mm issues

I seriously hate this lady. She absolutely doesn't even know me. And she is bitching at me seriously!! this lady it's sad she is my mother who doesn't know shit about me. How sad right. She is just pissed her life is crap and that every guy she has been with is just a worthless piece of shit. taking her crap out on me. i really can't stand her. I can't wait till i get my CNA license. After i get a job as a CNA i am only staying a couple months to save my money then i am moving out. HONESTLY the only person i will miss is my little sister. Everyone else in this house can go straight to HELL for all i care.
Why am i surrounded by worthless ass holes SIGH..............

depressed

I have been so depressed lately. That really nothing new but, i have been having more panic attacks lately too. which really annoys me. Also i have been so sensitive. Everything has been get to me. The only good thing is that no one has noticed yet. Also i haven't gotten so sensitive that i'm snapping at everyone. But, instead of ignoring the playful insults. i get at work like i usually do. It has really been getting to me.
sigh i really don't know what to do with myself anymore. Oh well my best friends birthday is Saturday hopefully that will cheer me up.

yaoi mood

AHHHH! I've been in such a pervy saga mood. i have no idea what is wrong with me. I just can't fight this feeling. OTiKA

Currently reading :

High School Scandal (A BoyxBoy Romantic Comedy) by whoatemycookie on wattpad.com and loving it.

i just noticed it's raining outside. and it's 4:05 in the morning where i'm at so i have decide to go for a little walk in the rain see.

I've just finishing up drunken to love you and moving on to Paradise. For those who don't know those are names to Asian dramas. 
I'm going to start editing on BUANG RAI PYE RUK. which is a Thai drama on viki.com
this is my first viki project i'm sooo excited. 
p.s I've decided not to watch paradise it looks. But, i'm not really sure. Oh well see

Current emotional stat: Sad 
Honestly i have know clue what is wrong wrong with me i just been so sad . i don't even have any reason to be sad . i just am

sigh

kinda sucky that my first blog had to start on a sad note but, what are you going to do. i want to use this blog to talk about my life and all that is happening in it. but, first i need to get my self in order 

wish me luck! 

i'm thinking of being an  English editor for one of my fav sites 

viki.com but i need to get my head straight