Hello Hello.. It's been so long since I've blogged here as well. But recently something has been bothering me, and it is with the issue of surrender. And I suddenly felt the need to copy and paste my entire entry from my personal blog to this blog. It's not particularly filled with inspiration or what, and in fact it's rather personal. But hey, the T WORD man. And I think it aptly captures what I've been struggling with. P.s. Before I do that, Wina - the first colour looks good to me. HAHAHA Cos it looks exactly like the TJ uniform shade! Love it! LOL.
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Here goes:
I've always been an escapist of sorts. Whenever I'm faced with a problem, I'd push it off my mind to the best I could, and avoid thinking of the matter by occupying my mind with other less pertinent things. It always seemed like a comforting notion that I didn't have to concentrate on my problem, and that other things (eg. my interest in books, plot bunnies etc) made my problems seem secondary.
The past few months have been much more confrontational for me. With reality persistently being pushed in my face, I have been reminded of how deceptive this fantastical world of escapism is for me. And I'm reminded of who I should really turn to, instead of merely the figment of my imagination. To be quite honest, I've never been speechless to such an extent, such as the night before when I was talking on the phone with someone. It wasn't that I was holding things back, and didn't wish to speak my mind. My mind was just a blank, and I felt like I was at an utter loss, completely clueless what I should say. It wasn't even a case of "I don't know if I should say this cos it might not sound right." I was amazed, that I was really left speechless. All I could manage was a repetition of "Mm." or "Ok..." - Never knew I would ever feel so inarticulate.
But I thank God for this opportunity anyway, to feel this clueless and speechless. It signifies my inability to anticipate the future, and the possibilities of unprecedented events. That means I'm not mapping out my own future, nor do I have the ability to. Because rightfully, only God can do that for me - and I have to listen to him. Perhaps, you don't know what I'm raving on and on about. You might even think this is a result of a deterioration of the mind due to the lack of use for two months. But seriously, I just thank God because this lack of ability to see what the future holds, means that You are doing a work in my life, You are being dynamically involved rather than me just recklessly paving my way in life in MY WAY. I'm not saying that I am fully able to surrender things at this stage, because it just came to my attention that I am unable to do just that. (I'm struggling with some emotional thingys, emotional tussles you know you know) But... You showing Yourself to me in ways like this, in ways like this, in ways like this (Yes I have to repeat it so many times cos I can't explain how awesome it is) just awes me because it reminds me of Your divine intervention.
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Ok, that's it. Oh ya again, Love the shirt Wina! But isnt the lining a bit reminiscent of the Ps SengLeeTribe's pink and brown shirt? Haha. And of course! Will upload the rest of the CHRISTMAS PHOTOS SOON! (:
okay i havent been updating for months. even my personal blog has been stagnant for more than 2 months, which is kinda usual. guess last year wasnt smooth sailing for me so i was struggling quite a lot.
well i guess 2007 is gonna be a great year, as promised by God. it shall be a year where i harvest all my labour and pain from 2006. see, even God says that last year was a tough year for me. lol. okay the point is that we shld look ahead and yeah, i can see it coming.
i've been putting in more effort in my studies, after what happened last year. 100% God and 100% Man. ah but im kinda freaking out cos i realised i really have no time to absorb my j2 stuff cos im stil on last year's topics. GOD, HELP ME!! as for canoeing, quite stagnant at the moment cos i cant train with my back problem still persisting. im gonna consult an orthopedic this thur so lets just see what the doc says. so do pray for me k. pray that i'll be fine and that i can stil continue to canoe cos there are some who have slipped disc who stopped canoeing after their treatment. well as for my family, things are sort of brightening up, i guess. my parents' relationship is better now. thank God for that man. im trusting God that things are gonna get better. :) and as for ministry, perhaps the open cell will help me to reach out to my canoeing friends. these things are to be taken slowly, in conjuction with constant prayer. im also really really broke but im praying for God to provide for me finances; that in a way or another im gonna get money to pay for my stuff. $$$$$$$$$!!!even tho it's only the start of the year, i can see God working powerfully in my life and i thought i shld share this, in case there are those of you who feel discouraged that you havent seen the fruit of your prayers and labour. we all need to perservere thru tough times and find rest in God's faithfulness. well i guess what im trying to say has been preached in previous sermons so i shant talk any more abt it.
oh anw, just wanna affirm wina for the effort in designing and overseeing the production of the shirt. aiyah since our princess has so much time, so why not utilise it fully right???
hey cell,
need you to make a decision.
which green shd we use for the lining?
choose b/w the 2 shades in the pic then msg me asap k.
everyone MUST make a choice!
wina.
IT'S DONE!!!
FINALLY!
This is the layout..
Well.. if you dont like it black n white.. there can always be colours.
Pls suggest to me the colours if you have any preferences.
i'm sleepy....
ALOHA.........THIS BLOG IS GETTING SO SO DEAD!AND I'M PROUD TO BE THE FIRST ONE TO BLOG IN 2007!HAHA.I REGRET DOING THE "T" SHIRT DESIGN SO LAST MIN.. NOW I'M SACRIFICING MY SLP JUST TO GET IT DONE BY TMR S8 MEETING!?BTW, IT'S GOING TO BE ALL HAND DRAWN COS MY CONCEPT IS SORT OF A "T" WORLD. I CAN'T EDIT ANY SOURCE FROM THE NET SINCE THERE ISN'T ANY T FOOD, DRINKS, BUILDINGS ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD. SO THE DESIGN MAY BE A LIL CHILDISH. HAHA.I HAVE BEEN SURFING THE NET LOOKING AT THE ARTWORKS OF VARIOUS YOUNG ARTISTS AND DESIGNERS, LEARNING THEIR DIFFERENT STYLES AND ALL.i'm showing u now some of the works of the most recent artist that i admire, Luke Chueh. He is known for the satires and puns in his paintings.
"HAM"
"HARECUT" 
"BACKSTABBED"
I'm posting this just for fun lah.. since nobody is updating anything abt their lives?
alright.. i'll go back to the T design now. see ya tmr!
