had cg outing today.. went kite fdlying.,. dan played softball.. yawnz.. bored liao.. with softball.. haha.. nwae. played w my wrist again.. and well.. i numbed it first.. haha.. so clever arh?? haha... w my pay.. i think im getting some stuffs...
electric guitar
sneakers
cross trainers
bag
jeans
shirts
wad nots... haha... reali bored w blogging liao.. dunno do wad.. n its ard 28 more days to my funeral.. haiz... think i going ite liao.. me=loser, surrender-er... dun wanna fight liao.. give up.. gonna be emotionless

Linkin Park - Runaway

Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

i'm gonna run away and never say goodbye
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
i'm gonna run away and never wonder why
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
i'm gonna run away and open my mind
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

i wanna run away
and open up my mind
i wanna run away
and open up my mind
i wanna run away
and open up my mind
i wanna run away
and open up my mind

nwae.. im no angel or devil.. i do things i think is rite.. and even if it'll kills me.. i wun ever do things tts bad for u..

so long nv blog liao.. dunno can call it achievment or wad.. haha.. this mth really jia lat.. shit hpns alot.. and im being played ard like a ball.. haiz.. nwae... CNY was okie.. onli thing was horrible day.. ocs it was raining like.. crazy..not lottsa fellowship too.. haiz.. yawns.. din meet anyone new.. liek.. gers.. haha.. nvm... im just soo dunno.. bored by blogging liao lor.. the excitement is lost.. haha..nwae.. on sun gave the two cute gers.. sry guys.. really young..natalie and charlotte.. ang baos.. haha.. gave them 5 bucks each.. and got scolded for being nice.. man.. aunt julia(their mumsy) was liek..u arh.. nien ching ren arh.. u are still young.. and ur're not supposed to give them the ang aos.. wait ur're luv life will be very bad and cannot find a wife.. and all.. haha.. okie.. not scolding.. but ard there lar.. hmm..was thinking y angel gave tt look at me.. i finally noe why.. cos.. SHE gave them too.. hey.. i really honestly din noe lor.. prob a conincidence lar... nwae.. yar.. tts abt it.. haha.. my work is finally ending.. onli hope tt they dun extend my contract.. act.. i dun mind.. but i need to have a breather first.. ard a wk.. slacking at hm.. calling pple up and disturbing them after their sch.. and all.. listen to their nonsence.. and my nonsensical tok.. prob lar.. no confirmations.. nwae peeps.. open up the gates of Heaven and let the King of glory into ur Hearts!

go to http://www.philipt.com/writings/crying.htm read it..

saw a my fren's msn nick.. "stop thinking to solve all your problems." haha.. if onli thinking is just an on off switch... crap man.. everything im doing now is just a chore.. i just wanna be alone.. its better..
as if i dun have enough shit.. i get more fm work... the farkers rediculed me.. made me do shit.. and more shit.. onli thing is nv clean shit.. they dun pay me to clean shit.. but to do shit.. like this.. im under 2 different pple.. morning joanne, afternoon regina.. (names sounds fuckable.. but sry peeps.. she isn't) nwae.. i was just walking past the plc where they keep their stationary.. and heard joanne telling another temp.. "bu yao dong.. bu yao dong!" (translated.. it means dun touch it.. dun touch it..) dan she saw me walk by.. dan " dom arh.. hao, hao... lai bang wo nai dong ci" (translated means.. dom arh.. gd gd.. come help me take things..) and FUCK!! its the same thing tt she told the other temp guy not to take.. or touch.. as if i dun have enough shit up my ass....... gimme mopre shit.. if i break down.. which may be well soon.. cos i noe i really cannot take it anymore.. i really dun have they friggin str to hold on liao.. too tired and weary..and lacking confidence... and feeling faithless.. and "God.. if u wanna grab my attn.. pls dun use a cruel sick joke on me anymore.. " i really dunno.. im telling myself tt there is a reason.. i noe.. why this way? surely there are other ways tt will grab my attn.. i dunno anymore.. im too afraid to do my QT cos i dun wanna hear a negative fm Him.. im just backsliding.. fark fark fark.. i dun care.. nor do i wanna rake it up liao.. wadeva it is.. im gonna go past it.. as long as i get thru this.. i dun farking care who suffers for me to get thru this.. i dun give a DAMN..
haven't blogged abt work.. haha.. work is crap.. onli motivation is myself.. and some gals.. haha.. FINE... 20 something pple.. haha.. but hell.. they are like.. solid man.. there's this gal called joan and cyntia.. freak.. they like.. have perfect breast.. (guys.. start drooling) i mean.. looks kinda well shaped and all.. haha.. and joanne.. (another one.. ) has a nice butt. haha.. looks firm man.. haha.. and erm.. there another worker.. either sandy or sally.. who's just right.. haha.. i mean.. nice personality.. nice figure.. guys ard 20 something.. consider her man.. quite pretty too.. o yea.. and there's this lady.. quite chio one lar.. haha.. when we pass each other's paths.. she wld like.. smile at me.. haha.. suddenly lor.. like.. ytd started.. and hell.. a sweet smile too.. freak.. if im like.. 20 something too.. i'll consider her too.. haha.. got pretty gals at my workplc lar.. so guys.. pls consider my work plc.. haha.. onli warning.. if ur 20 something dan likely u can get ur future mate there.. haha.lolX..
guess thats abt it lar.. i just wanna be alone for a while.. so pls dun bother me.. unless its like.. damn bloodly impt.. .. happy CNY btw..

Westlife - What Makes A Man

This isn't goodbye, even as I watch you leave, this isn't goodbye
I swear I won't cry, even as tears fill my eyes, I swear I won't cry

Any other girl, I'd let you walk away
Any other girl, I'm sure I'd be ok

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So I can get over you

What makes her so right?
Is it the sound of her laugh?
That look in her eyes
When do you decide?
She is the dream that you seek
That force in your life

When you apologize, no matter who was wrong
When you get on your knees if that would bring her home

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know

So that I can get over you

Other girls will come along, they always do
But what's the point when all I ever want is you, tell me

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know..... (let me know)
Girl you gotta let me know..... (wooo)
So I can get over you

WOW!! im 875 wks old.. haha.. finally.. blogger can work.. haha... nwae.. just to tell u peeps tt im 875 wks old.. me gonna go liao.. bb

i dunno how to describe today.. hmm.. lottsa things hpned.. but well.. i reall y din expect it to turn out ThiS way.. its like.. erm.. i dun wanna say it.. but well.. it ends well.. at least for now.. i hope i wun change the ending.. i always screw it all up.. haiz... but well.. i need to adjust myself.. wasn't prepared to be erm... accepted?? well.. if ur reading this.. im not angry... and yea.. tts abt it.. i really thank God.. its a miracle.. honestly.. nv tot things wld be this way.. lolX.. DOM.. one step at a time.. things dun always hpn the way u want it too.. rmb tt.. and peeps.. rmb tt too.. God Bless...

yawnz.. tml working.. yawns.. tired.. feeling fatigue and wadnots.. (latagic??) haha.. plan to clean up my room (finALLY!) and change backgd music.. thinking of either this day by steven curtis chapman.. or open up the gates by planet shakers.. or mabbie a song.. dunno wad it is.. but damn nice.. by rebecca st james.. (i think.. lolX) yawnZ.. nwae.. did the dirty deed... ( fInE.. its not..) and realized that i kinda ransaked my rm.. (sorta) just to look for my chin bks.. can ya believe it?? i dun touch them.. let alone search for them.. unless its like.. a day or 2 b4 my chin exam.. and better still.. there's one more.. i missed it.. hahaha.. yaWnZ.. im soo frigging tired.. im off to slp.. at 10.. haha. nite peeps.. God Bless!!

crazy jappie


haha got this link.. okie.. stole this link fm crystal.. this is soo stupid.. and TOTALLY crazy.. haha.. eh.. i onli noe one piece.. fur elise.. can someone else like.. tell me wad the other piece is?/ like.. ";".. i noe u noe.. haha.. lolX.. or whoever... jce??

Linkin Park - Figure.09

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infiite words I could say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)

[Chorus]
(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to them and everyday
I regret saying those things cuz now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)

[Chorus]
(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)

(Get away from me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you
(Know)
I let you go so get away from
(Me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I've kept it but now I'm letting you
(Know)
I let you go

(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

I've let myself become you
I've let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me, I've let myself become you

finally.. 1 jan.. lolX.. lotsa hpn yd.. 31 dec.. fm the start..
morn was like.. slping.. haha.. zZZzZzZ.. dan went to play pool w j koh, stradford, sweet fart (swee tatt) and brendon.. hmm.. played 10 nall and 9 ball.. im getting better.. NOT!!.. haha.. lolX.. went hm at ard 6 ++.. dad str away ask me.. not going church arh? u in commitee rite?? need to go one meh?? i was like.. tired lar.. wanna go zZzZ.. lolX.. lame ans. but i tooka nap.. haha.. wen to church for watchnight service.. Oh YeAh.. ujin is backk.. looks the same.. no diff.. haha.. was doing PA.. all alone.. SSP and sond system.. lolX.. tring.. dan the youths presented to songs.. " stronger than" & "irrisitable" nice songs.. haha.. played the bass.. (as usual) haha.. after the service.. went to Youth rm practice my power chords.. YEAH!!.. got is rite.. but dun noe the stupid theory.. lolX.. who cares nwae.. i dun.. haha.. jammed for like.. 30 odd mins.. haha.. oso saw tt she was having a great time.. and was really happy w the others.. so.. yea.. even more determined to leave.. pple tell me to like.. make the 1st move.. say sori or smthg lidat... idea is to like.. reconcil w her.. nah.. i suck at it.. sm how or other.. i;ll screw it up sooner or later.. cos i did smthg like this once.. and well.. i made the 1st move.. and well.. at 1st was okay.. dan i screwed things up.. so yea.. learnt my lesson.. but well.. this time.. i have no choice.. why?? well.. my mum was talking to her.. and learnt tt she was taking higher chinese.. and now.. my mum wants me to like.. give her my past yr/yrs books.. cos i will.... anything to help her.. and.. lolX.. my books are like.. kinda new.. cos i seldom/use them but dun really use them during lessons cos slacking or thinking hard.. or finishing other hmwks.. lolX.. haha.. oh well.. OH.. and if ur reading this.. good luck.. all the best.. and dun be the driver....
doubt she's reading this.. but oh well.. just in case.. haha.. and jaime.. NO.. im not passing it to her personally.. but yea.. this time willl have a lil note i guess.. haha.. and shit.. ur rite abt ur wadevA theory abt it.. fark.. i hate to be wrong.. ok.. ur ard there.. but i mean.. she's like.. damn happy.. so.. yar.. u noe lar.. haha.. dun wanna say much liao.. gonna like.. slp.. nitey peeps.. and HAVE A JOYOUS NEW YR!!!