really really emo these few days

dunno how come the feeling cannot be kick away..

this work is my dream job,
it gives me my satisfaction i wanted, the pay that i think is reasonable
the friends i trusted.

however, i do not see my future.. not in work, but in relationship.

the circle is already very limited and i have no other means of knowing pple anymore.

i am stuck, i am alone and i most probably be single

i hate being single and hate being constantly reminded of how happy you will be when u find a love one.

i dunno how long this kinda feelings must strike again. damn it.

说了再见还一直望回头
回想着当天分手的镜头

原本说好要一起向前走
结果发现一切已成泡沫

有些话现在还说不出口
我记得你说过有多爱我

现在你已经有了个出口
留我一个人在回忆里，慢慢地守候


as figured out.. i'm emoing again...

friends are forever, but they are not by ur side most of the times..

think... when is the last time u see a friend...
is it 2 days, or 1 week or months ago

yes the friendship is there,
there's memories that can never be eliminated


but were them here now, when u are alone..
when u desperately need someone to hug
can u even hug them?

how often do you feel that i'm in a group,
but i'm alone?

there's definitely a perfect one for u..
but can you live that long to find him or her..

there are stories of people finding the perfect one..
but there's also stories of people who strike a toto became a millionaire.
they are 1 in a million..

and finding the right one is 1 in 600 million...

i see people in their 40s alone..
they seems happy, enjoying life
but how do they feel,
when they are in their room alone at night?


i dunno about others..

but i dun feel good

really concussed this weekend..
haha, had so much fun during the camp
and slept the whole saturday away.

felt so lazy~~~

anyway, finally graduated from N**, no need to take shit from stupid admin! yea!

I feel that it's the worse organization to be in sighz.. look at Taiwan,

CS is the most well respected job over there, but here, pple think of it as shit jobs:(


anyway, i love what I did and the p3 camps reminded me of that! I shall work hard too!

lastly, congrates to all who have graduated!!

to Lai Lai, Shao Zhi, Kiat Li, Wilson , Jasmine, HX and the rest from Kahu!
congratulations!

sometimes i felt very in my cliques of friends.

something happened yesterday among my colleagues.

hmm let's just say that

guy A organised bbq, but he did not plan, too busy to buy food or assign others to do things.

so gal D did all that herself with another gal.

however, gal D was angry the whole day and gives faces, drove recklessly.

then came Guy B, he was unhappy with Gal D being unreasonable, always not voicing the reasons and expect the rest to always be apologizing( so he thought)

so after a while, he went out and went home, without informing anyone.

then gal D i felt lashes out on the rest of us.

somehow i felt that all the common clique i have we this guy B,

pple somehow always took notice of him and cares about him.
then pple love Guy A cos he's really nice and funny.

but with them, i just feel i'm the supporting actor.

i dun need to be the lead, but at least, i dun like to be left out.

outing is so easily conducted without me, but it's always canceled without them. (get it?)

damn.

anyway, thanks CG for adjusting the out, and make me feel that i'm important
( but to all, majority votes count, so if i cannot make it for any outing.. just go ahead if majority can.. )

just 記得問我就好了