is it smthg i've done? smthg i've said?

dunno.. dunno.. dunno.. im thinking too much.. too much for my own good.. haiz..

this blog's like.. redundent le.. and useless.. like me.. haiz.. wad to do..

oh well.. dunno wad to post. just.. here to.. crap.. im bored.. im feeling those stupid vibes again.. i hate tt feeling

why dun they just lemme alone? why must my mind wonder? why can't tt idiot just kill himself.. and lemme have a goodnite's slp? haiz. FU*K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whew.. tts out.. calm down le.. i guess.. it jsut goes away with time.. yea.. i dunno larh..



when i say i love you
i mean it
fm the bottom of my heart
the heavens and the earth
shall be my witness
the stars sky and planets
can't be compared to ur beauty
cos you are
the most beautiful person
on this planet
rather
the universe
i miss you
when you leave
even though we're meeting the very next day
i feel as though
one day is a thousand years
i miss you
i love you
=)

back here once again, on the computer, waiting for my dad to come back, so i can have my lunch.

at least no one got drunk last nite

woah. for once.. think i'll try to post a intellectual post.. like.. for once. (and im crapping once again)

there's only one problem.. i dunno wad kinda thg to post here. HAHA..

oh man.. sch's starting.. real soon.. and i havent finished my homework. yupps. i have homework even before sch starts. SP's a great poly. (riiittteee) oh wells. have to cram like. fark... kinda. there's quite a few left. and time aint on my side. oh wells.

im having mixed emotions now..

28 june 2004

im anxiously waiting for it to be the 28th.. cos.............. lalalalalala

but.. 28 is orientation day. which means.. the start of school..

haiz. why must sch start on the 28? at least like.. 29? so i/we can enjoy the 28th. rite? but.. i gues.. i can't control it.. oh wells.. gotta enjoy it.. =)

sch's starting in.. 2 days..

u bet.. im nervous. scared? dunno..

wait i go sch kana whecked by some chaio ah beng? sm big bully? or worst.. some ah lian? how? woah.. scary tots.. kia tio liao.. -cowers in fright-

think i'll just.. hide under my bed on mon morning.. yupps.. cling on tight to the bed post.. and shiver like.. crazy..

SHAART!!! its mon morning.. how the hell am i supposed to wake up so early in the morning? like.. early? omg.. this.. is.. getting.. crappier.. and crappier.. but the minute.. *help!!!

boring boring boring. and im hungry!! and im suddenly.. feeling.. lonely? hmmmM

gigi's slping soundly in.... MY room.. cos tt room has aircon.. rather.. a working aircon. while her room.. which im currently occupying.. has its pros and cons.. pros.. able to use the phone.. the range aint tt far.. but my room is like.. way off the stupid range..

cons.. no aircon!!! wah.. but.. act.. can be quite cooling at times.. hahas..

*she just msged me!! arh!! -goes crazy- lolX.. ilu too dear

i miss her.. =(

oh wells.. she'll be back..

if ur reading this.. enjoy urself dear.. ilu. imu too..

hmmM.. im totally outta pt.. gotta kiv..

where was i? ha. dunno le larh.. dun bother scrolling up le.. i'll just.. go.. jump rnd the hse.. wait for my parents lorh.. den.. fill my tummy with food *rubs tummy* lolX..

*playing guitar for tml's yf.. haiz.. long time nv touch guitar le.. how? wait i break the mirrors there how?

hmM. jsut realised tt.. my blog is.. redendent? not many pple's tagging le.. haha.. gotta start publicity le.. like..

please tag on this blog. www.repulsivity.blogspot.com
failure to tag is a punishable offense
punishment inclds

dao-nation by me
two tight slaps
excessive whining and complants by me
all night prank calls telling u to tag repetively
*to be cont*


haha.. lolX. yea.. tt suck.. yupps..

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• publicise my blog
  
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lolX.. nth to say le.. lolX.can't believ im doing this right? haha.. better believe it den..

still waiting for my dad.. im dead hungry.. haiz...

oh wells.. think tts all .. im stopping le..

camp afterglow at 6.. * yupps.. will enjoy it

rehersal at 4

im dead bored.. den im gonna be dead tired.. lolX

oh wells.. signing off here. GB peeps

i love you dear. you'll always be the one tt makke my heart beat like there's no tml.

lolX.. cliche-ly corny...

lolX.. cannot resist the urge to post this.. so here goes.. fren called.. gonna sneak out tonite le.. =D .. haha.. yea.. this time.. go clubbing/drinking/pubbing!!! haha.. so long nv go le.. hahas.. hmmM.. go where arh? embassy? (gf say they dun check id le) exculsive? haha.. i noe! go monks? lolX.. haha.. will figure out where larh... miss the shots.. tequella (dunno how to sp larhs.) vodka.. cries.. haha.. got.. erm.. 18 bucks w me now.. so.. 3 4 shots at most.. mabbie 5.. if we go smwhere where we noe the guy/bartender.. yada yada.. haha..

dear.. mai angry horh.. u in msia.. so can't ask u go.. luv ya loads.. =)

hope i dun get drunk.. nv been drunk b4.. at least.. i dun rmb.. haha.. hmm.. yea.. gonna enjoy man.. its.. almst.. 6 mths i haven gone lorh.. or more.. haha.. =)



dearest tinkerbell..

i love you
and
i miss you

love
peterpan

haha.. at audreys hse.. using her new fujitsu lifebook (notebook) and BLOGGING!! WEE!! haha.. reallie damn chio lorh her notebook.. tho its kinda small sized and yada.. haha.. but still.. lolX

hmmM.. nth much to update tho.. was staying at my granny's hse for two nites. met HER everyday.. expt today.. wed cooked breakfast for her tgt w lei... tue. saw part of the royales dance.. kinda.. tramatizing? haha.. hmmM.. nth much to update le

just.. yea.. bored.. wanna play w audrey's new laptop.. haha.. =)

hmmM.. yupps.. have camp afterglow tml..

onli bad news...

SHE'S IN MALACCA..... WHEN IM IN SPORE!!!!!!!!!

CRY!! ='(

cry cry cry... oh wells.. enjoy ur trip yea dear? luve ya.. =)


ps.. dear.. if ur're reading this.. it HURTS still.. haha.. the right hand one.. damn promenant.. lolX.. hope my dad dun see the mark.. if not.. tts it man.. lolX.. haha.. i love you. =)

i love the way you smile. it warms my soul. and makes my heart smile with you too.

ok larh ok larh.. sorry larh.. -mutters- next time wun nag le larh dear.. =)

yupps.. now at.. church. haha.. long time nv come to pa room le.. yupps.. wad the **** am i doing here? haha.. my dad acting/rehersing larh.. soo.. yupps.. decided to come join him.. haha.. yupps.. he playing.. (of all pple.. John the Baptist.. like.. wth?!??) hahas..

hmmM.. today arh.. hmmM went to her house.. slacked ard.. haha.. den wenny (her fren) invited us to go over.. for lunch lorhs.. yupps.. so yea.. kinda like.. went over.. had jap curry for lunch.. nice kaes? wow.. din properly thank her.. (wenny.. if ur reading this.. was real nice.. THANKS gal.. i mean.. guy.. but.. gal.. but.. Oh WelLs..)

yea.. was kinda.. bored and tramatized.. cos its like.. they were dancing ard.. not tt im not used to it.. but still.. hellO? my gf there? and all? haha.. but.. oh wells.. im okay with it.. no worriees.. =) honest..

haha.. yupps.. den.. went to her hse to slack smmore.. den left for my grandmums hse lorh.. ypps.. smthg lidat larh.. =) ilu ilu ilu ilu ilu ilu ilu

sunday leh.. hmmM.. had church.. yf was kinda okay.. sm guy came to talk to us abt.. guys and gals.. and equality smwad.. yadayada. haha. was actually living and telling the whole yf tt well.. guys are better dan gals thgy.. best thg is.. was seating in the gals department.. like.. omg.. the whole sector was gals.. onli unc kc and jon ng was there.. but tehy were in front.. while i was behind? omg.. oh wells. hahas.. den.. after yf.. lectured/interrigated daryl.. abt u-noe-who and all.. yupps.. din get out much fm him.. but.. oh wells..
after church.. went to dbg.. walked abit w her. gigi.. and korkor. yupps.. bought the purple shell for her.. the one she wanted so much. well.. bought le.. den asked her why she din go see purple shell and all.. oh wells.. i'll keep a look out for the other side yea? meet denyse.. walked ard.. den me gigi and korkkor left kinda early.. cos got soccer lorh.. yupps.. tt was abt it larh.. sun..

mon. nth much.. slacked ard again.. w her.. yupps.. i guess.. tts it lorh. hahas.. =)


You are magnificant
eternally
wonderful
glorious
Jesus
no one ever will compare
to You Jesus



--you--

ilu ilu ilu ilu ilu ilu ilu

missed you le.. cries.. and its like.. 2 more days.. ='( cry

i dunno.. but.. im still wondering. how did i get you.. but.. now tt i have you.. ima nv gonna let you go.. ima never gonna give you up.. at least.. over my dead body..

no words can say how much i love you
no pen can write how much i need you
nothing can show how much i love you
all i need is you
in my life
i love you

without y0o i'll never feel the love inside of me . .



tink tink tink tink!! lolx. this.. tinking lil noisy.. thing. is here ta make noise again! lolx. our dearest peterpan has been nagging bout me not blogging here. blehs. lol. =X





so... here i am!!





TINK TINK TINK TINK TINK TINK TINK!! ** ** ** *




=x hahahs. hyper-ness in progress. lol. i'm still kinda awake. eh.. not bad. =)





smilex. lardeedahhs. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee you soooooooooo much!! =D






larrdeeedahhh! oohers! thank you so so much! for the dolphin.. and the purpur shell! =D hahas. i'll find the other side.. give it to you.. den tell you what it means.. =P wee! larlarlarlarlarlarlarlarlar~*







hahas. this song is for you. =D nice song yupp? i think it so suits us. =D



The Way To Your Love
by Hear'Say

I can see the beginning
And I don't see the end
Wanna hold you and never let go - oh no
For as long as we're giving
And we never pretend
I believe in the future untold

We'll be stronger together than we would be apart
I can feel you inside my heart

(chorus)
Every day - every night
Fill my shadows with light
When I feel all alone
Your heart is my home
Every night - every day
You show me the way to (love)
Show me the way to your love

Baby now that I've found you
Realize I was lost
Didn't know love could treat me this way
Maybe what it comes down to
When it matters the most
Is to find joy in every day

We could sink to the bottom
We could climb to the top
Cause together we'll never give up

(repeat chorus)

Doesn't matter if we're far away
Got each other and thats all I ever need to know
Someone to call my own
We'll be together
Finally - we're meant to be

Every day - every night
Fill my shadows - shadows with light
Every night - every day
Show me the way to your love

(Repeat chorus x1)









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okay. you're making noise that i'm never blog for you. got kays. i was busy typing that! *points at above and grins. =D




i love you dominic chua. =))




_tinkerbell*++




sunset. seashell. waves crashing. fallen tree. y0u. me. =)) *iLu.

to live is for Christ. to die is gain

omg.. its like.. almst a wk le? ha. haven blogged. dunno wad to blog nwae.. hmmM

BACK FROM CHURCH CAAMP LE!! yea. haha.. certain stuffs hpn.. but.. oh wells.. MOST of them are kinda erms.. okay le? rather.. sorted them out le.. yupps.. =) happy happy happy.. haha..

camp was like.. FAB man.. totally FAB.. dunno how else to say it. all i can say is.. wells.. gave my life to God again. (rededicated it) kinda like.. made up/reconcile with him.. yupps. had a gd talk w rach.. and sam.. yupps.. realised certain stuffs.. like.. haha.. (dowanna say.. wait gf kill me.. lolX.) but yea. its alrite larh dear.i understand.. =) ilu ilu ilu..

haha.. im not gonna say much.. cos.. its too much to write in here.. haha.. bb peeps.. wan to noe more abt my camp.. get me instd.. luv u guys.. and gals.. tc



\\YOU//


Thinking how it might have been
If you had never walked into my life
I would have been nothing
Without you where would i be

Every moment used to feel
Like living through a cold and starless night
But everything's changing
Everything is feeling right

Chorus
You gave me your love
Lifted me up
Now i'm looking at forever
When i never thought i'd ever see that far
You - you're in my soul
Wherever i go
Now i know right from the start
Your love was
Written on my heart

How could i have been so blind
When you were always here so near to me
And there is no other
Who knows me the way
I feel you do

You were waiting all the time
For me to come around and finally see
The love i was missing
There you were right beside me
Always beside me

Chorus

You made it so easy
Your love brought out the best in me and
You are my light and my truth
I've found my destiny in you

Chorus

Your love was
Written on my heart

You're forever
Written on my heart

saveme.imdrowning.cos.idunhavestr.imdrain.inallaspects
mentally.andphysically.ijustwannadie.ijustwannagiveup.but.ican't
cosilu.idunwannajustletitbe.but.iminoverload.i'velongpastmylimit.canijustgiveup?

SOMEONE.JUSTKILLME!PLS?

just came back fm kayaking.. fucking tired.. mentally.. emotionally.. and physically drained.. like.. no more at all.. can barely hold myself up to walk..

kinda pissed too.. just.. dunno larh.. mabbie i'll just have a briedf update on today..

kinda like.. after we put down.. ard 2.30.. was abt to slp when SGH decided to call.. concerning that bastard who still wanna take his fucking life.. great.. rushed all the way down in a cab.. costed me almst like.. wad? 30 plus bucks lorh (inclding dial a cab)!! better still.. arrived there onli to find him.. slping soundly in his bed/ward.. FUCK MAN!! lost my slp. and wasted money.. and rushed there to find him slping? fuck sia.. at least like.. reach there to see him holding a knife or smthg.. at least.. worth it.. but.. oh wells.. at least he's safe.. (for now)

came back in a cab.. so tts like.. 60 bucks in like.. 2 hrs? reached home.. tried to slp.. suffered fm insomia.. cldn't slp.. not even a bit..

woke up at like.. 7.. at least.. half slpt till 7.. woke up.. kinda grumpy and still moody cos of wad hpned in the wee mornings.. went to bukit timah hill.. to hike.. like. just b4 i woke up. recieved a msg... saying.. he woke up le.. and decided to kill himself again.. i was like.. fuck larh.. din get a gd start.. and was looking fwd to the hike.. and time w her later..

hhike went okay.. kinda relaxed abit.. but still kinda angry and pissed and moddy and yada yada.. was going into overload..(as she said)

hmmM.. came back.. to try to take a break.. a nap.. b4 i even got into bed.. msg say.. he's trying again.. and he's blaming me ONCE again.. like.. everyone is.. i was like.. fuck him larh..

doubt u'll be reading this entry.. but.. if u ever do.. or.. mabbie someone will pass the info to u.. u noe wad? fuck u man.. u wanna die.. just... fucking go and die.. i dun care le.. so wad if ur my nbest fren.. rather.. WAS my best fren? u wanna die.. go ahead.. nd my help? i most certainly will help u..

oh wells.. fuming mad and moddy and this and tt.. but the tot of meeting her and spending tm w her.. kinda cool me down some what.. even if lei was there..

reached ECP.. macs there.. onil to find thema t costa sands.. so.. walk lorh.. even tho i got a fucking blister.. whiuch threaten to tear any moment.. well.. good news.. it din.. at least.. till i left.. reached there.. slacked ard.. made lei tell me sm stuffs.. wasn't much.. but yea.. just the starting.. den the rest of the yf came le.. so was supposed to go back there.. wanted the two to join us.. but.. they din wanna go.. i was like.. comeon.. i mean like.. its ard her i kinda.. cool down and all.. u noe.. hoping for some care and concern and love.. and yada yada.. but.. oh wells.. was made to go to meet yf alone.. i kinda like.. asked them.. to join me.. cos.. i din wanna go back alone.. i wanted to be w her.. u noe.. at least.. dowanna dwell on that fucking bastard who wanna die but can't.. oh well.. brave my fucking blister which so decided to tear.. at tt moment.. the min i went like.. -whatevA- yea.. was kinda pissed lorh.. haiz.. dunno larh..

u noe.. was just hoping for some concern? and kinda wanted to spend time w u.. hoping tt.. just being w u will kinda cool me down.. and i wanna noe wads bothering ya... me dead worried abt u.. budden.. oh wells.. it kinda just.. haiz.. nvm..

just wanna skip the rest of the next part.. onli thg is tt the fucking blister bleed like nobody's busniess.. kinda turned the kayak red?

im fucking in overload.. why? thks to tt bastard who keeps wanting to die.. to my worrying abt u.. all im hoiping for is.. just.. some love.. concern.. but.. got chased away.. i mean.. i dun regret being with you.. but.. right now.. im fucking tired.. mentally and physically.. i dun have str to carry on le.. if this conts on.. in 2 wks.. mabbie less.. cos of the church camp.. i may just give up.. everythg.. i hope in.. i wish for.. everythg.. mabbie even giving up on life.. im too tired.. i can't even hold myself up jsut now.. oh wells..
im just.. thining.. im human.. i have my limits.. im not God.. nor superman.. im tired.. all im asking is.. some care.. not tt u dun gimme.. nor others.. but.. i dunno.. mabbie.. like i've said.. im demanding.. im selfish.. i want thgs my way.. oh wells.. as ive said.. i understand if........ u noe.... yupps..

i need to recharge.. a long time.. alone.. with God.. yea.. ur not at fault yar? ur not to be blamed.. its cos.. im weak.. i can't handle my own life and i try to guan abt others.. oh wells.. dun worry abt me.. i'll be fine.. see u soon.. luv ya..


fuckingtired.nostrengthtocontinueon.mightjustgiveup.oneverythg.incldinglife.

just wanna post smthg short.. cos im tired..

tml gonna go hiking(scaling the bukit timah hill.. -_-||) den gonna go kayaking..

yawnz.........................

just wanted to dot ard.. haha.. nite peeps.. luv ya all..


My Passion
Planet Shakers

I gaze into Your Glorious Light
I know You're with me day and night
and now i want to praise Your Name

There's nothing else tthat i want more
than just to look on You in awe
I sense Your Spirit set to move

i know Your Love it never ends
I know Your Power gives me strength
i know somehow i'll never be the same

Its your Grace
that bought me freedom and praise
and fglorify Your name
my passion is to worship YOu

it's Your Love
a sacrifice to give
eternal life, i praise
You Lord and glorify Your Name

well.. i guess.. thgs have turned out alrite.. yupps.. i regret it.. yea.. im soooooooo ashame of myself.. i totally wld have regreted if it kinda turned out.. well.. tt way.. oh wells.. i guess i shd be thankful.. in sm sense.. cos.. i guess.. it brought us closer tgt.. and kinda.. wells.. made me (us) treasure each other more.. yupps..
(yea.. guess denyse shd be thanked.. *THANKS DENYSE!!!* yea..)


also.. she din get into SI.. but.. who cares? i dun.. cos to me.. she's the winner.. yupps.. haha.. biased.. but still.. who wld say his gf isn't? not unless he wanna die.. but yea.. haha..


life just.. rawked in some sense.. haha..cos well.. i have God.. =) plus the fact tt i have HER too.. =) life is just so great!!


how cld i ever repay You. left Your plc of glory giving Your life just for me. i lay my life upon the alter. take me now i plc my life in Your hands.

everythg i am i give to You
You are holy, holy


Father Lord.. i pray that Lord.. Your hand of blessing and mercy will just be upon my family and friends.. that You will guide us.. thru life's journey.. and that we know.. that You are a God.. who cares for us.. who loves us so much.. that You sent the darling of heaven.. and was crucified.. to pay our debts.. our sin.. You reign victorious.. and overcame the darkness.. Lord.. i pray that we too.. as Your children.. take strenght in and from You.. that we may overcome darkness we face.. thank you Lord Jesus.. Amen..

del the previous post.. i guess tt well.. i am.. well.. paranoid lorh.. yupps.. mabbie im the one who has a problem.. yupps.. in some sense.. mabbie.. you are rite.. i do suck im some sense.. but.. im gonna prove u wrong.. i want to.. cos.. of.. HER.. and myself.. and pple who believe in me.. yupps..

im gonna start a long overhaul of myself.. to improve my self-esteem.. (haha.. finally.. at long last) lolX.. yupps.. im gonna do this.. for HER.. esp.. yupps..

thk you.. the angel has lifted me up

been thinking alot for most of the night.. yupps.. after we put down.. i dunno.. i guess.. rather.. i AM wrong to ask that.. but.. i AM like that.. im a curious.. inquisitive guy.. but still.. mabbie i went to far this time? i dunno..

well.. mabbie i am too curious for my own good.. mabbie im not.. i wun know.. till curiosity killed me.. yar? ha.. i dunno..

mabbie u regret that you've chosen me? that im super curious? and all? i dunno.. tts your answer.. smthg i can't ans..

oh wells.. late.. gotta meet kenneth den go sentosa.. hopefully.. it can kinda like.. get my mind off stuffs.. yupps.. cya peeps


-i guess i asked alot last night/this morning.. im reallie reallie sorry.. i guess im too curious for my own good.. yupps.. im sorry.. and i luv ya..-

woah.. like.. almst a week havent blog le.. yupps.. loads has happened during the week sia.. loads..

lets see................. just a brief one here.. =)

tues.. hmmmMm.. the whole morn and afternoon was slacking and rotting ard at home.. yupps.. den at nite went to the black eyed peas concert.. yupps.. man.. the gig was awesome man.. even more fab when your at a concert with someone who has stolen your heart.. ;) lolX..

wed.. hmmM.. went out.. with my dearest cousin.. and slacked ard orchard.. finally got my slippers man.. yupps..

thurs.. if im not wrong.. went over to her hse and was suppose to watch peterpan..(the show) but in the end.. her frens went over.. and yea.. her fren had some problems and all.. yupps.. shant go into tt.. yupps..

fri.. went over to her hse AgAiN.. haha.. lolX.. spent our first mth tgt at her plc.. yupps.. =) got this reallie reallie big bottle of hearts.. (all tgt now.. 1..2..3.... awwwwwwwwwwwwwww soo sweett...... *melts melts*) fm her.. aww.. i so wanted to melt.. but.. nah.. it wun be a nice sight yar? haha..

sat.. hmmmM.. danny's wedding.. (congrats to u and ur wife..) at church.. yupps.. she was like.. gorgous.. man.. wow.. haha.. den had band rehersal.. was okay.. esp sincer uky was the supervisor.. yupps.. den sent her all the way to chinatown.. where she was supposed to meet her parents and have dinner with her fren.. hmmM.. den went for block party.. den slacked ard more.. with kc.. angel and anna.. yupps.. den again.. at st george's roti prata store.. haha..

sun.. had yf.. few stuffs hpn on tt day.. some memoriable.. some not soo.. one meoriable one.. i made up with.. erms.. my ex? yupps.. i did it.. with the help of bady rachel wong.. lolX.. haha.. den.. it was also shannon's baby shower.. bought smthg for her.. some baby toy kinda.. haha.. i dunno how to choose sia.. haha.. lolX.. at nite.. well.. had a mini quarrel.. bleah.. (fyi.. im updating the other blog on it.. yupps)

mon.. went.. rather.. flew over to her plc.. sm stuff hpned.. yupps.. but it ended well.. yupps.. shant elaborate on it le..

tues.. stayed over fm mon at unc's plc again.. once again...... was all alone.. sobz sobz.. worse thg was.. there's no sam tan to ka jiao le.. haiz.. i dunno larh.. i guess.. im just this.. loser? arse? i dunno.. but i guess.. i was wrong? tt i considered him as my best fren? or was i just having a wishful thinking? tt he's my best fren.. well.. i dunno larh.. its almst a mth.. he's doing to me like wad im doing to my ex.. at least.. was.. yupps.. haiz............




how wld you feel if someone.. said sm selfish thgs and directing all his/her pains and hurt towards the person you love? citing you as the reason of why the person's hurt? tt she's hurt cos you're in a relationship with someone she was close too?

you noe wad? i can't stand this kinda pple... backstabers.. tts wad i call them.. act.. why not? you did tt to me 3 times over.. becos of my ex.. aint it? no? 3 times.. i still forgave you.. trusted you.. i guess.. i made the wrong decision.. i dunno why i bother at all? mabbie then.. i nded someone.. and you were there.. yupps.. but now.. u noe wad? you've gone to far.. honestly.. you always go the extra mile.. to pissing/hurting others off.. dont u? lets see.. u like to be honest? rite? u want me to be honest here? u noe wad? i wun.. i shall spare you.. i dun wanna embarrass you at all.. cos tho i dun put ur name in.. your characteristics show tt its you.. doncha noe? i can't believe you're in the family you are at? and your name? i think it shd be called.. lucifer.. or sm sort of thg.. tt has tt same exact meaning... can't be more opposite... your name.. your family.. to think your parents are avid God chasers.. while you.. are........... shant say le.. dun wanna hurt your heart of stone..

i shant say much le.. tml gg sentosa with the usual.. kenneth.. jr.. and prob.. stef.. yups.. the all guys outing.. lolX.. and im broke.. haiz.... bb peeps.....




*you..

i've been smiling
without fail
everywhere i go
the train
the bus
mrt
at home
at sch
at church
everywhere


wanna know the reason why?


its simple


your love
your touch
your kiss

basically

you

and you

you're the reason the sun shines in my life
the reason why the night stars are filled with stars
the reason why i feel as tho i can do almst anythg
the reason why im smiling
the reason is you

i love you