the more i know
the more i fall

the more i fall
the worst it'll hurt

the more it'll hurt
..................

you know.

had a funny thg today.

i kinda like.

met with and accident??

was just crossing the zebra crossing..

deep in thoughts of yoo*

and there's this stupid driver

in a beautifully ugly merc E200

yeah

benz E200

anyway

yeah.

crossing the zebra crossing.

walking damn slowly

and BOOM!

the car hit me.

guess the driver wasn't paying attn to the road also

but.

yea.

not that kinda like in movies hit kinda..

but just a light touch..

okay. lets say..

medium light

and boom.

flew a lil??

but got a few steps back..

fell.

and sprained my ankle.

OUCH!

nvm.

the bumper kissed my shins..

and its like.

blue black

ouchh!!

hahsa.

and the stupid driver dint like..

ask how are you?

but rather.

OEI! wanna die arh?

next time don't listen music cross road la!

i was damn pissed..

but i kept my cool okay?!

i just let him rattle on.

and went to the side and rubbed my poor ankle

and hobbled home

hahas.

im losing weight!!!

smiles.

buhbye to you guys.

who read my blog.

like sam!.

(omg! pig flying le!)

but serious note

im gonna make sure it works

*cheers myself up!!

go dominic go piggy!

its your birthday

its your birthday

hands to round and round

ahhhhhhh

i feel like an idiot doing that..

and

nah..

it aint funny.

soo...

buhbye

ps:its the first pc in the world. picture thanks to techrepublic

i gotta change

when theres still time..

hope thgs will go right

i realise my wrongs.

yet i still do.

the lil child is crying out

dont.

yet.

its reality.

just.

grow up dom.

grow up k?




whenthechildrencry

andifyougo.illleave.

i must be blind..

no no..

i must be deciving myself

cos i can't believe my eyes.

i can't believe what im seeing..

nvm if its once.

but twice.

and for the whole day.

just told a fren something.

your never useless. when u feel ur useless.. dun. rather. instd. u are powerless to do wad thgs shd be done.

okay?

its different

so yea.

guess im powerless to do anything abt it..

for now..

i'll just sit back

watch

pray bloodly hard

and hope

and if things fail.

HAHAHAHAHA......................................................




imstandingonthebridgeimwaitinginthedarkisntanyonetryingtofindmeidthoughtthatyoullbehererightnow

=D

imfallingimfallingimfallingdownn

pretty much down

wad shd i be feeling.

jealous?
self-pity?
wanting to do more?

it just isn't the way i wanted it to be.

but sadly.

reality bites

and it is.

dunno.

and of cos

don't blame me if i kill someone to make my point.

i do stupid things

but i do them for a reason.

dumb

yet im a selfish bloodly 2 faced bastard.

so dun be sad if im in jail for murder

or.

im to be sentenced to death

no.

i laid my plan

im think thru it alr

don't stop me if i decide to do it

blame me..

blame my loser-spirit

blame me.

i want wad i want

even tho its gonna be diff

im gonna get it.

i dont care

im angry

im pissed

im outraged..

dont stop me..............

bored

hey guys

guess i wont be blogging 4 sometime.

doubt youll see me online or playing cs/dota much

cos im just gonna concentrate on my studies for this period of time

and just drown myself in it.

for now

at least.

for the next week

just.

let it be kk?


lalalalalalala!

heavenmissinganangel.soami

reality biting in

you know
sometimes
when u find the truth
you realise that..
your the cause of it all along
not him
not her
not anyone else
but you.

it aint difficult to swallow
its just that

you want to give your very best
but you dont seem to do it well
you love that person with all your heart
but it doesn't get through

where did i go wrong?
how did i do it wrongly?

its now a qns of what am i gonna do abt it
am i gonna shrugg it off
or am i gonna do something that will make yoo proud of me

im gonna make you proud

this is how my heart is like now


and im sure yoor heart looks like this


fyi: the cars featured is a 2004 lamborghini murcielago and a 2001 porsche boxter.
pics from exoticwrecks.com

not trying to be funny.
but
things aint the same.
and i wanna turn back time

gonna wash my face
and start again

this i promise you

i love you
bare with me.
ill make things right.
this time round.

i just can't smile. without you

youhavestolenmyheart.imcaptivated.byyou.
ivefallendeeplyinlovewithyou

i love you.

and i want you to know that.

fromthebottomofmyheart.

woaini

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and
I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

you came along just like a song
and brighten my day
who would of believed that you where part of a dream
now it all seems light years away

and now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile
now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me
and you see I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

i just dont get me

im dead tired.

but i havent slept in like days.

im hungry

but i've got no mood to eat.

im alive

but it just doesn't feel like it

noonewillknowifimcryingornot

wow! should be proud of myself. my 2nd post today.
hahas

can't sleep

im in no mood to do anything.
no mood to mug
no mood to eat
no mood to slp

i guess i need a walk.

why isn't it raining?

why must this happen?

i love you. i really do.

you can't see the tears i cry
behind these hazel eyes


untitled.

yupps.
thats the title of this post
cos i dont know wad to say
God. where u now?

every night in my dreams
i see you
i feel you

honestly. i feel as tho i've been banished to the moon. and locked there.

leaving in a mask u wear all day long
it just make you feel oh so strong

i sick of playing this game.
im tired of pretending to be happy.
i wanna scream
i wanna just stay out in the rain
letting it wash all over me
or.
just sitting somewhere. watching the world pass me.
with the knowledge that the world will still cont on w/o u
carry on fine.
people ask me wad would how would the world rmb me when ur gone
i tell them
unless u make billions like bill gates
start a war like adolf hitler
be a star actor/actress like maryiln manroe
no one will miss you
even your family and loved ones get over you after ur gone
the memories will hurt
but it wont change their lives

inadarkroom.thesilencescreamingaroundyou.thefierycoldnessallaroundyou.yourplusestartbeating.youstarttrembling.yourhandscan'tstopshaking.yourbodyisconvulsculating.youcan'twait.yourbreathingincreases.youreyesturnbloodred.youseethewaterfall.itstopsandstarts.itfallsintoapuddle.youscream.youcry.youfeeltheshiningbrightnesssurroundsyou.youstareintospace.youfeelwarmer.youwantmore.youneedmore.anditgoesblack.yourbodylimps.yourheartbeatsslowly.weaker.stops.nevertostartagain.

behindthemask.iwept.icried.idied.

ps. you know. Jesus blood took away our pain and suffering.

last of illusions

i rmb. i was supposed to talk abt err..
zizou whecking materatzzi w a headbutt. rmb rmb?? lolX. hmm. anyway. gist of the thg is. mataratzzi gave in that yea. he did insult him. details. nah.. i aint gg in.. =D

anyway. its like. the 3rd day le. and. its difficult to accept it. i cannot. really. but. i gotta be a good boy. its realitiy boy. its happening now. so. i gotta accept it. like it or not.

actually. i got loads of stuff i wanna blog abt. but im tired le. =x so. i guess tml ya?? keep posted.

love ya!

something to think about

have you every wondered why things are happening, things that you don't want to see it happen or materialise? and why do things just seem wrong when you want it to be right.. and when you assume that things are gonna be okay. reality just knock the wind outta you like a sledgehammer? did it occur that when murphy actually came up with a law that we all hate (what goes wrong. will go wrong) actually is the true harsh reality of it?

still wondering????

good. i'll let u peeps cont wondering why. and when u know why. lemme know kk??

on a good note. its my 261st post for this blog!

ooocosloveisbittersweetitdrivesmeoffmyfeet.andboy.youstilldo.iloveyou

funny feeling

okay. i was supposed to blog about zizou today. but i learnt that... zizou's gonna go live like. in a few hours time about wad materazzi said to him. so. i'll just. let him talk. and comment about it ltr on..

anyway. im sick. yeah. got poisoned by chicken rice. and voimited like crazy. dun understand how i did it. but yeah. i did.

so. i'll just leave u guys with a nice song. cos. im just feeling it all over again.

Here I am on the phone again and...
Awkward silence is on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
But right now all I feel is the pain of the fighting starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Some say that time changes,
best friends can become strangers
But I don't want that, no not for you
If you just stay with me we could make it through
So here we are again the same old argument
Now I'm wondering if things will ever change
When will you laugh again,
laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise 'til 3 am,
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

Down, down,down...

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Don't say a word, (Please don't leave...)
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, (Please don't leave...)
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

dontknowdontcaredontwannabotherdontwannafeeldontwannabreathedontwannaleave.
but.
gottaknow.gottacare.gottabother.gottafeel.gottabreathe.

you alive still buddy?

A Loving Mother

A Loving Mother

hahas. yea. tts the title baby!! anyway. b4 u read that post. theres click on the link below the picture saying first. and start from the start. hmm go read it la.. its a funny (tho blashplmous) way of portraying the bible. yes. go read. laugh at its funniness. but don't believe it. okay?

anyway. lazy to blog. wanted to blog abt zizou. but.. i guess i'll do it tml yar? ciaos guys. =D

=D

WOW! my last previous post was like.. 16 may.?? woah!!
as jon likes to say it.. maaddddneesss!!! hahas

as i read the article, the headlines intrigued me. being human is humbling, not humiliating. gist of the article is this guy was watching the PM of japan (Mr Junichiro Koizumi for the not so up to date pple) dancing at graceland on CNN. okokay. i know. at this point. there's gonna be some guys out there. (okay. who the heck am i kidding? no one reads this blog) who actually says. ISN'T THAT HUMILIATING? I MEAN.. ITS THE PM OF JAPAN!! THE WHOLE OF JAPAN IS GONNA BE HUMILIATED! woah woah woah woah woah woah woah!! hold on a min dude. it aint humilitating. i mean. he's human after all baby. let him have his fun, i mean. imagine say.. tony blair. dancing.or better still. squriming with glee and delight when he shakehands with both pele and sir bobby charlton. (assuming it is okay??) is it humiliating? i dont think so. any other normal guys (even my dad) would be estatic. why can't they?? i dun wanna repeat the whole article so go read it. but hey. think about these politicians/actors and yada. their still human after all.


something to think about.
why did the french crtics wanted monsiour domenech head and for him to drop barthez, and now they're(critics) praising them like they are heros.