Trading My Things

Recently I am becoming more aware of how poor and broke I am. After staying in UK for more than 2 years, I have forgotten most of my business skills, my way of earning money. Apart from studying, working part time, there are always other way for me to earn extra money in Malaysia. I recall how stingy was I in the previous years and the way I value money. It is really hilarious in a way that when I first started trading secondary text books which I got them for free but sell them at a high price. My mom said that I was quite a hopeless for being such a miser that calculate every single cents even within my family. I think this lies in the gene which of course not my mom and sis since the two of them do not know how to spend wisely at time.

Without any guidance I started earning my money from investing my savings on the post office fund, trading text books and eventually expand my second hand book trading into authorise business in college. I collected the text book from students in various faculty in my college, including A-Level, South Australia Matriculation and Canadian Pre-University. Tagging the price for each book was really a fun thing to do cause I started to imagine the cash flow. I got authorisations from the DEAN, Director of Studies and support from Student Union. Even them ask me to help to sell some of the text books that student left them with which I gladly accepted it since I do not need any modal in this business and be able to take commissions out of each book I sold. It was great experience for earning quite an amount of money in 5 days. I even got discount cards from the book stores. When students buy books from me, they could get a 10% discount card for items they buy in the related book store. This is useful especially for Economic books that are always out of stocks. I even traded notes from top students for money. I am not joking but for real! I enjoyed setting up my big store while I saw other independent sellers, graduates from A-level sharing 1 or 2 tables opposite of me selling just their text books while I sell all kinds of text books. I know I being evil.......

However, I have forgotten who am I after 2 years in UK because the only thing I learn here is to spend and can hardy spot a chance to earn money. Not until recently when I feel like clearing up the mess in my room and start to think what to dispose when I moving out. (I admit I have a lot of things) After scanning around my room, I found out that I can actually sell a lot of things. I have sold 1 of my old HDD, a monitor and am currently eBaying my RAMs. I am gonna sell more things like the sleeping bags that I and Lin bought at a bargain price. (Tempted to buy more) Shoes, accessories, table lamp, books, clothing, old handsets, bags and extra desktop PC components are all going into my to sell list. Anyone thinks if I have anything that might fit you, please do not hesitate to contact me!!! Of course, I don't earn from any of this things just need more or less a break even and clearance before I move to a new place. ;=>

Reply to Alec's Reflection and My Confession

As a reply to Alec's reflection:

"Don't feel sorry for the way you have live for the past, no matter is possessed by Sloth, Arrogance or Envy, it is still a part of life. Nobody could be perfect, at least I have seen none. You are consider the much lucky one among all. Most of us have more untold stories behind the happy faces. I do not deserve your sorry because you have not trespass against me in any sense. =>"

I have been living in the same style as Alec does for more than 4 years. Others might seem me as a hardworking person while I am not. He works hard enough for your parent to be proud of while I work hard to promise my own destiny. Due to my selfishness, I always wanted to get rid of my family by ignoring them since college. I chose to study Canadian Grade12 hoping that I will further study in US or Canada, making sure I will be in a continent as far as possible from home. I was not successful for that coz I ended up in UK. I keep telling myself and motivate myself to study hard enough to get a job in a big company that promise me a living independent from my family. My mom always tell me she's not gonna stay with me in the future because all my family members too used to stay apart from each other. This does not fit in Asian's ethic but I feel a relief when I heard that. Sounds selfish? That's how I was being brought up - plan for my own good to survive in the world that lies within lies. I know it is obvious that I show this in my attitude even my love life. In fact, I learnt to protect myself by keeping all feelings to myself, not mentioning it to anyone. I tried to love somebody but still I am not ready, being selfish again. I did not try hard enough and I decided to let it go after a while. I am afraid I will get hurt again like what happen in the past. Whenever I think about this, there is always this song by "Because of you" by Kelly Clarkson in my mind. The mv and part of the lyrics match my conditions. I believe a lot of people are the same as I do. I always pretend to be cheerful, little kid but deep down emotionless. I believe most people have heard about the story of the clown behind his mask. I am same as he does for a little difference which tears no longer drain from my eyes. I forgot how long have I not been living without this mask or maybe I feel more comfortable with it. Yuhui and Kristie are special. We share similar story yet different. However, no matter how close we are I have not yet reveal all of myself. Sorry and thank you for everything you all have done to me. I might have a lot of trespasses against you (not just YH and Kris, but everyone) and I not dare not to ask for forgiveness. For those who care for me, a thousand apologies and thank you for all efforts that you all have done for me.

It is funny when a lot of people consult me for advice when I couldn't even help myself. I know exactly the power of words to cure and motivate but I think it might be a lifetime chore to cure my own wound. It is even harder to find the right key to open the box of secrets in my heart. I cherish all the friendships and wish it stays as innocent as it could without any interference. Again thank you and apologies. Thank you for accepting me for who I am and sorry for all the things I have done that offended you all.

When knowledge = 0

The Chinese says time is equate to money (time = money) [because its precious!] -(1)
and knowledge is power (knowledge = power) -(2)
By using the Law of Power (Physics):

power = work / time
knowledge = work / money
money = work / knowledge
knowledge --> 0, money --> infinity

As a conclusion, Why bother study?

Blogging

I always wanted to write meaningful things on my blog. I am not a natural blogger and I know it well. So I decided that I am not going to update my blog in the coming month, at least 3 weeks before Easter holiday commence. My assignments have been pouring in like the rain in Manchester, heavy and disastrous. This is because all these essays and programming + designs have to be done and hand in before the holiday. My supervisor has been pushing me to start my final report, at least bit by bit alongside with the programming. I would say the programming isn't that hard but the hardware configuration does contribute to my headache. So from now on, I am going to focus on my studies, assignment full speed ahead and abandoning all kinds of unnecessary thoughts. This is my resolution of the month.