revived;

a memory of intransigence -
a diminished sense of being and only a sense of doing

it all makes me nervous

what else to offer but empty aphorisms?

to all you patient people:
I am currently floundering (especially with chem)
hiatus until whenever As end

nothing ever stops

wish that
a. I were more mature
b. I could go back.. scorch away mistakes, redo certain situations/events

there will be a point when disappointments, loaded upon one another, will be too much to bear - inevitable point. I'm not far off but until then I'll just .. keep working, keep learning, keep hoping but most importantly
keep faith (:

not everything in this perspective is flaked with remembrance;

one day I was mugging and happened to look out of the window - a brilliantly blue sky of almost incomparable beauty and wondered - an entire batch of people mugging their lives away here and eighteen-year-olds elsewhere changing lives, changing their own lives because they want to and because they care, no other superficial reason

but this, this is necessary.

gwh

thanks rjce (:

having found faith (a little) I will press on
idealist?

stop feeling start working