Sometimes I really wished that we're really still as close as before deep inside , and not just a label . But I've tried my best , and you don't seemed to bother .

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Dorothy's not in school today , she's sick , so my usual friday meeting after school with her is canceled . Saw Kris and Grace quek , they were talking about teacher's day . Might be doing , all lies in Mr Ang . -.- Cause if da jie's not doing , i won't be doing too , cause i don't wanna be the only person flying across the stage doing jumps . Went to West Coast plaza with Kris to get her teacher's day outfit . Saw a checkered top , damn nice , obviously its mine . (: We were both broke , so went to provence to have "lunch" . Milk pan awesomeness :D Straight bus home . Did a bit of school work and watch the swimming . As usual , singapore lost -.-
I can't wait for tomorrow's YOG , though its artistic . (: Meeting Sab tomorrow for show :D YAY CAN'T WAIT .
Hmmm , unriddling :D

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Shall revive this dead (:
Haven't blog for real long , last post and last tag was like before mid years ? And Hafiz especially wants to read this so yeah (:
Life's been fine these few months , ever since after mid years i realised i've been mugging a lot more than before , which is surprising . Time flies , finals are coming , again . Kinda worried for my subjects , cause i don't wanna be a let down again ? Or in another words , a screwed up daughter .
Mom've been nice , wasn't as controling as before , bro's mugging for exams too . Basically everyone's busying with whatever they're suppose to do and we haven't really spend much time together as a family to bond . Mom bought me new headphones as my birthday present without me really asking for it , i was quite surprised , though she've been nagging at me whole time that i don't take good care of my things and treating everything for granted . I knew she've meant well so it doesn't really matter . Had a talk with mom , everything went well , she began to be more understanding and i'm quite about it . Now she works , so we hardly spend time together even though it might be weekends .
Apart from family , its school . I'm glad that everyone (Vans , Sperm , Bev , Li min , Fion .) tried staying together despite us being in different classes , 3 each . Though i still missed 28th may 2010 , 5.47pm at esplanade , but i gotta learn that that's the past , and it won't be back . We could only make it happen again , but the exact same things won't happen again .
I missed Vans , for she's the one who brought all of us together , and when there're conflicts going on , she've been trying to hold us all tight so that we won't split . She often made a fool of herself just to make all of us laugh at her to make us happy . She isn't calculative , and she forgives but doesn't forget easily . She can be full of vulgarities , but overally still nice and sweet . On my side , though most of the time i could be quite mean to her , she's still the reason why everything's everything . I love the photo that she printed for me in the polka doted envelope . And i'll never forget it (: Thanks Vans , for forgiving me for all my nonsense at the earlier part of the year , and accepting me as a close friend , i love you (: I'm here always , if you need me , and don't need to worry that you haven't include me everytime , i'm fine , as long as you are (:
I missed Li Min , for she's the only one that could tolerate me for the whole half year . I've no idea how , but she's just able to do it . Though i'm thankful that we weren't quarreling anymore , i still miss her retardedness at class , singing "baby" with hiccups . I still kept the bottle thingy that she gave me during the beginning of the year , and it has always been in my pencilcase . I've absolutely no plans on placing it anywhere else cause i won't bother about it . She's also one of the two , who walked together with me through sec 1 , 2 , and 3 . Though we weren't in the same class anymore , i still miss the little things we did together . And of course , i looked forward to have outings together again . Thanks Li min , a lot . I love you , am here always . (: Good luck for finals .
I missed Bev , for she's our portable MP3 player in class when lessons get boring . Taylor swift and owl city . She's a heavy sleeper , and it can get so bad that if you were to scream into her ear she could still be asleep . I've no idea how the heck she can be so dead , but i know she's like me (: She's called Bev for a reason :D HAHA , i couldn't help but to laugh at her everytime i see her . She's got a cute face , especially with that bangs . Baby fingers and Baby feet :D She didn't judge me when she knew me at first , but instead during the beginning of the year i could tell she was trying to know me better by :" eh suhui i no partner leh! for camp how! must partner huh! must huh! ' HAHA i was like huh okay okay . She've got low self esteem , and most of the time , we had to help her with it (: But now i'm kinda sad that we weren't as close as before , though now sometimes she still sits together with us . Thanks Bev , for all the encouragement you gave me during my competition , and all the comfort , yeah you know what (: I'm here always , and you don't needa worry if i'm fine k (: re read what i wrote you in the letter (: I love you .

I MISSED THE 3 OF YOU , LIKE HELL LOT .


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Adeline chua : i've a lootttt to catch up with you that its too much for me to say it here , including a routine .

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Met a friend , he's nice , he's really encouraging .
He's really fun to be with , and he doesn't judge me .
His favourite hobby was to disturb me that i can't find the exit .
He's an awesome friend (:



Alright gotta rush all my work ! GOOD LUCK BABIES FOR FINALLSSSSSSS ! ~

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Should i let my blog rot and die ?

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GREAT JOB ALL GYMNASTS ! (:

Soon it was over . My clubs routine was fine , better than any routine i did , as expected . Though i felt that i did fine i only got 6.30 . And thinking about it , if i were to get my spin to be one round , caught my small pao , didn't hit my arm while swinging the clubs after ban tui , kong tui for long enough , i'd probably hit 8 -.- That's for clubs . Hoop , though its the easiest routine , i didn't do as well , but managed to pass at least . Thinking back on competition day when it was just a few minutes before my turn for my clubs routine , i saw DJT crying . I saw Esther crying . I saw Nat crying . I saw XJT giving upset faces . I looked at lao shi , though she didn't really show , but i could tell she was disappointed . And i asked Jayna why , because we're all so screwed . I was the last to compete , among my 3 other teammates . Cassia did fine , at least she didn't drop . She managed to pass . Sabrina and Melissa dropped . I was at the side practicing and i glanced over once in a while during their routines . Cassia got the ah crap must do well look . Sabrina injured some bone in the thigh , i really did pray hard for her . Melissa was nervous , i could tell . I was mumbling "jiayou" all the while . It was only after they compete when i see everyone tearing . And i look at the end of the mat , 1 more gymnast to go , and its my turn . I realised i had to do well , cause i'm the last to compete , and whether the B div compuls' marks increase or decrease depends on me . Yes i was nervous , but i thought i don't have any other choice but to do well . I did try my best i know , i hang in there as long as i could , even though i'm already half dead after ban tui . I was sucking oxygen through my nose , mouth , skin and every part of my body i know , so as to fill my lungs every now and then . I caught the 1st pao , but drop the 2nd , i gave mdm wang li a sorry look , and i can totally imagine the facial expression changes of DJT , XJT and the rest . Which is what made me push on , and i know i can't screw any other parts . After my routine i was rather contented , as i waited for the result . Gymnast 29 : 6.30 . OKAY LAH , was what i thought . Oh well , its all over . (: Now its the time to really concentrate on my studies and make sure i do well for my midyears .

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Haven't been posting for quite some time . Shall post about today's competition and how much i screwed up . Got up early the morning , was really tired cause i train like mad the day before , because i wasn't confident with my ribbon routine . Today i kinda expected the result for that routine , but i didn't expect myself to forget the routine at the more important parts . Hoop routine was fine , 5.48 was bad enough but i passed though -.- after hoop routine is when i became very tensed , because next was ribbon . As i was practicing at the side , i did fine . That big throw was fine , i could still caught it . When it comes to the real thing , i screwed that throw , never mind . My ribbon has this little knot at the end , i didn't know , until i finished my screwed routine . In fact i didn't even complete my routine cause i miss out the whole lot of moves that costs a lot of marks . The judges put their pens down and stared , and gave me a "hmm ? forget what's next ? " kinda face . I mean like i only started ribbon a few days ago seriously . I didn't put in hope in it , cause i know i will screw it , i learn that routine the last . What's more , we don't really have a proper coach , we're like all by ourselves , wwls just sucks , she doesn't even bother about us . I've no idea what's she's busy with , but i'd rather she not come , cause it simply proves that without her we'll still do great , though i didn't really today but will fine after cooling down a while after screwing that routine . Promised Adeline not to screw up tomorrow , cause clubs is my strength . Although its a dangerous equipment , i think i'll do better in that than hoop . I don't know , no guts to think further about it , i only know i'm left with 12 hours to my clubs routine . Which is not a lot minus the time that i take to sleep . ( i'm the only pig that needs to hibernate in case you didn't know . ) That minute still flashes in my head . When i forget , it feels damn scary , cause you've 10 pairs of fishballs staring at you , while you tried to think , and the stupid music is going really fast that it makes you feel as though its ending now and that you haven't finish your routine . Adeline did great today , though she didn't catch her big throws for rope , she has improved . And she never deproves . NEVER . 12 more hours to death . shall go shower and wait for my heart to stop .

Labels: as you always wanted the best in me ., I've let you down

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Another tiring day . School seemed to last really long today , though its ends at 1.30 . Went to Macs for lunch before gym , a usual place that we'll chill out before going home and back to school . Soon it was 3.30 and time for me to head back to school to work like some mad bull . Lao shi really don't like me today , its fine , used to it . Well , basically , my phone died on me , got keypad light no screen . Old already , used for 1 year plus . Shan't talk about that .

Trust .
Simple and easy to understand , but hard to earn for me .
All because i love lying when i was in Primary school , i know its kinda lame but don't expect much from me in primary school , cause the difference compared to now is freaking huge . I hardly get outings , so i treasure each and everyone of them . And if you were to ask me why i hardly get outings , i don't fully blame my mom on that , i know myself that i've to buck up on my studies , especially when my results are this shity . I don't get it why she doesn't trust me when i'm already 15 . I know its not very old , but i believe at 15 , its old enough for a parent to trust their kids . My mom just don't , my fate lah , be that way . Guess what . She doesn't trust me for the big things , maybe i'll understand , perhaps its not old enough for her , but i was really really upset and disappointed that she doesn't trust me for the tiniest things . I came back from school rather late cause of gym on yesterday night . And i've always been late just that yesterday night was around 14 to 20 minutes later , cause of the jam and i left school late and also board the bus late . ( for some reason , the bus don't wanna come ? Nobody's to blame for it .) I was already very very tired after i reached home , and just nice heaven's not on my side , my phone run out of battery . Mom called like 3 times , and she thought i didn't wanna answer her phone cause i find her annoying . For goodness sake , if she were to understand me well enough , since the first time i got my phone when i was in primary 5 or 6 , i never attempt to hang off anyone's phone unless i hate that person . And i see my mom everyday , its normal for her to stalk me every single minute , cause i know she worries about me . Like scared i get lost in Woodlands alone -.- Firstly , i understand the feeling of when i badly / urgently need to get someone , and that someone doesn't answer the phone , i'll get damn frustrated and annoyed or maybe anxious whatever blah . Depending on who the someone is . So since i know the feeling and i don't like the feeling , i won't do that to others . Besides its my mom . I know she cares , but the way she cares can be annoying , but at least she still does . Back to the point , after i reached home , i immediately explain the whole drama to her , cause i know if i don't , i'll probably forget about sleeping , cause her nagging kills . Guess what i got back from her . She wants to know when the guard locks the gate , what time i'm dismissed . I asked her :" i just explained everything to you . What is this ? You can go ahead and ask whoever teacher that is , but i wanna know why don't you trust me . " She went round the big circle 100 times , telling me that its not that she doesn't trust me . What ? I'm not 5 , even a 5 does know that that's a stupid lie . I'm just very disappointed that i've been explaining to her that competition's in a few days time , and i haven't get my routine yet , so i'm staying back to make sure i do it well , she seemed like as though she got it , but inside her head , what going on is that she's suspecting that SuHui runs off to town instead of staying in school . Hello ? If i do that one time does it mean that i'll do that for the rest of my life in st margs ? If the same theory were to stay in her head til i graduate , i really will be upset and i promised , i will leave home . Whereever i can stay but home . Please , by the time i graduate how old am i ? 17 . And i've a mother that chases me where ever i go . I can't stand it . When i was explaining things to her , i was so upset that she didn't get it , i cried . I didn't do anything wrong , not only do i deserve a scolding from her , i don't deserve her slightest bit of trust . When i lie , she doesn't trust me , when i don't , she doesn't trust me . What the hell she wants from me then ? Nowadays cause of stupid stuffs that happened at home , i began to trust and rely on my mom more . Rely as in sharing stuffs . Cause she's the only one that i can talk to at home for now . 2nd bro's at army , 1st bro's Nus (MIA IN HOSTEL) , and don't expect me to talk to dad , cause i'm not on good terms with him , and even if i am , i won't for some reason . Thinking about sharing stuffs with friends , not all of them understand , so most of the time i don't see a point in it . I don't tell people stuff to attract attention to make sure the whole world knows what happen , but because i'm kinda don't know what to do . If i don't tell , they'll get worry cause they feel that i'm keeping things inside , if i tell , and when they can't help , they'll feel worse .

Not sure if i'm vexed .

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MY RIGHT EYE IS BLOOD RED .


Okay great . My right eye has been like that since 2 days ago . Wait , no , 3 days . It doesn't hurt , neither is it itchy . I wouldn't even know its red if nobody were to tell me that . Felt damn blind today without contacts , so depended on Shermaine to survive for the day . Worse still , there's chem test today , and my face was 5 cm away from the paper . Yes my eyesight's that bad -.- Hmmm , if it doesn't get any better , shall wear specs tomorrow in case i get myself blind forever in one eye . Everyone that walked pass me today was like :" omg su hui what happened ! " I got that from Chelsea , Angelina , Shermaine , Li min , Vans , Beverly , Shanice , Kalisha , Gloria , Jillyn , Rachel , Deena , Serene , Chinese girl ( laura ) , Dorothy , Aisyah , Syahdina , Kimberley Claire , Gloria Sun , Gina , blah .
Grr , Shanice even say it looks like fishballs that're bleeding . HAHA . POA TEST TOMORROW ! Luckily studied for it already . Hmm chem test after all was managable . Though i didn't really study for it ? 4 tests in a week . Sec 3 only .
Good luck Su Hui for the rest of her st margs life .




Esther : Ah see ? Get into trouble lah . Eh , if you were to skip home econs then not so bad lah , not core subjects . Sec 2 really depends what're you gonna study for the rest of your sec school life , so if you don't wanna get shity subjects combination , then must study lah . I know its a sad thing but still .. Getting into trouble is common , just that don't repeat the same mistakes again , or maybe if you really cannot stand the lesson that you must skip , then its your problem lah , i mean as a senior i can only tell you to get smarter and think of ways not to get caught ? HAHA , love you , jiayou for gym (:
Goldish loves Esther .

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Omg i swear today was an awesome friday . Nat chan never come , so we spent time to take pictures using May Si's photos (: Out with Dorothy and Jillyn for lunch after school today . Haven't been out with them for forever -.- Thanks Dory and Jillyn for hearing me out today , for the heart to heart talk . Tomorrow is ,



MASSIVE POA DRILLING DAY .

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Sort of skipped gym today to go to macs to study POA with Adeline . I swear she really had trouble teaching me cause i don't seemed to get a thing again . Got really really fed up with it . I just threw the wrong answer at the wall . -.-


ADELINE : Eh , i can totally feel that i'm wasting your time can . You're suppose to study Bio while i dragged you to teach me and you're like losing your patience just that you don't want me to feel bad so you don't get angry . But really , thanks for teaching me , though i've no guarantees that i won't screw up again for the next test on monday .

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Went over to cousin's house after dinner yesterday . Had a tiff with dad , which is a everytime thing . Set off to cousin's house . Went to sleep soon enough . Sometimes i've been thinking , why must there even have family matters ? What happens when parents quarrel ? The kids just sit there and not say a word ? How long would the quarrel last ? I thought it'll never end . Mom's off to Malacca for a day with her friends , 1st bro's at NUS hostel , 2nd bro's at the army . Dad's at home . Home is a place that you'll feel safe , but i don't . My dad's got a unique character that i don't think any dad has . I probably shouldn't be sharing such things up here , cause its rather personal , but i thought it doesn't matter any more . I used to not treasure my siblings being at home with me , but now i do . Because it feels as though some big part of you is missing when they're not home when you are . Mom has became a huge part of my life since i was born , though she can be really really annoying and irritating , she's still my mom , and i gotta respect her . She brought me up , taught me how to be a better person in life , taught me values , explain things to me whenever it doesn't work out , tried talking to me whenever she saw me troubled . But as many people know , when it reaches my age , parents just don't understand . Sometimes i thought it's not that parents don't understand , they do in fact , cause they been through our age . Its just that we have a mindset of our own that parents didn't go through the 'now' life of ours at that point of time . She loves to nag , all because i'm her daughter . If i were to think through , she's not mad to go around and nag at others . Now that such things happened in my family , what she taught me and my siblings is that we've to be united no matter what happens . "Jia He Wan Shi Xin" was what she said . And i thought she has a point there . Cause when such things happen , i realised that whatever i do , even the simplest things , i failed . An example is during gym training . A clubs throw that i've been training since the beginning of sec 2 til now , i can't even succeed in one . What's wrong ? No , nothing's wrong , my technique is correct , everything's fine . Just that i can't catch it . And everytime i throw it , it'll land on the floor with a loud bang instead of my hand . Thinking about school's reopening , i didn't look forward to school , neither do i look forward to go home , cause i felt damn alone and damn scared there . Not exactly scared , but more of a not safe there . My dad and i alone at home . And i'm not in good terms with him . Nobody's gonna be home any later , cause mom will only be home real late , probably 3 am ? I don't know , and i dare not think about it . Sometimes i wished that i'm not my dad's daughter , cause living under the same roof with him's absolutely not a good thing . Its like under fear everyday . I looked forward to weekends now , firstly is that its a small break from daily boring and torturous school routines , secondly is that they're more people at home , other than me and mom alone . Thinking about going home later just haunts me . So what do i do now ? Sit and pray that things get better ? Then i'll hope so .








Eh backsidesssss i'm suffering at home in case you two didn't know , come home please , for my sake , owe you two a big one ..

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BRUISE ON MY RIGHT SHOULDER BONE :(

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Okay i swear i didn't had a good day after yesterday night . Family matters isn't a good thing , and it affects whatever i do . I don't seemed to be doing well for the simplest of the simplest things in gym today during training . And i gave everyone that faces me a black face , and when they talked to me nicely , i walked away . It wasn't just family matters alone , but also some other problems in school . And adding them up is like a mouse carrying an elephant that is a gazillion times the weight . And when i'm feeling terrible , its like the whole world owes me a living . Yeah , problems affect me really easily , and i can't get anything done . That's a stupid thing about Su Hui . After reaching home from gym , practiced piano , and it sucks . I can't seemed to play a piece without mistakes . And i've been playing that piece for months already . Its like its rotting there . Tomorrow will be the last gym training , and i've to squeeze in my ribbon routine as soon as possible .

I'm sorry Cassia , Sabrina , Melissa for today .




Family matters taught me that changing one is very painful , why not change yourself ?

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Today was just terrible , had POA lesson early the morning which i'm almost late for but in the end i made it just on time . Lesson lasted for the whole of 4 freaking hours , i kept yawning , was freaking tired . After POA finally ended , Shermaine and i headed to macs . She received a call from her mom that her mom's already there , so she just left . Never mind , after buying mc flurry i head back to school to be an extra in Mrs Shum Social Studies' remedial . (: Frankly speaking , i did miss Mrs Shum , when we had all the fun in class disturbing her , laughing at whatever wrong pronoucation she made though it was lame . In fact i miss the whole of my sec 2 life . But just gotta move on to sec 3 and get heavier stress as we grow older . I swear SS lesson was a joke , we end up passing letters around , especially Jillyn the awesome buddy of mine . Somehow the paper balls just kept flying to and fro me . :D HAHAH , had a great time . But that only lasted in the morning . Gym was a complete different thing . I used to look forward to gym trainings though they're tough when i was in sec 1 and 2 . But i don't seemed to this year and i've totally no idea why . I'm not sure if i've lost interest in it or what , i don't care ? But i just don't feel as "home" as how i felt during sec 1 and 2 . Jin Hui left , was one big thing that i'm trying to get used to . There're still many other things , inside and outside school and gym . Talked to Adeline today about you , and what "advice" i got from her was to not talk to you again , but i kinda find it quite mean to do that , cause we've been close for quite a number of years and i don't wanna spoil the friendship that we've been spending time to build up throughout these many years . You might not know how i'm feeling right now , i don't intend to let you know any more things and neither am i gonna spoil the friendship , cause i can totally feel that you're looking down on me cause of whatever's happening and also , i believe God let us be together in the same class for 3 years for a reason . I don't like it , and i can assure you that if you were to push my limit any further , you can't blame me for not holding my words . I really can't stand it anymore , i always hope you would understand . I still love you .

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Okay for some reason , things just don't feel right for me today . Shall just talk about today first . Bro came back from field camp , and then today early the morning , he called up this restaurant to book places for buffet . Crawl to Suntec by lunch time , food wasn't exactly very awesome , though i've always love Japanese food . Remembering how much i used to eat when it comes to Japanese Buffet , today was just not the amount that i used to eat . Its like i've no appetite to eat anything , but i'm trying to just eat whatever i can , so that i don't spoil the mood . Looking at how bro eats , i can tell that he didn't eat well during field camp . What i heard was that he've to survive on 3 packs ration for whole day , and judging his huge appetite , i think if you were to give him 6 its still not enough . He ate like he haven't been eating for years . Either you see him sitting down shoving a plateful down his throat , or he'll be taking his food , and everytime he comes back , his plate will be filled . And if you were to ask me how many times he went to and fro , i don't know and i don't wanna know , cause estimating the amount he eats is really scary . Went gran's house after buffet , some every sunday thing . Though its raining , i didn't really feel very comfortable , i was just really tired , and everytime i tried to sleep , i'll just wake up . Nobody disturbed me , though everytime there'll be cause of the 2 kiddos , but this time , i woke up automatically . Which is so not me , cause i myself know that as long as i get to sleep when i'm feeling really tired , its like trying to wake someone up when they're in coma . I need to hibernate at least 10 hours a day and i've no idea why . But when fun comes , i can totally forgo sleep . But this time i was just feeling very tired , but i can't sleep no matter how hard i tried . Soon its dinner time , and the average food tasted like shit to me . The spaghetti tasted like vomit . What's wrong with me today ? It just doesn't feel the way it is supposed to be . I thought its just me , and i really hope that . Tomorrow is another killer , cause i've POA lesson early the morning , and training from 12 to 6 . I can might as well camp at school and try to make school my home , but obviously i won't , cause school sucks these few days , though its march holidays . Thinking about the homework , my results , the heavy trainings , POA lessons though its just 2 days , family matters , bro being unwell , school problems ( small thing big thing whatever ) , blah . Sometimes i really wished that someone can just whack my head hard enough to make sure i don't wake up again until all the problems are solved ? But i can't say break can i ? I never had good sleep ever since i entered st margs . Whether i sleep at 8 and wake up at 5 , i feel as dead as i sleep at 4.59 and wake up at 5 . No difference .

Why do i look forward to something , but when that something finally comes after looking forward for it for 2 months , thinking through again , i realised i actually don't really look forward to it ?

Labels: What's happening? Feeling wrong .

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Okay haven't been blogging for quite long , shall resume blogging though its quite sian . Its march holidays , but my results just spoil my mood . Never mind , shan't talk about that . Piano sucks today , cause i wasn't doing well i know . HEE , feeling damn excited for all the outings . Guess what . Training from monday to friday . Obviously i'm gonna skip some days right -.- Not mentioning about outings , i think just homework alone is enough to kill . Chemistry , maths , chinese , English . -.- You call this a holiday ? I think my ipod died on me . Hmm shall blog about MINI YOG DAY then . Took pictures , was awesome though quite expensive ? I swear me and Shermaine screamed til our throats sore . "GO TOLLEY!" and Shermaine blew the whistle til its filled with her saliva . Damn gross .
2/7's still as awesome .

A day at macs! 080310

Labels: I miss sec 2 life.

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Time flies , its the weekends again . For the past 10 weeks or so . Life's been fine , quite a daily routine , of course there're ups and downs , but its just the way i handle things . We've one more week to March holidays is what i'm really happy and excited about , but i've one more thing to think about also . The A level results were out , and immediately i got the message after bro came home not even looking at me , left a piece of paper on the sideboard , and headed straight into his room and then shut the door . I saw the result slip and i didn't shoot him any more questions . I know he did work hard , from what i see . He sits at home like some buddha everytime when exams come , and whatsmore this time its As . I felt quite bad , cause i can't do anything to help him , not even comfort him , cause i'm youngest ! What do you expect your 5 year old sibling to tell you when you screw up for your tests/exams ? It works the same way . -.- Was supposed to go out for dinner and movie yesterday together with mom and bro , but we didn't in the end , cause it wouldn't be nice when he's having such a bad mood while we try to be some asshole and have fun . So i stayed home to study for the upcoming POA test on monday . Hope that i can score better this time . Hmm , might be staying home whole day , depends on whether bro has the mood to go out to eat later . Shall end here .

Labels: march holidays .

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Hmm just got new playlist for the blog . (: No noisy music this time , the happy happy music (: HEEEHEEEE . Oh well , today's POA wasn't as bad as i thought , monday we've test , not a good thing . Mom's been nice to me these few days , so life's not bad . Went up to 3/7 before assembly today , Gina passed me a letter and Gloria struggled with her A maths graded assignment . I swear i would struggle a lot also if i were to take a maths cause i can totally not understand a single thing . There's this with this letter B that has a tail that sticks out like cursive . Geez never mind . Guess what , i intended to bring back Gina's story book to read today , but i left it in school TOGETHER WITH MY IPOD !!!!!!!!!! And those that know me knows that i'll die without my ipod on the bus . Imagine that , on the bus without any thing to entertain you for that hour ? NO FOR ME MAN . I'll keep whining and whining and complaining and grumbling . And no body can stand it so far . Even the most patient person on earth ? -.- Omg how am i gonna get to school tomorrow .. wish me luck .

Labels: i miss you ipod ..

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Okay blog's quite dead . Shall revive it . School was boring as usual , especially when there's no gym . Was glad that i scored well enough for maths test to earn an outing and i thought i'm gonna fail it , judging the way i do my questions and how the answers turned out . I dare not even expect myself to hit 20 , not say any higher . Today's bio test was managable , and all thanks to my english , i just let 3 marks go away like that -.- Never mind its over . Sort of settled some problems with Li Min , after all working quite well . Went home with Tao Pang after school , haven't been going home with her for very long already .. Anyways ..


JILLYN : Ah ha ! Must get well soon okay ? Its been a long time ever since we meet up to have fun . Hope to go out during march holidays but heard that you're already fully booked so .. never mind then (: will have some other chances :D Love love ! Get well soon! :D See ya around at school !

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Went to catch Percy Jackson and the stupid lightning theif . I swear the show sucks . Is like go go power rangers ! -.- I swear its worse than Harry Potter . Never mind about that . Guess what . I had my dinner at 4 , and i'm still bloated til now which is 8 . I guess i can survive throughout the night . Bro's booking in today , and his last words before he left home was :" eh backside , study hard ah . Promise . " PFFT . I am , since when am i not -.- only mom thinks i'm not , 'cause everytime when i'm having breaks , is the time that she sees me . And what was i doing during breaks ? Computer . So i'm forever not studying and facing the computer all day to her . Never mind . Guess what , bro bought me ear piece , and they cost a bomb . Omg , was really thankful . Watching Mission Impossible now . I regretted watching Percy Jackson , the movie at home was better -.-

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DINNER AT COUSIN'S HOUSE !

Went home immediately after a tiring day of school . I was really really tired today , comparing to the normal tired everydays i have , today's the worse . I fell asleep immediately i put my head on my table . And i swear Li Min didn't have a good day either , cause she has been really bored cause i'm sleeping with my eyes open and brain shut during lessons . She tried to talk to me , is either i open my eyes and didn't hear what she's saying , or i was sleeping and totally too tired to not ignore her . Felt really bad after she wrote a letter to me telling me about how she felt , its like she tried to talk to me but i didn't bother all because i'm too tired . Shermaine was sleepy too . I swear today was damn funny , we two were dozing off and our heads move downwards at exactly the same time . Ms Lee was being damn nice to not scold us about it . Went back home after school and got a phone call from mom that we're having dinner at cousin's house (: Great , went there after getting ready . Awesome food (: Guess that's about it .

Audrey Gan : POWDER GUN !!! :D HAHAH , just a little birthday note on you on my blog k ? I didn't expect to be in the same class as you for three years , and its gonna be throughout the whole of our seconday school life . You can be really annoying at times , but also at the same time nice lah , so not so bad still (: Thank God i got you beside me for POA lesson , if not i think mrs rethinam will just chew us all up . HAH , HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY and thanks for the cookies that you baked last year ! :D I remembered! (: Love you !

Ang Li Min : Hey love , i'm sorry that i didn't really talk to you today cause i'm just so tired . You might be wondering why am i so tired everytime though i've always been sleeping early at night . Too bad lah , you got a friend like me who has to hibernate at least 10 hours a day like a polar bear to recharge battery . Ah , don't worry , i'll try my best to keep myself awake . If not i don't mind you hitting me everytime i doze off like what i did to Shermaine the other day during Humanities lesson . (: And anyway , not like i'm very good person to entertain you , cause its not like whatever i say would cheer you up or what . Sometimes i find that i'm just craping some rubbish that has no link to any topic that you're saying , and you didn't say anything except noding your head . So i thought i shouldn't bother you cause i find that i'm just irritating you at the wrong time everytime .So yeah , that's about it . Love you , thanks for all the letters .

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Shall blog about today . Its some reunion dinner day , and its also a day that mom would cook the best dishes , and its also a day that my family and i had the most quietest dinner of the year . Shan't talk about the unhappy stuffs , cause they just spoil my chinese new year . Had mushrooms , egg , tofu , spinach , fish and spicy japanese cucumber for dinner . Quite simple , but awesome (: Shall talk about siblings . Heard from many of my friends that younger siblings were annoying and irritating . Thinking back , i was a younger sibling too . In fact , i was the youngest . And hearing from whatever bro has got to say about me when i was young , if i were him , i wouldn't tolerate such a sister for altogether more than 10 years . They said i would go into their room when they were studying for their exams , and started to take away their stationeries , books , and other stuffs that they need for the exam . And when they had no choice but to snatch them away from me , i'll just start crying , and that's when they both got scolded by mom for so called "bullying" me . HAH , i don't know if i should laugh about it , cause if i were them , i've no patience for all these nonsense , especially during the period of time when i'll be having my exams . I thought i'll just lock my younger sibling up in a room and make sure i'll only let him or her out after i have finished my studying to prevent them from getting on my nerves while studying . I know that sounds really mean and "cruel" , but still , that's me (: I've friends , juniors , seniors or same age , many of them had younger siblings , and they find them annoying and they didn't really treat them well . What i told them was that , treat them like as though they were your age , whether they're irritating or not . Cause after all , they'll mature and realised that whatever they're doing is annoying to others and they'll also have more brains to think of what's right and what's wrong . Come on , i'm a younger sibling too . And i can totally understand how all younger sibilings feel when the older sibling didn't treat them well and take as though they didn't exist . It wasn't good , in fact it was really really really terrible , and i dare admit i cried alot when i was young cause of these stupid things . But after i reached the age of 12 , my siblings started to treat me better , cause they knew that i've grown . And they'll start to understand you better and treat you more like an adult , because it was indeed true that you're growing up . In fact , sometimes they even listened to whatever i've got to say . They won't be like : " mei mei shut up , you don't know anything . " You'll feel that you got your place at home , and in them . And the feeling was indeed a comfort for me . I didn't thought they'll treat me any better when i grow up . Yeah , in the end they did . I was glad (: Now i get : " mei mei , any objection ? " HAH , thank God i've got pillars to support at home now . (:

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AFTER CNY CELEBRATION OUTING !

HAHAH ! Today was just so cute . We got our 12 animals performance for Chinese New Year , and i swear i didn't expect any one to shout my name while i was performing . I heard Nat's voice , Dione's , most 3/8s , some 3/7s and 3/9s . I was shocked , and then i'm like ah shhhhh !!! Don't distract and stress me out if not i'll screw up !!! " HAHA , after performing , went back to hall to watch the rest of the performance . Shermaine and Beverly were damn funny , i saw them and they're like : " Hey horse-y ! " HAHAHA , omg they all recognise me !!!! Meaning the make up wasn't thick enough ! HEH . Was really hyper today . Adeline gave me some Valentine's day present . And i swear the squishy cupcake/cookie/kueh she baked was damn damn damn nice though its really soft . Thanks love for that ! :D Though i could tell that you were really fucked up today cause of lao shi , you're still the awesome senior that i had kay ? You and Nat rock (: And i was fucked up too , so fucked up that i've to tear to make myself feel better . I was feeling so terrible that i've to keep chilling myself down by sitting at a corner . So don't listen to whatever lao shi has gotta say , she sucks , that simple . And i think she knew that we both were fucked up cause of the costume , she let us have a change , but still -.- Don't bother . Ah next , saw Gloria and Gina . They were sort of giving me a "you were really funny up there" look . And i gave the " hmmph ! Never mind " face . HAHA , i was just super hyper today that i hugged Natasha/Nicole and Joanne so hard that they got problem breathing . I suddenly wished the 2009 sec 4s gymnasts were here . They've been so great , but all've graduated except Adeline , who's graduating next year :( Hmm , shan't elaborate about unhappy stuffs . After that , me and Li Min met up with Gloria , Gina , Francesca , Verlyn , Durga , Abigail and Grace Quek ( i don't know , i just saw her at the bus stop , she'll being going amk ) . Set off to town !

Everyone went for movie except me and li min , cause i've no cash left and li min doesn't wanna watch so i'll just accompany her and not pang sei her . I swear today was just awesome man . Its also a good day to exercise with Li Min , cause we basically just waste our time turning the whole town just to find Rachel and Miranda -.- We were both really pissed , cause they kept changing venues of where to meet . At the same time when we roam around town , we had fun . Though our legs were hurting like shhhiiitt , we talked and laughed along our way . (: I swear going out one friend is not a good idea , for me . Cause it'll just be like : where to go next ? " " don't know , up to you ah ." " you choose ah , i seriously have no idea where to head to ." Okay this is just rubbish , wasting time . But i think there's something more to it . After meeting up with Rachel and Valerie , we suddenly felt like we were back to life . We started talking about stupid stuffs and laughed . There's this guy that was really damn afraid that he can't get up the escalator , so afraid that i'm actually standing together with Valerie , he practically pushed me , but too bad i stepped on already so he just gave me the " tsk " look . Hello ? The escalator will disappear if you wait for one more second is it ? Where's his manners ? And he's not an old man that doesn't look not educated . Will you die if you wait for the person that is suppose to step on first before you ? One more incident . I was walking with Limin , Rachel and Valerie at ION . I was finding something in my bag while walking . Guess what . I wasn't blocking the way , though i don't have eyes behind my head . We were walking towards our left . This guy was rushing , and he just pushed me aside . He kept quiet , without saying excuse me , and after knocking into me from behind , he didn't apologise . I didn't expect an apology , because i thought most educated people would say that , or at least those that have a mother to teach them manners . I just gave them a "its fine you didn't push me , i just suddenly feel like falling down , so i purposely trip myself " look . Please , the road is so wide that i think it can fit like 15 of my friends including me standing in a row . Is he so fat that he has to squeeze/push me even though he's rushing ? And shouldn't him be finding some bigger space to walk into since he's rushing ? Sometimes i just don't understand people . -.- Never mind , i'll just treat as though nothing happened . Grrrr .. Never mind .

Tomorrow would be reunion dinner , and i'm so gonna get an unwanted guest at home , and cause of her , dinner would be so quiet and weird . Thanks man , if dad didn't force me to call you for tomorrow's, the best is that , the further you go , the better . Don't break up the family .

Great work for everyone today , especially Kristiania , Esther , Nicole , Natasha , Joanne , Alexis , Rachel , Jafni , Jaslyn , Melissa and Adeline ! What ever lao shi's gonna say after that , I believe we've done our best (: Lets everyone all face competition together ! Rock on , gymnasts ! :D

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Today was just boring , cramps got worse , and i think LiMin got irritated hearing all my complaints and stuffs . Never mind about that . Got history graded assignment . Grah , so humanities -.- School was as boring as usual . nothing much to blog about , i just suddenly miss Gloria , Gina , Aubrey , Li Min , caroline and me being all together . That day'll never come , will it ?

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MASSIVE SOCIAL STUDIES TEST .
Hah , common test was social studies , graded assignment was social studies , and i think there're more of social studies coming up . Altogether i guess i did like 5 sources . But the graded assignment was easier yeah . Went home after that , got cramps . Terrible day . Thanks and sorry Li min for tolerating my complaints today , and i'll tolerate yours , don't worry , if you really needa let everything out . (:

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Omg today was just awesome , though quarreled with mom before going out , the usual thing . Went out for some trainers meeting thing after piano , meet kris at school , was so so so sorry to be that late . Ah never mind . Reached some aspen heights condo in a few minutes , had fun . After everything , went shermaine's house instead of town . Quite upset though , cause when i pass by town on the cab , i suddenly feel so home . HAHA , but it okay . Cause i believe there'll be somemore days that'll be like that . Shermaine's mom being damn nice , even boutght dinner for me , but of course , i die also will pay her back (: Thanks shermaine , and sorry kris for all the stupid things that happened today . i love you people , and thanks .

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Goodbye bro , see you chinese new year .

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