Seeing what's happening to someone who sits 3 meters away from me 5 days a week, makes me conclude that many human beans are selfish.

You inflict pain on people you claim to like and love. You carry out actions that you know will inflict pain and hurt. You have no sense of responsibility and its either you so self centred you are not affected by it or you are thick.

I hate people who are like him – inconsiderate. Insensitive about what others feel.
And in my little world of fairness, people like you don’t deserve happiness at all.

Carlos you are a dickhead.

Brighten up because it’s christmas!

Loooeeee yipieeeee!

It’s the time of the year where my wallet runs dry and the whole of Singapore goes to Takashimaya on a Monday night. I love the mountain of presents we have in the office (things we have to buy for each other on a budget of $20 each) and the Christmas tree! As things get more into shape (but some things never change) the office looks so much nicer than what it was when we started out.

I love my new seat in the office, nearer to my sweet colleague and visible to sunlight, as much as UV rays are bad for the skin, i think its good for the mental health.

See Kay should be having her baby soon. Cant wait to catch up with everyone this Christmas!

eons since i last blogged. been so busy!

And everytime i sit in front of my computer, i don't know what to blog about.

writer's block.

Few days ago, the gums on my lower wisdom tooth started aching. I went to the dentist near Elvis’s clinic and Mr. Dentist said I have to remove the upper wisdom tooth because it’s growing out and pressing on the gums below.

Of all horrors (needles to stick into your mouth!) my exams r this sat (tomorrow to be exact) and I HAVE to remove this problem! So the next day, Mr. Dentist injected 2 needles into my mouth and forcefully pulled the tooth out. Ouch.

My tooth is HUGE!

So now I have to pop about 19 pills a day, have an occasional fever and deal with stupid exams altogether!

I miss real food!

I don’t know if its just the time of the night or because I know momo is going back to hong kong soon but I feel that things are just ever changing.

Nothing waits for u.

This time last year, I was a disaster. Torn and broken. So many people played a part in putting me together. After talking to mm both half drunk (actually she was drunk, I wasn’t even half tipsy) I realise that there are just so much out there. Beyond our usual ultra-boring routine. I guess I am lucky; the people I meet are (almost) always so awesome.

mm is right. I am my own biggest critic.

And she’s right too; we should keep people who appreciate us around us. Because these are the people who are able to pull thru with u through though sticky horrible situations. They are the people who support you, guide you and simply love you for who you are.

The world is already such a horrible place. If this person calls him your friend, then he should in no way, bring u unhappiness. This applies for relationships as well.

There are times when I need to say. Fuck it. Go suck an egg.

My hong kong trip is so super awesome. I simply love and adore holidays where I DO NOT have to work or worry about it at all. U get to eat sleep and shop till you get broke. Super cool.

Exams are next sat which explains why I am still up. There are so many things I miss doing. Talking to Irene and hear her endless indecisive thoughts, laugh with shee young, see the cutest vera & valerie, get together with my best friends again (which seems remotely possible), talk to glennis about something serious, see han …

Thank you mm and ro for such a wonderful night. And thank you momo, for giving me confidence. I’ll miss you.

I have tried my best to accommodate to be flexible and to be positive but things in this world sometimes just don’t work out the way u want them to be.

And it’s at times like this when u need someone to stand up for you and say things are going to be perfectly fine.

my constant struggle? to keep up with myself.

When i was working in Adecco, someone once told me i ask for too much from myself, i wanted nothing but perfection and to carry one task too many on my young shoulders.

In some ways, my hard work has paid off. moonies hit sky high this month, higher then i was ever paid when i held 3 jobs at one go. i know it may be just luck but hey, it is the pearls of sweat.

i understand for somepeople, life is just the way it is. simple and sweet.

I used to think and be that way too.

until i saw the lifestyle i hope to achieve (the shop till u die) and the things i really want to own (yes another bag). sometimes when i relook at the things i am holding onto, work (increasing by the minute) school(exams this month and assignments) tuition(i need to buck up!) guitar(utter failure to date) books(2 to read excluding textbooks) friends (a never ending list to catch up with) family (neglector) sleep (7 is just not enough).

But sometimes the last thought in my mind ends like this. I am, afterall, still a little girl at 23.

http://www.sonyclassics.com/moliere/

This is one the few shows i have the intention to watch! But its only available at the picture house though

Baby Hamster Eats Brocolli

Do you have gay friends?

If the answer is a yes so you think they influence you to be gay? Well, a few people here thinks so and they are stepping up to make a point.

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RETENTION OF SECTION 377A, PENAL CODE


As concerned citizens of Singapore, we support the government in wanting to retain S377A of the Penal Code for the good of our children, our families and all Singaporeans.

There are many reasons why the retention of S377A is so important:

S377A is a reflection of the sentiments of the majority of society. Most Singaporeans hold conservative family values and do not accept homosexuality as the norm. (see Singaporeans’ Attitudes toward Lesbians and Gay Men and their Tolerance of Media Portrayals of Homosexuality, by Benjamin H. Detenber, Mark Cenite, et. al., International Journal of Public Opinion Research) Repealing S377A is a vehicle to force homosexuality on a conservative population that is not ready for homosexuality.

Sexual preference is not about civil rights and has nothing to do with equality or tolerance. Repealing S377A would in fact be the first step towards mainstreaming the homosexual lifestyle, which has been shown elsewhere to lead to:

Calls to specify the minimum age for consensual homosexual sex;
A public education system that teaches acceptance of the homosexual lifestyle under the banner of "tolerance";
The redefinition of marriage to include (gay) civil unions and same-sex marriages, and to extend marriage and parenthood benefits to them;
Adoption by same-sex parents.
In short, repealing S377A could lead to the modification of core family values and the family unit as we know it.

The majority of Singaporeans want our children to grow up in a traditional environment that espouses healthy and wholesome traditional family values. We do not want the homosexual lifestyle to be promoted or celebrated.

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I will be heartbroken if my kids are gay. But I don't hate them despise them or shun away from them.

Afterall they are humans.

It’s been a long time since a friend made me feel this way. With just words I can feel so beaten up and wounded. Perhaps I just miss the times we shared together working every weekend eating food and working like cows. Perhaps it’s the help I got from her and the unaffectionate way she shows she cares. Even the two aunties there have declared war on each other.

Who said people don’t change?

I know of people who are afraid of showing how they feel. Like me we do not want to be judged. But shit happens not when u feel the emotions there and then, shit splatters on the fan when you choose to declare it to the world.

Ah. Ain food a happy thing? So full from lunch.

I am actually looking so forward to the hong kong trip with lishan. It’s not just the fact that it’s a holiday and i don’y have to work, but in addition, i am going to spend tons of time with a lovely friend!

After weeks of frustration of using the sony erricson phone, i am now a devoted fan of Nokia 6300. And it took a hell lot of pain, consideration and heartache to get this phone because service provider starhub doesn’t provide it in WHITE. I am SO TEMPTED to change to singtel.



Are you on Facebook? Because I am! Laughs.

i was looking back at my previous posts and I can actually feel that I have lost the feeling of lost. Incredible but true. Now i wonder if i am missing out on something, or if its because i am SO USED to feeling that way.

Does anyone want a nice admin job with a good pay? tell me tell me! haha. email me toffee_su@yahoo.com.sg

With so much evolving around you, have you taken a moment to look at things in detail?

My last conversation with mark sparked a reflection that I have not been in contact with the people who meant a shit load to me. Somehow work just seems to devour the majority of my time. Not forgetting to add in the stress and complications to work with aliens and the increased expectations of the bosses.

In some ways, I feel I have not done what needs to be done.

And u might think someone like me would know better.

I am sick. And I mean really sick kind of sick. Started off with a sore throat and eventually evolved into a flu and a cough as well. So I can’t talk much (and I sound like a cow) and I can’t stand being in an air-con room with coughing myself to near-death so I am almost dying.

Thank goodness I don’t have a fever (yet)

I had a good time at swissotel with deserts that could bring the dead alive. And I love the pressies too. Thank you lishan for remembering the CD I like =)



And thank you yiying and junnie for the bag. Love them.

My perfume is running low so I got myself this NARCISO RODRIGUEZ tester which can be carried everywhere I go! (yea adds onto the 10kg bag I bring around the world. Laughs)

I don’t understand why insurance man is trying to convince me to be an insurance agent.
OMDB (over my dead body!)
Took away 15 minutes of my time trying to convince me to do something i don even like. Argh. What goes on in their brains really.

Thank you all who have indulge me with gifts and lovely things. Paul (boss) gave me a robot which moves when it’s winded up. Really cool. And thank you all who remembered ;)

HONG KONG!!!!
Yes despite the fact that i hate being in that country again for reasons we ALL know, i guess going with your bestie helps doesn it? So i have decided to take on a tight budget (buckles up) and save enough to go to hong kong in nov. Bet its going to be fun.

Few hours from stepping into 23 yet none the wiser

For some reasons, I miss talking to Han. Perhaps I can relate to her about the things that are happening at work and the things that are happening to my own life. With things rapidly changing at work, I often wonder if I will be able to cope and continue to excel with what I need to do.

Wanna know the MAJOR event that has happened thus far? Karen puked on me. Yea she jolly well did. I was pissed but had to console her when she started crying and stuff. I guess things do go your way when you are pregnant.

There are reasons to smile at work too. The little sun flower who sits opposite me makes me laugh non stop and occupies my mind with her words so much (a bigger chatterbox then I am myself, imagine that!) that I can’t hear myself think anymore. Incredibly adorable!

I have my results for the term and I am actually quite happy with it. Yet I cant share too much of it for fear that sometimes people just cant accept that others may be stronger then them in some ways (perhaps more then one) so anyway, I still think it doesn make much of a difference of you get a D or an A cox no employer is going to care about that. But it takes one with the wits to get the bloody job.

Thank you Zann and Kim for the pressies. It’s so cute I cant help it!



I got this lipbalm from ebay. Its in butterscotch flavor. yums~



It's funny how i didn really get down to think about what i would like for my birthday. LAUGHS. But for people who know me too well, i guess it's a walk in the park? (I have the jack johnson chord book! yipee!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dEfYODztF0

Why are singaporean dances so boring?

I miss the times when she warms up leftovers for me. I miss bringing food over and having her say don bring anymore over each and every time. I haven eaten another goring pisang after the last one he gave me.

Yet we just do not treasure the things we have.

They didn know the feelings i held for a time too long.

I didn know that that would be the last time i will see them.

Yet they will think i was the one who let you down. Just like the rest of the world.

I hate China. And now, the area called guang zhuo hates me too.

catchy phrase

No calls, please; we're a veritable Swiss watch of advertising efficiency, and the slightest interruption could disturb our naptime throw off the balletic precision of our workflow.

Friday! The eve of freedom (weekends i mean)
On the way to work, i realised i hate standing behind tall ladies with long hair. They seem to have the tendency to imagine they are in some sort of MTV and swing their hair into everyone else’s face! Pui!

My new colleague is such a darling and is so innocently humorous. Seems like we are going to have lotsa fun at work now.

My colleague gave me an advance birthday pressie. Its a small strawberry shortcake doll which now sits on my table. its actually scented! love it :)

And i came across this very cute raspberry dollie on auctions. ain it cute!

Its' thursday and i don plan to go to class. It's a bore to actually listen to my lecturer SUSAN speak to us about things we already know. COOKIES, INTERNET...

Mark mark, i am learning the happy birthday song for u. now its where i can actually play it for u tats a question in my head. HAHAHA. so... what have u been up to? eeeeeeast? :x

Ok. Here comes the grand question which importance draws high only once in every year.
What would i like for my birthday?

Well, to start with, i would love a small Patisserie strawberry shortcake. It’s a sinful delight which i would love to indulge in. http://www.lesamis.com.sg/webtop/canele/ woo~

A PINK Nintendo! A strawberry shortcake ragdoll!(despite having 50 odd dolls already, girls will be girls) That pair of white sandals at Nuvo and the black bag from Nuvo for school
That’s all i can think of now.

Though i doubt my friends read this blog, still it’s nice to actually think of what you would like for your birthday!

Thank you lishan and your sis Helen for the very pretty contact lens casings. So cute i cant bear to use them.

somehow i just don seem to have the time to blog long posts anymore. : (

shorter and shorter i go!

We got the aircon man in to clean up our filters and its amazing how filthy they can actually get. Yuck.
I was surfin thru youtube and came across this video with Ben harper and Jack Johnson. Makes me wonder when jack will do a concert or something. Wah.

A quick note before i go off for yawn-ing classes again.

http://www.dottedlineshop.com/about.html

Work clothes that are feminine (meow!) but a little over priced! Its a local designer so it’s worth a second look :)

I chopped my hair into a bob and i have got a persistent sore throat that just wouldn’t go away.
I have got a new computer at work and the screen is SO HUGE. Goodie! 3 more terms to go before i am a brainy gradate and sometimes i come to wonder what would be the next step from here. I guess getting this degree has help in more ways then one to push my expectations higher then what it used to be in poly. In terms of compensation and career progression, all I see now is a huge fog.

Stress gets to people sometimes. It’s like having a permanent PMS mood or a i-am-pissed-don-make-me-kill-you mood. Everyone has some kind of stress tagged to them. It’s the people who handle it well that makes them impressive.

p/s: i have edited the navigation bar!!!

if u check my blog several times a day wondering if i commented anything about you, why not reflect on yourself?

Rants and rattles

Fucking cow. I am so pissed with the ultra biggies of STARHUB that i am going to change my service provider once my contract ends in november.

i hope you die a violent death (yes, one beyond my imagination)

A book worth reading! (imagine i left CLEO and FEMALE aside for this *winks)

Rattles and rants

Superman duane told me just the other day that life is never fair, which is why we need to make it fair for ourselves.

At times I wonder why I need to compensate for her inability. At times I have to demise my strand of negative thoughts and judgment. At times I have to tolerate her sense of idiocy.

But at the end of the day, what will I get out of tolerance and acceptance?

I have my internal debate and endless pondering of whether I should still put in what I’ve got or if I should once again, pack up my feelings and leave.

I have fallen in love with Drowning in the sea of love by Eva Cassidy

Plastic bags.

How many do u use a day? And how many of them do u chuck into a bin after getting home? Plastics are non biodegradable – yea, everyone knows that. But imagine if you have to get rid of ur own junk (no more land fills) what are you going to do? Humans are selfish. I believe we are not born that way but we grow into what we are today. Who’s going to take care of your waste?

Refuse a small bag a day, reuse them by putting extras in your own bag so you don have to get a new one. If you refuse 2 bags a day, tats 730 bags a year. Refuse plastic cutleries if you can, bring reusable ones to the office.

Be responsible, today.

I saw a HUGE ICE CREAM at Vivo! how huge? THIS HUGE!

Nice =)

Do well for your test!

Aww... my sweet butter
I asked her to smile hard so... hilarious~

Happy birthday nat.
Caught fireworks with u again this year. The last time i did was with u and alvin when he was in town but couldn even spare me a minute of his day to spend time with me. Hobby was more important then i was but i refused to see it that way. This year alvin refused to come down and watch beautiful fireworks with u. Sigh who can we count on but the bestest girlfriends u have?
Love my new shoes. I hope u do too! hahaha.

Had lunch with the 3some gang before setting out for my dreadful trip to the bank on sat. Food was AWESOME and gossiping non stop was so much fun. Was rather disappointed when she asked daryl if he got the gift cox i made the effort to wake up 2 hours earlier to get her a gift and card. Was even more hurt when she said i wore her earrings that were meant to be her present (which is stupidly lost in my room, along with my tortise keychain which i just cannot recall where i placed them) i wonder if my 1/2 min of silence (due to shock) incurred any sense of guilt. But then again, why couldn i bring it up and say i felt hurt about what she said?

Demeaning words that friends say shouldn be remembered. But when sacarstic remarks wave beyond the line into insults, what can i say?

Brace yourself. (no not u, her)

It’s finally Friday and I cant wait for the weekends. It’s a jammed pack weekend with catchups with sushi, missing, fang fang, Daryl and my favorite Valerie and vera. On top of that I have to go to the bank and the airport for FRIED CHICKEN (Popeye’s the most awesome chicken you can ever have EVER!)

My fingers hurt from pressing the guitar but still I love it (the guitar not the pain) I just hope I can carve out enough time to practice on it (and dumb-wit-me have been learning the wrong stuff for the past 3 days)

When oh when can I get a Nintendo!

Taking a break from the excruciating G note. I now conclude that rock stars do not go for manicures! Goodbye lovely nails, hello my baby guitar

I was reading an article about the slavery in china about how kids are being abducted, humans treated in a way so horrifying that I think the only way to punish the convicted is to make them go thru the exact same ordeal.
http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/World/Chinas_slavery_scam_exposed/articleshow/2127136.cms
Isn’t it another reason why we should all love our home country? It’s so much safer and oh lets not go on to the food we have.

The latest CLEO is out! =) oh and speaking of which, there’s a Japanese magazine that I came across when I was doing my hair (believe me 3 hours is a time way too long) and it’s simply awesome! Though the words are in Japanese but there are a gazillion photos of cute jap girls in the latest clothes and in all possible ways of mixing and matching.

And to satisfy the shopping bug that’s infiltrated into my veins, here’s some of the stuff I bought on a spree. They take a mth at least to arrive though =(

http://www.katemosstopshop.com/

I have always thought having the gift (or the program at least) to be able to do graphics is pretty cool. And the momentum people in the ad and media world feel should be as gratifying as it is horrendous. As much as I try to color my life as vibrant as possible, sometimes I still feel that I am not up to it. I guess the atas (this means people who walks with an upward 45 degrees tilted head) people do have something I don’t have huh?

I am cutting down on my consumption of food because I think I am gaining weight again (or have I always been able to convince myself I was always thinner then I am now?) and it’s not something I am proud of.

A perfect proposal!

August!

Natalie’s birthday was fun. I have never really clubbed before and I guess there’s a first time for everything. Ceci’s boob song seems to be stuck in my head, Martell doesn taste so bad, music at loud volumes ain that bad and moving your big fat ass to some music can be pretty amusing HAHA! And for the first time, constant gobbling of alcohol didn get me tipsy.

Thanks nat for buying us drinks and my all time favorite – Mark for being so awesome.

I went to shop for flowers for the office during lunch and came back with a lovely stalk of Blue Hydrangea. I haven really notice them before but they look like a lovely orb of daisy.

Doing recruitment, I happen to see different types of people. The fun energetic ones and the uptight and lazy ones. It makes me wonder why people may sometimes choose to be laid back when they can obviously do better. They have so much in them that if they put in just a little bit more, they could get so much more in return.

A cycle of laziness or sloppy mindset is nothing more but a vicious cycle. You get lazy and you don take care of your own body well, you do the minimum for your work and you get home and do nothing but just lie in bed or on the couch hating the lazy lethargic feeling you have in you. And the next day goes by the same way it did before …

Have you ever considered, getting up earlier, get some healthy breakfast and a workout, work your freaking ass off and gain satisfaction then get home pimp up your lovely house and go to bed all tired but happy. The next day will be refreshed and more vibrant then ever.

Playing the guitar is hard and reading the notes is confusing. Gosh now I am starting to believe I may be a dumb twit after all!

Good article worth reading =)

10 Reasons You're Not Getting Promoted
By Tag and Catherine Goulet, FabJob.com

If you want to move up at work, but you're going nowhere while watching co-workers climb the corporate ladder, it's time to take a hard look at what you might be doing wrong. See if any of the following might be holding you back:

Promotion Killer No. 1: You're a slacker
So what if you sometimes arrive late to work, are the first one out the door at the end of the day, and tend to call in sick on Mondays and Fridays? And it's not your fault you've missed a few deadlines -- you had computer trouble... the instructions weren't clear... you didn't get the help you needed... (insert most recent excuse here)...

Promotion Killer No. 2: You're doing "fine"
You're no slacker. You show up on time and do a fair day's work for a fair day's pay. And that's the problem. Doing work that is "fair," "OK," "adequate," "acceptable" or "fine" may be enough to keep a job, but it's usually not enough to be promoted to a job with more responsibility. If you don't go the extra mile for your employer, don't be surprised if your employer doesn't go the extra mile for you.

Promotion Killer No. 3: You're not visible enough
It's not enough to do a good job; people need to know you have leadership potential. So do what you can to get noticed by the people who have the power to promote you. When something you've worked on goes exceptionally well, write a memo to management praising the team you worked with. You'll get your name out there and be seen as a leader. Make sure you're visible in other ways too, such as volunteering to lead committees, contributing articles to the employee newsletter, coaching the softball team or chairing a volunteer project in your company. You can help your company, your community and your career at the same time.

Promotion Killer No. 4: You're a difficult person
It's good to stand out in the crowd, but not in a negative way. If you are high maintenance, complain a lot, sweat the small stuff and generally make life more difficult for your boss or others in your company, chances are you'll be looking for a job with a new employer before you ever get a chance to move up with your current employer.

Promotion Killer No. 5: You haven't mastered the job you're in
It's surprising how many junior employees perform poorly because they feel the job they're doing is "beneath" them. They figure it doesn't matter if the coffee pot runs dry, the report has a page inserted upside down, there are typos in an e-mail, or they forget to mention that a client called. They feel such tasks are a waste of their time and they could care about work if only they were given bigger and better things to do. All careers require newcomers to pay their dues and if it looks like you can't handle menial tasks, there's no way an employer is going to give you even more responsibility.

Promotion Killer No. 6: Your boss needs you in the job you're in
Yes, you can be too good for your own good. If you are the best assistant your boss has ever had, is it any wonder he doesn't want to lose you? The solution is to find a way for your boss to get what he needs (a great employee) while you get what you want (a promotion). You have already told your boss you want to move up in the company, haven't you? If not, make your intentions clear. Then start looking for ways to find another fabulous employee to replace you and make the transition as easy as possible.

Promotion Killer No. 7: You don't have the right image
In most workplaces, if you believe casual Fridays means you can show up in a tank top, tight shorts and flip flops, it's no wonder you're not being seen as management material. Dress like the people who are working in the position you want to be promoted to. Also learn to "talk the talk" by dropping slang and words such as "like, um, you know" from your workplace vocabulary. In addition, make sure your online image is professional by taking down anything embarrassing such as MySpace photos showing what you do when you've had too much to drink.

Promotion Killer No. 8: You have enemies
Anyone who doesn't like you can make it more difficult for you to get ahead. Co-workers can sabotage your work, but other important people to avoid alienating are those who have the ear of the person who can promote you. If you make an enemy of your boss's assistant or if key customers complain to your boss about you, chances are it will be a long time before you're given more responsibility.

Promotion Killer No. 9: You're competing with superstars
In some industries the reality is that there are far more star employees than positions at the top. If you're in a highly competitive career, you'll need to do an extraordinary job instead of merely an excellent one. Also, be prepared to do more of the other things mentioned in this article to stand out in the crowd and show that you're management material.

Promotion Killer No. 10: Your company isn't in a position to promote you
If you work for a company with a tight budget or low turnover, opportunities to move up may be limited. If a bigger paycheck isn't a possibility, consider asking your boss to acknowledge your work in other ways. For example, a new job title might cost the company nothing more than new business cards, or you may be able to get other benefits such as access to a company parking spot, a larger workspace, a day off, a mentor, educational opportunities or other perks. Be creative and ask for what you want. You might be pleasantly surprised with the result.

Tag and Catherine Goulet are authors of the book Dream Careers and founders of FabJob.com, a publisher of career guides offering step-by-step advice for breaking into a variety of dream careers. Visit www.FabJob.com to subscribe to their free career newsletter.

We all know a couple like this: After years together they still hold hands, make each other laugh and blush, get along famously, and seem to enjoy a dynamite groove the rest of us envy. But what really goes on behind the scenes? Have these two soulmates actually found their perfect match in this big wide world, or are there secrets and strategies to making sure that romantic spirit continues to flourish over time?

In order to maintain the magic and sustain the spark, happy couples know they must:

Start solid. Remember that best friend you had when you were a kid? Whether blissfully playing side-by-side in the sandbox or building an awesome fort together, you two just grooved on being in each other's presence. Happy couples share that same serendipitous groove, if in the all-grown-up world. Romantic chemistry aside, they genuinely like each other as people and truly enjoy walking down the path of life hand-in-hand.

Keep it fresh. Routines and traditions can give a couple a comforting sense of predictability that's both grounding and reassuring. But surprises and adventures are also essential to really keeping that spark alive. Happy couples make a habit of shaking things up a bit by planning weekend getaways to undiscovered destinations, saving their pennies for a dream vacation, or launching fun and ambitious projects together. Having exciting things on the calendar to look forward to and sharing new adventures together reaffirms their connectedness and refuels the romance.

Clear the air. It's perfectly natural for any couple to encounter frustrations, disappointments, and miscommunications from time to time. But if grievances go unaired, they can pile up to a mountain of resentment and put the relationship at risk. Happy couples make sure they keep the communication open, and navigate those inevitable rough spots with honesty and mutual respect. If any issues should arise that seem too big or too complex to resolve between the two of them, they'll schedule some sessions with a couples therapist to help them safely weather the storm.

Have a life. A healthy relationship consists of two individuals who each maintain a strong sense of themselves and take a genuine interest in the other. One may decide to go back to school to pursue a higher degree, while the other may get involved in a volunteer project or a photography workshop. Maintaining individual identities and pursuing individual interests ensures that there'll always be new things to share and to learn about each other.

Tune it up. Whether it be once a month or once a year, a regularly scheduled sit-down can allow for some essential upkeep and maintenance of a healthy relationship. Happy couples may agree to a periodic summit meeting to check in with one another about the overall well-being of their partnership. They may discuss what they've been appreciating about one another, what dynamics could use some tweaking, and what is on the horizon for their future as a couple. A little preventative TLC from time to time helps keep those relationship engines running smoothly.

BAH haven had time to blog much.

I couldn find THE CRASH CD at HMV (of all horrids) and was quite disappointed cox I know HMV in Japan has it. Darn.

Class is starting next week and well, I wldn exactly say I truly enjoyed my holiday cox work kinda makes me STILL FEEL tired. It’s a little bit scary actually how work stress can bring me horrifying headaches. It feels like the entire head is splitting apart and as much as I try to tell myself things are under control I know it isn’t.

I know what kind of personality I have, somewhat similar to Glennis. I want things to be tip top perfect and 100% error free. I know it’s madness because I almost died while working under her but I guess that’s the way i need things to be. I can be a happy coordinator and STILL be a perfectionist.

I guess it really was a memorable experience working with Zal and Glennis because I got to learn so much from them. But of course I do think I take as much panadols as glennis smokes. Ha!

I see so many impressive people in my work everyday, I keep getting inspired to work even harder but there’s just so many issues at work that cannot be addressed that leads to the pressure build up. Sigh its sat night and I am talking about work! What a spoil sport!

Something cool I found out was a cool job exists on HAJI lane that sells very cool wallpapers! I am so going there and I will take lotsa pictures.

5 days into not buying clothes and my BIG BUDGET PLAN is still still going on strong! (FOOD is excluded, one has to eat right?)

SIMPSONS MOVIE is a much watch if I have not mentioned that before. I am so looking forward to Rush Hour Three.

Updates!

Exams are boring things that test your memory space. It’s irritating, nerve wrecking and expensive! Everytime I walk into the exam hall/classroom, that anxiety grips me because I know how unprepared I am for each paper (try 4 chapters out of 7)

Another thing about school that I hate is the amount of paper and textbooks cluttering what little space I have in my room. But fret not, it’s the last year to come and we aye freedom from the 6 hours of school every week and lack of sleep every 3 months.

First day back at work and things are (not surprising) in quite a clutter. Its boring working alone and its worse if things left behind r not left in the nicest package for you to pick up. ‘oh didn do much cox she’s sick half the time…’

Which reminds me, I had nightmares about work every Sunday! Unhealthy!

I am reading this book about women’s behaviour ‘I can’t believe she did that’ and surprising, women harbor the evilest thoughts! Men fight it out, women work it out – by eliminating all enemies! Gasp. Even ‘bestfriends’ can be jealous of each other and try to find ways to degrade each other.

But it doesn happen between lishan n me. At least I hope =)

And mark n me but he's a guy so that's not counted. HAHA!

i Love this song!

http://rykosxsw.imeem.com/music/uVYjoyZX/big_ass_love/

in fact i love it so much i am going to buy it!

除了想你　
除了愛你
我什麼什麼都願意
翻開日記　整理〔打開〕心情
我真的真的想放棄
你始終沒有愛過　
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不從心　無力繼續

這感情　不值得我猶豫
不值得我考慮　不值得我愛過你
這種回憶　不值得我提起
不值得想起　不值得哭泣

這段感情　早就應該放棄
早就不該讓我浪費時間找奇蹟
這樣的你　不值得我恨你
不值得我為你而壞了心情

我決定不為你而毀了心 放棄愛你

How random is it that you will flip thru friendster, your emails, pal’s blogs to see how they are catching up on stuff.

And how often and how much are you actually involved in their lives?

Yes yes sittin in the office with the lack of a ‘dynamic team’ or a ‘conducive environment’ makes me understand how important my friends are to me. Or at the very least, I try to make them FEEL important.

So I drafted a list of people whom I have not said hi to for a plentiful amount of time and well I guess I should say HI!

When I saw irene in school the other day and I wished I had more time to spare to crap lotsa things to her. Missing, you are one hell of a nagger but I seriously don mind hearing you REPEAT yourself umpteen times right this instant! Do well for your exams princess!

Sigh. Loneliness does this to people.

(and to junnie, I am SO SORRY about that cup of TEA!!! Please spill em on me next time!)

Exams are lurking around the corner. GASP!

I am a lil stressed out lately, exams (doesn help that I am STILL not prepared), work, my student’s exam and little nitty gritty stuff.

MR is a killer. Seriously, if they think we can memorise sooooo much, the tutors are MAD. Besides, NO ONE needs to reproduce a proposal in 2 hours in the REAL world. Talk about application *rolls eyes*. Half the time in class I have no idea what Emily’s talking about and it sure doesn help that I so not have time to study too L

I got the ikea lamps and man they are SO PRETTY. So now my habit has changed to ½ hours of surfin the net on my bed everynight with the new lappy without havin to walk all the way to the other side of the room (not that its big la) to off the lights. Cool.

Create your own simpson!

i used to think that love can conquer all things. I guess that's what my parents taught me. In case u didn know, they eloped when my mom turned 21 to start a family of their own.

I guess things used to be pretty simple then. Earn enough for the family, put kids thru school, no terminal illness and tats it. Well anyway, there are many things in life we cannot control.

UOB has this brilliant insurance plan for LADIES covering all major women illness n stuff for 12.50 a month. And the most attractive part of this is that the premium does not increase thru the years till you are 70! (i plan to live to 100, so far so good!) COOL!

Have been trying to shove notes down my throat (literally) and working my ass off cox my colleague's sick. I didn know having a baby can be sooooo HARD.

Not much time to blog (bah exams and shit)

After a near death experience, it dawned on me that i have quite a few friends that i haven been talkin alot to. Many things i haven done and things i haven said.

Life's so fragile.

Wohoo! i know at the rate i shop.... i can feed a country! LAUGHS.

I AM SO SLEEPY!

I got my guitar!!!! *smiles with gee screams with excitment*

photos can only be uploaded from home though. :)

When fury rises, frustration boils and irritation sets in.

spend·thrift. Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[spend-thrift] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
a person who spends possessions or money extravagantly or wastefully; prodigal.

I love shopping. Actually i should say i LOVE shopping and being deprived of it KILLS me (emotionally that is). i think i used to be a fashion diasaster (ahh fashion police!!!) and was all ugly n fugly. Not that i am some super hot gorgeous babe now but hey i think in the least i look NORMAL.

I think i spend wisely (in my OWN bloody opinion) and i buy the things i like. Stuff i would like to own and things i term as cute and pretty. People (the word FRIENDS seem too classy for you) who tries to scream words like spend·thrift. or child.ish into my face should get their faces stuffed into bins or choke on water. Period.

You know who u are.

if you can remember i have been bugging almost everyone that i want to go to IKEA to buy a nice lamp. Found it on auctions. Going for an insane price of 30 bucks for a pair. COOL.

That's the whiteboard i got last week. Sigh don't u feel happy just looking at it? Laughs.

http://www.asianbite.com/default.asp?Display=893

He's so cute, i think its illegal!

i think i am going mad (you know why). Thankfully its Friday!

On the brighter side, here's some interesting stuff. Simpsons going at $30 bucks. If i am not wrong, u can arrange and rearrange them. EBAY! Im still considering cox its quite expensive.

You Won eBay Item: Strawberry Shortcake Magnetic White Board (130126174638) WOHOO! In my defence, i have been wanting to get a white board for my room cox its easier for MISS SCATTERBRAINS to jot stuff down (like trying not to bring the wrong textbook again). Only $6 so its quite a bargain.

Photos cant be uploaded by blogger for some reasons. SIGH. Talk later then!

Trying hard not to hit the malls, i surf online! If only the Little Miss series ain SO EXPENSIVE. Sheesh. Unfortunately, I am going to town tomorrow to meet wonderful people!

Karen n I painted the office today so now it looks bright n cheery which is kinda a GOOD thing cox it looked depressing. Although it was disastrous with the paint flying around, a blueblack (ouch), paint on my bag (sobs), almost all over our body and my khakis.

I just spoke to a nasty person on the phone and cannot understand why people needs to be so *censored* nasty. You don do that to people who are helping you get a pay increase. Duh. *censored*

Ain it awesome?

HAHAHAHA. Bidding it for 25 bucks. I KNOW i know gotto stop buying stuff. While surfing thru tattoo shops, i came across this article. http://www.thingsasian.com/stories-photos/3750

I actually had a chance to pop by their shop few days before and saw some of their work through the windows. They were closed to attend a Tattoo conference in Orlando (how cool!). Work looks good and saw quite a few good comments about it on the net.

Here's another one that's worth a look. Creepy music though.

So, i have been hanging out in CHEENATOWN n some of the shops here offer entertaiment for lunchies! There's a sneakers shop here tat stacks Brikens like some pa-sat (market) kind of shoes! They have almost every brand u can think of and its stacked sky high. woah.

I am an angry shopper!

Been tryin to get hold of Complete Solution for my contact lenses n everyone's saying 'they are all recalled. We don sell them anymore.' I went like 'WHAT!?!?!' (in my head that is)

So now i have to survive on WEIRD solutions that the shops sell. SIGH.

"AMO Complete Moistureplus Multipurpose Solution" recalled in Singapore

SINGAPORE: Advanced Medical Optics has recalled all stocks of a contact lens solution in Singapore.
The Health Sciences Authority (HSA) says all batches of "AMO Complete Moistureplus Multipurpose Solution" will be taken off the shelves as a precaution.
The recall follows similar action in America where the US Centres for Disease Control and Prevention had raised concerns over the product after treating patients who developed eye infections.
The infections were caused by Acanthamoeba, a naturally occurring water-borne organism which can contribute to serious corneal infections.
HSA says there have been no similar reports in Singapore and that there is no evidence to suggest the product has been contaminated.
But it advises consumers in Singapore who have the solution to stop using it immediately.
Contact lens users who experience symptoms of eye infection such as redness or pain should also seek medical attention.
Consumers who have further enquiries can call the AMO hotline at +65 6844 8833. - CNA/ir

Goo Goo Dolls are awesome!

I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say
I'll take my chances while
You take your time with
This game you play

But I can't control your soul
You need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in

Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in

I don know if its me or the air around here OR the coffee i just drank, i find it hard to breath. * I need a huge gulp of air, fresh air*

The corridor here stinks and is FILLED with crawling insects (a little exaggerated but yea!) so we got pesticides yesterday and went RUN CRAWLIES FOR YOU ARE ALL GOING TO DIE. DIE DIE DIE! After which we sprayed a LOVELY scent of COUNTRY FLORAL to make it possible to walk pass. HAHA!

We got the NAMECARD MAN to come in today and although I m super tempted to design my own namecards (green light by paul!) but i didn manage to find time to actually do it. Bah!

On a more interesting note, I m doing stuff on advertising and came across this website that caught my eye for a while - http://pitchmarketing.blogspot.com/
They have all the cool stuff happening out there with a pinch of their own thoughts (and of course juicy gossips).

Another site that made me sit up from my not-so-comfortable seat? http://thedailyswarm.com/

i know! I haven been blogging. Wahahahaha

Due to time constrains here's a sneak peek at wad i've been up to!

Class gathering E01! I Luvvve the marshmallows and the nuggets. Kudos to the guys for the cooking (although some items were almost BLACK hahaha!) and i AM sOOOO sorry for spilling juice onto your shoes! That explains why i should never be a waitress!

We are now at Pagoda street and things are in a HUGE MESS. I am sick from all the dust, all bruised from shifting things around and tired from the workout. Bah! I miss ann siang already!

Bought a few coooool stuff from Ppl's park but my cam's with yushi (ahem sushi~) so pics gotto wait huh guys. I got my results and i didn flunk my Marcomm paper *GRINX!* so YEA, next round of papers is in JULY!

Signed up with Singtel for the nternet upgrade with the package for Lenovo's Y300 so YEA! Don need to fix my ancient computer and i am now MOBILE! HAHAHA. Looking forward to 26 to collect it. WHEE!

And to everyone who's bdae i might have missed out in june, i am SO SORRY! Owe u a hug and a kiss (literally) and a big meal eh! HAHAHA!

my horoscope:

Be subtler in your communication style today. Explore the art of dropping hints.

Is someone accusing you (of all things) of being too nice? Is that even possible? Okay, you want to dismiss this, but sit down and think about it. Could it be that there's a kernel of truth in this person's supposition?

***************

Okie this is WAY too weird. Paul said i was too nice and that i reminded him of his first wife when we were having lunch yesterday at Indo Chine at Boat Quay.

We are officially empty (well trying to be anyway)

Moving from the snuggly corner of Annsiang Hill, where no one will question the award of food paradise, we are going to Pagoda street!

Pagoda’s just up and ahead Chinatown MRT with a kickass stone throw away from the exit. We have Indian tailors guarding our stairway and another ad firm just round the corner, I am determined to make it a SUPER LOVELY OFFICE. *PINK PINK PINK* (yea I wish!!)

Firstly, goodbye AVOCADO SHAKE and YONG TAU HU. Sobs. You have been nothing but absolutely delicious! You have done nothing but improved my appetite for lunch!

I had wonderful memories here, working with Irene for a short period of time. It was fun, bitching and chatttttting non-stop. I met han here and she’s eventually became a friend (who’s missing in Australia!) I had my gloomy period here and I had the most a rewarding experience in the past few months here! Learnt that acceptance is possible if you try hard enough and that no shit is ever shitty enough to bring you down. Nothing is impossible because Impossible is I-M-POSSILE. Heh heh. (wait till u hear me curse and swear man, now that’s another story tsk tsk)

Pictures coming right up dudes!

I didn know stayin home can be quite cool. Laughs.

AND i didn know my mom can spend 65 bucks at Cold Storage at one shot. WAH! Mom's are the people who never fails to suprise us don u think?

Gosh that song is so stuck to my head. Nice ain it?

me stuck at home on a saturday. Ain much to say for there are so many things i cant explain. And perhaps for once, although the heart says please, the mind decides otherwise.

To some, i fear loneliness. To me i fear the emotions that comes along when my mind wonders. Although it is nothing much to be feared, how well can one be prepared for when you have seen the worst?

Artist:
lifehouse
Song:
you belong to me

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sun rise from the tropic isle
Just remember darling all the while
You belong to me

See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me

Oh I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again

You belong to me

Check out the song by Lifehouse! nice!

it's finally Friday n weirdly i don have much planned out for this weekend. Looks like i can catch up on my cat naps n videos eh? We are shifting office to somewhere in Chinatown so it's kinda exciting cox i am trying to sneak a chance to decorate our new office with my favourite colleague. LAUGHS.

Junnie, you are not online for like 2 days and i miss talking to u! woah. (although i HAVE been seeing you after work for the past 4 days hiak hiak hiak)

Lookin forward to Pirates of the Caribbean tonight!

Here we go again.


I don really know who reads my blog now since i have closed it for months n shifted here n there, avoiding certain people, certain feelings i had over the past few months.


Ain this all too familiar?

woowala!

For some reasons, i this layout cant display --> ' (n i don know why) like when i put I've (I have) it turns out all funny.

Well anyway, me met up with shan n junnie just now for dinner (and committed a SIN in purchasing a SUPER lovely top). It occurred to me that Paul n shan BOTH mentioned about how mean peeps can be when there is absolutely no need to be MEAN. And i so know wad they mean cox when i call up the bitches receptionists, they turn all nasty n shit towards me. Come on man, i m just doing my job (innocent eyes)

n in case there is ANYONE who's reading this (i donnoe.. like r's ex girlfriend or some dumb bitch from somewhere who hates me) n thinks that I am a MEANIE MYSELF, i would say hey, i KNOW i am mean sometimes but i'm working on it. Me short fuse is starting to be LONGER n longer so cut me some slack?

Am super amazed by a classmate today. I thought she was just cool but today i know she's wayyyyyy cooler then that ;)

okie, gotto feed MJ pom pom n lulu now.

p/s: i wanna win toto! i wanna wanna win it badly!!!!! (yea i know chances are slim but still...:)

URS

Found this pic tat's really pretty (we are on the highest level!)
Credits from Go Direct. http://www.godirect.com.sg/ (this boss is my boss's friend eh)

I had a hell of a time yest in class seating with Zann n junnie. Gosh not a word went into my dumb head but all my energy to controlling my laughter!

i m contemplating if we should ask boss to allow us to design our own name cards. FUN.

http://www.youtube.com/v/hMfcNhQHO-M">

Hi ai mates!

After lotsa feedback, i guess this layout is easier for u to read huh? :)

It's been a hell of a weekend. I have not yet grasp the stuff evolving around me and I seem to be lost most of the time. And my dearest missing n fangfang, I wasn bored, I guess I was just lost. Feeling a little lost.

Sometimes, it feels as if there is something that’s eating into me and what’s left of me. It seems I have failed in many areas of life and there’s not much to hold onto.

But I do know that when things seem so helpless, that there ARE things worth living for (explains the SELF IMPROVEMENT books that peeps write) and that its really up to oneself to pull yourself up after you fall.

I am going to fake it, till I make it – Tyra. (ah! late night tv!)

RIP Betty

Friends

My eyes are crossing up (cross eyes) because of the lack of sleep i had last night. What a dramatic nice it was man. Don get me started on wad happened.

For peeps who's been nice to once again offer their kind support(sounds like a charity going on here) for ms softie here, THANK YOU. Super gan dong by ur sms junnie tat i can cancel u anytime and mark for the greener pastures for picnics. *winks* But how cum ur side is always GREENER?

Friends are heros in our lives who makes us laugh when we are down, makes us cheer when we are havin fun, carries no judgements to the decisions we make and stone along (stare into spaces or build castles in the air together) when there's nothing much to do. In the shitty world we are in, there ain many people who can offer kindness without selfishness. Where the concept of 'self-first' comes way ahead of everything else.

So i thank the peeps who's given me a hug when i was gabbing on my pretty box of kleenex.

Weekends are FINALLY here again and this weekend is filled to the brim. hopefully, things will be bright n cheery all the way!

Avocado shake! It's a i-must-have-it drink for lunch whenever i eat at Amoy. slup slup! I guess after we move i am so going to miss it, along with the oneh oneh and the delicious yong tau hu. sheesh. brain freeze!

I woke up to a nice cool rainy day this morning which resulted my brain to start functioning 15 minutes later. And in my panic (argh late late late!) my fingers hooked onto the little fury thing on my phone and whoosh! *Bing Blang bang* Now my phone's refusing to make any sound and i cant hear my smses or any ring tones. SIGH.

Happy postcrosser

I am a happy postcrosser! I got my forth postcard this month. The one on top is from New York and another from Central Finland. These peeps are nice really and the turn around time is about 2 weeks? So its really quick to get a card from someone out there.

I got myself this tee from Revolt at Cine. It actually looks good with a sling bag. HEE.

I am on a strict money diet so i am trying my very best to NOT head to towns n malls. HAHA. But temptation is always around.

genius in the making!

HAHAHA i fixed my ancient computer. woohoo~
weekends are GREAT. I got my mom a radio she wanted, fixed my curtains, had a good tuition with val n enen and watched Blood Diamond with junnie at home too! (credit to Kenneth who's my 'bestfriend' for lending me the DVD) Speaking of which, who's holding onto my DVD 'The notebook'? Own up now.

We are leaving our cosy home on Ann Siang road to find another home cox the mafias landlords are being ridiculious. We saw one tats almost perfect, but i heard it's been rented out already. Ahh... i wish i wish i WISH that we can have partitions man. I like talking onto the phone with my candidates loudly because it brings out the confidence in me. and i can surf the net too

That's karen and Paul.

Once in a while i meet up wth old pals i used to work with (hi rubbish man! gosh i haven seen you in 2 long years man) and it has dawned on me that i do miss u guys alot. Wahh can u remember the times we secretly had chocolates in the warehouse? *laughs* Maybe that's why i got fired! HAHAHAHA!