Yo! it's been awhile since my last post 

did you miss me ?.....
probably not but oh well.
well here's what's been up with me so far 
i passed and finished my CNA classes and i passed one of the state tests
but i failed the second sigh,,,,,,,,
i got real sick and had to have surgery 
but im all better now so don't worry
but ive been putting off rescheduling taking the second state test
 because i always panic whenever i have to demonstrate something in front of people. 
which is why i failed the 1st time.
so i still don't have my CNA license. Which sucks major Balls but i have no one to blame but myself.
I'm still living with my mom 
I'm still hating my mom  and recently since the stupid bitch is fighting with my step-dad
instead of kicking his ratchet ass out. 
She's been snoring i mean sleeping in my room
I can't blast my music like i want to. she bitches 
i can't watch my asain dramas around her cause she Bitches 
i can't even breath properly because she fucking farts all over the place 
then she bitches about keeping everything clean.
Honestly i hate almost everybody at my current job and even if i don't hate you 
i am most defiantly sick of your presence and you probably annoy me on some level
my best friend since middle school moved to Florida with her awesome boyfriend.
i'm really happy for her but wicked sad causes im really going to miss her.
A boy who i had really liked and use to work with died like two months ago, 
A girl who i went to high school with got killed by her boyfriend then he killed himself. tsk tsk tsk 
i didn't hate her she was the really pretty popular girl that all the guys wanted and no one really hated her she was pretty cool even though she did have some pretty shady moments. anyways whatever alot of other people died this year two of my mom's cousin but i wasn't really close with them so i don't really care.  Basically alot of  people died or got sick this year. This was basically the year of sickness and death. And i am not in the least bit sad to see it ending.
I've decided to go back to school ok ok more like my mom bitch me into going back to school. 
i will be studying medical billing and coding. 
the school im going to is really far from my house. 
It's at least a 30-35min drive from my house. 
which Fucking sucks. but what am i going to do..... the other tech school  close to my house is closing down that branch. of course they had to decide to do that Fucking two days after i signed up.
I still haven't told my mom. waiting till im all signed up to the other school to do that that way
she won't have that much to bitch about. 
But, then again knowing my mom i;m sure she will find something.
SMH
oh well that's pretty much it I've also watched alot of great dramas .
but i have an appointment early tomorrow morning so 
Good night and I will put up my list and reviews next time.

P.S. to all who have died this year RIP

mm issues

I seriously hate this lady. She absolutely doesn't even know me. And she is bitching at me seriously!! this lady it's sad she is my mother who doesn't know shit about me. How sad right. She is just pissed her life is crap and that every guy she has been with is just a worthless piece of shit. taking her crap out on me. i really can't stand her. I can't wait till i get my CNA license. After i get a job as a CNA i am only staying a couple months to save my money then i am moving out. HONESTLY the only person i will miss is my little sister. Everyone else in this house can go straight to HELL for all i care.
Why am i surrounded by worthless ass holes SIGH..............

depressed

I have been so depressed lately. That really nothing new but, i have been having more panic attacks lately too. which really annoys me. Also i have been so sensitive. Everything has been get to me. The only good thing is that no one has noticed yet. Also i haven't gotten so sensitive that i'm snapping at everyone. But, instead of ignoring the playful insults. i get at work like i usually do. It has really been getting to me.
sigh i really don't know what to do with myself anymore. Oh well my best friends birthday is Saturday hopefully that will cheer me up.

yaoi mood

AHHHH! I've been in such a pervy saga mood. i have no idea what is wrong with me. I just can't fight this feeling. OTiKA

Currently reading :

High School Scandal (A BoyxBoy Romantic Comedy) by whoatemycookie on wattpad.com and loving it.

i just noticed it's raining outside. and it's 4:05 in the morning where i'm at so i have decide to go for a little walk in the rain see.

I've just finishing up drunken to love you and moving on to Paradise. For those who don't know those are names to Asian dramas. 
I'm going to start editing on BUANG RAI PYE RUK. which is a Thai drama on viki.com
this is my first viki project i'm sooo excited. 
p.s I've decided not to watch paradise it looks. But, i'm not really sure. Oh well see

Current emotional stat: Sad 
Honestly i have know clue what is wrong wrong with me i just been so sad . i don't even have any reason to be sad . i just am

sigh

kinda sucky that my first blog had to start on a sad note but, what are you going to do. i want to use this blog to talk about my life and all that is happening in it. but, first i need to get my self in order 

wish me luck! 

i'm thinking of being an  English editor for one of my fav sites 

viki.com but i need to get my head straight