Frankenstein

It may not be the truth of human kind, but it depicts a true common traits of human nature. It left me doubtful, with a sense of diminished hope. There is no hope for mankind. I love this story, as depressing as I.

In a recent event, the light for hope of change in mankind is dim. My hopes high, for an alteration of perspection in human ability for introspection and wisdom, sank.

Mary Shelley is right. Human, clouded their judgements with emotions and convenience would not recognise what is true in front of them. But to wallow in their self pity and self indulgence. Human, weaker than their own creations. Human's benevolence only served what is good for them and their parochial justifications and opinions.

Not all man are created equal. It is such a pity for myself to cast a judgement of disgust to this lowly creature that I have contacted recently, as I had also became clouded by emotions of disgust.

Maybe awareness and reflections are not a forte of humankind.

Reflections

I had this thought in my head today, "I wanted to do that, lets go do that now."
Lets go do that now since people around me recently had brought up this observation about me, that I do whatever I want, I decide without seeking opinions and does what I had decided without further considerations.

Before this, I had not realized this about myself. I had always thought that I am fickle minded, I procrastinate alot. Never would I believe that, that observation was one of my traits. Listening to that, it made me swell up with pride and confidence. I had always love independence and had always aimed to be someone that doesnt needs anyone. I felt an accomplishment that I am somewhere near who I wanted to be.

In contrast, I had not realized that, the person closest to me, thinks I had left no space for discussion, that I did not seek his opinions or inputs.

Its time, I be a little more sensitive and aware about my speech and actions.

In pursue of happiness

Sometimes, we know it. We just chose not to see it. We chose not to choose happiness. We turn away from happiness because it is easy. Resuming life as it is because it is easier than creating happiness. It is a hard work of moulding and shaping ourselves in the pursue of happiness.

One can turn away from happiness without consciously being aware of it. One can also deliberately chooses to reject happiness.

She chose to consciously reject it. Not because she hates happiness. She loses the strength and vitality to pursue it. He is stronger than her, but he lack awareness. He unconsciously turn away from happiness. He lost the wisdom to see the path.

We are without guidance in the face of human nature.

Our undying love

I wish the way i feel for you is like the way i felt for you when i fell for you...
I wish for the passion to never end like how the evening and the sunset would stay beautiful permanently.
I wish for our love to be an everlasting diamond in my heart.
That the night would never end, the rain would never stop.
Our stomach would never get full from eating, we would never pass out from drinking.
Now that the tide had fallen, the leaves had turned orange.
The season will come again.
To renew our undying love.

Do people welcome unsolicited compassion?

Is pity/ sympathy from the bottom of your heart ever geniune?

When i see people of colors not being appreciated for what they do and contributed during work or outside work, i always think they deserve to be treated better for the effort they put in. In a way I do pity them at times.

But today, i question myself if the sympathy i feel for them true and real?  

If we are not in their shoes, we are not treated the way they are treated, in a broader perspective, is that a truth?

Or is it that it is in human nature to feel pity because it trigger off a sense of superiority? If thats so, then is it right to say that if a person is not in the same situation, they are not displaying true sympathy that stems from a purer intention? 

Anyway, today i think, in the far future, you might not be able to understand me as well as I thought you could.

You might not have the respect and trust to give me.

And you might not be able to comprehend my complex ideas, possibilities and my way of eliminating problems. 

And that is a problem.

do come tonight. any night.

I wanna die in my sleep.I wanna die in my sleep. I wanna die in my sleep.I wanna die in my sleep. I wanna die in my sleep.I wanna die in my sleep. I wanna die in my sleep.I wanna die in my sleep. I wanna die in my sleep.I wanna die in my sleep.