First day of Term 3, a little bit lost, don't know what to do.. tmw will be full speed ahead. shall see. anyway, about the big decision, first step is done. now waiting for next step. shall see how.

super duber emo-ing. well, anything regards to army is bad news. anyway,i've decided on the previously decision that i mention. will be doing so hopefully by end of this month, in fact, maybe on Wednesday. I will be strong and hope that this will not change me in anyway that damages my life. dun ask me what it is.

SS: i dream of you yesterday. as i exited the lift on the ground floor of my flats, i saw you. you noticed me and was a bit shy as usual, not knowing what to do. my mind is working in turbo mode trying to figure out the feelings and what reactions i should have towards you. the conclusion: be casual. so i slowly walks towards you. i smiled. I did a subtle wave. you replied with a smile on your face. so i casually asked, " what are you doing here?" the reply, "oh, one of my friend's mum just past away." in my heart, i still think you look as cute as ever. the dream stopped. i woke up.

back from Bintan, interesting experience, really nua-ed and gym , swim.. everything i wanna do everyday is there. how i hope everyday can be like that. go gym, then swim then rest and eat ZZzzzzz and sleep At least so far, i have been trying to keep to my goal of one exercise per day. tmw i shall run. and also, planning for my RT session.. i have 8 more session to complete before august. everything was fine until march, when workload was intense. super angry with my poor discipline and ability to adapt to changes. was 105 at the start of the year, trained for 3 months. I was 103kg when i go for my first session in March. suppose to lose to 100kg. but the rest of the 3 months i gain back to 105kg. now i need to lose 5 kg in 2 months. going to be damn discipline!!! I hope this can be done. starting by reducing intake when going out with friends and more exercise, gaining more muscle