就算没了男人更加该把你世界变得更精彩

Pain should be much more hurts than cried out actually .... 

After outing with you ,make me notice that we are not match for each other at all ~ You are not really the one for me in my life ... It's just a guy who love to playing around 

I decided to give up everythin of you but is that easy things for giving up a person who deeply in love before ? IDONTKNOW 

Hate myself that can't even solve every problem .... 

E.N.O.U.G.H 

BEING 

IDIOT 

I Do Tired For Doing This Kind Of Stuff For Guys Anymore 

Rest time for love 

Stop thinking 

My mind should S.T.O.P 

as I know one day I will find much more better than everything in my life 

I never know this love could make my mood so pissed off .... Is just a guy that I don't even know but, I can fall to him in deeply and unbelievable my tears fall for a stranger 
No idea why this love could make me death of my life, every day and moment I miss you 
You tryin to get near of me ,You tryin to talk to me but, do I really do the action what you've done? I guess NO !!!!! I'm just lookin and lookin at your eyes with doing nothin and sitting down to wait for you.... But sittin there is that really changing for everything... NO it just makes my heart get hurts and many question on my mind with no answer for it .... 
How stupid am I ? Such like an idiot sittin there with no response 

I'm tired of it... I do wants to get a rest ......

时间剩不多了，我还是为我的爱情争取着却没在读书
怎么了？担心是明年在也无法见你而不是我的SPM
为什么就是要为爱情多过大考
专著在大考好不好呢？！！！
很辛苦却不想放你，因为你那一双眼神已经打动了我的心。。。。要我怎么办！！！？
我很辛苦其实这样爱着一个根本不认识的一个人
有人试过着感觉嘛 ~~ 明白这感觉嘛？
以为只是一个不认识的一个人也不会伤我到哪里去，那知道的是我对着你放了真的感情下去。很笨吧！！！！ 


你对我来说真的很特别，我真的没办法说出那种特别的感觉出来
快接近我好不好。。。。
那一天15/10/2012是我第一次一直看你去了很多次厕所的时候了
竟然你那么想我怎么不和我说话呢！！！？？？！！
害怕我吃了你？害怕我那一副很凶的样？
怎么就是不接近啦！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

其实每天想去学校的原因是什么嘛？就是看着你就那么多。。。
你失望因为我没去，比起上个礼拜的你不是更多天不去还是连续的两天没去。请问谁比较失望呢？
怎么爱情就是要这么折磨一个人，知道很疼么。。。
要就要嘛怎么要那样的转到一圈才发现那个人的好呢？
我很想念你到很深入了，连你的弟弟我都可以以为那是你来的
要几时我们才还有机会看着彼此？要几时我们才能够得到彼此？要几时你才会开始和我说话？要几时你才会牵着我的手？这一些到底会是几时的日子到来？我没答案，也不知怎么回答这答案

今天听着PEIYUN说的这些我心真的动了起来只是，我没表现了出来可是，心里是真的动了
很确定的是我不是一厢情愿！！！
从你们一直帮我观察，一直说一切的事我跟他。。。我就开始慢慢的想着你对我的感觉是什么的。。。。就是也和我一样我对你的感觉那样
我不想在花这两个礼拜的时间又得不到你了


你现在是我的了，没人能够期待这位子了 :)

06/10/2012 (Saturday)

没想到也不敢想。。。 怎么我会这么的心疼还是那么的伤心因为你
好好的喜欢巴黎不是好了吗？怎么就是因为你的一出现就可以把我搞成那么的EMO
我努力着不去望着你可是，怎么你偏偏要那样的眼神让我去望你
别对我那么好可以吗？只要你做出一点点的动作我就很快心动了
真的很爱很爱你的我对你又爱又恨的，很辛苦很辛苦
逃避着自已对你的爱对我们彼此都好过点不是吗？
没回头的爱情只有，开始的爱情

当晚你一直都陪着我，在我走最后面的时候，谢谢你
当晚你故意想要靠近我，脚放出来很长的想要碰到我，谢谢你
我真的很希望当晚你可以大大方方的牵着我手的让全部人看到你是爱我的
证明给大家看我们是属于彼此的，没人可以取代这位子


可是一切一切都是不可能会发生的事了
只能想着在梦里而不是在现实里

我相信

When Me and Alex first met it was at both of our friends’ wedding. He was a friend of the groom and I was a friend of the bride. He is from a different state so I only met him the night before the wedding. We were paired off to walk together because apparently we looked good together…:).
The day of the wedding I found out that the girl that was helping with our hair and make-up that also came from a different state was Alex’s girlfriend. I was very surprised because it seemed like we had a connection so I didn’t think he had a girlfriend. But as my friend likes to say that didn’t stop me. Well to my defense I was bored so naturally since Alex was sitting next to me at the reception we talked the entire time. (I didn’t have to worry about being bored at the ceremony because I slept through most of it, they let the bridesmaids sit down since it was long).
Well naturally since me and Alex hit it off so great his girlfriend got jealous so when we went to take pictures afterwards she came with us and basically had him all to herself. So I felt left out. But I found another one of the grooms friends to flirt with. And I hadn’t seen Alex again or heard from him after. I did find out later that they broke up and she got married really soon after. The reason they broke up…that will come up later.
So about 2 years pass, and it just so happened that one of my friends that lives in Oregon (that’s where Alex lives also) was getting married. So I went to her wedding. And it actually was a last minute decision because I didn’t think I could go. But I did, and I am so happy I did…:).
I helped with decorations for the wedding, with the flowers and you name it, so during the wedding I was really tired. During the reception which was at the same church the ceremony was at. I decided to go exploring by myself. It was a huge and very beautiful church. Well it turned out that some people that actually go to that church were decorating for this big thanksgiving thing. So I went to check it out and who do I bump into? Alex. We recognized each other immediately and started talking. But I had to go back to the wedding. Later he came to find me and he wouldn’t leave my side. I was pretty impressed… he definitely knew what he wanted and wasn’t afraid to go after it. So he got my number, we hung out the next day, but then I had to go back home. We started talking on the phone every night and before I even knew it I was in love.
He later confessed that the first time he saw me he knew he wanted to be with me. And he said he lost interest in his then girlfriend right after he met me. Which is why after she started pressuring him to get married they broke up.
Now we’re happily dating…well as happy as you can be in a long distance relationship. And we’re actually pretty seriously talking about getting married in the near future.
So love at first sight really does exist, we just clicked that first time we met and fell in love pretty fast as soon as we reconnected after 2 years.

03/10/2012 （一见钟情）

早晨发生了一件好事情在我身上
从没想过有这么的一天你还会坐我前面，这爱情是被动而不是心动
我们被动彼此的双眼
如果没从双眼开始就没现在的我们每一天好想看着彼此
老实说：我一开始好想放弃了你，不相信这世界有一见钟情的爱情
直到你的眼神，你的动作，我相信。。。我感觉得到一见钟情其实一直都存在着

我快乐因为遇见你
我幸福因为得到你
我被动因为看着你
我爱你因为相信你


NOTHIN IS ~~ IMPOSSIBLE IN THIS LIFE 

心很疼的一天。。下午没太阳的出现，天气有点暗暗地而且，这天气也感觉不是想要下雨的
就好像是生病的天气（我好想念你）无法停止的想我们的回忆 ——— 一直都在想象着有天得到你后，我们每天都粘着彼此不分开
爱一个人很累，尤其是爱着不认识的那一个。。。很辛苦
因为眼神让我真的好爱你（你对我其实也一样）
其实一双眼睛就能电起一个人是多么的了不起了嘛？说到了解彼此对很需要，可是不比起对一双眼神的需要。。只要眼神有了就自然会想要的去了解那人更不用说的，他一切一切都会去接受不管他过去有多么的坏

这爱情真的很疯了也很强

很安静也很平静的一晚，我脑海又开始胡思乱想
很冷的天气就像快下着一场暴风雨连我心情和眼泪都像着天气这样
有人明白这感受？在这里一个人写着很冷的文章
没任何人在旁边，一边听着悲伤的歌
我很想念你（那个微笑甜蜜的你）好久没看了你的笑容，就只好回忆。。。你的笑容，我放进了我心里最深的某个角落（就把它收起来最美丽的一个笑）

没完成自已最想得到的东西的确可惜了至少，我遇见了你，还看得见你的微笑，听过你的声音
珍惜一切属于我自已的东西好好的去珍惜。。是不是就算世界末日了我也没什么遗憾了吧
家人永远在旁边着 ♥我爱你们♥

好强烈的一个眼神，就这样的抓走了我的心。。。在那放假的日子我以为放弃你了可是，后来的想不到的一个眼神你又抓回了我的心
没想到我也可以把你心抓住。。。我从来都没要求过什么就这样某某的爱你，看着你就好了。但，我觉得这次真的不行了~~~ 就让我一个要求让我得到你，甚为我的最好最棒的一个男人好嘛？就这么一个要求
我知道不认识的我们是很难得到彼此可是，我好想试试这段和你的爱情
跟别人说我没In A Relationship1年多了可是，没人相信
竟然是这样那么让我真真的拥有一段爱情吧！！！就你一个，我任何人都不想要和他们一起


如果得到了你，我绝不放手
眼神让我们爱了彼此。。。我绝相信自已的感觉你对我是真的
别听别人怎么说，就用自已的心去感觉它

或许这爱情是有点白痴会让别人取笑我，没关系
只要是喜欢的就该去得到
我们不知道今年会不会世界末日所以，现在想要做的快去完成得到它吧

就因为我的坏脾气，性格，属于我的一切造成了失败者
很心痛自已把一切造成的
对不起，我知道我还不够成熟
没想过后才这么说话
就算你们原谅不到我，我也无法原谅我自已这种性格
我不是乖女孩只会带给你们很多的麻烦

在你们眼里我只是个长不大的女孩
你们根本不放心我一个人生活的日子
给我的感觉你们每年肯定不会这么轻易的让我住在外面
不管我的以后，未来，请你们让我自已做决定吧
别因为一句的担心让我在我未来属于了不成功，我不想要这结局


我想要改变自已，改变我的人生

原来还是你

爱的还是你，我才发现自已原来这是对着他有兴趣
而你还在我心里最深的一个角落
没想到这爱情这么的强
爱的力量你和我。

你记得一切的事情，我们彼此怎么认识，怎么在一起。
谢谢你还记得我们一起经历过的一切
很多事情发生在我们彼此，可是我们都最后都没放弃过彼此


等明年你和我的承诺我们都要一起达成它
我一直都在期待着明年我们就不会一直分开啦！！！ :) 
一直都有彼此陪伴

我爱你，还是那么爱你

只是没机会说出口告诉您 

为什么就那么一点点的消息关于你都不给我？我心很痛见不到你的日子。。。很苦
我在想如果那天毕业后，在也看不到你不是更糟糕
不是说放弃嘛？可是放弃到哪里去了，最后还不是一样的傻傻的又想起回你
可以告诉我你的想法是和我一样嘛？别让我怀疑你对我的感觉是错的，我不想要这样
一直以来都想要得到宠爱尤其现在很想要得到你的宠爱
有时，感觉周围的人在取笑我而且他们认为我的想法是不够成熟在爱情里还是他们觉得这种的爱情是没可能可以拥有得到毕竟还不认识彼此，感觉要我放弃它
但，你们知道嚒！我和他并不认识可是我们有缘分能够遇见在这世界
我相信爱请是要耐心得到才会得到，每一分每一秒我都想要抓住那机会
不管结果怎么样我会去接受它，因为是我选择不要你去选择了他
竟然都作出这决定了只好接受得到最后的答案是什么

别放弃因为受到影响朋友的话不然就输定了
其实有时我会这样因为受到朋友影响的话而想要放弃，可是让我知道的是为何要听别人所说的而放弃就因为那一句话。就毁了那爱情，那以前所做的不是白费心机了嘛？

爱情是自已的是在我们手上也是我们自已去做决定

It's quiet long never update my blog anymore, is still the same guy anyway, he is still on my mind no disappear yet.
there's no idea for this love and no reason. its only one word to describe that's hurt in heart 
I just wan some action between for us, but there's fail.... Maybe sometimes I think so much and there's no action for this love and just carry on with like this. but I still wish and one to get closer v euu 
I know im quiet stubborn, there is no any love between you and him but I still wanted for it. really suffering and hated.... what's wrong v me ? falling with a guy unknowing him? FUCK up mann ~~~~ Come on the world is so big there's so many guys wait for you why not choosing them.... and rather than choosing a guy that unknowing one? am I really idiot ,right... yeaaaaa ,i knew that... 
But you know what, when im closer into you i feel very comfortable and of course should be nervous cause is the guy that you love... 

Hurmmm ~~~!!!!! Come on relene, wake up right now... it's enough, Don't love a guy that unknowing one
there's no ending love 

Love At First Sight

After him, I give it up in everything in love.. I don't trust in any guys especially guy who wanna chase I will straight treat them cool
There's always hurt and the scar can't be removed... I want to get my true love in my life but sometimes I afraid to believe in this world have TRUE LOVE, There's only have FAKE LOVE 


After him I finally interested with a guy but I guess everybody will be laughed at me 
But I believe it love at first sight sometimes will be true love too  
Suddenly I feel like going near him and to know him more, Is quiet hard but... never try never know, right ;D 






Love at first sight doesn't mean there's no happy ending, 
Sometimes if you having fate with the guy,
He will always appear in your life 

我恨成为中间人

成为中间人不是你想象的那么简单，
你知道他不喜欢他们可是你和他是很久的朋友了，你又每次都参他们的
有时出来要约彼此可是切知道他不喜欢他们
真的不知道该怎么办
我对这段友情真的很累很累


谁明白那种感觉能够告诉我么
我好想大哭一场
老实说：
有时你对我太好我真的无法接受得到，
你竟然有了女朋友请你别对另外一位女生那么好行么


我没在逃避什么事情，只是你实在对我太好了
这不是我想要的
我要的是你对我贱点，别太好


对我太好的人我怕我会一直“CAN ZHE”你
我不要这样的我一直“CAN ZHE”别人




请保持这样的朋友不变化
重要是别对我太好就行了

Say's Hi to my blog :)

Hi to my blog ~ I'm back again... I'm here to vent 
I'm having a complicated situation right now ~ quiet hurt and pain every night 
I miss you everyday and the most painful for missing u is at night... Ppl who gets hurt in deep will understand how's the feeling, I thought after avoid and reject from you is a good choices... 
What is love? I dont know actually... nobody know love, love is always complicated for human's 
We don't really understand sometime... everybody need love for their life ,need somebody beside and loving just like puppies needs pampered 


I can't give a guarantee that how long do I loving you, as I know right now I love u so much... 
maybe is just for few year loving you or more than that... 
Sometimes, I really dont know what I one and what am I thinking on my mind... 


I'm afraid with many thing's but does not telling to other, we dont need to tell our story 
what was happening is always in our mind ,is just like memory card sometimes it may repeat the imagine 


Surrounding of my friend's I hoped they will appreciate what they have now and happy to live with their life 
no matter there's how hard to solve the problem sure have a way to solve it 

There's nobody will understand how's hurts in your heart~ because u the one only can feel the pain and euu the one who know it

sometimes u tot that u d give up that fellow, but you are just find someone to cover the pain. is unfair for that guy, so sorry. the problem is happening on me and I dont even know how to go and settle with everything and it seems like make ppl hates you. but I have no choices ,im sorry for being so bad to you 

Now I realize that who's the guy I one

Just be the one when I need you and support me for doing anything I one, tats all ~ I dont ask for so much from you. 

Im so sorry for being so bad, but I really seriously in love with you alrdy 

once I really decide to fall in love to you, I wont easily to give up 

I wish theres someone know the feeling and understand ,tats all 

之从那天开始我们彼此就没开始联络了,是你还再生气还是你已经想要放弃了我们这段感情了~

对,或许给别人觉得我们连开始都没有算得了什么?可是至少我们对彼此有了感觉只是没主动说出来

我不去理会别人所说的一切,因为这间事情是应该我和你的事情来的我何必去管别人怎么说~

我觉得我和你之间有太多太多的问题了,而且是解决不了的问题那样

我不能这样继续,因为我不想永远都和你有个解决不了的问题~

只是不知道怎么去解决它:( 唉~~~老实说我不想连和你做朋友都没得做:( 不想因为这样就失去了你这样的一个能够和你聊心事的朋友

希望一切都能恢复吧~不想把它变成COMPLICATED

昨晚也发生了一些事情~就是, :(((( 

我心很疼听了这些~我真的不知道该如何去回复你那些信息

请别和我说这些话好么~你知道么,你说这些我觉得你现在的生活好像很不好过

曾经的我那么深的爱你爱你爱你,可是你是怎么对我的?现在你才来说你后悔了没好好的珍惜我?

到底是怎样叻!!!??? :((((((( 

Today is somebody bufday:) And I wish he had a great birthday for today 
Yesterday he came to mixx and find me ,cant even imagine that ~ Hmmmm 
sometimes i really dont really know whats his thinking and although he sometimes quiet cool but my feeling to him seems like getting stronger
That night ~ i saw his phone message ,that girl send to her but i did not go and see the message, i just saw his inbox name. am i jealousy for it? or ????? I feels that he still feeling to her ,but I did not go and ask for so much~ as i know today is his bufday, just wans him to be happy 
Sometimes, I was thinking to give up and pls dont ever appear in my life. but it seems like I cant make it without him~ He's not the type that romantic and considerate ,but how come my feeling to him is so so ......... :( 




Anyway, just hope that he wont forget his 1st birthday and appreciate for it
just let see in future, whether got fate for both of us anot




Just wants to say again: Happy Birthday

17岁的我会是怎样过呢? 我想今年会过比较特别点,毕竟是我最后一年了
我很珍惜我每一天拥有在今年的日子,因为我在也没有读书的日子了
时间过得很快而且要到是4月了,多7个月我就要拿着我的大考
每一天都会去想SPM的到来:( 可怕
我从来都不去想读书,今年的到来让我觉得我有一点点的努力了~赫赫
我不期望我的成绩拿得很高,我希望我能够得到Credit,让我剩下的日子比较容易过就行了


我要努力努力,我要去追求我想要的东西
努力努力,让我未来过得很容易,很有钱:)

从来都没人知道也不想说出来
那种疼只有自己知道有多么的疼多么的伤


爱一个人很辛苦,更辛苦的是你爱的那一个已经有了另一个陪伴
而且另一个他竟然不再而不是你要的类型
有时后,真不知道怎么作出选择
可是如果不作出选择就一直这样下去或许永远解开不了哪个答案
我该如何? 我不知道


昨天为什么你要说出来,我听到时,突然间的冷掉
因为我心在痛着而且不知道该说什么好
有人说
"Silence Is A Girls Loudest Cry
You know she's really hurt when she starts ignoring you"
这一句能够形容了我现在的心情


我连呼吸都很苦难
我爱的你或许该放弃,可是却放不了手
因为等到我要放手时,你就会出现再我生活上

I need travel alone in my life

Leave me alone there and keep my mind fresh enough right now  

19-01-2012----->Irish Pub 

好感动的一天,你竟然记得我们出来8次

很少男人会去算这些,而且你是唯一第一个我认识的男生会去算.

谢谢您会去记得这一些

我觉得好幸福认识你

没想到这些都来得很突然,我竟然会对你有感觉

很难想象到事情

来得突然也走得突然,因为不久你就会离开这里了 :'(

我好舍不得

昨晚你问的问题, 好像是在给我暗示或许是我想太多?

我不知道, 我只觉得很突然的你会问这问题来

我好想知道为什么, 可是却没勇气的去问它.

希望有一天你会知道我心是在想什么