wHY am i still in that " "?!?!

haiz... so sad cia today... but nvm... today i'v have already make up my mind my decision to lead a peaceful.. it maybe boring but nvm.... i rather be that way than become into an lonely freak! pool was ubber fun today... but it was rather hot there... but nvm... now talking on da phone with xh so cant think of anything to write... lol still feeling so empty

hate this world

so angry! i say bye to my mother and she dont even wanted to bid me goodbye... i repeated about six times and not even one time she responded! so disappointing! What kinda mother she are?! haiz... cant stand it.. it musta been the pressure and stress that is getting on my nerve... and everybody thinks that im a shop just come and go as they wish! i cant take it... this few days i've been thinking and tolerating about it... they just think of themself... when im into trouble then no ones like to trouble themself then they rather leave me all alone... i turn back time and live the way it was meant for me and not changing it and persueing into some kinda wild live.. prefer it peaceful and happy now... haiz.. can anyone get me outta this mess now?

delifrance....

the first day of work is always so boring... the people there so mean and unfriendly except some who is quite warming... feel like smacking those mean faces.. like want to bully newbies like that... been washing plates, bowls, glasses,etc...etc...etc. learning how to make drinks all that had been fun though... When straight hom cause it goin to be seven... whao and then my head ache so badly and my shoulders ache too.. man... so tiring.. one thing i gotta just get it outta my mind.. i felt so left out! so left out of everyone and da world! imma not exist! why is it onli when they are bored or sumthing then they come and find me! why is it that onli when im in high spirit then they are there to listen to my jokes! why is it when im moody and quiet then they went happily off to find another entertainer?!?! WHY WHY WHY?!?! my dearest friends not talking about you guys... just to tell ya just in case...

badluck?

Man... god had been cursing me again and again he musta realli hate me... i cant believe he did this to me... o...k... i had start my day by hearing my dad yelling at me in da morning cause we are late for the police lecturing... then we when there by his motorbike and it was soo cooling and windy... i was like falling asleep on da bike... we reach there just on time and the officer brought a group of others offenders that i dont know who in the universe they are i just follow the officer with my dad... and we guys went in to a room where everyone sat at a 'huge' table where i can hardly stay awake... AnD whats moRe he spat at us with load of craps and shit with the rules and regulation... and i was to reach home at seven o clock at night for EVERY sInGLE DAY!!! FOR SIX whOLE HeLLY MOnTHS! holy shit~! i dont know how am i going to survive with this kind of bloody rules... no smoking.. no drinking.. gambling... no re offending and blah blah blah~~ AND worst i have to go COUSELLING!!! omg! like i was some kind of mental-problmatic kid~! i cant believe i have to go to the same couselling centre again like i have gone to last yr!! IziT fated??!?! that i have a shit life!~ wtf?! After that my dad frive me back home again but now the situatuion is totally difirent man... ThE weather is soo damn hot! And my dad seems to agree with me and he suddenly pick up speed and my head totally cant catch up with the rest of my body and was realli like cartoons... the head at the back and the body in da front? hawhaw~ and i sms my sis told her to come down to eat at the nearby food centre... and went after that.... still broading over that matter... i have to go play pool on tuesday man how am i goin to go? if i ask my dad go along then i can stay out late.... but.. haiz... ugh! cursed life!

shit...

haiz.. so sad... when to play pool at somerset today... xy is on fight with her stead zx... then we went in and play for some time.. her stead came to play too... and it musta been a considence... cause she did not call him come... but we call another group of friend come with us... man.. and xy stead's friend bushuang our friend... then he call him go out and our friend kana beaten up heard that is four beat one.. oh man... this is so unfair!! i hate them!! haiz... then my friend say he doesnt want to see me again! i cant lose him as a friend! he was just looking at their pool table and they thought he was staring at them! FUCK THIER MUM'S ASS MAN! IT WAS SO HOLY CHILDISH! I HATE THEM!!! AnD my friend still say he dun wanna see any of us again! but its not our fault right! grrr! now its all screw up! so fuck up!

my fish.. :(

morning schoool had been bloody boring... and that guy ee chong keep calling me FaT~ lolz... quite funny though.. went to xy house right after wandering around school and went cooking and frying in da house... but it musta taste rather bad.. but anyway it had been fun... and she gave me what i wanted... a cigarette and i went to yt house right after that.. they were gambling there.. i was tired so i lied on the bed... feeling raTher sick now... and when i went home.. BaD news came running to me... man... saturday i need to go to that hell police station to settle that case which is forever never ending... it lasted for sooo damn long!! oh man.. when can this hell be gone... BuT i have to work on that helly day! man.. wat imma gotta do... damn.. god just cursed my life... that bloody fish just died... it musta hate its tank alot... so pityful its eyes look up to me.. haiz.. god do u realli need to curse me? no way! i gotta getta hell outta here! help me!!

today i watch the vcd again... i said i hate zhou ziruo because she is damn evil.. full of plots. Cant stand her in the first place.. BUT today when i saw her fighting! She was helly cool~! Because her eyes is full of evil and that was so damn cool~! But i still cant stand her! ugh! Imma goin back to my show! cyAz!

nth.. nth

been watching qi tian du long ji vcd this few days so never blog for so long... omg the show was so nice.. it was so nice that i missed out lots of show... i just cant stop watching it till i watch it all... ytd i watch the dics till it was like around five thirty in da morning! man... but tml i need to go to sch so i cant watch till so late... sad thing... the show just keep me in suspense. I got some new pics of cristiano e-mailed to me.. so happy.. he was so god gorgeous on da field!! Now im hearing happy ending by all american rejects very nice also... haiz... ke qi ar ke qi... nvm... nth... .... .... ....
I HATE SCH AND I HATE SINGAPORE!!! ugh! that was sucky.. ugh nvm...

WHY!?!?!?

WHY??? why do you read blogs? why do you read this blog? why do you keep coming back? what is it that makes you want to read more? why do you care? do you care? or is it cheap entertainment, like a story or tv show? do you want there to be a happy ending someday? is it supposed to end? what is the point? and some people say they are inspired. inspired how? to do what? to be how? i am stuck in "no where". i am nothing. i will become nothing. so how can that inspire anything? and if someone is inspired, then they will be more than me. they will be better than me...
how do these things work? explain yourselves, blog readers.

damn... oh man... my mouse gotta crack... it musta been the plug or the ants biting it... it cant moved!.. at all... and now im here using the keyboard to control the mouse... i have a difficult time doing it... ytd i lay awake till 1.40am and i meant to go to da teevee to watch coasta rice vs. portugal... i meant to watch it! i realli realli realli meant to watch it! but i lay there thinking bout things anddd i slept through the night! man!! i musta miss cristian on the field! he musta looked sexy there.. awww damn... haiz.. i fell for the person that i cant fell for... he cant be mine...awww... i musta hate myself.... and i realli hate singapore... i mean like....singaporean guys are sissys... realli! i musta miss him lots... oh ya and damn... today night they have athens olympics and that means i will miss today's episode of the o.c and wwe! omg all bacause of that olympic! i dun realli know why the whole world is sooo competitive! everything also want to compete with each other! man... wat the world have become into... andd ya.. today i met up with einstien AND you guys know what? he musta changed his hair style and lol finally changing his clothes i cant recognized his back view at all! i even asked his friend is that him? and i quickly take a look from the side first before calling him! AND he looked awesome! He is much much more cooler now! haw haw!

cristiano... sobs

ARGGGGH!!! Today got soccer match agentina vs portugal!!! but it is at 1.40am then my dad will be furious if i said i want to watch it but... i LOVE ronaldo!!! god!!why wont you help me this time?!?! awww i get miss this match if not i will miss him lots!! i wil regret it for my life time!! oh god! man.... wat im gonna do?? ugh! i need to watch that damn match! i dun care! wish my luck now everyone! hope my dad is asleep!

so fed up!

grrch!! so fed up now!!! stupid lagging system! i spend the this few minutes typing out my new post and this idiot page gone hay wire!! i press publish and it send me to other page when i press back! it was all gone!!! grrrr!!!! AARRRGGH!!!! okiez! so i will just type the summary!! gGRR! FIRSTLY I AM DAMN ANGRY WITH MY DAD SECONDLY, I AM VERY GRATEFUL TO JUN WEI FOR HELPIN GME OUT TODAY AND I HAVE SWORE NOT TO TYPE SINGLISH ANYMORE CAUSE I HATE SINGAPORE!!!! GRRR!! WORST NIGHT I EVER HAD!!!

weird...

woke up late in the afternoon... sneeze three times when i woke up... somethings gonna happen? guess what? i loss 2kg overnight! goss! im so damn happy! oh man... first time in my life. Felt so dizzy since i woke up didnt felt that ever before wats happening to me??? HAH! It was two days ago i watch a soccer match. And to my suprise it was iraq vs portugal.. and OMG it was CRISTIANO RONALDO!!! i was like 'awww soo cute!' i was soo freaking happy to see him!! and i was frozen in front of the teevee catching every view of him i could see.. every expression of him and every movement of him! gosh! And he got a yellow card for accidently hitting a person's eye.. and was like blood all over his eyes! it was damn cool~! lol.... BUT... To my disappointment portugal lose to iraq! omg i cant believe it!!! hate it when they lose! ugh! haiz... im soo hungry now but i cant afford to eat cause i just lost some weight and i don't want to get back to the same weight again! grrch!