this is MY blog.. i write wadeva i want in it.. so there..
offically.. I GIVE UP.. i've totally lost hope.. i dont know how in the world this cld hpn.. there was once.. i wanted it so much.. i had fun.. i had so much hope in it..
BUT..
it let me down.. time and time again.. i gave it one last try..
make a guess.. wad say you??
i let me down.. hopefully.. not tonight.. cos. tonights the night i make my decision.
as much as i don't want to.. i gotta do it for the right reason.. God.. only Him..
hopefully.. things won't be that horrible..
can you imagine.. its like.. one of the biggest thgs in the year so far.. probably the biggest event.. but.. ytd.. was CRAP..
nonono.. not crap.. i shd say..
"Watching roaches dance and "try to sing" is more entertaining and fufilling than that"
simple as that..
everyone's gonna hate me.. i dont care what you say or think.. this time.. im thinking abt myself.. and my relationship with God..
i can't take it anymore.. its punishing me.. totally..
im gonna disappoint people. esp.. -you- and im sorry.. as much as i don't want this to happen. pls.. i have to.. i just.. can't take it anymore.. i've totaly given up hope.. rather..i don't have the strenght to carry on here anymore..
how can this be call what it is.. when.. everyone's doing exactly the opp? just a word. hypocrites.. not tt im pure. i do it too.. but.. aiyah. tonights gonna make my mind up for me.. this reallie lies in my heart.. i have to make a desicion.. simple as that..
sam jyang.. havent reallie told you abt it.. but i guess sam. you know roughly my complaints.. sienz larhs.. i shall tell you more
ken. hahas.. i don know what to say..
eveyone else.. sorry.. but it let me down.. not just me.. ask yourself who else.. you reallie think everyone's there to be there for Him? i dunno... ask yourselves..
my decision lies tonight..
i gotta do the right thing.. i wanna grow spiritually.. and.. yf hasnt been doing much.. (expt bible class, how im gonna miss those days.)
guess you know whats hpnoing now.. eh?
AIR? yupp. your decision now. =)
making my plans now..
=)
