"Being an admin means you get pulled in so many different directions in any given moment which causes you to appear edgey, when in fact you are that at all."

"Boss has never left me anything on my chair but work. Yet I found him leaving the new girl a piece of chocolate just after 2 months. Isn't that great for moral."

"I think they ask is not because they don't know how to do it, its really because they just don't want to do it. And upper management knows too but refuses to do a thing about it."

"they always think i am the bottom of the totem pole so i am designated to do all the crap work, including being your mom and cleaning up the kitchen even though we are all adults and I am not the only one that uses it."

"It is really disrespectful of you to come ask me to print out ONE sheet of paper and bring it over to your desk. The printer is on the same floor as you. I am not."

"My boss and i sits next to a printer. She insist that I bring her printouts to her after she emails them to me."

Miss: "Jacob"

Wish: more truth, more communication without fear or rejection. security; more time in day, sleep

Seek: independence, intimacy, laughter--> happiness

Worth? being career driven

Like to know what I want: ...a place to organize my belongings. someone that is curious about me and 'talks' to me. what do you like. ask me personal things. I want this pressure to lift and be free.

Hello!!!

I am excited about the Vancouver 2010!!!!!! whoohooo!!!

I woke up happy this morning. not the funny type but really happy. happy that it was sunny. happy that good ppl are in my life. happy about breakfast and listening to internet radio. happy to listen to relationship topics on kid's morning show. just weirdly happy today. i wished i could feel this way more often. its wonderful! and most of all...refreshing.

Been going thru some growing lately (thanks to #1, #2, and all my friends) and i realize one big thing: that being myself brings happiness. Being myself without fear of being judge is a hard thing to master. I can see the fruits of this, if only i can master it. Being your true self, brings confidence. Confidence brings the energy and will to do all things. Be it becoming more attractive, ability to go after what you want (job, love, exercising... all aspects of life really). by not pretending to be someone you are not, you are engaging in s/t sustainability in the long run. There is also the comfort of knowing that all that is around you right now is....real. and its simply becuase you are who you are, just the way you are....

now that is fricken amazing.

:D

So its been a while...yes indeed! and its been a great summer. lots happened, lots didn't. but the newest news right now is....

I finally sold my car. Its an end of an era!
so i decided to right a poem. :D However, after being reminded what an ode entails on ehow.com, I decide not to. Too hard...too much effort. So i am going to include this picture and if you have ever had an encounter with my car in the past, you can think of the warm and fuzzy memories that went with it....

Here are someone of mine:

• official christmas tree transporter
• lugging my mattress home from the roof
• boby enjoying the view
• 4 am jericho/mcD runs
• freaking out from dropped penny in the brake slot
• pull out radio deck the whole damn thing everytime
• FA's club key as official spare key
• punching out the door by climbing in from the trunk
• totally recline of front seat
• carrying 7 passengers in the car and going up a 30 degrees angle hill in turtle speed
• putting up sfu
• cheapest car in any parking lot in richmond
• stove in the summer
• car dying in the middle of rush hour on granville and broadway
• chestnut man
• car putting to a stop with nicole lolol hey we were on our way to cdn tires sooo close
• snow storms
• power steering provided by front passenger (official designation to FA)
  
  
• And the most memorable would be...[drum roll plz] race tracking through stanley park with the little engine that could. and bless that little thing IT COULD. I LOVE IT!!!

Did I leave s/t out? share your memories!

Michael Bublé's Everything

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play you're coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

My weekend started with a no show for a showing of my old car. boo to Sara of richmond that made the appointment and then did not show up after i told to call if she is late or decides not to come at all as it has happened to me before.

Saturday: did some errands and then prepared for my friend's stag. I was so excited about it but due some oversight and other chain of events, I spent the nite waiting for my stag party at the wrong venue. grrr.....so i missed the entire event, something i was really looking forward to. sucks. I was really hoping to celebrate with her because I have been feeling really disconnected from her and her wedding plans and this seem like a great opportunity for me to enjoy it one last time with her. but nope. fate didn't want that.

however, i did run into a friend after i gave up waiting and was able to hang with them and met alot of new ppl. Most of all i had fun and the nite wasn't a complete bust. I also got picked up by the door man. lol. it was flattering but it did catch me by surprise when he asked for my number. bet he does this everynite...:D Meant a bunch of other guys, wasn't the same but i am trying. its hard to move on in your heart. just hard but trying. weirdest part of it all is that i saw Fheee that day too at the mall. should have known it was some sort of a sign.

While at the mall I saw L who reminded me of a F-ker. He said to me that "well you are looking good and well." I thought to myself, you know what i am looking well and am good, go figure huh lol.

After, I hung in the old neighbourhood and brought sushi for old time sake only to realize i feel nothing after. but i knew that.

Sunday: just came back from one of my good friends go away party. She and her b/f is going on a 6 month long trip to asia. I am really going to miss her as through the years she has gotten to be one of my best friends. We have a great understanding of eachother and can really empathize with all aspects of eachothers lives. Its been awhile since I have found a friend that i can share openly with plus she is a great hangout buddy and not a home body. Going to really miss her for 6 months. sigh....I would tell her all this but i am going to end up being emotional so i am just saying it here. have a wonderful trip, Nicole!