there are somethings that put you in a dreamy mode and make you wonder if you are still living in fantasy or in dreamland even while you touch reality. you are made to double check if you are dreaming. but while you do that, it somehow becomes a mixed up reality that sweeps past you in a flash, leaving you no chance to digest the fact- the fact that soon becomes part of you.
i woke up today still full of anticipation and tension that has not subsided.
i went for a tuition in rich ppl's newton area.. near rgs. it makes you feel dreamy and calm, almost surreal.
den i made my way to bukit batok via choa chu kang where i spent 30 mins of my life searching the entire neighbourhood for this photolab. it was crazily far away from the MRT. and i cant believe that i spent 80 bux to develop my stash of photos. feel so accomplished but yet robbed. but it was gd.
den i went back to hall, buying bao bao cha for those great subcommers i have for publications. at least ppl whom i could trust with for a favour.
den someone talked to me and told me abt the poor attitude of some subcommers who covered some games.
den i came to blog.
and realised this is reality. it is real.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
i kind of realised that it is lingo to go "pulled up" or "pulled down" when referring to your uni GPA. interesting. you shud seldom reveal the intricate numbers unless absolutely cornered. hmms.
i kind of realised that today is the first competitive match of the interhall games i am going to play and it is going to be war.
i kind of realised that today is the first competitive match of the interhall games i am going to play and it is going to be war.
Friday, December 19, 2008
flying. gone
it is long past a year that i am out of the army.
it is long past a year that i last taught my graduating tutees.
it is long past a year that i was enjoying 3 trips overseas.
it is almost a year that i first taught in AJ.
it is almost a year of really crazy stuff that i have never expected to do.
it is a year.
i guess when you are 21, you begin to forgo counting those years as they fly past even before you embrace them. you try to put a step in and stop the sliding travellator below your weary feet only to find that it moves even faster and tires you even more. you are used to facing a transitionless 20 years of age where everything is more or less the same with little responsibility and challenges to face. but suddenly, you are riddled with everything under the sun to choose from that makes your life more exciting yet detesting. eventually, time grabs you and spin you dry, leaving you with little more than picture memories to share; vague memories that you can recall. such is the new age of 21-30 i guess.
it is long past a year that i last taught my graduating tutees.
it is long past a year that i was enjoying 3 trips overseas.
it is almost a year that i first taught in AJ.
it is almost a year of really crazy stuff that i have never expected to do.
it is a year.
i guess when you are 21, you begin to forgo counting those years as they fly past even before you embrace them. you try to put a step in and stop the sliding travellator below your weary feet only to find that it moves even faster and tires you even more. you are used to facing a transitionless 20 years of age where everything is more or less the same with little responsibility and challenges to face. but suddenly, you are riddled with everything under the sun to choose from that makes your life more exciting yet detesting. eventually, time grabs you and spin you dry, leaving you with little more than picture memories to share; vague memories that you can recall. such is the new age of 21-30 i guess.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
finally..
like finally.
took a break from school.
hid at home for 4 days and not bother abt anything to do with hall games.
maybe the words dished out was timely in reminding me that one cant do everything himself.
let.
a good leader uses people, not himself.
den again, what leadership is there to mumble about?
alright. i am not a real leader in that sense. never had the character to be one. one with charisma. but at least there's a place where i belong.
servant leadership. sounds sooo familiar :p but upon running a real search up on its values on the internet long ago, it is something really interesting and significant.
let go.
din utilise my camera for the past 4 days but i can tell you i met up with like 123123 groups of ppl for like in many months. well done.
will post up some nice photos when i do get them, if i do..
okay sorry for whining again but check out some stunning aerial photos of london
http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2008/08/london_from_above_at_night.html
sometimes it is nice enough to look at Waterloo station, River Thames, The Big Ben and the London Eye from pictures knowing that there will still be this one day that will exist. that will make the pictures light up in my mind so vividly. that there will be this one day to capture and savour. that eventually this one day will not be intangible.
i can still remember gawking and going crazy planning routes and the costs of travel between wimbledon, waterloo and den to south kensington, Imperial College. that beautiful 45mins journey from my would-be lodging in a private estate(thanks to ks's aunt!) will take me past thames river and of course, the Stamford Bridge. that 45 mins would have repeated itself 2 times a day, 5 times a week at least. of cos, my fren is really walking past Stamford Bridge every week and rubbing shoulders with the walls in LSE everyday. ANd im not too bad too! i still get great photos to enjoy and from Singapore, there are still many things that i can savour thou you will still begin to miss the chance but i am sure it will strike again! what has been given up will be rewarded with something bigger in the future (: work even harder.
harder.
took a break from school.
hid at home for 4 days and not bother abt anything to do with hall games.
maybe the words dished out was timely in reminding me that one cant do everything himself.
let.
a good leader uses people, not himself.
den again, what leadership is there to mumble about?
alright. i am not a real leader in that sense. never had the character to be one. one with charisma. but at least there's a place where i belong.
servant leadership. sounds sooo familiar :p but upon running a real search up on its values on the internet long ago, it is something really interesting and significant.
let go.
din utilise my camera for the past 4 days but i can tell you i met up with like 123123 groups of ppl for like in many months. well done.
will post up some nice photos when i do get them, if i do..
okay sorry for whining again but check out some stunning aerial photos of london
http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2008/08/london_from_above_at_night.html
sometimes it is nice enough to look at Waterloo station, River Thames, The Big Ben and the London Eye from pictures knowing that there will still be this one day that will exist. that will make the pictures light up in my mind so vividly. that there will be this one day to capture and savour. that eventually this one day will not be intangible.
i can still remember gawking and going crazy planning routes and the costs of travel between wimbledon, waterloo and den to south kensington, Imperial College. that beautiful 45mins journey from my would-be lodging in a private estate(thanks to ks's aunt!) will take me past thames river and of course, the Stamford Bridge. that 45 mins would have repeated itself 2 times a day, 5 times a week at least. of cos, my fren is really walking past Stamford Bridge every week and rubbing shoulders with the walls in LSE everyday. ANd im not too bad too! i still get great photos to enjoy and from Singapore, there are still many things that i can savour thou you will still begin to miss the chance but i am sure it will strike again! what has been given up will be rewarded with something bigger in the future (: work even harder.
harder.
Friday, December 12, 2008
OK A quick quick update!busy period at the interhall games..
lotsa photos but not uploading them here..
got to register modules for next sem soon.. some stupid fastest finger shit.
it must be some conspiracy to move the economy.. this fastest finger shit
cause it gets all students to be back in sch to tap on the fast intranet
to make sure they get the modules they want.
the bus company earns.
mrt earns.
canteen earns.
govt earns.
1 more hour to fastest finger!
exciting.
never done it before. shud be quite retarded.
who cares.
ntu student afterall.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Fullerton Hotel.Wedding is probably the best thing to happen in your life. looks like the transition is complete. after all the 21st bdays, the next milestone is the celebration of weddings. oh my, the stakes are even higher this time.
k, lets not just be so superficial and just look at the monetary stakes. :p
It is a wonderful thing to happen. looks really beautiful and surreal at times. but it also signifies change and commitment. such power embracing the day makes it even more grand and meaningful. when you are sitting down looking at the slideshow for the first time in your life as a friend of the couple, you start to wonder: when is it your turn. how would it be? how grand do you want it to be? how much pride are you willing to forsake for this most beautiful day of your life.
WE ARE JUST 21. most. it just takes another 9 more years for most of us to tie this knot too. time flies! wedding bells ring.
just when.
k, lets not just be so superficial and just look at the monetary stakes. :p
It is a wonderful thing to happen. looks really beautiful and surreal at times. but it also signifies change and commitment. such power embracing the day makes it even more grand and meaningful. when you are sitting down looking at the slideshow for the first time in your life as a friend of the couple, you start to wonder: when is it your turn. how would it be? how grand do you want it to be? how much pride are you willing to forsake for this most beautiful day of your life.
WE ARE JUST 21. most. it just takes another 9 more years for most of us to tie this knot too. time flies! wedding bells ring.
just when.
Friday, December 05, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/391709/1/.html
Chong Poh Soon, parent and engineer, said: "My concern is more about the aptitude of the teachers. I have seen passionate teachers who are not graduates."
claps.
WAKE UP!!!
it is not about the PAPER or the results. it is about how the people come out of the system as great individuals from the sparkle in their eyes and the character they develop. you think everyone can do that? worse. you think everyone with a degree or paper is more equipped to do that. WORSE. YOU HAVE A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT WAY.
!
project work
H1/2/3 system to replace the AO, A, Spaper system that hoped to inject diversity in the education system. (where did triple science, double maths go to? now what do we have? only the PCME thing is left.)
no first 3 months.
spare us.
spare my kids.
actually there's no need to say that.
you are convincing me even more to take them out.
go on.
Chong Poh Soon, parent and engineer, said: "My concern is more about the aptitude of the teachers. I have seen passionate teachers who are not graduates."
claps.
WAKE UP!!!
it is not about the PAPER or the results. it is about how the people come out of the system as great individuals from the sparkle in their eyes and the character they develop. you think everyone can do that? worse. you think everyone with a degree or paper is more equipped to do that. WORSE. YOU HAVE A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT WAY.
!
project work
H1/2/3 system to replace the AO, A, Spaper system that hoped to inject diversity in the education system. (where did triple science, double maths go to? now what do we have? only the PCME thing is left.)
no first 3 months.
spare us.
spare my kids.
actually there's no need to say that.
you are convincing me even more to take them out.
go on.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
timely reminders
if there's one thing i ever admired someone else for, it is his/her start in life.
if there's one thing i ever looked down on someone else upon, it is his/her indulgence in his/her start in life.
hit me.
i am not jealous - i am just looking through the 21 past years. one day i will reach that point making it all the more satisfying knowing that i did it with my own hands.
i would not care how you reached yours.
in the end, all that matters is the satisfaction in turning things around. i cudnt have asked for a greater challenge right at the start as it is this very challenge that makes people much much stronger.
many a time i am sure most of you will look at someone else and wonder why he/she has something better, something nicer. how about looking past that and wonder how can you do that too? afterall, the lack of it in life does not equate to us not getting it in future. what God has not given us in the first place is just a challenge for us to seek it more actively and treasure it more dearly than those who have gotten them easily.
fight.
that is the key.
if you want it, you have to get it.
in the end you will only have praises for yourself.
wallow and you will never get it.
in the end, you will just question everybody except yourself.
i am coming.
21 years on.
if there's one thing i ever looked down on someone else upon, it is his/her indulgence in his/her start in life.
hit me.
i am not jealous - i am just looking through the 21 past years. one day i will reach that point making it all the more satisfying knowing that i did it with my own hands.
i would not care how you reached yours.
in the end, all that matters is the satisfaction in turning things around. i cudnt have asked for a greater challenge right at the start as it is this very challenge that makes people much much stronger.
many a time i am sure most of you will look at someone else and wonder why he/she has something better, something nicer. how about looking past that and wonder how can you do that too? afterall, the lack of it in life does not equate to us not getting it in future. what God has not given us in the first place is just a challenge for us to seek it more actively and treasure it more dearly than those who have gotten them easily.
fight.
that is the key.
if you want it, you have to get it.
in the end you will only have praises for yourself.
wallow and you will never get it.
in the end, you will just question everybody except yourself.
i am coming.
21 years on.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
both of u finished exams oredi arh?
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
i finished. left one la haha 26th
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
that ass.. next week 3 more
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
haha
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
eating all his notes
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
as fast as possible
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
i burning n drink leh
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
omg haha
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
haha
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
i 5 next wk
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
WTH?
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
den i take all e notes n use to wipe my ass
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
yea
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
sux
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
1234 n 6
enough said?
OKAYS.
i cut my hair after a million years.
i slept on my wonderful bed first time in 2 weeks.
more importantly, i slept well.
i slept again in the afternoon.
i watched the much acclaimed 9pm ruien show. she's still so chio!
i finally have the time to sit down and wonder what the hell should i do.
omg.
that's so 'bimbo' like what my hall mates will say.
i finally started adding ppl on facebook again. after like 1 year of inactivity?
finally, i am acting as if MY EXAMS HAVE ENDED.
but it hasnt. ops.
last paper is on the 26th. but i am taking a breather now k.
soothe myself that, as i always put it, 休息是为了走更长远的路。i cant believe my block mates actually printed that stuff for me haha. i shud take a photo of that one day. at the bottom it was "dota anybody?" WAD A DEMOTIVATOR for exams.
who cares, 5 down; 1more to go.
today is also the first day i received an invitation to a wedding.
i guess that marks 21 years living on earth. after being one of the last few to celebrate this day as compared to all the same age counterparts and exhausting the piggybank for parties.. the stakes are uping even higher in a bigger ballgame. WEDDINGS. k. 9 more years to 30. that sounds sucky and the wedding invitation confirms that.
man, are we really that old?
sometimes in school i really wonder why would i be graduating at 24/25.. cudnt i have accelerated that process? just like the many others around me. sighs. so old and yet still stuck in school.
aiya. enough enough. that is depressing.
it shudnt be discussed on such a wonderful day!
okaysss i shall be off to play some games! enjoy the night; just like my sis who is playing some THE SIMS2. reprieve after o levels. which seems so, so, so far away.
both of u finished exams oredi arh?
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
i finished. left one la haha 26th
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
that ass.. next week 3 more
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
haha
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
eating all his notes
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
as fast as possible
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
i burning n drink leh
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
omg haha
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
haha
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
i 5 next wk
i can only imagine. yongchuen says:
WTH?
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
den i take all e notes n use to wipe my ass
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
yea
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
sux
Guoxi Goal 2009 Prep says:
1234 n 6
enough said?
OKAYS.
i cut my hair after a million years.
i slept on my wonderful bed first time in 2 weeks.
more importantly, i slept well.
i slept again in the afternoon.
i watched the much acclaimed 9pm ruien show. she's still so chio!
i finally have the time to sit down and wonder what the hell should i do.
omg.
that's so 'bimbo' like what my hall mates will say.
i finally started adding ppl on facebook again. after like 1 year of inactivity?
finally, i am acting as if MY EXAMS HAVE ENDED.
but it hasnt. ops.
last paper is on the 26th. but i am taking a breather now k.
soothe myself that, as i always put it, 休息是为了走更长远的路。i cant believe my block mates actually printed that stuff for me haha. i shud take a photo of that one day. at the bottom it was "dota anybody?" WAD A DEMOTIVATOR for exams.
who cares, 5 down; 1more to go.
today is also the first day i received an invitation to a wedding.
i guess that marks 21 years living on earth. after being one of the last few to celebrate this day as compared to all the same age counterparts and exhausting the piggybank for parties.. the stakes are uping even higher in a bigger ballgame. WEDDINGS. k. 9 more years to 30. that sounds sucky and the wedding invitation confirms that.
man, are we really that old?
sometimes in school i really wonder why would i be graduating at 24/25.. cudnt i have accelerated that process? just like the many others around me. sighs. so old and yet still stuck in school.
aiya. enough enough. that is depressing.
it shudnt be discussed on such a wonderful day!
okaysss i shall be off to play some games! enjoy the night; just like my sis who is playing some THE SIMS2. reprieve after o levels. which seems so, so, so far away.
Monday, November 17, 2008
my dreams
Source: Nasa Website (http://www.nasa.gov/mission_pages/shuttle/shuttlemissions/sts126/multimedia/fd1/fd1_gallery.html)dreams.
i dream to be piloting that one day.
to be the one saying "Houston, I copy that."
"Mission Control, we are home."
fly. fly above the skies.
where there's only you and destiny.
believe that one day the first singaporean
is me.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
This is how it ends.
ookays.
I HAVE OFFICIALLY MUGGED MY LIFE AWAY.
who cares.
ok recap.
was doing econs paper while the guys were happily outside my room planting food into the bowl for a 'bday cake'. yea, 51'ers. i cant believe they gave me like 100023123 amount of sweet stuff in the bowl and had me to eat it. in the end shared it around... clowned in the room for quite awhile; took photos and videos with the webcam..
thanks ppl!
after that, we had great plans for DOTA!!!
only to be ruined by a SP decision :(
2nd game cudnt take off.
the game was spoilt!!!
but i was on form for econs!!! went on to clarify alot of stuff with those ai zai ppl around :p
i cant believe i did econs until 530.
den i tried ot sleep.
and i found out the SRAS, LRAS, AD curves kept shifting in my mind.
they just kept shifting.
until i remembered the bloody fogging guy had to walk past my room with the freaking noisy machine. at 11am. 11am. the demand and supply of mosquitoes came into my brain. while i forced myself to bed for another 1 hour. struggling.
went for lunch. some sucky cai fan. the food in ntu is getting worse day by day!
den i went to mug again for like 123213 hrs. OKAY i had some bday treat. drank some mocha. not that zai, nestle can only. better than nothing.
until dinner. wth.
dinner wasted 1+ hr. waiting :( and eating fish soup with rice. okay. treated myself another drink. i love sweet stuff. .
came back. non stop. revised econs again. did a physics paper. for friday's test.
until now. i have 5 chapters of macro to get into my brain before i retire. tmr's econs exam is 5pm. that's all i have to dream abt the curves.
i can never forget econs.
maybe it is fate. that it comes one whole round again. to the same letter i see everyday.
heh.
well, it was still fruitful.
IF I GET THE A :p
goodluck.
goodluck ppl.
study well!
I HAVE OFFICIALLY MUGGED MY LIFE AWAY.
who cares.
ok recap.
was doing econs paper while the guys were happily outside my room planting food into the bowl for a 'bday cake'. yea, 51'ers. i cant believe they gave me like 100023123 amount of sweet stuff in the bowl and had me to eat it. in the end shared it around... clowned in the room for quite awhile; took photos and videos with the webcam..
thanks ppl!
after that, we had great plans for DOTA!!!
only to be ruined by a SP decision :(
2nd game cudnt take off.
the game was spoilt!!!
but i was on form for econs!!! went on to clarify alot of stuff with those ai zai ppl around :p
i cant believe i did econs until 530.
den i tried ot sleep.
and i found out the SRAS, LRAS, AD curves kept shifting in my mind.
they just kept shifting.
until i remembered the bloody fogging guy had to walk past my room with the freaking noisy machine. at 11am. 11am. the demand and supply of mosquitoes came into my brain. while i forced myself to bed for another 1 hour. struggling.
went for lunch. some sucky cai fan. the food in ntu is getting worse day by day!
den i went to mug again for like 123213 hrs. OKAY i had some bday treat. drank some mocha. not that zai, nestle can only. better than nothing.
until dinner. wth.
dinner wasted 1+ hr. waiting :( and eating fish soup with rice. okay. treated myself another drink. i love sweet stuff. .
came back. non stop. revised econs again. did a physics paper. for friday's test.
until now. i have 5 chapters of macro to get into my brain before i retire. tmr's econs exam is 5pm. that's all i have to dream abt the curves.
i can never forget econs.
maybe it is fate. that it comes one whole round again. to the same letter i see everyday.
heh.
well, it was still fruitful.
IF I GET THE A :p
goodluck.
goodluck ppl.
study well!
Monday, November 10, 2008
boom.
reality strikes.
when your arms are full, you are rich with everything.
when you have nothing, you are nothing.
it is really still how it works.
no matter how optimistic you are.
really.
ON a lighter note! it is 10th nov 6.47pm.
what great mugging. okay this 3 weeks will be testing. not testing in terms of doing well but in terms of surpassing the greatest. that is what it is all about here.
im trying, believe me. for myself.
there's probably something wrong with me! but till i have reached that goal, there's no stopping.
what lighter note.
ok, few hours time i shud be celebrating the date that im closer to death.
most celebrate this date by having a party.
BUT i believe this date has to be celebrated. it is the start of war.
and i shall mark it and make an unprecedented wish.
a wish that
in the end of the day
top of the world it will be.
not top of the economic world but of the mental world.
that i am.
that i can never regret the winding route this journey has been.
after all, after celebrating this date, closer to death i am.
(:
reality strikes.
when your arms are full, you are rich with everything.
when you have nothing, you are nothing.
it is really still how it works.
no matter how optimistic you are.
really.
ON a lighter note! it is 10th nov 6.47pm.
what great mugging. okay this 3 weeks will be testing. not testing in terms of doing well but in terms of surpassing the greatest. that is what it is all about here.
im trying, believe me. for myself.
there's probably something wrong with me! but till i have reached that goal, there's no stopping.
what lighter note.
ok, few hours time i shud be celebrating the date that im closer to death.
most celebrate this date by having a party.
BUT i believe this date has to be celebrated. it is the start of war.
and i shall mark it and make an unprecedented wish.
a wish that
in the end of the day
top of the world it will be.
not top of the economic world but of the mental world.
that i am.
that i can never regret the winding route this journey has been.
after all, after celebrating this date, closer to death i am.
(:
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Saturday, November 01, 2008
everyday books can be published over investment outlines that reiterate diversification fondly. but why even thou the educated population are so indoctrinated by it that we forget to apply it in our daily lives?
if only we understood diversification well enough to have prevented this melamine situation. the same rule applies right? instead of eating the same food everytime. try different things.
i sound as if i have made a wonderful discovery. but i haven. because
1. it is not written lengthy enough to be in a form of a book.
2. my name sounds anonymous enough.
i guess as much.
nevertheless i will try..
eventually when i am more 'famous' even my daily rubbish is gold.
just like their manys'.
if only we understood diversification well enough to have prevented this melamine situation. the same rule applies right? instead of eating the same food everytime. try different things.
i sound as if i have made a wonderful discovery. but i haven. because
1. it is not written lengthy enough to be in a form of a book.
2. my name sounds anonymous enough.
i guess as much.
nevertheless i will try..
eventually when i am more 'famous' even my daily rubbish is gold.
just like their manys'.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Supporters cheer as Mohamed 'Anni' Nasheed unseats Asia's longest-serving leader in the Maldives' first democratic presidential election."Asia's Longest Serving Leader Loses"
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/7696656.stm
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/7696656.stm
Maldives President Maumoon Abdul Gayoom has conceded electoral victory to opposition leader Mohamed Nasheed.
I was just taken aback when i saw the heading on my BBC RSS feed. "Asia's Longest Serving Leader Loses".
Well, I guess the BBC was refering leader as one being a president or someone of democratic leadership? But then again the word 'loses' is already glaring at me. how cud that be. so stupid me.
Well, I guess the BBC was refering leader as one being a president or someone of democratic leadership? But then again the word 'loses' is already glaring at me. how cud that be. so stupid me.
how exciting.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Singapore's brand of efficient planning is both its strength and weakness. 'Great cities work because they are full of surprises. You can't plan everything to the nth degree, you have to leave some space at the margins.'
- Mr Tyler Brule, MONOCLE'S editor-in-chief, Straits Times 24th October 2008.
that pretty sums up why i said no that day.
you cant just plan everything til the day you retire.
it just makes me feel sick if i know i work everyday with an expiry tag.
the uncertainty everyday,
how life may twist anyway today
keeps me alive mentally and physically.
this is still what i am after.
the iron rice bowl no more.
the harder the route, the more challenging it is
the more challenging it is, the more satisfying it can be.
- Mr Tyler Brule, MONOCLE'S editor-in-chief, Straits Times 24th October 2008.
that pretty sums up why i said no that day.
you cant just plan everything til the day you retire.
it just makes me feel sick if i know i work everyday with an expiry tag.
the uncertainty everyday,
how life may twist anyway today
keeps me alive mentally and physically.
this is still what i am after.
the iron rice bowl no more.
the harder the route, the more challenging it is
the more challenging it is, the more satisfying it can be.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
freaky
ONCE AGAIN. the toilet gave me inspiration for some stuff.
im so amazed at how a bath helps you relook things in a new perspective.
im so amazed at how a bath helps you relook things in a new perspective.
when you believe
I am in love with flash photography.
I can't believe I read up on it for 3 hours in the library during my breaks.
I have a new target.
But it is rather expensive again.
I shall save up but meanwhile learn through my homemade setup!
hehe.
I am so intrigued.
This is what flash produced today.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Freedom doesn't mean the absence of all restrictions. It means possessing unshakable conviction in the face of any obstacle.
-Daisaku Ikeda-
i love to go around and collect quotes from people. came across this wonderful one. so beautiful. oh yes i got it from this person's flickr photo caption http://www.flickr.com/photos/
i must take time off to learn some web designing and do sth up with all my photos. shall set dec to be the time i do it :p i need to print my photos and mount them on my walls. they serve as inspiration :) okay. i hope to do that.. for now enjoy this next series of 2 photos.
i must take time off to learn some web designing and do sth up with all my photos. shall set dec to be the time i do it :p i need to print my photos and mount them on my walls. they serve as inspiration :) okay. i hope to do that.. for now enjoy this next series of 2 photos.
the new life.Wednesday, October 15, 2008
OMG. i cant believe i lost so much sleep over this stupid lab report.
but i was repaid today with freedom!
played the whole day :) hehe. cool eh.
in mood for photos!! check out the new d80 photos (: with 50mm 1.8 heh.
then of cos, i made the effort to make some spaghetti after the training! at about 11pm hehe. check out the cool cook.
Den it was dota until now. sorry.
but tmr is reality again.
but i was repaid today with freedom!
played the whole day :) hehe. cool eh.
in mood for photos!! check out the new d80 photos (: with 50mm 1.8 heh.
hockey training today!
then of cos, i made the effort to make some spaghetti after the training! at about 11pm hehe. check out the cool cook.
Den it was dota until now. sorry.but tmr is reality again.
Monday, October 13, 2008
SINGAPORE: The global economy is in a crisis, and psychiatrists say they expect to see more Singaporeans seeking help for clinical depression and anxiety.
Psychiatrists say many people sought such treatment during the Asian Financial crisis, SARS epidemic and after the September 11 attacks in the US. And it would be no different this time round.
source: CNA, http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/382356/1/.html
hokkien say 'gong jiao wei'.
chinese say 'fei hua'.
english say 'obviously'.
i say 'Singaporeans must be resilient as we are experiencing a tough ride'
and hope it hits headlines.
but it doesn't.
cause i am nothing.
are they?
i am pissed at being woken up. if you want to go for dinner den just go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok im just being grumpy cause i din get my sleep. but after looking at these photos.. mood change eh.
check them out:
surprisingly, i already had that first photo in mind when i took it with some F1 feel. btw it was taken last year if im not wrong.. i was quite surprised similar angles of the esplanade bridge appeared on reuters by their photographers :) but no dont get me wrong, i dont think anyone has seen these photoso b4 haha. it is like telling NAT GEOG TO STOP COPYING ME. when i am nothing. i am nothing. ok but enjoy this series of night shots. i have more upcoming up but shall post them slowly haha. soon i can achieve 1 photo per day!
Psychiatrists say many people sought such treatment during the Asian Financial crisis, SARS epidemic and after the September 11 attacks in the US. And it would be no different this time round.
source: CNA, http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/382356/1/.html
hokkien say 'gong jiao wei'.
chinese say 'fei hua'.
english say 'obviously'.
i say 'Singaporeans must be resilient as we are experiencing a tough ride'
and hope it hits headlines.
but it doesn't.
cause i am nothing.
are they?
i am pissed at being woken up. if you want to go for dinner den just go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok im just being grumpy cause i din get my sleep. but after looking at these photos.. mood change eh.
check them out:
surprisingly, i already had that first photo in mind when i took it with some F1 feel. btw it was taken last year if im not wrong.. i was quite surprised similar angles of the esplanade bridge appeared on reuters by their photographers :) but no dont get me wrong, i dont think anyone has seen these photoso b4 haha. it is like telling NAT GEOG TO STOP COPYING ME. when i am nothing. i am nothing. ok but enjoy this series of night shots. i have more upcoming up but shall post them slowly haha. soon i can achieve 1 photo per day!
Friday, October 10, 2008
lessons to be learnt
here's wad a financial analyst will say:
spread your eggs in many baskets.. do lower risk. watch your risk appetite so that you can formulate a portfolio. in this market of flux and the impending financial crash, do be more prudent with your money. where there is excess, there will eventually be something that restores it. there is no such thing as high risk high return.
here's wad a food nutritionist will say:
you must always remember to balance your diet with fruits, vegetables and meat. red meat and white meat must be eaten in moderation. do remember to drink lots of water too. you must make an effort to consume enough vitamins too. if you are having stomach queasiness you might want to take soft food to allow any bad toxins to clear from the weakened stomach
here's wad a baby doctor will do(sorry dunno wad is the technical name; don't bother to know either):
baby has weak teeth.. do feed him soft food. if the baby cries he needs attention. it could be that he is hungry or that something is uncomfortable somewhere. do not ignore his calls. make an effort to keep him clean and dry to prevent any bacterial growth. milk must be warm when given to him, this is very important as it may scald his tongue if too hot.
here's wad my mom can and always says:
boy ah, queue there. i queue here. see who reach first den we pay at that counter. too long the queue doesnt mean we cannot chiong; see which cashier faster only. remember this when you clearing customs also. otherwise if 4 boeing 747 touchdown you just end there 2hours. thailand especially.
boy ah, drink more water please. you ahve not been drinking. boy ah, can you stop playing your game(while i am most concentrated in the dota game of my life). take more fruits, can help you if constipation. eat things dont eat too salty, not gd for body.
boy ah, you lao sai whole morning already. do you want me make porridge?
of course, for the baby example i cant really remember that already :p so sorry.
but of course. here's the point of the message.
i dont understand why we need them around.
to teach us wad we know?
or to soothe us that someone knows?
to kid us that we know less and hence need to learn more?
or just so that people can have jobs.
ironically, they earn much much much more than any average family in town. more than my mom.
my mom does/did the work of all 3 combined.
though, i have yet to repay this debt.
spread your eggs in many baskets.. do lower risk. watch your risk appetite so that you can formulate a portfolio. in this market of flux and the impending financial crash, do be more prudent with your money. where there is excess, there will eventually be something that restores it. there is no such thing as high risk high return.
here's wad a food nutritionist will say:
you must always remember to balance your diet with fruits, vegetables and meat. red meat and white meat must be eaten in moderation. do remember to drink lots of water too. you must make an effort to consume enough vitamins too. if you are having stomach queasiness you might want to take soft food to allow any bad toxins to clear from the weakened stomach
here's wad a baby doctor will do(sorry dunno wad is the technical name; don't bother to know either):
baby has weak teeth.. do feed him soft food. if the baby cries he needs attention. it could be that he is hungry or that something is uncomfortable somewhere. do not ignore his calls. make an effort to keep him clean and dry to prevent any bacterial growth. milk must be warm when given to him, this is very important as it may scald his tongue if too hot.
here's wad my mom can and always says:
boy ah, queue there. i queue here. see who reach first den we pay at that counter. too long the queue doesnt mean we cannot chiong; see which cashier faster only. remember this when you clearing customs also. otherwise if 4 boeing 747 touchdown you just end there 2hours. thailand especially.
boy ah, drink more water please. you ahve not been drinking. boy ah, can you stop playing your game(while i am most concentrated in the dota game of my life). take more fruits, can help you if constipation. eat things dont eat too salty, not gd for body.
boy ah, you lao sai whole morning already. do you want me make porridge?
of course, for the baby example i cant really remember that already :p so sorry.
but of course. here's the point of the message.
i dont understand why we need them around.
to teach us wad we know?
or to soothe us that someone knows?
to kid us that we know less and hence need to learn more?
or just so that people can have jobs.
ironically, they earn much much much more than any average family in town. more than my mom.
my mom does/did the work of all 3 combined.
though, i have yet to repay this debt.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Saturday, October 04, 2008
i can fly - if you teaach me how
im so inspired by nat geographic.
i am beginning to realise how photos tell a story. i am beginning to realise how words relate the story. and how they of them make it whole.
(http://yanikphotoschool.com/tips/the-1-monopod/)
this is so amazing.
so much to try.
i am beginning to realise how photos tell a story. i am beginning to realise how words relate the story. and how they of them make it whole.
(http://yanikphotoschool.com/tips/the-1-monopod/)
this is so amazing.
so much to try.
you are not invincible
anything is not over until it is over
Source: AP
Source: APfor years to come; for many children in Singapore, they will never forget this photo that characterised F1 Singapore and Ferrari of 2008. Not Schumacher, not the familiar red invincible car that once dominated. for many of us, we will not forget how Ferrari blamed everything except themselves. despite us growing up knowing the red invincibles, it is now reduced to ashes.
fight.
our lives.
our lives.
Thursday, October 02, 2008
ok im free-er today.
here are the promised photos!
feel super happy that the last column is filled. (the finished-tutorials-section)
feel even better knowing that the middle column is empty. (the needs-to-be-done tutorial section)
actually it is just making myself feel better.
the to be done tutorials are sitting on the shelves haha.
back to reality.
here are the promised photos!
feel super happy that the last column is filled. (the finished-tutorials-section)feel even better knowing that the middle column is empty. (the needs-to-be-done tutorial section)
actually it is just making myself feel better.
the to be done tutorials are sitting on the shelves haha.
back to reality.
up and down the garden
i feel very happy to see my assignments file piling up in size again!
2 weeks after sch started, that file was super thick so that it can last me until dnd ended. phew. den it began to run super super dry before the bail out(sensitive word nowadays) came last week.
today it is running again!
ok tmr i shall upload the photo of it when i haf more time.
one more tutorial down!
one more project down! ok, not 'more'. just that one is gone. wonderful.
2 weeks after sch started, that file was super thick so that it can last me until dnd ended. phew. den it began to run super super dry before the bail out(sensitive word nowadays) came last week.
today it is running again!
ok tmr i shall upload the photo of it when i haf more time.
one more tutorial down!
one more project down! ok, not 'more'. just that one is gone. wonderful.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
breathless
i can still remember the days of being 14 years old.
so beautiful.
so mysterious now.
suddenly you feel old when you are the older few amongst all.
it is really odd. it needs no reminder everytime.
perhaps that's what being 21 entails.
ops.
being soon-to-be-21 entails.
age.
flies.
the weather this week is killing. it gives you tonnes of rain in the morning and hits you with a humid patch that resonates with the searing heat. what is wrong.
it must be a way of us welcoming the f1 drivers.
it is the f1 craze now btw. it must be some fascination that i cannot appreciate, akin to soccer to some.
anyway, i am so glad to haf this weekend of reprieve. finally sat down, cleared some stuff and did some work. the recess week was really not one.
and funnily, i was only reminded of wednesday's public holiday yesterday. never realised that i have an additional day to catch up work! so happy.
every short break is that important now.
now i understand why my frens were so busy while i was languishing in the army hoping for entertainment every other day. different lives.
and now i am absorbed into it.
cant wait for soccer training for hall to start. everyday i am reminded of my jc's greatest regret, bent on eradicating it from my memories. despite giving ntu soccer team a miss since the commitment is really above the work i have now, i hope this hall soccer can take away much of the pain that still lives on. let me!
ok i am half typing, half watching huang jin lu. it was an amazing show, marred though by the pathetic-singaporish ending which is quite expected though.. so addictive! great actors too. somehow i can remember how i acted for aj's corporate video. i really understand that just the 5s of footage is that difficult to film and act. okay - i am not cut out for it haha.
now i feel sleepy.
i shall sleep.
lumber into that.
so beautiful.
so mysterious now.
suddenly you feel old when you are the older few amongst all.
it is really odd. it needs no reminder everytime.
perhaps that's what being 21 entails.
ops.
being soon-to-be-21 entails.
age.
flies.
the weather this week is killing. it gives you tonnes of rain in the morning and hits you with a humid patch that resonates with the searing heat. what is wrong.
it must be a way of us welcoming the f1 drivers.
it is the f1 craze now btw. it must be some fascination that i cannot appreciate, akin to soccer to some.
anyway, i am so glad to haf this weekend of reprieve. finally sat down, cleared some stuff and did some work. the recess week was really not one.
and funnily, i was only reminded of wednesday's public holiday yesterday. never realised that i have an additional day to catch up work! so happy.
every short break is that important now.
now i understand why my frens were so busy while i was languishing in the army hoping for entertainment every other day. different lives.
and now i am absorbed into it.
cant wait for soccer training for hall to start. everyday i am reminded of my jc's greatest regret, bent on eradicating it from my memories. despite giving ntu soccer team a miss since the commitment is really above the work i have now, i hope this hall soccer can take away much of the pain that still lives on. let me!
ok i am half typing, half watching huang jin lu. it was an amazing show, marred though by the pathetic-singaporish ending which is quite expected though.. so addictive! great actors too. somehow i can remember how i acted for aj's corporate video. i really understand that just the 5s of footage is that difficult to film and act. okay - i am not cut out for it haha.
now i feel sleepy.
i shall sleep.
lumber into that.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
farewell
the next morning when i awake, my fren shall be halfway round the world.
it's somewhat an odd feeling.
it is hard to say goodbye.
it wud have been even harder if i said yes and this very day and moment
would be repeated in myself.
the packing frenzy, the euphoria and the reluctance.
'growing up' i guess.
that's what i sms-ed at 1am
and the last sms received came at 1am too.
i guess it is another 9 months.
different paths.
live on!
it's somewhat an odd feeling.
it is hard to say goodbye.
it wud have been even harder if i said yes and this very day and moment
would be repeated in myself.
the packing frenzy, the euphoria and the reluctance.
'growing up' i guess.
that's what i sms-ed at 1am
and the last sms received came at 1am too.
i guess it is another 9 months.
different paths.
live on!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
im far from being inspired.
but i am inspired now.
i never had a proper record of my own finances.. of course it feels gd when it is growing but right now im still wondering if i am breaking even with the school expenses every month. hmms.
i shall embark on revamping my life and start to track my finances!
that means i have to set aside the most important 'saving piggy bank' so that it will be the place i put my share of surplus cash every month in order to reach a certain value for a wishlist. right now i am wishing for some camera gadget add-on. i am still undecided but ah, who cares. i am not near a good amount yet. start saving first.
its exciting right. to want something and start to grow money for it come what may.
i am also inspired by the econs lecturer who said money is depreciating whether it is in the bank ornot. so one shud just spend.
i shall begin a shopping spree of clothes too and start revamping my wardrobe that needs that much needed facelift.
that of course will still be bounded by the old yc limits of frugality! dont worry. what is practical still remains practical. what is overly expensive remains on the stores of that shop.
i am also inspired to put my photographs and flash designs altogether again for a decent portfolio! so far, all the things that i have done are in dribs and drabs so i think it is high time i do something about them. i have been wanting to print ma photos too. but always too busy to do so.. i shall get it done this week. print them and mount the selected few on mounting boards and put in my room proudly.
just to sidetrack.. sometimes i dont really understand why is ADM related to can-design-well.. i seriously think they are too overvalued in ntu. after all, who has seen their true works? i am sure that there are much more ppl out there who can do better design. Art Design Media takes in animation, cinematography students who may not necessarily know design well. Those with the Macbooks are probably the lousiest few who need that additional jusridiction of their ability anyway.
hoho, i seem to be wanting to start a war. but that's how i feel thou.
AND, i am inspired by Alvin(!! ur featured) and the conversation we had that the business idea of the blog site you can see - teach me now - is actually feasible and sounds really good to others. maybe it is time to start the engine and do something apart from schoolwork.. afterall from Aj i learnt that full marks for exams mean nothing if you lead only the academic life. to me at least.
inspired, i hope.
but i am inspired now.
i never had a proper record of my own finances.. of course it feels gd when it is growing but right now im still wondering if i am breaking even with the school expenses every month. hmms.
i shall embark on revamping my life and start to track my finances!
that means i have to set aside the most important 'saving piggy bank' so that it will be the place i put my share of surplus cash every month in order to reach a certain value for a wishlist. right now i am wishing for some camera gadget add-on. i am still undecided but ah, who cares. i am not near a good amount yet. start saving first.
its exciting right. to want something and start to grow money for it come what may.
i am also inspired by the econs lecturer who said money is depreciating whether it is in the bank ornot. so one shud just spend.
i shall begin a shopping spree of clothes too and start revamping my wardrobe that needs that much needed facelift.
that of course will still be bounded by the old yc limits of frugality! dont worry. what is practical still remains practical. what is overly expensive remains on the stores of that shop.
i am also inspired to put my photographs and flash designs altogether again for a decent portfolio! so far, all the things that i have done are in dribs and drabs so i think it is high time i do something about them. i have been wanting to print ma photos too. but always too busy to do so.. i shall get it done this week. print them and mount the selected few on mounting boards and put in my room proudly.
just to sidetrack.. sometimes i dont really understand why is ADM related to can-design-well.. i seriously think they are too overvalued in ntu. after all, who has seen their true works? i am sure that there are much more ppl out there who can do better design. Art Design Media takes in animation, cinematography students who may not necessarily know design well. Those with the Macbooks are probably the lousiest few who need that additional jusridiction of their ability anyway.
hoho, i seem to be wanting to start a war. but that's how i feel thou.
AND, i am inspired by Alvin(!! ur featured) and the conversation we had that the business idea of the blog site you can see - teach me now - is actually feasible and sounds really good to others. maybe it is time to start the engine and do something apart from schoolwork.. afterall from Aj i learnt that full marks for exams mean nothing if you lead only the academic life. to me at least.
inspired, i hope.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
SPRING CLEANING
yay. finally one day to myself and really brainless day!
so happy that i finally washed and cleaned my bedsheets+blanket. (: heh.
and check out the improvised hanging methods. that's for the evening sun. i just love the sun!
saturday's spent like that.. later's pk's 21st celebrations. i shall be going off from hall and back home! heh.
so happy that i finally washed and cleaned my bedsheets+blanket. (: heh.
and check out the improvised hanging methods. that's for the evening sun. i just love the sun!
saturday's spent like that.. later's pk's 21st celebrations. i shall be going off from hall and back home! heh.
actually if u look closer, there are jeans and a shirt hanging on the 2 window panes that are opened.. super exciting.. the hanging tip of the hanger has to be intricately placed or the clothes will just plunge floors down. ok its just random ..
newly washed bedsheet!
our door.Thursday, September 18, 2008
surviving past a week of tests is no way easy.
juggling it with hall activities is even worse.
summing it up with backdated tutorial accentuates the stress.
man.
its all coming back
i sound prophetic and philosophical at times but most of the time i not that good in these :p
i think im setting a very high expectation right from the start of university life, bent on not repeating the past mistakes concluded from that 2 years of history. of course there's a big change from then to now but im enjoying what im doing now and the busy-ness is worthwhile and at times much more driving than living life day by day without anything.
stretching myself with activities aside, i think im still finding the determination and 'aggresion' in studies and it has not really wavered but instead piled on more. i guess i am constantly reminded of my presence in ntu and the promise i had to myself. above all challenges - from the ashes i shall arise. BUT having said this, my expectations are still far from reality. the tests these week are a timely reminder to inform that i am not there yet. just not there yet. there was a sense of disgust and disappointment doing the few quizzes today (and getting back the results instantaneously). there is still a lot more to do and strive for to make sure ntu remembers me as the person they would value more than their any average cn yang scholar!
the life has just began. with a bang. it shall continue and get better!
work hard people i know we are all struggling. hope this serves as a motivation too (:
juggling it with hall activities is even worse.
summing it up with backdated tutorial accentuates the stress.
man.
its all coming back
i sound prophetic and philosophical at times but most of the time i not that good in these :p
i think im setting a very high expectation right from the start of university life, bent on not repeating the past mistakes concluded from that 2 years of history. of course there's a big change from then to now but im enjoying what im doing now and the busy-ness is worthwhile and at times much more driving than living life day by day without anything.
stretching myself with activities aside, i think im still finding the determination and 'aggresion' in studies and it has not really wavered but instead piled on more. i guess i am constantly reminded of my presence in ntu and the promise i had to myself. above all challenges - from the ashes i shall arise. BUT having said this, my expectations are still far from reality. the tests these week are a timely reminder to inform that i am not there yet. just not there yet. there was a sense of disgust and disappointment doing the few quizzes today (and getting back the results instantaneously). there is still a lot more to do and strive for to make sure ntu remembers me as the person they would value more than their any average cn yang scholar!
the life has just began. with a bang. it shall continue and get better!
work hard people i know we are all struggling. hope this serves as a motivation too (:
Monday, September 15, 2008
prove me wrong
we were wrong
about how it will turn out.
about how we will shape up in this new environment.
about the times that will unfold.
about any regret that we may habour about everything.
about how it will turn out.
about how we will shape up in this new environment.
about the times that will unfold.
about any regret that we may habour about everything.
3 tests this week.JCRC Sub Comm recruitment tuesday.
Mid Autumn Festival celebrations in Hall on Wednesday.
5 Bday celebrations this week.
1 project.
and im still blogging.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
a fitting closure
Shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)
Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reebok's with the straps (with the straps)
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack (hey!)
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
and so this is how it ends.
so beautiful and subtle
just like the river flow
sometimes somethings just leave you hanging there wishing for a continuation
but someday somehow we all know its end
looking back at the times
how can we say we have any regrets
the times we skipped lessons for a lousy cause
a cause so lousy that now we ruminate its absence
and yearn for the revival of that very day
really
this is how its going to end
going to end...
Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reebok's with the straps (with the straps)
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack (hey!)
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
and so this is how it ends.
so beautiful and subtle
just like the river flow
sometimes somethings just leave you hanging there wishing for a continuation
but someday somehow we all know its end
looking back at the times
how can we say we have any regrets
the times we skipped lessons for a lousy cause
a cause so lousy that now we ruminate its absence
and yearn for the revival of that very day
really
this is how its going to end
going to end...
Saturday, September 06, 2008
finally!
the prepared stage awaits for us to do what it takes
finally the few weeks of pure hard work and really really stressed up nights are coming to an end. a sad end for the better.
lest we will enjoy ourselves for the one last night.
the last dance.
finally the few weeks of pure hard work and really really stressed up nights are coming to an end. a sad end for the better.
lest we will enjoy ourselves for the one last night.
the last dance.
Friday, September 05, 2008
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
"Apart from barricades at the airport, it was nothing," said Chew Lu-Min, another passenger.
But the political protests did ruffle a few feathers.
"I was supposed to take the 7pm flight, but I changed it to 1pm. All the calls and messages from Singapore made me feel the tension. Otherwise, I felt okay," said Jolene Lee.
As for those working in Bangkok, it was business as usual.
One of them, Suwito Kua, said: "I don't see much difference because the demonstration area doesn't affect where we come from. Of course, there's some worry. We're not sure whether the situation will always be in control or not."
Another Singaporean in Bangkok, Shelia Leong, said: "No, it's not affecting me at all... nothing is really happening here. Life is normal, nobody has really told me that they are uncomfortable... "
Singapore's Foreign Affairs Ministry (MFA) has advised people to postpone their travels to Bangkok to a later date. If there is an urgent need to travel there, Singaporeans are advised to register with the MFA at its website.
source: ChannelNewsAsia
haf fun.
But the political protests did ruffle a few feathers.
"I was supposed to take the 7pm flight, but I changed it to 1pm. All the calls and messages from Singapore made me feel the tension. Otherwise, I felt okay," said Jolene Lee.
As for those working in Bangkok, it was business as usual.
One of them, Suwito Kua, said: "I don't see much difference because the demonstration area doesn't affect where we come from. Of course, there's some worry. We're not sure whether the situation will always be in control or not."
Another Singaporean in Bangkok, Shelia Leong, said: "No, it's not affecting me at all... nothing is really happening here. Life is normal, nobody has really told me that they are uncomfortable... "
Singapore's Foreign Affairs Ministry (MFA) has advised people to postpone their travels to Bangkok to a later date. If there is an urgent need to travel there, Singaporeans are advised to register with the MFA at its website.
source: ChannelNewsAsia
haf fun.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
its all part of a grander plan that is coming true
i am in an awful need of clothes!!
i am in an awful need of time!!
help me.
can you imagine eating at 4am in the morning? or even the prospect of cooking maggi mee in your own room in such a cosy environment together with friends? i just cant believe that that happened! after celebrating a hallmate's bday which lasted until like 3am, me and my roomie wanted to eat maggi mee. and since i had my electric cooking stove, we decided to give it a try to cook in our room. haha. it's just damn cool to be like on ur bed and slurping food that is fresh from the pot just next door. but we were damn sua ku.. never use the electric stove before so we were quite disturbed when the first time we on-ed it there was some smell.. i guess its cause the coating underwent some reactions after not being used for quite awhile... and we slept at like 5am!! gosh. woke up at 9am for lessons. insane life. and its like everyday kind of thing.
damn.
im screwed this coming week.
hall committee rally/walkabouts/elections.
dnd training every night until saturday's event.
tuition.
aero module test.
good thing is i have completed my tutorials at least to last this coming week. but i still have the feeling that i will be going crazy this week. ):
save me. haha
i am in an awful need of time!!
help me.
can you imagine eating at 4am in the morning? or even the prospect of cooking maggi mee in your own room in such a cosy environment together with friends? i just cant believe that that happened! after celebrating a hallmate's bday which lasted until like 3am, me and my roomie wanted to eat maggi mee. and since i had my electric cooking stove, we decided to give it a try to cook in our room. haha. it's just damn cool to be like on ur bed and slurping food that is fresh from the pot just next door. but we were damn sua ku.. never use the electric stove before so we were quite disturbed when the first time we on-ed it there was some smell.. i guess its cause the coating underwent some reactions after not being used for quite awhile... and we slept at like 5am!! gosh. woke up at 9am for lessons. insane life. and its like everyday kind of thing.
damn.
im screwed this coming week.
hall committee rally/walkabouts/elections.
dnd training every night until saturday's event.
tuition.
aero module test.
good thing is i have completed my tutorials at least to last this coming week. but i still have the feeling that i will be going crazy this week. ):
save me. haha
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
decisions decisions
sometimes you take a look at someone or something and you really wish to do something and change fate. but as time and the pace of life sweep by, you find yourself taking far too heavy a step forward. everytime you can just contemplate and end up walking away involuntarily.
and it just repeats.
school has been really busy.. work is quite piling up and all the stuff is really reading up on ur part - no one will help you if you dont. so ya, everyone does their tutorials before coming to class and i guess that's really the meaning of being in uni.. no point wasting everybody's time there.
the tutors kinda dont wait for people. they are just rushing and rushing through all the questions with their hefty knowledge overestimating our paltry ones. for once i do hope i am still coping well. i really want to do well and i am determined to do so ! am looking at getting exam papers to try already but den there's another problem that the syllabus is barely completed(or started, rather) and i have really not much clue of how to do either. i can only rely on word of mouth and help from other seniors. then again i am not making that many friends during school. partly because i do not really want to talk to people in my course and stuff like that.. i know i would have to know more people.. but the times i really get to interact with my 'aerospace' people are during the common lectures for aerospace courses and that are really times that i wish to be alone, concentrating on the lectures. i dunno, during lessons i really prefer to be alone if im with people i barely know or people whom i am obliged to make some conversation to prevent the breaking silence that makes the separation awkward.
but having said that, its really not too bad a start thou. i do have frens. TRUST ME :p and i do know aerospace people.. at least 10 already. just that if i can, somehow i try to siam from them.. i am still ahead with work thankfully from pia-ing before tutorials really started in week 2. the trainings for d&d is really peaking.. almost everything kind of thing. its quite fun but it is really tiring and it is sapping my energy in weekdays. weekends, needless to say i have the piled up tuitions to grapple with.. NO TIME.
activities wise i think i do haf a handful to really keep me busy alr.. running for hall pub sec and hopefully i can revamp the website, do up more conclusive newsletter and stuff like that which coincidentally is really what i yearn to do without grumbles. have put my name for the subcomm for aerospace society which i hope is a good headstart to opening up my doors to people in this community. a closely knitted one. yea. i have my names under memberships for photog and investment club.. and they cost me quite abit of money to begin with!! grr. just see wad stuff i can take away and learn from the courses offered along the way i guess. the rest of my time shud be shared with the hall activities and hall frens which i think should form the bulk of my uni life. its a fun batch and i can - at least - really open up and haf fun with them.
yea.. and not forgetting that i must work hard hard hard!!!!!! there's no one to defeat me except myself.
of cos, here comes the more interesting part of decisions making. somewhere somehow something has been left out in this entire entry on life so far. i haf a small, or rather big, dilemma to make.. when such things come you really wonder if you should do it. if you dont, you might live to regret it. . and as the sun comes down, i am still thinking.
seeking answers.
just one.
and it just repeats.
school has been really busy.. work is quite piling up and all the stuff is really reading up on ur part - no one will help you if you dont. so ya, everyone does their tutorials before coming to class and i guess that's really the meaning of being in uni.. no point wasting everybody's time there.
the tutors kinda dont wait for people. they are just rushing and rushing through all the questions with their hefty knowledge overestimating our paltry ones. for once i do hope i am still coping well. i really want to do well and i am determined to do so ! am looking at getting exam papers to try already but den there's another problem that the syllabus is barely completed(or started, rather) and i have really not much clue of how to do either. i can only rely on word of mouth and help from other seniors. then again i am not making that many friends during school. partly because i do not really want to talk to people in my course and stuff like that.. i know i would have to know more people.. but the times i really get to interact with my 'aerospace' people are during the common lectures for aerospace courses and that are really times that i wish to be alone, concentrating on the lectures. i dunno, during lessons i really prefer to be alone if im with people i barely know or people whom i am obliged to make some conversation to prevent the breaking silence that makes the separation awkward.
but having said that, its really not too bad a start thou. i do have frens. TRUST ME :p and i do know aerospace people.. at least 10 already. just that if i can, somehow i try to siam from them.. i am still ahead with work thankfully from pia-ing before tutorials really started in week 2. the trainings for d&d is really peaking.. almost everything kind of thing. its quite fun but it is really tiring and it is sapping my energy in weekdays. weekends, needless to say i have the piled up tuitions to grapple with.. NO TIME.
activities wise i think i do haf a handful to really keep me busy alr.. running for hall pub sec and hopefully i can revamp the website, do up more conclusive newsletter and stuff like that which coincidentally is really what i yearn to do without grumbles. have put my name for the subcomm for aerospace society which i hope is a good headstart to opening up my doors to people in this community. a closely knitted one. yea. i have my names under memberships for photog and investment club.. and they cost me quite abit of money to begin with!! grr. just see wad stuff i can take away and learn from the courses offered along the way i guess. the rest of my time shud be shared with the hall activities and hall frens which i think should form the bulk of my uni life. its a fun batch and i can - at least - really open up and haf fun with them.
yea.. and not forgetting that i must work hard hard hard!!!!!! there's no one to defeat me except myself.
of cos, here comes the more interesting part of decisions making. somewhere somehow something has been left out in this entire entry on life so far. i haf a small, or rather big, dilemma to make.. when such things come you really wonder if you should do it. if you dont, you might live to regret it. . and as the sun comes down, i am still thinking.
seeking answers.
just one.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
hall life
ok here are some really outdated photos from hall activities so far!
hope they are quite interesting for the very least. of course, they have been sieved and these are only those with me inside! :p that's the purpose of MY blog anyway right? being me. ok; not egoistic though.
enjoy. :)
gotta rush to do my tutorial now!!!
hope they are quite interesting for the very least. of course, they have been sieved and these are only those with me inside! :p that's the purpose of MY blog anyway right? being me. ok; not egoistic though.
enjoy. :)
gotta rush to do my tutorial now!!!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
heart to heart
the score read 2:2.
how nerve-wrecking. to any sportsman who has encountered such situations be it any sports would realise the magnitude of it. the euphoria that awaits; the nervousness that encapsulates; the deafening silence to overcome from within; the patience to triumph; the will to fight; the will.
watching the table tennis semi finals in hall tv lounge, i rooted for singapore firmly. correction, team singapore to be precise. cynicism aside, to any sportsman, it is absolutely phenomenal to see the fighting spirit and the determination to get win displayed by the singapore females table tennis team. you would be proud of them - proud of them as individuals and as sportsmen who displayed the character and verve that describes sport.
perhaps this is the first time i would root for singapore wholeheartedly. and of course, of the many others who would root for singapore too. not for love, but for the understanding that our flag can be firmly placed on the world map. it translates to personal pride that has always evolved through our indoctrination that we are an extremely small country - a small little red dot to cite specific reference that we have been brainwashed to undertake - and hence anything that places us on the world map is worth celebration.
do we care who did it?
to be precise, sunday's finals would be China vs China. like oh yea, all over again.
yet it is clear which side we would support - the team that dons the red jersey and brings back the flag which stamps on the others.
sitting in school today watching the match, my allegiance and support never wavered. the excitement and the tears that have came for the win cannot be understated.
it was clear that amongst the cynicism, for today, i wore the red jersey and supported team singapore for what they achieved. for their sportsmanship. for their display.
on any other day of course, team singapore does not exist in my dictionary.
how nerve-wrecking. to any sportsman who has encountered such situations be it any sports would realise the magnitude of it. the euphoria that awaits; the nervousness that encapsulates; the deafening silence to overcome from within; the patience to triumph; the will to fight; the will.
watching the table tennis semi finals in hall tv lounge, i rooted for singapore firmly. correction, team singapore to be precise. cynicism aside, to any sportsman, it is absolutely phenomenal to see the fighting spirit and the determination to get win displayed by the singapore females table tennis team. you would be proud of them - proud of them as individuals and as sportsmen who displayed the character and verve that describes sport.
perhaps this is the first time i would root for singapore wholeheartedly. and of course, of the many others who would root for singapore too. not for love, but for the understanding that our flag can be firmly placed on the world map. it translates to personal pride that has always evolved through our indoctrination that we are an extremely small country - a small little red dot to cite specific reference that we have been brainwashed to undertake - and hence anything that places us on the world map is worth celebration.
do we care who did it?
to be precise, sunday's finals would be China vs China. like oh yea, all over again.
yet it is clear which side we would support - the team that dons the red jersey and brings back the flag which stamps on the others.
sitting in school today watching the match, my allegiance and support never wavered. the excitement and the tears that have came for the win cannot be understated.
it was clear that amongst the cynicism, for today, i wore the red jersey and supported team singapore for what they achieved. for their sportsmanship. for their display.
on any other day of course, team singapore does not exist in my dictionary.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
one year on
one year on
on the bus ride today i was suddenly transported back into time, reminiscing the events that unfolded one year back. how fast. time just seems to fly when you get older and older. i can still remember this very day 1 year back, i was on the platform serving my due in the NDP. one day ago from the very day i was pulling camou nets in sandy and arid jurong island. sweating in my green uniform. and it is all over. in a real flash.
i can still remember that few days most vividly because it was our most hectic period. oh how beautiful. how sad.
and now its 2008.
very quickly we will welcome 2009 the same manner.
everyday we will just await the next year.
which comes in a flash.
trust me.
on the bus ride today i was suddenly transported back into time, reminiscing the events that unfolded one year back. how fast. time just seems to fly when you get older and older. i can still remember this very day 1 year back, i was on the platform serving my due in the NDP. one day ago from the very day i was pulling camou nets in sandy and arid jurong island. sweating in my green uniform. and it is all over. in a real flash.
i can still remember that few days most vividly because it was our most hectic period. oh how beautiful. how sad.
and now its 2008.
very quickly we will welcome 2009 the same manner.
everyday we will just await the next year.
which comes in a flash.
trust me.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
herald a new era
there are many times in your life where you will experience change.
with change comes euphoria, anticipation and excitement together with (of course) worry and uncertainty.
right now i just cannot describe the excitement from within. it just masks everything that may pop up. its a whole new life that i am looking at - independence, struggle, hall life and many more. the people around me are making things even more interesting; i cannot say so for the people of my course yet since i have not mixed with them at all yet :p
but generally it looks great! school life. hall life!
im torn between which part should my activities be in... cca? school? hall?
i am still figuring out how the freaking STARS fastest finger first module selection thingy works when by now there's really no more need to clamour to be the fastest finger since i do not have much choice left to choose.
im waiting for mom to print all my notes hehe. cool. so im doing lectures without any single notes this whole week. looked like a slacker altogether when i am in lectures. but who cares!
during lessons i am always alone. its not that i dont socialise.. but i dont see people of the same frequency.. :p sorry. so i choose to sit alone and away. i can listen better too.. instead of being with a group of friends and we just make noise throughout.. there are exceptions thou.. the computing lecture was just too boring and DUH so i was chatting away with some frens(coincidentally they found me).
i usually eat lunch alone too since i do not have much friends around in campus. but when im in hall.. i get to eat with people!
i am exercising regularly nowadays since most of the time when lessons start late and i have free time before the lesson, i will head to track for a run.. i go at odd hours so the gym is mostly free too..
BUT the lack of a fridge is hindering my routines! cant take yogurt, milk and stuff.. so sad. waiting to see who i can leech :)
i can wait for the next day to happen cause usually i will bump into some people along the way to campus while on the shuttle bus. since im mostly alone, i get to talk to them without neglecting any other.
the afternoon nap syndrome comes back again.. it so interesting to be living on campus. when i am tired and there's a long 2-3hrs break b4 next lesson, i can just head back to room and take a nap be4 rushing out for the next lesson :) kudos!
it's interesting!
ok that's all for now. we usually sleep rather late in hall... good thing is tmr my lesson is starting only at 12pm. excited.!
that's all for now thou :)
enjoy you days ppl!
with change comes euphoria, anticipation and excitement together with (of course) worry and uncertainty.
right now i just cannot describe the excitement from within. it just masks everything that may pop up. its a whole new life that i am looking at - independence, struggle, hall life and many more. the people around me are making things even more interesting; i cannot say so for the people of my course yet since i have not mixed with them at all yet :p
but generally it looks great! school life. hall life!
im torn between which part should my activities be in... cca? school? hall?
i am still figuring out how the freaking STARS fastest finger first module selection thingy works when by now there's really no more need to clamour to be the fastest finger since i do not have much choice left to choose.
im waiting for mom to print all my notes hehe. cool. so im doing lectures without any single notes this whole week. looked like a slacker altogether when i am in lectures. but who cares!
during lessons i am always alone. its not that i dont socialise.. but i dont see people of the same frequency.. :p sorry. so i choose to sit alone and away. i can listen better too.. instead of being with a group of friends and we just make noise throughout.. there are exceptions thou.. the computing lecture was just too boring and DUH so i was chatting away with some frens(coincidentally they found me).
i usually eat lunch alone too since i do not have much friends around in campus. but when im in hall.. i get to eat with people!
i am exercising regularly nowadays since most of the time when lessons start late and i have free time before the lesson, i will head to track for a run.. i go at odd hours so the gym is mostly free too..
BUT the lack of a fridge is hindering my routines! cant take yogurt, milk and stuff.. so sad. waiting to see who i can leech :)
i can wait for the next day to happen cause usually i will bump into some people along the way to campus while on the shuttle bus. since im mostly alone, i get to talk to them without neglecting any other.
the afternoon nap syndrome comes back again.. it so interesting to be living on campus. when i am tired and there's a long 2-3hrs break b4 next lesson, i can just head back to room and take a nap be4 rushing out for the next lesson :) kudos!
it's interesting!
ok that's all for now. we usually sleep rather late in hall... good thing is tmr my lesson is starting only at 12pm. excited.!
that's all for now thou :)
enjoy you days ppl!
Monday, August 04, 2008
directions in life.
school has officially started.
but im still in my room blogging :p or at least procrastinating. maybe i shud start to read my books.. textbooks.. notes or wadever that matters. hmms, but it seems alittle too early to be doing these. IT IS.
fine..
lessons start at 130.. that's rather late. shall head to play some games first:)
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
darkest nights
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
with the radio in the middle of the room, it was a common voice all 11 of us would converge upon as darkness fell. it was the same voice that kept telling us it would be okay. it was the voice that told us home is not too far away. that voice kept us sane.
i can still remember my buddy's incessant obsession with this beautiful song that somehow caught our attention and very soon it became the song of the bunk. whenever it replays it brings back the good old memories that i can still piece together - of the bunk, of my buddies, of those days. those days where we would kiwi our boots all along the corridor, go crazy in the toilets, chat all night long - jumping and prodding on each other's beds, discuss about my buddy's dream girl (which incidentally caused the obsession with that song) and the many endless nights of talking. it somehow kept us alive and sane.
they were also the darkest nights.
the nights i realised how important home was.
the nights i realised how to overcome the darkness.
the nights i realised how much help one needs when he's down.
in those nights where darkness descended upon us with the eerie silence ringing throughout, we laid on our beds looking up in the ceiling. bed by bed, through silence, our hearts were singing as one. we just hoped.
it were those nights that live on.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
with the radio in the middle of the room, it was a common voice all 11 of us would converge upon as darkness fell. it was the same voice that kept telling us it would be okay. it was the voice that told us home is not too far away. that voice kept us sane.
i can still remember my buddy's incessant obsession with this beautiful song that somehow caught our attention and very soon it became the song of the bunk. whenever it replays it brings back the good old memories that i can still piece together - of the bunk, of my buddies, of those days. those days where we would kiwi our boots all along the corridor, go crazy in the toilets, chat all night long - jumping and prodding on each other's beds, discuss about my buddy's dream girl (which incidentally caused the obsession with that song) and the many endless nights of talking. it somehow kept us alive and sane.
they were also the darkest nights.
the nights i realised how important home was.
the nights i realised how to overcome the darkness.
the nights i realised how much help one needs when he's down.
in those nights where darkness descended upon us with the eerie silence ringing throughout, we laid on our beds looking up in the ceiling. bed by bed, through silence, our hearts were singing as one. we just hoped.
it were those nights that live on.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
unconditional love
i cant help but wonder if in this world today, with the endless pursuit of material wealth and achievements that we forget how to love.
how do we love a child? how do we love our soulmates?
how do we love our loved ones?
yes. today we can mouth all these but the simple equation that has always been governing this relationship is far from visible in what we practise today. well, at least in my eyes. it goes beyond the trivial valentine's gift or any celebration of any sort that just serves to drive the economy and to satisfy one's love in appearance.
love requires sacrifice. and its a simple relationship that springs into action anytime. love means giving up your pride for the other no matter what it takes. love means giving up your life for who you believe.
yes, pride and life.
it is the most powerful in a mother's love. and i have never seen it more powerful.
sometimes it puts me in great shame. i may never come to terms with putting my pride down or laying my life down. afterall in this mechanical society today, i was taught with the practical nature of a robot with just one outcome - to be the human resource of the country.
no i dont blame any.
i am trying to redo the wrong steps that i have taken.
hopefully one day. im ready to sacrifise for those whom i love. and sacrifise without thinking.
like my mom. my dad. and the lady i saw squatting in the train just to carve a seat for her little boy using her thighs.
how do we love a child? how do we love our soulmates?
how do we love our loved ones?
yes. today we can mouth all these but the simple equation that has always been governing this relationship is far from visible in what we practise today. well, at least in my eyes. it goes beyond the trivial valentine's gift or any celebration of any sort that just serves to drive the economy and to satisfy one's love in appearance.
love requires sacrifice. and its a simple relationship that springs into action anytime. love means giving up your pride for the other no matter what it takes. love means giving up your life for who you believe.
yes, pride and life.
it is the most powerful in a mother's love. and i have never seen it more powerful.
sometimes it puts me in great shame. i may never come to terms with putting my pride down or laying my life down. afterall in this mechanical society today, i was taught with the practical nature of a robot with just one outcome - to be the human resource of the country.
no i dont blame any.
i am trying to redo the wrong steps that i have taken.
hopefully one day. im ready to sacrifise for those whom i love. and sacrifise without thinking.
like my mom. my dad. and the lady i saw squatting in the train just to carve a seat for her little boy using her thighs.
Monday, July 21, 2008
on the run
maybe we should all take a 5 years break from what we are doing? afterall the aim and this reward shud be the same afterall.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/361681/1/.html
just dont be too surprised if it is an annuity scheme for the 1 mil. :)
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/361681/1/.html
just dont be too surprised if it is an annuity scheme for the 1 mil. :)
the dream lives on
"The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires." - William Ward
the end of a short era.
i was speaking to one of my classes today and something came out spontaneously when they exclaimed that the student was much better than i am. and it was pure spontaneity and not about jealousy or jurisdiction of my existence.
"a good teacher is one whose students progress far beyond him in time to come".
i can still remember my scholarship interview with the principal of tjc, vice principal of dunman high and the perm sec of education one year on. i remember one of them telling me not to expect miracles to happen everyday and/or to look forward to it especially when it just happened. again, my smooth reply without even thinking was: if there's such a teacher, he is not qualified to be one. a teacher believes in all that they can do it.
i do
one year on. i still do.
ms lim was very nice, chatting with me when i gave her a chocs for my last day. she told me about how one should find the path he feels is right even in the wrong environment. i guess she does make sense there. she's one of the few teachers i feel really who can illuminate the teaching spirit despite being in a stifling environment who is also able to move with time. :p somehow, she has become one of those i respect in school unknowingly.
of course, she left me with these quotes to share.
Hope, hope, fear, faith - these make humanity.
These are its sign and note and character. (Robert Browning)
I am a man; and nothing human is foreign to me.
Let us take men as they are, not as they ought to be. (Franz Schubert)
I love mankind, it's people I can't stand. (Charles Monroe Schulz)
she asked me to take my pick. im still picking.
i guess this will be the end of a fruitful 7 months in this place i used to call home for the past 2 years. once again, this beautiful (once a reject) place has crafted yet another memory in store for me. no it hasn't dampered any niggling thoughts of coming back to teach anytime in the future. no it hasn't saddened me to see i made such a decision 1 month back to give up the teaching scholarship. it has taught me and allowed me to see the teaching world and to experience it, i hope, thoroughly. it has enabled to me to be ready for an even greater challenge that i seek with no regrets. it has made me even want to see the outside world with much eagerness and anticipation that i relish right now. in the end, this memory will still live down in my mind should the day dawn that i never want to return again.
beautiful history.
2408 - my form class (:
2708 with their cute cute elmo. k, cute la.
half of their class
the end of a short era.
i was speaking to one of my classes today and something came out spontaneously when they exclaimed that the student was much better than i am. and it was pure spontaneity and not about jealousy or jurisdiction of my existence.
"a good teacher is one whose students progress far beyond him in time to come".
i can still remember my scholarship interview with the principal of tjc, vice principal of dunman high and the perm sec of education one year on. i remember one of them telling me not to expect miracles to happen everyday and/or to look forward to it especially when it just happened. again, my smooth reply without even thinking was: if there's such a teacher, he is not qualified to be one. a teacher believes in all that they can do it.
i do
one year on. i still do.
ms lim was very nice, chatting with me when i gave her a chocs for my last day. she told me about how one should find the path he feels is right even in the wrong environment. i guess she does make sense there. she's one of the few teachers i feel really who can illuminate the teaching spirit despite being in a stifling environment who is also able to move with time. :p somehow, she has become one of those i respect in school unknowingly.
of course, she left me with these quotes to share.
Hope, hope, fear, faith - these make humanity.
These are its sign and note and character. (Robert Browning)
I am a man; and nothing human is foreign to me.
Let us take men as they are, not as they ought to be. (Franz Schubert)
I love mankind, it's people I can't stand. (Charles Monroe Schulz)
she asked me to take my pick. im still picking.
i guess this will be the end of a fruitful 7 months in this place i used to call home for the past 2 years. once again, this beautiful (once a reject) place has crafted yet another memory in store for me. no it hasn't dampered any niggling thoughts of coming back to teach anytime in the future. no it hasn't saddened me to see i made such a decision 1 month back to give up the teaching scholarship. it has taught me and allowed me to see the teaching world and to experience it, i hope, thoroughly. it has enabled to me to be ready for an even greater challenge that i seek with no regrets. it has made me even want to see the outside world with much eagerness and anticipation that i relish right now. in the end, this memory will still live down in my mind should the day dawn that i never want to return again.
beautiful history.
2408 - my form class (:
2708 with their cute cute elmo. k, cute la.
half of their class
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