I'm timeless.

Here are some of my favorite senior pictures:

blog overload!!!!!!!

So I know that I've had like 203945823084 posts in the last month but I really felt that this deserved a spot on my blog :) So remember that kid Jeremy that is slightly obsessed with me from my last post? So I just saw him like 15 minutes ago and got trapped into possibly the most awkward conversation of my life. It's a pretty long story so I'm just going to post the conversation I had with my friend Michael about it. Enjoy. NOTE: none of this is exaggerated, in fact I think I may be missing a few fun conversation points, but what can you do.

me: ohhhh man

I just had the most awkward conversation of my LIFE

7:15 PM Michael: Oh no!

me: ooohhh yes.

So you know that kid Jeremy that's like in love with me?

Michael: Yess

me: so I see him

and he was just talking to me

and he and his friends were talking about the "friend zone"

and he turns to me and was like

7:16 PM "How do I get out of the friend zone? Do I need to be taller? Have a deeper voice?"

And I was like "uhhh...I don't know"

And then later he was like "I saw you with your date"

And I was like "That wasn't my date, that was like my 1 friend here"

and he's like, "Well, then what am I?"

7:17 PM And I go "you're my friend too"

Michael: Oh nooooo

me: And he points to this random guy and was like "is he your friend?"

And I say "I don't even know him"

And he introduces us and then asks "now are you friends?"

And I say "we're acquaintances I guess"

7:18 PM And he goes, "How to do you go from acquaintance to friend to MORE than friend"

And I was like, "uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...that's getting pretty philosophical"

7:19 PM and then later in the convo

this kid I know walks past and he's pretty cute but I'm too distracted by how stupid he is to think he's cute and so he walks past and I say, "hey austin"

And Jeremy does this big sigh and is like, "I could see you dating someone perfect like him becuase you're perfect"

7:20 PM And I was like "I couldn't because that guy is a retard"

And jeremy GRABS my both my hands and says, "you have just made my day."

And I was like "uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmm"

7:21 PM and so finally after like 10 minutes of this awkward convo I say that I'm going to leave and start walking away and jeremy yells, "oh by the way has anyone told you that you look gorgeous today?"

And I was like, "Noooo, but thanks"

and then I walk away and laugh for a while :)

Michael: And you thought rapists only existed in Schenectady

7:22 PM hahahaha

me: oh he's not a rapist

Michael: I neeeed to meet this kid

blehhh.

This is a long and pathetic post. I put it in bright colors to try and entice you into reading it. You really don't have to.

Is something wrong with me? Am I social awkward? Do I have some weird deformity? Do I have some weird awkward social deformity? Because everything seems to point to yes.

So I saw my old boyfriend at the RB pool tonight when I was swimming with my friends David and Cole. No, this isn't the first time I've seen him, but he made all my previous assumptions pretty clear when he saw me there tonight. So I think we actually need a rewind here to make this make sense. So the second time I saw him was at lunch one day and he and his friend came over and sat with us. I wasn't too happy about this but whatever. So he sits there all through lunch and barely says anything. It was so weird and I felt so awkward trying to make all the conversation between us and his friend who I've never even met. And even when his friend leaves to go get something he doesn't say anything. I make like a second's worth of conversation and then go and get a drink. I spent half my time during that lunch going and getting food and other stuff that I didn't even intend to eat just to get away from that table. To make it even better these two flirty girls come and sit with us. Kill me please. So finally I announce that I'm done and leave.

Ok, back to tonight. So Cole and David and I are swimming and diving off the high dive and stuff and about 10 minutes before we leave who else would come in with a big group of guys and a girl who I believe to be his girlfriend from this summer (I don't think they're dating anymore). He actually saw me first and was like "Heyyy." and then proceeded to ignore me for the rest of the time we were there. The only time he said another word to me (if it was even a word, maybe just a grunt of acknowledgment) when he asked what time it was and I said 9. Seriously though, if you saw someone that you knew, and knew fairly well, wouldn't you go and talk to them or even say more than "heyyy". It was just so weird. But don't get me wrong, this post isn't about adam and I'm definitely not implying that I want to date him again. Although it would be nice to have him like me again so I can shut him down, quite honestly.

So then I get back to my dorm and who else is there but Reuben. Ohhh dear. So we talk for a little bit and that at least wasn't terribly awkward and at least he didn't ignore me. Oh, I forgot, I haven't posted about the Reuben experience so you'll just have to ask me about that one, it's funny AND horribly embarrassing!! Here's a clue in: worst. date. ever. But anyway, Reuben shows no interest in me, and I don't care that HE as is Reuben himself doesn't show interest, but I wish he had just so that a cute normal boy would show interest.

So now the real point of this very long post: why don't normal guys like me? I had always thought that I was fairly attractive. I have always thought that I dress nicely and groom myself well. I wear deodorant everyday, I brush my teeth, I shower quite often as well. Am I not as cute as I had thought? Am I really socially awkward? I feel like I don't know how to judge myself anymore, or at least I feel like I have no idea how other people view me. Do I think that I am someone completely different than everyone else thinks I am? Does this make any sense at all? I just wish someone would show interest in me other than this kid

or Jeremy who everytime I see is all, "Rebekah! I love you Rebekah!" or "Rebekah! You looks so good today Rebekah!" or "Rebekah! Give me a high five!" or maybe even "Rebekah! Isn't it a lovely loving I-love-you sort of day!?!" (so Jeremy didn't actually say that last one, but the other two, not so much...if you think that I jest just look around my facebook profile).

You probably think that I'm joking. I'm not. Those are two completely truthful examples. Yyyeeeppp. This is one of those pathetic posts that I will probably delete within an hour of posting it. But everyone out there who gets to read this post before I delete it please tell me this: do you think I'm weird or socially awkward? Tell me the full truth because right now I really don't know what to think. Maybe I should just start hanging out with Bradley Clarke. We could be a good pair.






(this is for michael: could you please write a dbq analyzing my opening statement? thanks.)

Livin' the Suite Life

So this is mostly for Rachel's benefit because pretty much everyone who looks at my blog is close enough to come see it, but whatever. So here it it, my "suite":



This is my side of the bedroom. Notice the falling down pictures and newspaper clippings. They only allow sticky tack, tape is strictly forbidden!! But the problem is nothing sticks with sticky tack...


This is the bathroom.


This is my ample closet. Do you think that much space was really necessary, BYU???


Yep. It's like living in a mansion. :)

All of my mother's hopes and dreams

This was on my camera and I know mom wanted to post it but I don't know if she ever downloaded it, but here it is, it's pretty funny.

A title goes here.

So here's just some random updates about life here at the Y, with accompanying pictures!!

1. I have now been on tv during both the football and soccer games. Pretty sweet!! First i was on tv while we crowd surfed Cosmo. It was fairly awesome. He jumped into the crowd and me and my across-the-hall-mate Maddie were the ones to put him back over the wall. He was literally pretty much all on us for a couple of seconds and a few nearby guys chipped in as we promptly began to drop him. He weighs a freaking ton. Melissa Maughan got this picture here. Notice Cosmo and I are making eye contact. I'm pretty sure the guy in there is thinking "Ah crap, look at these two skinny girls coming up."


We were on tv for soccer because we made these signs for my roommate Hallie who is on the soccer team. She is actually on the bench though because she tore her acl in the first game, which really stinks, but we made the signs anyway. I guess we were the ones with the most spirit there. Maddie's mom called us up to say that she saw us on tv yelling with our signs. Sweet.



2. I've done some fun stuff lately. I've gone to 2 bonfires, one with my roommates and one for a ward activity. They were both up Provo canyon. I also made good friends with Cole Seaton from Connecticut, he's a cool kid. I've gone to a few dances and other stuff too, but nothing too exciting. Here's a picture with me and my roommates at the bonfire and then me and Cole and these two other guys I'm friends with named Andrew and David. We had obviously just gone to Krispy Kreme. Oh, and I am perfectly coving up David in the picture. Whoops.







Ok from left to right: Hallie (my actual roommate), Jennifer (suitemate, aka, has the bedroom on the other side of our shared bathroom), ME, Maddie (friend from across the hall), girl I don't know. MISSING: Natalie (other suitemate, Jennifer's roommate), and Mindy (across the hall, Maddie's roommate)

3. I went to stake conference in the Marriot Center today. It was a good time. There was some older guy, definitely RM, who was sitting next to me who hit on me, HA. He told me I was a "very beautiful girl" to which I replied, "Uh...thanks." There was also a very excited female speaker with a VERY large smile and bright baby blue cardigan. "And I felt SO happy as I butter basted my rolls!"

4. Matt and Amy came to visit! It was fun. All other siblings should follow suite.

5. And, by popular demand, that boy that I thought would ask me out. Well he did. We were going to go to the Bean museum (dorky, I know) but it was closed so we went to Jamba Juice and just hung out and looked at the BYU Indian Princesses and other corny stuff. It was pretty fun. I think he'll ask me out again. I'm not really sure if I'm actually interested in him or if I just like have a cute, normal guy like me. Oh, and I suppose you'll want details. His name is Reuben, he is pretty tall, like at least 6 feet, brown hair, fairly skinny, and I know him actually from EFY last summer. You may request any other questions.

Annnnnddd...that's all I really have to say! I'll post pictures of my dorm later, I'm just to lazy to take some :)

Oh yeah, one last thing! 6. I did my first load of laundry ALL BY MYSELF. I believe this means that I am now truly independent. Go me!

Brigham Young University, located in Provo, Utah, is a private, coeducational university owned by The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.

So I am at the Y. It's niiiice. Nothing too interesting so far, maybe a few interesting stories. Like the kid that came and sat by me at lunch one day who talked for about half an hour about the Battle of Saratoga (turning point of the revolutionary war where if Benedict Arnold had been killed rather than just wounded he would have been hailed as a hero!) and the percentages of black and hispanic males that don't have fathers in the home and drop out of high school (single biggest factor leading to gang activity!) and the difference between AP and IB credits (one is standardized throughout America and is accepted by US school [like byu!] but the other is more accepted internationally but not so much in America!). After this speech complete with quotes, facts, and percentages he got up and said "ok." then turned and left. It was a good time. Did I mention he was about 5'1'' and wearing some sweet high waters? Haha, it was very funny, but it was nice of him to come and sit by me. It was truly entertaining.

Social activity is up about 90%, however I am seriously lacking in the male department. Boyz is st00pid. That was for you Michael :). But seriously, the cute guys are idiots. It's a cryin' shame. The boys in my ward are immensely nerdy except for one Cole whose parents are friends with ours and I made friends with him. GASP! A BOY! No worries, he has a girlfriend and we're just friends. Please, it's not like a boy would actually like me. Only one has asked for my number and about 5 minutes later there was a Facebook friend request from him, which is interesting because I never said my last name and surely I'm not the only Rebekah at BYU. There is one guy that is fairly cute though who I think might ask me out. More updates to come.

My dorm is fine. Marvelously decorated, might I add. My roommates are nice too, I like them all. Actually all the normal girls ended up in the same two rooms, haha, which is nice for us. There are some other nice girls in the hall I'm sure, but we just haven't really met them yet. SHOUTOUT: Feel free to come visit whenever you want! Maybe I can even sneak somebody into the cannon center and say that they're my parents. Parents get one free meal. Interested in a free lunch tomorrow, Matt? I know your job in like 3 minutes away. There's no hiding.

Classes started today, they looked good, although I am SERIOUSLY DREADING school. UGH. Eh, ok, I'm done writing. Pictures and other fun stuff to come soon!