dinner @ fins
(coz amanda changed her job!!!)
mint aka mina's 18th bdae
e bread is really nice to eat.....
it wasn't raining in the house tho...
see i told u!!! e bread gone within 5 minutes!
last but not least, our shrek princess...
since we already have wina and alfee the princesses
it was great to sense the awesome happening atmosphere abt the camp! annnnnnnnd nevertheless, i super duper enjoyed my genting trip!!! :D
hey girls! i was typing a post for my dengue infested blog and i created these photo edits that really cracked me up. i have this great urge to put them here! HAHAHAHAHAHA
C L U S T E R C A M P 07
Day 0... 
oopz!!!!
Day one night.... super stars in the making....
guess WHO is that in white?!
*grinz*
our new MAMAs in the making...
Day 2...
grand DINNER!!
Day 3...
in partnership with the BB company...
HAHAHAH!!! (shhhhh)
last but not least.. our superband. HAHAHAHA.
See? I just knew Wina's gonna get like 10 000 guys after her once she starts school in poly. A princess will always be a princess! hahaha. Now we have a new princess added to the cell group. This one's lagi princess. haha.
Anyway, thanks Char and Wina for the post. Looks like it's time for me to say something. It's late, and i'm really tired - but I can't sleep. haha. Dunno why suddenly had the urge to come and read... Sorry Wina i just saw your post. haha.
Hmmm. Just wanted to let you all know - after I read Char's post, I was thankful that Char brought it up. The cell, particularly S8, weren't being there for each other - being each other's emotional support, and not being T. After reading Sarah's post, I was talking abt it to Minks. I was telling Minks, how uncanny because it was bugging me for months before, but I daren't say it out - PRIDE, I guess. Our cell, I feel, is really prideful. Or maybe just I? I don't know. But as I told Minks I'm glad that Char brought the issue up, Minks told me that she had been feeling the same way too, for some time. Now that I see that Wina was feeling this way too, Now THAT'S uncanny!
(Wow Char isn't that like 4 times the confirmation! God's telling us to transform!)I guess we really do need to open up. And I believe that it was not by chance that God led Char feel so on the verge of breaking down that she had to pour it out to us. I do know that this relationship we share means very much to each and everyone of us. Just today, a good friend was sharing with me that his two buddies, also in his G12, who grew up with him, are now backsliding. How tired and disappointed he is to see his friends backslide, he still has to hang on to God. I told him that I'm sorry I can't fully understand how he feels, but I do know that right now if there were to be any single one of you girls who fell away, my heart would just break and bleed. Yes, I too, felt the pain when I read that Char was thinking about leaving home, leaving church.
I am, too, guilty of the indifference I perhaps had shown.. I know that God sometimes plants instructions in my head to go to you guys once in awhile to find out how you're doing. And a number of times I was told to go to Char - but I disobeyed God and procrastinated. I'm sorry.. I kept convincing myself that you wouldn't want to share with me.. but I guess I would have prolly been wrong.
Anyhow, I guess it's time for our cell to start anew and really start treasuring this relationship we have. I really do love every single one of you girls. As I was reading Wina's post of how glorious God is, I just cried. It really touched my heart to see in yet another way how wonderful our God is..
Okay anyway cluster camp just ended - I cried at every session -.- God planted something new in me. I'm still processing it, but it's 3/4 done processing la. It's a precious thing I received from God, and a precious new insight, even as I mentored the group for the first time. I feel like I received so much from God during the camp - even though it wasn't encounter - God was very good to me
(not to mention placing the eye candy in my group).I guess I'll share more during S8 lar. But for now, I just have another piece of good news to share -
I GOT A NEW JOB!! HALLELUJAH!
hur ah! knowing the fact for months i didn't log in here.. forgot my password! tried recalling umpteen times but failed. just have to reset password. (only recently i signed in and left comments behind.) btw im having common test this whole week. and im not going for cluster camp. am away for a short holiday. have fun being a camper/mentor! would catch up loads with everyone by then. awaits :D
Hmmmmm.... i don't know where to start.. read char's post, felt really heartbroken over it...after that came sarah's email, and discussed with camy on msn. First of all, i'd like to apologize to all of u, because i know i am also one of those who never share much and keep many issues to myself unless sarah asks. It totally ruins our supposedly T spirit, so here i am now to tell u things i have been keeping in my heart.
I am sure God is doing a revolutionary work with our cell now, especially S8, because it's not only char who feels that the cell isn't T, in a way just like any typical cell (prayer, worship, etc).. i feel so too. Char, rmb i told u online the other time that i think our cell is more bonded now and is growing? u must think its weird, i meant it as we are very comfortable with each other and we are growing with new ppl like danica, joanne, deb, bec, etc.. strangely, this has been bugging me since the past few wks, that are we just fri sun friends who laugh and eat when we meet or do our relationships run deeper than that. This year, God has revealed to me many things. I have never felt so secured before with the cell.. i'm really the type who laugh with people but believe that i can't trust anyone but myself. When i first joined the cell , that's how i felt too, though i trusted in God. But before i knew it, i'm getting so dependant on this relationship we have, i mean i really am looking forward to every meeting we have, i find my rest, comfort, motivations from this family of God's people. Then again, somehow we got so busy that we can't catch up with each other at all, just as what sarah mentioned. Just want all of u to know that u girls are really important to me.. so char saying abt leaving the cell or church, that really hurts.. honestly, my issues aren't as serious as char's.. so sorry if i failed to understand and have not been supporting in any way.
Jackie's conference actually ignited smth, but i didn't share. I have been pondering abt why God led me to design. Ever since sch started, i discovered smth impt abt myself, my talent is not in design but fine arts.. i thought they were the same initially, so went to tp thinking that it's gonna be fun. God finally hammered the truth into me. I really enjoy art, it's all abt myself, my expression of things, no constriction no nth. But design really is all abt others, my design have to meet whatever demands of the situation, thus most of the time the aesthetic is compromised. Also, in art u can highlight and present issues as u may, but in design u are the one creating a solution. See how different it is? at one point i thought if i had gone to the wrong sch, in fact a few of my classmates noted that too. But God's ans to me is clearly a no, i didn't go to the wrong field. Then another lady speaker who look more jackie than jackie herself came and talk abt dreams and stuff rite.. God spoke to me again. This time round, He's slowly revealing to me my purpose in design. Smth hits me hard abt design, that is its influence. Just in case some of u still do not know the kind of design i'm taking, it's communication design. It largely revolves arnd this huge industry called advertisement. I may not have the means to work on individuals like teachers, but well..design ads and prints u see arnd somehow affect the culture and trend of the society isnt it. To put it simply, we are the ones communicating ideas to the public through visual course. If a poster ad includes a picture of a woman in erotic position though not naked and may be effective in selling the product, it gives children ideas they shdn't have. My classmates were working on this shirt design project, theme is "you are what you wear" by 77th street.. their ideas were "junk" and "crap" words made graffiti, to show that their lives are just junk and crap-like. My friend called Christian who is also a christian was the first one to say "that's awesome!" -__- the class voted, and i'm one of the few who did not raise my hand in favour of the design. My friends are going to be future designers as well. If there is smth i can do now to prepare for my race, that wld be to convince my classmates that gd design does not neccessarily have to contain dark and negative elements to evoke empathy from the mass. I'm just so excited, my dreams for God are unfolding bit by bit. I really want to be a designer for God :D
Well, that's for sch. pretty long huh. hmm, u may be more in tuned for this. Only jelly know, but oh well in light of T.. since sch started.. 3 guys. All from my orientation grp. one is the og leader, but once he found out that i hallelujah, he gave up :)) thk God! The other two are really gd friends with me, but we aren't even talking now, i'm really sad over it. One of them called aaron is really the clown of the grp, we always laugh together and all. But when he found out that i was persistent abt not getting a bf.. he got so emo. well the grp knows he likes me, i'm the one pretending to be ignorant abt it cos i dont want things to be awkward. But he being a chatter box suddenly turning all emo and he looked so especially pained when talking to me that i don't even know how to talk normally with him. there was once at the busstop that he had to pretend to crack up jokes and smile to ease the awkwardness but they were so obviously forced. then he chose to walk to another busstop to take another bus cos he said that the bus waiting is too long. whew.. and now we aren't talking at all, how sad thought we can be normal friends. The other one was always msging talking to me online saying talking to me makes him happy, wanna meet me go sch together even when its inconvenient for him?.. when sch gets so hectic, haha.. i stop talking to him.. i mean i do find him irritating sometimes, u know when guys start bothering u. so my conclusion is he understands too, so yea.. thats the end.
oh just last wk .. think i got a spiritual attack, dunno y.. suddenly felt really really really down and depressed though nth happened at all. felt like i'm so useless, so nobody, think i should just drown myself.. it went on for 2, 3 days.. i didnt even want to seek the Lord, felt that my sinful being is just too much too unworthy of even His attention. Until i cldn't take it anymore, i felt a sudden urge to draw. it was 6 am,shocked that i woke up so early? i didnt even slp. Anw, so i took my materials and went down to the swimming pool there cos my hse nth nice to draw.. wahhhhh... i realise it has been eons since i smelled dawn, my spirits began to lift.. and i went on drawing nature.. drew until 8am.. at the end.. i realised God has healed me of that "attack". How truly faithful our God is, even when i turn my back, He never gives up on us. Not only was i fine after that, i was sooooo marvelled at God's greatness, at his wondrous creation, how intricately designed every masterpiece is, that i am perpetually touched by how much He cares.
Well, a long post indeed.. now i really think sharing is impt. It edifies, and we shouldn't shortchange God of His glory, gd or bad we share so others know what God has done and is doing..it's a form of thanksgiving isn't it.
Let's just ask God to take over the state of our cell, i believe trying to sort things out by our knowledge and strength is futile. Cya all at the cluster camp! i'll be joining as camper too :D
