Nut Says

Happy Bday mother penguin! lol

Happy 18th bday Xinhui (my laobu =D), again and again and again... for 3 years already, dont you think its time to change?

Oh yes yesterday Clarence tried to come kpkb with me on deleting his posts in the forum. If the posts you post are rubbish in an important thread i dont see the reason not to clear it? Futhermore if im summing up posts id have to delete your posts to keep the into threads clean right? Try come kpkb with me over such a small issue, sad to say your 1000 years too early... Try again when you actually have thought over bigger issues or clearly planned out your damn argument. Dont waste my time over weak arguemnts that dont require much thinking, its just sickening.

Anyways, went to school today for the camp briefing. Met some freshies, almost all were enthu. Ok la, all interacted with each other with some pushing from me and james.

Then went over to tanjong pagar to carry amps over back to school with Jin and Clarence.

After that tried to connect the amps BUT they were having GL dance practice. Sorry if i interupted it but i had to test the amps , and the mixer to make sure they were working. Was on a dateline , so sorry a!

I feel tired. Match coming up later at 2:45am. Tml still must head down to school for the GL dance thing and testing amps one last time.

-Fierce.... nut is scared >.O-

Woah so many things happened in the last week.

Lets see,

Some where in the early part of the week i was talking to ting.

Wa kao you smart la u, people go attachment to gain experience you go date a guy 12 years older lol. Anyways you a, get a crush on a guy 12 yrs older and your kind of dating him. You must be happy lol. This shows that age doesnt matter? Dont know what most people want, some say too old cannot, too young also cannot -_- Not say picky or anything but err if got feeling then got feeling else correct age also wont matter right?

Then talk talk until saying something about ignoring people a? Block/del from msn then ignore sms is kind of childish ? Thats her view.

Well you cant force people to do things they dont want. Even if you get them to do things , they also will do it with a very unhappy heart so why bother? Thus i dont really bother much la, do what you want to do with your life, its yours anyway.

Next up maturity.

Who am i to say how mature people are? Considering that at times im childish. But when theres serious work to be done, i change. Please, there is a time for fun and games and there is a time to work. Your foolishness caused your own property loss and you blame us for it? Still grumble and show an attitude?

To me it seems that you have a serious problem. First off, your child like sulking and grumbling doesnt help at all. You just threw your broken property and walked off. Attitude problem. Serious one. You act like the world owes you a debt. Oh well ive reprimainded you, the only thing left is you to change.

Lets see what else. Ah, commitment levels.

Im not saying work pwns friendship. Yes friendship. Im your friend, but at the same time i have a certain level of commitment and responsibility. I took this responsibility at the first GM and stuck to it. Certain people failed to do so and were sacked. The luckier ones hung on till now. If i could have done something, i would have sacked more people.

Then again, a certain event clash. Fun vs Work. When you accepted this job, it was told that we would be busy and we must commit. Yes you want to have fun its alright, but when its time to work please work. Its a crucial time now and we need to get it right. But it seems that some people aint co-operating.

I have this feeling that certain people are going to quit. Not say all that surprised la, expected. Happy to see you considering quitting. On the other hand, other people are quitting for the dumbest reasons.

Oh well, you cant control what people do.

Ok off to sleep now, 3am im getting old i need sleep.

Maybe we should call orange deer back hmmm

-Im neutral. Smile smile.Also people please calm down. Sleep over it then make your decisions =)-

What do they have in common? I have no idea.

Lets recap the whole of last week now. Because someone said that blogging once a weeks is not enough for a non avid blogger.

20th March 06, Monday
What happened today!?!?!?!

21th March 06, Tuesday
All i remember is, went to school today to get ready for the enrollment. Got ready the flyers, and made props for nightwalk. The prop i made was a tablet =D, here it is.

There, me and the tablet, not fully done. The pic a, lol. No comment. After that went to Clementi to eat and went home.

22nd March 06, Wed
Release of the results! Woke up at 10am. Checked my results, got a bunch of B s and C s. GPA of 2.808. Not bad considering i was playing winning eleven most of the time during the exams. Went back to sleep till 12pm then went to school for enrolment.

Enrollment started, went to school and did the enrolment. Feels like M1 without pay. Enrollment for DMAT people. Best customers today were mats lol, simple and quick, they signed up for the camp lol.

Wanted to watch movie but enrolment ended late so postponed to the next day.

23rd March 06 , Thursday
... Woke up at 730am to go to school at 830am to get ready for the enrolment. Started at 10am and ended at 4+. Once again was like M1 with no pay la, however i enjoy it.. Enjoyed working at M1, carefree life then with a pay of $7 per hour. Same for this enrollment thing but see more people my age. This came with a price of working for free o.O.

So we slaved and worked and in the end, over 2 days we got 140+ people to sign up and have paid. Well good work i suppose, in M1 to even hit the quota on a week day would be amazing. Here we have a target of 80 over 2 days but we did almost double so its good.

After that went to Plaza sing to watch Yours mine and ours with sherman ( =D ) , xue jia ,siyu,SQ,chau and cj. After that went to walk walk and you should see my new keychain.

Went home and tahan until 1am. Then i went to sleep...

Im not young anymore ... damn

28th March 06, Friday
Same thing enrolment. Then suddenly Kenneth came up in to the enrolment room. I was "errr wtf?" He wore his sch pe shirt and he was sweating like dont know what. I guess he climed the stairs to the 4th floor and had a workout -.- So dirty , no one tell him to come and stand around be dirty and scare ppl away >.>

After enrolment went for GM and GLS note this down. We meet at 12pm at dover and 1:58pm at T19 ( REMEMBER =D)

After that went to camp song. Shouted till my voice crack, literally. Then we eneded campsong with billy banjah. Some kuku left his things on the floor. Inside got his ear piece and its not his first time playing billy banjah. Play play afterwards find out sumone step one his ear piece. He attitude and throw it on the ground , grumble about $40 not easy to earn and walk off.

First off the ear piece PLASTIC broke only. Your attitude disgusts me. You didnt even attempt to check if the internals were working at all. Treated like all of us there owe you an earpiece. Dont tell me you werent playing too. Please dude, 18 already grow up. So i send him some damn long pm i was writing at 4am cos i was partially bored? How i knocked some sense into you.

After that went home. Got hungry waiting for the cell group to end before i could come out to eat dinner. ate at 11:15pm.

Ok im getting bored, its 1am too many distractions keep me from bloggin. Chionging now

Sat- Forced by my younger sis to go PS to watch some stupid hair show. went at 3pm came home at 4pm. Afterwards went to eat with josh,yap,adolf,chau at the place where xuejia was working. btw, some people were supposed to go eat also huh? but didnt go a. o.O

Sun- FINALLY REST DAY!. CAme home from church, watch tv, eat, 15 min nap and im back up again. Watching hellsing now =D

Ok thats about it

Oh wait, just found out. oi people can show more commitment or not... Dont want , pay up and go away la.

-We all live in a yellow submarine, yellow submarine, yellow submarine.-

Sunday 19th March 2006

I woke up with a funny dream. Dreamt that someone... was looking at me when i was looking out a window. I glanced left and saw a smile at me, a smile which i havent seen meant for me in a long time.

Ok woke up at 915am to go to church. Slept at 4am the previous day so feeling a bit blur. This whole week i was blur and disorientated and wasnt sharp at all. For this whole week maybe due to the lack of sleep, i had become slow and clumsy. After church , went to dover MRT to meet Felix to carry all the food to Pasir ris. Met Alvin, SQ, Chau , noodles, siyu, Qiuhui and CJ at dover MRT to bring all to food and ice box down.

Reached there at 1pm, then i saw mark. He said he bought for me lpool already. Then it hit me! HOW CAN LPOOL BE AT 5.50 FOR AN AWAY WIN AGAINST NEWCASTLE! Turns out that the newpaper i was reading on the way to church had a mis print. Printed 5.5 instead of 1.9. So i just bought $20 to win $18. I tot it would be 5.5 and i would win 80+. BAH

Took 403 from the interchange to pasir ris park. Me and Alvin were carrying the big red ice box and stood at the back of the line at the bus interchange. Didnt join the queue as the railing was too small. When the bus came , 1/2 of the line belonged to our people and me and Alvin just went to the front of the line and entered the bus. Soon when Mark and chau came up, they told us that an old man was kpkb-in about us cutting the queue and so rude and wanted to know what school and all that crap. Start of the day got people complain already? nvm la let it go. When he got off the bus he kept staring at us, like we killed his son or something. His wife was also staring at us. Dont you know that we out number you 2 old people? Somemore we are all younger... Imagine if we were uncouth, you'd be beaten up by then.

He demanded to know out school and kpkb to Chau and Mark, the last people who got on the bus. I would have answered this

"This disclosure of the information such as our school or where we are from is strictly up to us to disclose it at our own space and time. Unless you have a warrent or get the police to demand the disclosure of this information, we would prefer not to disclose information to strangers such as you.

Who knows that you may be a murder,molester or rapist. Disclosure of such information is part of our privacy and we were taught never to disclose information to strangers. Look at the signs from the MRT, not to follow or trust strangers *Smile*.

So in order to protect the safety of my friends, this information will not be given to you. *Pause to smile*. Also, since your not getting any younger, why stress your self over such trivial matters? Your on the bus, you have gotten a seat, there is plenty of space around so whats the problem? If its a moral problem then i apologise for the group but since your already say old, perhaps you should have been the bigger man and let such trivial matters pass since your not affected in anyway.

If you still have the urge to complain, please go ahead and write in to the newspaper forums. My name is Kenpachi Lim and i await your complain to the press. If you really need to know where we come from, then i'll tell you. *Lowers voice* We are from Pasir Ris Primary school. There , you have a name and a school, complain away the rest of your life, while you still have your health. You may never know when you might croak *shrugs*. God bless and if you ever make it to heaven, dont complain that people might enter earlier then you. Peace be with you"

There we have it, Kenpachi Lim settling a dispute between an old man and a group of 15 youths.

If i could have moved out or something i would have to use words to pacify this man from the days of M1 temp-staffing. But unfortunately, the old man alvin was squashing me in the seat. Old men...

The fire was started at 5pm, started cookin with Alvin, with Afiq happily being the butterer (applies butter to the food). Chau gave blow jobs (to the fire) while the rest were either looking after the bag or getting the food ready. Started cookin from 5-8 +? Everyone was eating but me and old man. Food lasted till 12+ , played around until some people went home. Took a break then.




The aftermath, nut got pwned.


Small group photo


Quick Felix!, Call 994

Then i had won $18 from the stupid lpool match which i could have bought more lol. When i went to the toilet and back, Mark also came back, he bought me a heiniken =D Thanks Mark!
At around 1230am we went to the playground and played on a revolving disc. It was a disc that was slanted. Meant for people to rotate the disc while you were sitting on it. BUT me, old man and james started doing funny stuff on the disc lol.


This is the disc in day light, imagine 2 people running on it at night with no lights.

E.g Old man and i were doing Tandem run on the disc =D. Later on James was a hurdle and Tandem run hurdle! lol.. The record is 2 turns and 2 jumps lol. Did stupid stuff throughout the night and then waited till 7am. Went to White sands to eat bfast then went home via mrt.

End of FOR : BBQ. Thanks to those treasurers that put in alot of effort to buy the food for this event. Thanks to those who helped carry the food over here and there, and final thanks to everyone who came. Fun event isnt it? Most people went home to sleep, naa i went home and stoned, feeling abit lost. Spent like 30 mins thinkin about duno what, then played WoW lol.. Damn frostmourne i so laggy, im goin over to Jubei'thol. Takin a break from frostmourne.

12:19am, ending this post. Finally my other com has finished copying things to the new hdd, now have 320gb in total =). Enough upgrading now a... I warn u a this setup is already good enough for nuT >.> Now the only thing left is FO camp.. Cant let anything distract me, dont bother now, see after the FO Camp.


Lovely kitty

Oh yes! Sorry Shermian! Duno why a i bbq-in the food that time i holdin the thong keep hittin your hand, ahhh paiseh, i this whole week lack of sleep, not that sharp already. Sorry! Lucky no burns a =x

-Pffft sorry to all, last week a i damn out of sync. Goin to sleep more for prep camp then i can shove the "Your prep camp you all dont need to sleep" line in all your evil faces.-

First off Microsoft is screwing with me. Making my msn screwy for no apperant reason.

Ok what happened in the past week. Id like to know too... Lets see..

Monday
Cant remember

Tuesday
Cant remember

Wednesday
Woke up at 10... Chalk msg me sayin sumtin abt bein in holland cos he was borrowin DVD from his Canadian pizza -.- .. Ok so i woke up and went to holland market to eat laska with him. Later he came over to wait for james to wake up and go orchard.

In the mean time he was playing Enemy terrority, lol uber old and fun game ok. I used to play in, always got until the last rank . Alvin says he last time played ET in those sg svr, but i dun remember him leh. Im nutcase since then, duno abt all this >.> Always play support classes such as medics and engineers.. Maybe im only good at supportin in these games la. Teamwork is the norm. Though i support it doesnt mean i dont go around healing or fixing only ok, i only do those if im in the area -_-.

Ok then played winning eleven. Played 3 times won 1-0 3 times lol. I do kuku stuff, call keeper come out of box and tackle chalk lol. Then i played korea and won his japan with a goal from park ji sung. Ironic this "korean" was beaten by korea.

After that went to orchard to i forgot do what. The snake noodles ps me sia, suddenly get sick >.> .

Thursday
Projects meeting, went in the help a bit here and there. After that went to JP to buy my headphones and speakers then went home... Losing money, help!

Friday
GM then camp song. Kao shout until no voice sia... Fun camp song lol.. After that played bball . Havent played in a long long time. zzzzz no fate to play bball la, was hit by the ball from a pass from CJ. Guess i wasnt lookin properly. After that went home and yes, im gettin sick of WoW... wow... i would rather msn pffft. BUT WTH MY MSN IS SCREWED.PEOPLE CANNOT SEND ME MESSAGES. Sigh....

Saturday
Woke up at 11 then went down to Petra to check out the amps with chalk. Took 3 amps, 1 mixer and bunch of cables. The amps we'll collect it at a later date.. I lugged the cables and mixer back to club with chalk. Heavy sia, only concern was the fingers gettin blistered. Ok. Then had the FOE meetin. Ended at 530pm and went to IMM to help noodles buy the BBQ stuff with TC chalk, yap and shawn. Later yiboon can and ate dinner with us.

Gawd im bored, msn is broken. Seein people put their nicks as "NUT cannot send u message!". This is the age of nut cannot recieve messages. Horrible age, as horrible as the plague. Off i go to stone, losing money... Hope to cover back up to $200 and use that pool for the world cup.. This is just depressing.

-nuT is shy dun dare ask ppl out =x-

A final word

-Microsoft stop screwing with me-

Why does my left eye keep tearing! Broken already, lousy sia.

Itchy left eye, not red, dont seem infected. Strange.

Lazy to update blog for now, doing when im not going out, maybe next week.

-Late already still dun sleep? Humans should be sleeping. Me? Im no human.-

Friday 10th March

Sentosa day, the MIT's FOR @ Sentosa. Supposed to meet them at Habourfront at 9am. Tc u knn stupid idiot, call me at 7am. Keep calling i keep rejecting the call u die die must call me ar? 7am i dont want wake up i wanted to wake up at 8am. U call me so early for what? nuT dont live 13469871346 km away from Habourfront! Anyway i went back to sleep and woke up again at 845am (See , calling me so early results in me oversleeping) You dont know how dulan i was , people already reject the call 2 times u still die die must call again and again and again.

I dont need 23059741093468 hours of sleep a day , im a light sleeper so please, which idiot does this "wake up call" to me if i didnt ask for it, i thank you now for this unannounced service however expect me to be dulan at you for a whole day. If it was so impt you would have msged me if you couldnt get me. I dont really want to ans questions when you wake me up JUST to ask me REDUNDANT questions. In this case, i guessed the conversation would be as so

TC: Wake up
nut:....
Tc: Are u going sentosa?
nut: .... YA LA U CALL ME JUST TO ASK ME THIS QUESTION, WHAT DID I TELL U YESTERDAY

or

nut: (Irritated tone) YA

. Either way no one would be happy

Anyways i woke up at 845 and ran to the bus stop in 5 mins cos chalk got on the bus already. Was heading to my house and i made it in time. Played in sentosa till 3pm when we left for Suntec City for the IT fair. Bought my 250gb hdd there and ate dinner at the food court. Went home after that and was a little bit suntanned from sentosa

Saturday 11th March

Woke up and left to meet the MIT guys to go to Holiday inn. Went to the hotel room to put my clothes for the ADD (Annual Dinner and Dance) later at night. Went to PS to eat lunch , slack around, talk to umbrella and get free movie tickets. After that went for the ADD, it was a great event BUT the money went into the entertainment. The food wasnt all that great, was some malay tandoori and curry . This was a $55 dinner , and i felt like it was a $3.50 nasi bryani. Also the service sucked, SUCKED BIG TIME. We requested for a ladel and it took 5 people to get it. The initial response to our request was "Sorry, no" WTF?

Next year if we're organising this, we'll never choose holiday inn! After that we went to cine to watch Big momma's house 2. Overall wasnt all that a great movie, short , not all that funny either. Thats the problem, if you watch one movie, a group of 13 cant watch that movie and we all have to change . Why do you think i gave up planning events ? One dont want to spend any amount of money (Almost impossible) , One dont want to do this cos they have done it already etc etc, the list goes on. Ever since sem 1 ended , i had enough ahahah.

Went back to the hotel at 4+, slept at 5am to 8am then went to church with chalk. Listen to the sermon then went to redhill to eat bfast. Chicken rice. After that i went home and slept for 2 hours before i was awaken by a bee hovering on top of me. Stupid bee, i smacked it (amazing, i wasnt that awake, never thought properly before i did it LOL) Didnt get stung but when i woke up and relased what i did ar, i penged .

Now its 3am, im WoW-in abit . Im doing some stuff in a very very unbalanced terrority.. Where the horde gangs you. E.g Lvl 45 sees me, a lvl 40 char. I wave the lvl 45 runs away and returns with 2 lvl 60 to kill me. Yes, im in STV, an alliance char in STV. STV is the devil!

Ok back to wow then i can sleep soon, nites

-Suddenly i want to try to steal you heart, but the key word here is try LOL-


rawr











Ok now is 4am, I AM REALLY GOING TO SLEEP NOW. I was checking my mail and i came across 2 emails still there.. Dated 2/10 and 4/10. I have half a mind to send it back to the sender but the outcome would be terrible.... At least i wont feel a thing. Since i dont feel a thing before i send it and after i send it, why make life difficult. Pffft the day im evil and nothing changes ill forward it back for no apparent reason.

I just wanna stone for the next 54389167490136879348618934734906873496 hours of my life =)

Feeling bored now, dont wanna play games or watch tv but am waiting for the Arsenal v Real Madrid match... 45 more mins.

aDe ps me and went to slp , how can you be like this? Yesterday u missed the chelsea v Barca match! And i clearly told you it was yesterday ok. Ahh yes, the working class people, work will just suck the life out of you. You will need tons of sleep to cover up working for a short period of time. How i wish i was just working my life away, then i would have time for much nonsense that had passed/will pass/is passing now.

Slightly Blur now, goin to rest for the next 40 mins.

aDe said 9th march is payday, since u ps me, u owe me a beer.
-nuT wants more Pie-

zzz feel abit funny, feel guilty that i made people cry. So far , there was one this year (p1)...and there was one last year (p2)... Im a bad person.. i wonder if p2 still hates me hmm...Well, i hate myself for what i did last year. Foolishness got the better of me then.

-nuT ate Pie-

Monday 6th Feb

Today went out with old friends! Lets see... Cindy, Boo Honk, Sze,Cai Fen and Enqi... Went to party world at Tanjong Pagar at 215pm. Cabbed down with Sze cos i was lazy to go so far to the MRT station..

Obviously i knew that we would be the first to arrive since they said to meet at 2pm. Usually slowly one by one everyon would arrive by 3pm lol... Amazingly Bong was there at 215... So we went in first and started singing.. He went on to sing 80's and 90's songs lol.. they lyrics they place are damn funny. "Im a weirdo" can become "I am a willow" Pwned.

We sang eng songs till Cindy came cos when she come the language would change to chinese all the way. We ended at 615pm then i went off to bugis to find CJ, Chau, Shermian and Siyu. Ate my pie at BK ,
nuT ate Pie =D finally... Slacked around till 8pm then went to PS with CJ and Chau to meet Daniel, Bob, Ceed and Derrick to eat dinner. Daniels bday celebration.

Ate at fish and co. Standard of food has dropped alot and i forced myself to eat through it. Ate a seafood platter for 2 wif bob. After that we went to meet Dan's other friends Wei de and Jackson. Bob and chau left for home while the rest headed to bugis to drink. Went to some pub that dan once went before ( The one where he drank the long island and he vommited in the train. The cleaner must haf tot which !#^#$^$* vommited on the last train) Was talking to ade on a bunch of stuff, having some kind of conversation la cos daniel talkin wif his frns den CJ Drk and Ceed were talkin maple i presume. So lets see, ade watched FD3 ( horrible movie, dun watch it!), is still working and is still as blur. *Shrug* Maybe ill go visit her on wed nite, but no discount! @#%&@%&

Started off with Long island tea.. Seemed very very mild to me, maybe they watered it down hmm. After that started ordering 5 in a bucket of heinkien. If im not wrong i think i had aroud 4 bottles in total? Derrick drink abit he peng.. He cant hold his alcohol la.. Then Ceed drank less. Daniel also less.. Piang ur bday u drink so little. Jackson knew his limit then didnt drink as much. CJ refuses to mix liquor with beer, duno him la...its not that bad dude, all u had was a lime margarita. Ok so we started talking nonsense and twas damn funny!

We reached there at 11+ and left at around 150am. By then Weide who i tink drank as much as me was kind of sleepy or something, Jackson still ok, Daniel ok, Derrick - Dead already, Ceed ok and CJ who didnt drink much was ok. I was high, not drunk, abit tipsy but still could walk straight and was sane ok. Went home in a cab. Reached home in 5 mins, no traffic at all and green lights all the way..

Fare was $9, decided to tip him a $1 for some reason. Maybe in a happy mood. Went home showered, WoW abit then went to sleep.

Weds 8th March
Went to the school gym at 1230pm. Did leg exercises , training for next sem intercon soccer. After that went to chalk's hse with chau to take a shirt for the ADD. Then took a long bus ride which i slpt on to marina to meet shermian and siyu to eat carl's Jr. (My bfast,lunch and dinner)
After that went back home and stoned for the rest of the nite. And stupid shermian, make me go throw ur rubbish a, u GOOD, u VERY GOOD.

Anyways, later got Barca v Chelsea match. Dont want to touch this kind of match, very easy to kelong. Will touch tml's matches instead. Ill just stop here tonight.

pffft duno what to write here, so something basic
-Sieze the moment, savour it all, while you still can-

sigh..

I never wanted it this way or that way or anyway. But im sorry.. sorry once again for this shit that happened..i never meant for this to turn out like this, sadly i cant say i love u. I was enlightened by someone before that you cant love a person in a short amt of time. Liking someone that will grow into love then is a different story.

Sorry...But i fear im a distraction in your life, stopping you from achievin your dream, i dont wanna hurt u. Your so innocent and im not say the best person to follow. Im lazy , impulsive playful...Im sorry for being so selfish...

I dont expect anyone to understand me, for who has really understood me at all?

Well dd, im lazy, but ive got a good mem..the way i study and u study is diff.. I last time always ask u go out after sch but u always say u go hme slp/study/etc.etc.etc. Oh well, that was then... now i have to do more tings, not always play play play... u dun know what im doing nowadays *shrug* nvm...Since im the mood for sorrys and enlightenment, i would like to say sorry and thank you too. sorry for fooling around too much in sch, and thanks for having the grace and power to contain your anger.

-I once said single cell organisms were better-

Sorry...Well shit happens...

First, one of my frns has a problem... I feel for him, going through a tough time now.. Which got me thinking, what if...

Well off i go thinkin again. I dont wish to think about the future. I just want to live in the present, enjoy my life peacefully and be carefree. Dont wish to hurt people, for it'll just store more guilt in me. Guilt stores in me for im given this mind, which has a good memory. If i remember something important to me, i seldom forget it. I once fractured my younger sis's arm when we were playing as younger childern.. I was playin soccer by myself and she wanted to join me so we started playing. I kicked the ball, it hit her and she fell down and fractured her arm. I still remembered that day. I was full of guilt, thinking that i had broken her arm. I clearly remember my parents were furious with me.

The guilt is still here in me, though little but is somewhere in there. I made it a point to treat my sis better just becos of that. Though sometimes she gets on my nerves, she's still my lil sis and deep down i care.

Next, last night my elder sis was quralling wif her bf. It was 230am and i heard her shouting and crying.. I was about to sleep then but decided to wait for her to finish then check on her. And so i waited for about an hour when she finally finished. Checked on her for a while before going to sleep..

On saturday i woke up at 11+. Slpt at 4 woke up at 11 to help my dad do some wiring of the house. Spent the whole day lazing around, slacking and playing.

At night, when i went out to watch tv,i saw my dad in the living room, watching a video on his laptop. It was a video from his office... Well i watched part of it while eating my dinner and this really got me thinking again.

I finally understood how he feels, a rough patch of time this is for him. Guilt struck me this time. Cold and hard.. How patient he has been with me even though its a rough time for him. He gives me a foot and i take the whole acre, and he allows me to take it whole. It is only when i go overboard and want the world, then he finally get angry. Im wrong, im sorry, ive been selfish, unfilial, un co-operative at times. Im sorry. Im just so selfish, i dont know why. You only know how to care for me and love me, but yet i dont see this until now.

Im sorry but no matter how many times i apologise, it still wont be enough to get rid of this guilt,that has been hidden in me for so long. Im sorry dad, i doubt that you will ever stumble across this but im sorry..Sorry for being the thrash i am, for being so selfish...

Sorry Dad.

-I wept today for i finally understood. How can i clear this guilt? A life time of debt i owe to you for bringing me up so well, yet i turned my back on you many many times, and yet each time u only smiled and welcomed me back with open arms.-

I know not everyone is so fortunate to be like me, but love your parents for they are the ones u owe your life to.

On another frequency..
-I dont want to hurt you, thats why im afraid. It feels funny and if it has to ever end, please be the one to hurt me instead of me hurting you. This stone heart of mine is thick enough to take everything but guilt.-

Hmm Wednesday

Woke up at 9am.. Slacked around till 3pm Then went to school at 4pm to attempt to study. Even worse, crap around till 5pm. At 5pm i got hungry and ate a Mcspicy meal. At 530 i then started reading chapter 7 of NETF for the test at 6pm... Started writing at 610 pm. The 10 min reading time. By 630 i was looking at the teacher and the teacher was lookin at me... 645 then i finally left the room, too cold.. First to finish the stupid paper no one was out yet.

After all that went to eat dinner etc etc... At 11pm went home with chau and shawn. Ton at my hse. Played DOTA and winning eleven with the chau.

Thursday

Slept from around 4-5 hours and left the house at 11am. Went to JEC and met shermian. Ate lunch at long john silvers ( I Felt it was damn horrible.. very xin ku for me to eat there). After that went to play pool. Played for an hr and got pwned ar.... Was very blur also la, a bit tired..

After that went to Tanglin to play soccer.. From 230 to 430... I Played until i stretched my muscle and had to stop @&@$%&*. Damn it... Played with all my sec sch frns, long time since we've gathered. Last time was last year before we all went to poly. Went home at 6+ and now im here writing rubbish. Going to slp now, tml still going gym.. Half pai kar still can go gym a power =)

gah..

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PREFERRED SEX: Female
THE EIGHT FACTORS:
1. cute!
2. beautiful smile =)
3. patient with nuT
4. more mature then me
5. smart
6. understanding
7. caring
8. -cant tink of one now, get back to u-

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