Nut Says

Oh hoho update.

Pushed back my TP date to october, going to be kind of busy with FYP (ITS TRUE) so im just going to take things slow. Also partly because the stupid booking system is flawed. Im going to book my lesson all the way until october already, weekly, going to be damn kiasu now.

Ok on another note, poly 50 is on 11th July. Must remind me to bring my stuff else i will forget to go for it lol, im poor with dates now. Ever since i entered poly, everyday is kind of like a holiday. Its been a great dream over the past 2 years, doing what i want when i want. If only i could be year 1 / 2 forever.

But when i look at it, im so carefree, anything goes. No plans for the future, no passion, no particular interests. Since i hang around with different crowds, the topics are never the same and thus i have several minor interests here and there but nothing major. However i feel that its because there isnt any passion driving me to achieve anything.

I am a sound engineer - Yea so what? I cant continue/start off now unless i have a whole chunk of free time.

I play the drums - If only i had the passion when a few years back when i had much more free time.

I play WoW - Well yea, feels like im going to quit soon anyway, we'll just see how things goes.

Dont know what the hell im talking about now so screw it lol.

In short, there is nothing driving me, hell im going to get out of it. I feel that its kind of a low point in my life now, now passion no ambition, living each day because im here.

Eh eh dont get the wrong idea, i love life, but its how im going to spend it. I need a change. Ill try something new now, but how long will my passion be fueled? Yes i admit, i get bored of things easily, but once i commit to something, ill still drag my ass down there even if hate to do it and ill do it to the best of my ability. But the question is how long will i take to get down there?

Aye screw it im talking nonsense.

Ill start off with a few short-long term goal, at least its something.
I will achieve all of it this time. (I hope).

Its that time of the year again, dreams we hope to live in~

What sia, damn tired and i cant sleep. This is unfair.

Exhaustion. I think i may fall ill soon lol.

Getting nosebleeds every morning i wake up. Hmm Less alcohol more liang teh lol.

Thursday.

Lol I went for a run at 5pm, ran to botanical gardens and back. Finally a long awaited refreshing run. I was kept busy by setting up the website/forum/mySQL/phpmyadmin settings for the whole week -_-. Lack of sleep came when some stupid scripts cocked up somewhere, so yea i havent had a good nights rest for the whole week.

At night went to Chalk's house with Leon , Daniel and Kevin to relax. Lol we drank from 12am-6am. Played guessing game until leon was very very tipsy wahahah. I think that kevin and daniel were kind of drunk when we cabbed back at 6 because they started talking nonsense in the cab lol. And the nonsense was... really nonsense. You hear already will OMGWTFBBQROFL lol. So i went home to sleepwork until 7+ then fell asleep.

Friday.

And so i slept work until 7am. And then my sister had to play the piano waking me up in the morning @#$^@$%^. Then when i went back to sleep, the neighbour's construction (DRILLING^&*^&*^*&^) woke me up again. What a bad start to the day -_-.

Then woke up at around 5pm. Then remembered my Rock for Wayne tickets was in club. So i had to lug myself down to get it. Bad bad start to the day lol.

Anyway went to home club later on in the night to support Bong's gig. Beer was @ $5 all night. Allura played after You and whose army (YAWA). I decided to er relax on drinking so i only had ONE beer. Its good already ok, considering how much i drank over the last few days. And the result was... i didnt get a nose bleed. (Btw i also drank like bottles of ju hua and liang teh to balance my 'heat').

Funny thing was, a glass of coke there was more expensive then my beer lol. 6 bucks for a glass of coke and a lemon wedge. I should look into opening a bar some day, after i setup undermydrum management inc. and take over capitaland and go into politics.

Anyhoo im going to sleep now, will update more soon, im damn tired as you can see im talking rubbish already. Later.

Be slow to anger, the key to success.

I begin to wonder about how morals will survive in today's business world.

Anyway, its kind of fucked up that you get scolded by other people who asks you to help them. How can you go around scolding the person that your asking for assistance? Come on, your the one thats being the fucked up one. I dont gain anything from helping you, so why should i help out? Because your my friend thats why. However you go around fucking everyone that screws up so little and begin to throw your temper when things dont go your way.

To even think that i was going to help you find a external itp source.

It all begins when i mentioned that i may have the chance to go overseas for itp. You asked if you i could help you ask the company about employing other people and i agreed. You then mentioned your 1st Plan that you were going to take to the people around before you heard of my plan. Then when someone asks me about all this itp stuff like whos going and shit, i just said that you may not be on the 1st Plan but going on an alternate plan.

Thats all there is to it. And so the guy flips out, throws his temper like the world owes him a living and doesnt have the common sense to think things through before executing them.

I agree that im partly to blame for revealing your 'secret' which you proudly explained to a group of people earlier on to day, but i dont agree that your are not to blame too. FOR FUCKS SAKE im the one thats going to help you and i dont gain anything through helping you. The simple reason i want to help its because i want to help friends.

Now if i didnt say anything about my itp, then i get to go overseas im pretty sure you would be complaining that i didnt share it and all that shit. 2 Words - Complain box. Go reflect. In my opinion both parties are wrong, but i sure didnt make a scene out of it. People asks questions and what am i supposed to do, lie? As your approach to me was a public one, who the hell knows its a 'secret'. Come out how old are we already, throwing tantrums? Im sure there are better ways to resolve this amiably. Each time shit like this happens i always take a step back and put my hand out to you offering an apology. Just because i treat friends as friends and want to resolve matters quick, doesnt mean i have no limit.

Not this time. Theres a limit to everything.

Now thats off my chest. I dont like to confide things in people, thats my nature. Thats why i use blogger to express my feelings instead. Whether people read it or not its their business, its the only source of output for me. I believe in doing things 光明正大 (Doing things openly), because im not doing anything wrong, so why be afraid of it? Unless someone specificaly requests me not to with a reason then sure by all means.

Heres the update everyone was waiting. Not quite what i had in mind but then..

Anyhoo, schools out, a short vacation for the hard working students. Good work to my FYP team, now to start work on phase 2.

I aint in any mood to update much now, because of that shit. So ill just stop here. Later.