 section B pprs on sat and sun. felt good..

hahas. realised how much i dint know..

almst all the ans i practically checked the book?

and oh

angel! ur notes are missing quite a few stuffs

hurrr...


but anyway..

im quite proud of myself bah i guess

=D

yea. *beams

i gotta do well for my ecxams tho. dan mabbie i can pray hard tt KWP will let me grad tgt w my classmates..

cos i dont wanna grad alone.. *sighhh

just cos i flunked a module last sem

sigh...

anyway..

im gonna retake my maths again..

so ...

im gona pia for my maths now..

okay
tonight when im back

after i clear my netmgt..

so.. guys..

pray hard for me..

those who aint christians..

pray however u pray yea??

i need all the good luck..

this sucks

i dunno why i just said that..

but..

yea..

im not taking it back

and i know tt ive dissppointed loads of pple, like. GOd, some people..

and u noe wad??
it looks like..

im guessing..


its gonna cont..

till i sort out thgs

like.

why i suddenly ditest to go to church..

i dont feel at home there..

i feell.. different.

maybe cos..
everyone there is either.. JC pple. smart pple. or.. they have some skills like ability to draw, to be good musicians and sing and all.. and.. yea. im nowhere near there. or anything. hahas.

im like.. HAHA

=D

nvm me la..

whats there to bother abt me?

i mean..
what?


ifidied.wldanyonebother?

i hope so man.. =D

HAAs






living in a cold cold world.
watching life walk past me
theworld of pain
the world of hurt
its tempting me
am i living in a world of hurt?
a world of pain
why do i feel my life broken?
why do everyone ard me smile
a smile that hurts?
a smile that is painful
so bland
so not genuine.
the world is cold
the nights are getting cold
i dont wanna know more.
the more i know
the harder i fall
holding on
i wish
it wld get better
i pray
cos
Smile
your on candid camera

imagine tau huey

imagine it to be silky smooth, delicious, melts in ur mouth, (kinda) and all the properties u want it to be.

now..
imagine it rto be in a pot,

imagaine u boil the tauhuey with anchovies, a lil light sauce, with and somekinda water. with a lil starch and slight garlic.

it turns out to be salty, yet sweet.

kinda turns all of u guys off right??

yea

in everyone's mind, tau hueys supposed to be sweet, or just plain, but. salty??

YUCKS

but hey


i tried it

at tampines area

yummy. =D

it tastes good with rice.. i wanna go back and eat tt again!
hahas

=D



yucky

am watching some joker eating macs for 30 days

hey..

he's growing not just fat, but.. he's getting sick.. real sick.

i can't take it man..

too much macs

mabbie one day. or 2..

at most. of fast food..

but after tt


NONONONONO!!

it sucks man..



eeeyyerrr

so.. i aint no tqaking much macs and all...


im soo tired.. yawns..

hahsa.

goodnight people


wipethetearsfrommyeyes,andfightningtoholdyouwithme

what is it that goes on??

yea..

had a bad day..

really bad day..

thgs just hpned

since i woke up..

till i was in sch...

and of cos...

on my way back

even when i went out for a while after that..

it just is...

today sucks man..

fri the 11th, aug...

crappified day..

i hate it



the more i know

the more it hurts

the more i open my mouth...


the more i get in return.. no??

haixz....


British government foiled a plot to stop terrorist fm hijacking their planes

Israel plans to cont their fight against hizabollah militants

Tamil Tigers fighting against Sri Lanken governments



can i be a terrorist??

and like..

just


bomb the heck load outta myself??


lol...

nah...


i scared die..

anyway..

they shd'nt do these kinda stuffs man...

like.. just make it simple..

talk people

TALK

its the best way

make ur feelings known

but dont fight or wadeva man

just talk the crap load..

its gonna help

okay peeps??

nwae..
back to my terrible day.


i cannot understand why my life is like this suddenly...





even my maths feels terrible..

i think im gonna screw my amths again..

and of cos..

i go buhbye poly.. =D

hahas..

anyway..

im watching some..

funny ghost hunter thg...

this sucks..

im kinda freaked out..

hahas.
=x


aiyah..

i want to mug my maths alr la..

im bloodly sienz

and hungry

this sucks man...



bb peeps

im freaked out.......


nwae.. hey dude.. if ur reading this.. im sorry man.. i just.. din think b4 i opened my mouth. hope u'll forgive me.. i din intend to insult u or nthg k? peaceout

Newgrounds presents: Animator vs. Animation

Newgrounds presents: Animator vs. Animation


hahas. have a look at this site..

its funny and interesting. =D

anyway..

i might just get another blog. but prob not blogger. specially for.. all the musings and all. i'm gonna leave this blog for my life. while the other one for everythg else. =D rawks right??

hahas

peace out guys. =D

the shadow of my mistakes is taking over me..

the carelessness..

the immaturity.

the fickleness

the uncertainty..

why?

why is it kicking in?

why the heck am i screwing thgs up. why must i do something that will make things more different than it alr is. why must i tell the whole world those stuffs.? why must i do it? isnt that what a blog is for? that the world will know what the heck they are reading??

for one. i wont del my previous post

yes. i know it will change. and has alr change things.. but since its a blog. eeveryone shd be reading it. so i wont stop. i wont del it.. but i'll make myself clear.

cos. i've decided..

nono..
i've alr decided b4.

and i got unsure..

due to time

due to the fact tt i cldn't do anything

due to the fact that. thgs changed.

so now...

as of now..

im reaffirming my faith in you..

im waiting..

i'll be waiting..



im standing..

and waiting..

and i'll be here...




till the end of time....



imwaitingforyoutocomeback.cos.iluninelug


i love you..

a friend told me smthg..

it might just be wad it is..

i hope wad it is sia..

budden..

its been smtime.

i doubt it'll be..


sigh...


sometimes..


i just wanna do something right..

yet..

i know if i do it..

i might regret it..

yet......

if i dont do it..

i'll be happy yes..

but will the other party be.???

i dont wanna be in it with one party with something else in the mind..

i cant make up my mind


i can't choose a proper path..

can someone advice me.?

tell me..

what should i do.??

because im close to reaching the bottom..

heck...

i might just alr be at the bottom..

or.. at the top of the pain chain.

tell me..

how did it hpn....







wait wait..

i know.......

dont need tell me..

i noe wads wrong..

i know where i screwed up at...

i know..

and i guess.......





i might just do it........




im waiting...

and falling...


and i've fallen............................


togo.ornottogo.thatistheqn

why is the whole world sad?

cos of what.?

problems.?

was just sitting at the park near my new hse tt day..

everyone i saw..

walked by.

most werent smiling.

most were frowning..

as tho as the world has did smthg wrong to them

why are we crying.?

why are we frowing.?

where is the happiness ard us.?

where is the love ard us.?

where is whatever we wanna find?

its gone..

whatever i wanted to find.

might just be gone.

might just be there/here

its just beyond my grasp

i just need to push.

and i push

yet i seemed to be stopped by a wall smwhere..

is it just me.?

or isn't it................

rah!

i got no mood to mug..

im like. damn sienz by it la..

rah!!!!!

sad man..

exams in a while..

and yet........

hurr...

enough said..

fucking shit

nth is going right

i can't find the bloodly thing im looking for

what i hope for isn't what im getting

being snubbed/shunned.

fucking laptop hdd had a fucking virus and wiped all my data out..

thanks to a certain someone who uses the laptop

my life is rolling downhill as im typing these words

my maths is a gonna

im gonna be expelled from sch

i cant seem to wake up in the mornings.

im dn/lding a file and some joker touches my modem and BOOM!! i go offline. and i took like a billion years to get 70% okay. nearly a whole day.

the forum i wanna go is down.

i wanna play cs but some mother fucking idiot is using my a/c

when i get to play. some asshole touches my modem.. (see 3 abv)

i can't seem to slp at night anymore.

the more i know the more i feel i should..

fuck..

nothing in this bloodly world is going right..

i think i should make things right..

first...

loads of it..





and i will love it...




and i wont stop..




i'll let it flow down....











and it'll stop the pain...








and it'll stop the hurt










and its gone...................




ruggtobenext????????????

exams. problems. and all..

they just dont mix well tgt..

my maths is still screwed up

tho i've been trting to do smthg abt it..

my life is still screwed up..

and it seems like there's nth much i can do right now..

well
..
xcept pray real hard.

and so..

i guess i shall..

just sit down smwhere.

some corner..

where the world will pass b4 my very eyes

yet it'll be a small secluded corner where no one will notice that im there.

not that anyone will search for me.

at least.

only a few will..

and. i'll stay there..

praying for yoo*

praying for us..

praying for the world..

and praying.....

just to pray..

cos God works wonders..

miricles.

and well..

He's God..

wad else can i say?

He can make the lame to walk again. and cause the blind to see..

so. have faith in Him.

and things will turn out a-okay...

yea..

a-okay guys.

just.

smile.

cos..

GOd loves you..

im getting outta topic in a certain sense.

bb