I've always been a believer of a higher power an entity that's universal across all religions. You see all of em teach you to be kind. That evil will not prevail.

I think somewhere during this period where I am not able to see light at the end of the tunnel, where I feel I have had enough and when I tell myself I really want to give up, I asked mr higher power (not offence ladies) for help.

So today a little birdie came by and dropped me a note. It makes me wonder is this mr higher power's magic hands at work?

It's Christmas!

Who would have thought 1 year on, I would be in such a tough position? Endless meetings with directors and having to take on much bigger responsibilities. To top it off, I have such ling working hours that it's just plain crazy!

On the home front, I realise that age does make a difference. I've never been able to speak to the family idiot with just words and no punches. Now we are able to at least be polite to each other. It's the first time I see he has put in effort in his job so as a positive reinforcement (although amount of impact may be minimal) I gave him a present for his birthday and have willed myself to lend him a helping hand when he needs one. See, I'm not bad a sister after all.

Hopefully this time next year, I can say I have somewhere I can call my own or am at least in the queue for it. Most of all, I hope I wouldn't be nagged at for every single thing I am doing ;)

To all my friends out there - have yourself a very merry christmas.

Lots of love

Susan (pouty lips!)

It seems something lovely has bloomed in October!

The brother got solemnized and it's the first time I've ever seen him so happy. Bride is lovely and sweet. Hope the love will be able to allow them to conquer all odds that is to come.

I had a birthday song over the Internet which was absolutely lovely. Had a fruitful trip in Jakarta which also means lots and LOTS of work to come.

I am officially an assistant manager as of 1 October which was hard to come because I just got promoted last year. The going is just going to get tougher as I prepare for a deadly combination of 4 portfolios. Wish me luck!

And I'm going to spend my Sunday with baby Kendra which is just the icing on my already tantalizing cake!

Loves october 1st

Absolutely fabulous.

I've been promoted!!!!

I have to admit there has been slight improvements in the environment overall. The new manager although feisty is more reasonable and predictable. More useful when it comes to problem solving.

I like the idea of buzzing around the 3 countries because although it meant longer hours (up at 6 down at 12ish) but I get to experience the different cultures, food and ways of working of people doing exactly what I used to be doing here in Singapore.

But the stress level is higher. With my health not getting any better, i am one raging hormonal cow.

So troubled. Got to blog.

About a month ago, I heard the biggest news of all. The one that makes evil monster's news seem like nothing.

My first reaction? Sure anot? My second? WE ARE DOOMED.

The only reason why the place is able to function, operate and rise above everyone's expectation (well everyone we were going to die) was because of his ability to pull the right strings, retaliate when required and see through the horrible fog that was there to find a brillant way through.

What will we do now? What will I do now?

I stayed on because I know there is so much I can learn from such an excellent leader. What do I do now?

It could be because of the minor op I had yesterday but...

I miss hong kong.

Today marks a big milestone for 2011. It's d-day I am fully on the job as:

HR Simplified, South Asia Pacific's
Process Lead
Content Lead
Content Specialist
Singapore's A&P Specialist
South AP Change Management Communication Lead's wingman

It's so many roles I cannot see how all these can fit together. But an opportunity doesn't knock twice on your door so, I would make the best of it.

I hope I can succeed.

I've got to say I'm surprised.

Though it was a short year that we have worked together, I've always thought we would share the same mentality towards stuff like these.

Does luck have a part to play? Is that why she has yet met anyone worthy of her time? Even so, isn't that lip locking too casual for a complete random stranger. Yes, in the name of fun, tipsy mood and of course the youngsters famous 'live fast die young' motto, we shouldnt restrict ourselves to boring mundane life but ain't it too frightening?

I guess what I was taught when I was barely 12 moulded me into what I am today. Love is special and love in its purest form take on a life of its own. And thanks to a fantastic teacher, I've always looked upon love as something serious, real.

Although I try not to judge, since these are choices not meant for me to choose, i can't help taking a step back and relook at how well I know this person.

I hope someone great comes along so that she can feel what I have felt before as love.

On another note, the crazy night at zouk was madness. BUT it still proves I still have it! I'm greatly delighted by this! Ha!

Somehow I just feel like saying it.

K is my favourite alphabet
Mango is my favorite fruit
Ice cream is preferred over chocolates

:D!!

I forgot to mention that the biggest mile stone for now is to have stood up to the office bully - my manager's manager.

:D!

Yup maybe it will affect my possible future prospect here and maybe it is in a way insubordination but hey, at least I raised a red flag. Instead of sticking my head in the sand and allowing a characteristic become an accepted personality.

At least I have guts.

While trying to think of what I've done this year, I came to realize that we are almost at the half way mark for this year! And I haven't come up with a resolution yet. Sheesh.

And I've always managed to convince myself that I'm going to be a SYT (sweet young thing!) till I guess the end of time but god, no. Age is catching up.

I was queueing up for free popcorn at the cc the other day right before my class and it was in the queue that I realize... the only other people in the queue are so young! Kiddos to be exact and here I am, one who's fast approaching 30 (in an approx 40+months) queueing in line with kids who are 5!

No amount of pink, dolly hair cut and expensive products to a possible flawless skin can bring me back to my sweet 23.

Sigh. Now I understand what the to-be-40s colleagues mean when they say they feel old when they see fresh grads.

And so the mind doctor says people who tend to tear easily are ones who have suffered emotional trauma previously.

Today's 'big revelation' tagged me as one who thinks she more superior than others and established that while I delivered excellent results (this means best in the ranking of good better best) I do not possess the required 'EQ' skills.

So... I behave like a gangster but I get the work done especially well?

Thankfully I was quite prepared to receive rubbish from these people and have my expectations in place.

For one who is not even able to converse in proper English and communicate expected deliverables, who's she to judge?

Oh how can I degrade myself to the standards of the gossip mongers, opps!, I meant managers, so that I do not speak with such superiority that I am feared amongst others?

Maybe it's part of the aging process, maturity and all but it seems that when it comes to decisions I make, I try to make sure it is one I will not regret making in the later part of my life.

I don't want to grow up. I don't want to grow old. I want to continue my teenage dream of living life as I want it, no considerations, no consequences and with nothing but bare naked courage to face this cruel world.

Mom’s first holiday First trip to Taiwan first Gucci bag + first horrific fainting spell New Camera! got PROMOTED Swanky clean room NEW sewing machine

And it's only fair that I can't see it anymore

Both the camera and laptop are not working anymore! Sheesh!