Nut Says

Ahem, since that friday night, i finally fell. After 10 years i fell to a flu... On Sunday went for a reounion dinner at beach road. I had a headach before that so i took 2 panadol on an empty stomach..

Came back from the dinner and lo and behold, i got a 39deg fever before i wanted to sleep. Felt uncomfortable and was up most of the night. Next day, monday went to the doctor and i had a throat infection or somethin..

He said something about blood will mix with my phlem or mucus. After that went back home to rest. Was pretty fine for the rest of the day, and at night when i was going to host the fucking CRS meeting for the presentation, they all were late. I couldnt bother anymore and scold the fuck out of some people. Futhermore, i still follow my stand, WHY CANT I USE CAPS WHEN AND WHERE I WANT. ITS MY KEYBOARD. ITS MY COMPUTER. YOU DONT LIKE IT CLOSE IT. There. If i were to do this all around, my webP teacher wouldnt be all that happy as i failed not to use caps often.

I had to use caps in that conversation. One idiot tries to suddenly become the leader when i finally decided it was time i took action. Why cant you gather the people yourself then YOU can be the leader. Dont wait till someone else is doing something then YOU POP UP and try to be Mr. I-CAN-DO-EVERYTHING.

Thats what i dont like. After that i went to sleep at aroud 10+ but once again, another 39 deg fever hit..

Tuesday
Woke up and stoned. Was feeling better, no more fever but still a little weak. So i decided to use my mc.. 3 days from Mon to wed =S. Stoned and watched tv while doing research for CRS. Felt a burden on me..But i cant complain cos 2 other members dont really understand the topic, so .. suddenly become a joint production btn Daryl and me lol. Mr. Kwang finally came up with something good and i just threw it in. Slept early once again..

Wednesday
Went back to school feeling stronger. And wtf, i missed one lesson of VB prac and they use a different code to code the database. kns, i miss so much. Recap : I turned off at Class,methods,arrays and database. 4 chapters, ok i have to study and understand that within the next 2 weeks to complete my VB assignment..Opsy once again, played games again.. After which went for booth duty with Mr . Hee. kns. Play game no self control one. Must make me raise my voice then you can leave the stupid fucking dota game ar. Responsibility first.. u sign up u do it else dont sign up at all.

Thursday
Amazingly went for VB tutorial. Choo asked me a question and wow.. i can answer from my blank question paper. Shows that i understand arrays after all. =) Did CRS with daryl after answering the question and even in Netf class. After that i went to wow on daryl's laptop rofl.. Lag-a-thon. Highest lag = 27801. Lowest = 1400. After that went to a flopped CRS presentation. I couldnt think well due to my coughin.. DBMS after that and i went home to rest somemore..

Cough came back with a vengence, and i felt miserable for the whole day. From the start to the end. I wanted to cough my lungs out. At one point i was coughing so hard i was tearing. Hope tml would be a better day. Let things go my way...for once ... correctly..

-Forgive me girl, for perhaps i tried to use your feelings to my advantage, im sorry. -

Btw did i mention i ran out of hair wax thus i never style my hair no more? lol..

First off, sorry to nitewalk people, i went home cos i wasnt feeling well. Sorry u had to slp at T15 =x really sorry. My bad.

Woke up and went to school to clean the clubroom. Spent from 1030am to 430pm cleaning up the club. Club Spring cleaning. Now the club is re-organized and neater =D. Or rather at least i know where things are now. After what went to Queensway where i finally got my holland jersey. $80... Over the past few days i spent $300+ on computer hardware. I first bought radeon x1600 but never check if it was pciE or agp. So the next day i had to go back to change for a A6600 GT AGP graphics card. Also when i installed it, it gave me problems and got me into quite a bad mood. Sorry for the past week, havent been in a good mood recently and also, havent been thinking clearly. Due to the fact that i am being irritated by the same old 8 month cough. 4 more months and i can celebrate my 1st year anniversary. Longest with me...

Just a short entry cos im not feeling well.

-nuT v 2k6.1701- Sick but not dieing... Happy happy joy joy happy happy joy joy
I lost my throat. Breathing difficulties I want to leave this world, but i cant. Take away my pain..

-Question : - I asked, but will never get a reply.

Sch was boring today. Went at 9am for OPSY, ended up watching CSI...
DBMS , payed 40% attention to the lesson before i gave up =D
IWGD, did the work quickly and then went to watch House. (Medical show)

Then went to club and use TC com to clear up my portable HDD. But played bball for 15 - 20 mins before that before it rained heavily. So i was in the club room using tc com, playing CS with touchpad =D and teamwork CS =D.

Then went to paint the banner for Annual dinner and dance..Painted for i dont know, 2 hours max? 1 hour min? I forgot what time i started but ended at 745pm, when i gave up. My back was in slight pain (Yes im old and in pain). Old Spine injury, curved sort of like an 'S' shape so when i bend or stand still for long periods of time it'll hurt.

Went home , and i decided to pack my room cupboards to clear up space. I had to make a mess to clear up a mess... Started at 10pm and now its 1230am. Many memories that were thrown into that cupboard were finally thrown away. Others may deem it useless crap but each 'useless crap' means something. A period of 1996 to 2006 was in that cupboard. The earliest being a primary school photo and the latest being a Yellow ribbon crap. I even found a present i bought for someone but...never could give it to.. 2-3 years back, long gone anyway.

Surrounded by all kinds of memories today. Good, bad , all were meaningful and made me ponder. I changed many people when i was younger. I was really loud, outspoken and an extrovert. But something changed me along the way, perhaps it was around sec 2 - 3 ? Now, i MAY be loud and outspoken BUT now i am an introvert. Afraid that ill hurt people's feelings i keep everything inside.

From Primary 4 all the way to SP First Sem. I made many friends, but not many to keep. So far, primary school i have less then 10, secondary school also around 25. These are TRUE friends, never selling you out, never backstab you and are always there for a laugh. Numbers could have been more but i dont keep in contact that often unless they are online or they give me a call. In SP, once again many were to keep. We shall see.. Ive lost the battle of the first sem, but i havent lost the war yet.

I was asked "Why are you anti maple, its not like maple did anything to you".

Thats where your wrong. Maple did a whole bunch of fucked up things to me indirectly. Im not addicted to games. Never have i been addicted to something so much that i give up everything else just for a stupid game. But others have and in the process, letting others down. Once too many times. This disgusts me. In my class of 20,
20% plays wow -> Im here
25% are muggers -> To me only 15% im fine with
10% i cant confirm what they do atm
5% Dont play games
40% are maplers.

All day i hear maple, fuck off and die fags. Whats so fun about at 2D game that cant pvp. Whats so fun that you have to play it all day and talk about it all day. Havent you heard of recent news? Cant you talk about the weather?

In short, addicted maplers, i have this sentence for you
"FUCKING DIE AND BURN IN HELL."
Like muggers, rushing home everyday to study, you all rush home to maple.

Good bye memories.

-For i dont understand why-

zzz kind of a crap day today.

In one sentence, DBMS -> VB -> Queensway shoppin complex -> Home -> GM -> Jurong point.
Coughed and am still coughing my lungs out. What the hell is going on. 2 months after i entered SP i coughed like i had smoked for 10 years. Now after 3 sems its like ive smoked for 100 years.

Today, GM ended early, only 30 mins. Then went to JP to eat dinner then go pasar malam.
Felt sick ( really sick ) and tired ( lack of sleep)... Came home and wow for a while, while coughing my lungs out. Then came home after that at 1030pm.

Im actually wondering what to do. hmm. I cant possibly remain dead to people but i dont have any solutions. Due to the fact that i dont know whats the problem. Delicate situation. On a scale of up to 10, i would rate this 10 being extremely delicate. hmm Id have to be careful but where do i start? Good question.

Anyhow, On Friday the 13th January 2005, Welfare head, nuT declared war on maplers. A statement is has been released on why war.

"Today, i declare war on maplism not as a whole but to certain groups of maplers under maplism. There are many groups of maplers and today in this brief statement, i would go though the 4 main groups of maplers.

1) Hot air balloon
This kind of mapler is what i want to annihilate. All the person does is talk hot air and shows off but when in game, the person is merely a low level player. These kind of gamers should be shot and killed all together

2) Extremist
This kind of mapler is a boon to society. Having seen a close friend of mine who is an maple extremist, it is a really sad and sorry sight. These kind of maplers are those who maple when they have the chance and maple for long periods of time. They throw away everything, studies , career etc etc all for a stupid 2D game. They also may not have a sense of time anymore and tends to either be late or altogether not turn up at all for any event. Maple is their life and they have no idea what the term "Self-Control" is and therefore should be re-educated. If that fails, they should be eliminated. There isnt a point in wasting precious human resources for these mindless zombies anymore, when we all know we cannot depend on them anymore.

3) Passing time
This kind of mapler is like the first stage of eggs. Say different kinds of eggs are mixed in a basket. At this present moment, we have no idea if they would be a Extremist or a casual gamer who plays just to pass time. We should terminate the root of the problem and things would be easier. However i will not be declaring war on this group but monitoring them closely and prune the weeds one by one. We cannot remove an entire plot of flowers just for a few weeds

4) F.O.M (Friends of Maplers)
This kind of mapler plays maple for the sake of their peers. They are simply there to have a simple chat or play with their friends. They usually wont be addicted as the extremist would be and thus wouldnt pose much of a problem. This group is the lowest and most safe group of maplers and a limited but sufficient amount of resources would be present the ensure that the group would not get out of hand.

These 4 groups are the main group of maplers in maple. I will be declaring war on them and will take action when deemed necessary. Currently we are going through tests to confirm if the Extremist group are contagious and even as we speak, the Exremist are under 'house arrest'. When i say house arrest, i dont mean that we send the militiary or police over to guard them as we already know, the chances of them going out are Zero to None and you get my point."

This has been a brief statement by the Welfare Head, nuT on the War against Maplism

Logging
14th January 2006 2:10am

-Shot and left for dead in your mind, but im alive in my own world. Will the worlds collide again? If so id have one more friend again. Else im still one friend down.-

Major update
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Updated to -nuT v 2k6.1310-

Quick one.

Pon VB to wow. Came for netf at 1015. Lunch. CRS. Pon DBMS to go home to settle something and wow a lil. Back to school for comm head meeting. Off to orchard. Home. WoW. Here. Sleeping soon

Whatever, im going to become a no life World of warcraft (WoW) player. Few reasons that pushes and pulls me to and from this.

WoW is good
1) My class is made up of 70% maplers. Die and burn in hell.
2) I no longer bother to kill my brain cells and organise outings for my class due to the fact that everyone has their own problems for EACH event. So i stopped abt 3 months ago. Go out also dun dare do crazy stuff.
3) My class become almost no life, boring as hell. Everyday all go home do duno wad sai. Once in a while then they bball.
4) Nothings the same
5) I want to be lvl 30 by end of next week.

Dont be a WoW chiongster
1) MIT club , i havent laughed so much in such a long time.
2) Vouyergraphy club , go out talk cock sing song , enjoyable. Do stupid and fun things, my kind of choice.
3) Penguin army, we are wudi lol..
4) Am i really that down that i must go back to chiong game again...

Well in this case, ill alternate..self control is the key. Next up, some friends that have problems.. Yes i have problems too, i can take critism anytime, helps me know my mistakes and ill try to change.

Problem
1) You sleep in class for (i dont know if many,some or alot, for im dun care anymore to count) lessons , ask the teacher simple questions on what he teach at the end end end of the lesson then go home and self study.

Advise
1) WAKE THE HELL UP. You want to go to Uni. Listen to some fragments of the damn class at least. Look at your MST result for 2 subjects. I know you self studied. But it seems to me that its not enough damnit. Please, if you cant self study or commit to self study, i rather you sleep EARLIER if you cant take it and have to sleep in school. Please dude, to you it seems you really want to go to uni. So wake the hell up.

Problem
2) Dont know what you are doing anymore, no longer coming to school, dont feel like coming for MST then dont come. I think your influencing another person not to come to school either. You have poor time management, cannot wake up on time by yourself. Sleep late? Thus cannot wake up. Tested and proven, phone calls cant wake you, heard people had to wait for you to wake up before. Irresponsible? To be frank, after a chain of events, you disgust me. Always Pang sey or later for long periods of time. Side events too. Im not going to cover you anymore, help yourself now.

Advise
2) Wake up. You did terribly in sem 1. Are you going to do the same now? SLEEP EARLY. duno wtf u doing now, since i never bothered anymore. Play play play stupid game consume your time, consume your life.Go learn selfcontrol. I said i quit dota and i did. I was telling you this for a long time, organise properly dont always play play play. Why did u fail in sem1? cos u play play play never study. 30 min b4 exam then start studying. SELFCONTROL AND WILLPOWER, will you have that? Go learn these 2 skills damnit.

Problem
3) Im a wall.
Advise
3) Id still be a wall.

Well overall, 2 people would be easily i.d but damnit you 2. If i werent your friend i wouldnt rant about this a brief guide on what i have to say to you soon. I would continue to let you steadily decline until nothing is left. Ive tolerated this for a long time. But i just dont see the time to tell you in your face. Or the matter, how can i tell you in your face no.1 , w/o spoiling frnship. No 2. tell u before when i got damn pissed at you, pang sey until i cannot take it.Who in poly has seen me damned pissed before? Excatly.. The world dont revolves around you and games. Wake up. Or maybe sem 1 wake up call wasnt enough for you. I told you and ill tell you soon again as a reminder. You can choose to listen or not, its up to you after all, this friendship has been scared already. Well for no.3 , messy...Ive no ideas.

Well, soon i will say this, ill just observe a little bit more. See how no 1. goes about. No 2. soon if your behaviour keeps up, id have to shout in your face once again.. No 3. ......

My problems?
1) Lazy in studies
2) Things that dont interest me simple dont interest me.
3) Looks too far in to possible case sceniaros.
4) Not attentive in class. - Im restless, but yet i cant sleep in class.
5) Sleep late , wake up early. - Lack of sleep, health decreases alot but i dont care..

Well, i have the same problems as you 2..Im lazy in my studies, i cant be bothered to study for my MST. But i dont complain about why i fail or my marks are low No1, you only have yourself to blame. Also i dont pay attention in class but i can do selfstudy. I understand when i read up my self. But do you? I fear you dont so you better pay attention instead of sleeping. I listen to FRAGMENTS of the lesson. No 1. and No 2. I sleep late too, 2-3 am is my peak cos i know i need to go to school. Yes i know you dont have the privilage of having a school near your house. If you wanted to sleep in you would have gone to a sch near your house? Thats what i did. I come to SP as it was near my house. Why did you come SP for i wonder. Whats your reason? If its to study, then do what you came here for. If its to play, tell me so i wont worry or care .

Logging

1:54am. Friday the 13th 2006.
What else can go wrong later on today, its already at its worse. Im a wall.

All in all, im sorry if anyone has been offended by this post, but id have to get it off my chest.
Sorry for having a poor attitude to some people.


Im also sorry for being around anywhere.

Statement : Life is good...
What a statement...

Ok this is f-ed up...i lay down at 2am to sleep ystd but i tossed and turned till 330am.. Stupid.. Today i felt like crap. Cannot concentrate in anything. Played CS after vb again.. Average playing, how i miss my copperhead when im using the school mouse, cant even turn properly. And omgwtfbbq~ Aurelia pwned yh and daryl in CS wahah only for 1 round though , then she go back do duno wad while i go back cs lol... pwned

So yea went to do booth duty after that from 12pm to 1 pm then went imm with james and kevin to find prices of jam bread kaya and peanut butter. I went to JE MRT popular to find wow but no stock. JEC there but they dont sell . So i had to go to JP and buy.. Rushed back to school at 330 for the captain ball which i played like shit. Too kan chiong ar... After that went for a 4 lap run, got tired and stopped, rested a min and sprinted half a lap and jog the remaining half lap.. My stamina is completely gone.

After that went to play bball.. Im seriously going to take up bball cos i cant fcuking find ppl to play soccer with me. So for the time being ill play bball to build my stamina. After that went home slack all that usual crap and msn time . Watch the pilot project , something abt poly students making their video shorts.Watched bits and pieces of it and one video got me thinking. What is love? I dont understand it. What excatly is love. Will it ever last forever? But that only lasted for a while. Cos "im taking life 5 minutes at a time" lol.. Then came SP's video. Seriously, i would vote for it if the sound had be better. It seriously sucked. Alot of air in the background and you cant even hear the speech. Coming from an ex sound engineer, i would say this "You FAIL" lol..Makes me wanna go DMMT but in sp theres no more dmmt next year.

And so im here now. With bleach 63 in my hands im off to watch bleach. cya

Logging

- Query : What is love? I dont know what it means
Statement : Everyone has their own problems-

First off, Heres what you want me to post laineet



There happy? =D

Ok today woke up at 12pm, finally sleep in... Went to eat lunch at home then went out to Queens way to find chalk, Felix and Kevin. Went to walk around queensway for shoes. My adidas pursuit dropped to $69!! New pair of soccer boots! heh..Then Belinda and cara came along and walk walk walk..After that we went to Orchard and played pool. Teck chau then arrived... Ok i confirmed it already, i can only play serious for one round afterwhich i dont give a damn about the rest of the other rounds..

After that when James finally came we went to cine to walk walk and the jasmine suddenly pop out....Also Felix said he'll wear hot pants if i buy it. Your on. FO camp u gonna wear pink hotpants. Went around looking for cheat hot pants for Mr Ker lol.. Went to E-Games and zzz the WOW CD is out of stock.. Never mind, went to apple and look at the computers and speakers.

After that took foto outside apple, Voyuergraphy club.. Then kevin left. We went to Hereen after that and walk some more. Went the the PK computers there and FO YONG CHICKEN WOW CD ALSO OUT OF STOCK. abit sad la.. cannot WOW. Went up down hereen and i bought the robbie williams calander for my sis... I happened to see it and since its affordable, buy it for her lo..

After tha went to clementi to eat dinner and go the pasar malam. Before we left for clementi Belinda cara and jasmine left to taka to eat mos burger.. Pls la today halal holiday mosque full.. zz lame joke ...maybe i going crazy ar..Cannot be wad cos i already am crazy =p Ate at clementi then go pasar malam find holland Home jersey. Size only XL and $25 for one.. Never mind i go find other places. We went to Giodarno and i bought orange polo shirt =D and OMGWTFBBQ, Mr Chau bought his first pair of jeans. Time to buy 4d. Buy 1001 ar. A must buy.

Ok , reached home at 1040+. Shower msn and do the stupid OPSY , from orders from my boss ar... Handed in at 12 and msn msn msn.. Msn until now where im blogging. Blogging faster then snake noodles =D

Logging

Tired tired...Wonder how many people know abt wad happen now hmmm

Gems at 8am. Went for gems and slept through gems, so fun. Then went for VB lesson. Did the VB assignment also so fun. Then during the vb lesson i self declare a break and went to walk walk. Walked around fc6, then back for vb. AFter vB went and did booth duty for the fotography thing. No one signed up... though i tried to ask many people who were looking on and walking by... abit sad la..

After that off i went to IDEAs. Spent 1 hour of it using the laptop doing nothing and the next hour when the guy left , outside the class listenin to my ipod and talkin to daryl and angeline. Enjoy these conversations when i think of nothin and enjoy crapping around =D lol..

The NetF i got my paper back
AMAZING! i got 59. 20 marks of questions i left blank, fragments of info were only in my mind that day and I PAWN A FEW MUGGERS. IN YOUR FACE lol..Tc got 88... mugger... 1B01 highest was like 96, then 93 then 90 then 88...wtf.. class full of muggers.

Anyhow i went to the club after that for some meeting and when i got there, najib wasnt there !#$^!@#@# liar siaa, for that on sat im busy >_>..due to spsu event...stupid spsu. Slack in the club room till i left for home at 615pm. Went home slack shower ate play msn. Basic stuff of dieing at home lar. And now its 2am. I also have my wish list ready. Here it is

Wishlist



End.

I have no wishes =D . I dont want anything at the moment. (i think) (and i hope).
Im have no desire for any materialistic items on this earth for now.
I only want kimochi (feelings) =D rofl.. old word...havent used it since...then..

Logging

-Abit sad la, i still cant look you in the eye-

Woke up today at 930, out of the house at 945 for chuch at G1...After that went for lunch at great world then went home. Didnt feel like going out again as it was raining heavily...Slacked again, tv and com. Slacked till 9pm. Had dinner and then did the VB for ideas.. Shit.. 2 hours and i duno how to do, but its ok since im the only one doing it. The ideas group is in shambles. Disorganised.Or rather we still have no leader =D lol..chiam liao

But never mind that, i didnt even touch the GEMS at all.. Later if he ask me wheres it ill just tell him i didnt do it *shrug* its only gems.

One more thing. Chalk u nv go church u good ar, nv open the doors to G3 then the people all stuck outside the church in the heavy rain..

Ok. im here now going to sleep. Nites

Logging

Here's a song..seems meaningful..

Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life) - GreenDay

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Ok. Slept for 3 hours before was woken up to send Jin Shawn and Yapmeng off.. I slept on the wooden floor =D The floor was cold and nice ~. Saw them off and went back in, it was raining in the morning. Cold...Ok the sleeping arrangement in brief was like so. James took my bed (smartass) , Chalk and QiuHui took a seperate mattress each. Jin and Shawn shared the 3 seater sofa, Yapmeng took the one seater and Amy146 took the 2 seater. I choose the floor as its been a long time since ive just slept on the floor..

Sent them to the bus stop and went back to the one seater chair.Stoned there a little and wondering "Is the 2 seater really around 146cm apart" lol..Things went fuzzy and they all left at 1030am. I also left at 1030 am to see a dentist. My teeth are in good con =D only that i went to clean it, polish it so it would go back to a lighter color. After that went to imm to buy a chair and slept on the way home. Woke up and found the car at grace to pick my sis up and i went back to sleep again. Next thing i was home. I went home and stoned on my com, watched tv and ate lunch. (Slack day lar , i dont do this on week days)

Then did IDEAS project, supposed to do the VB version of the uber mouse..did around 60-70% of it. Will continue tml. Went back to the tv , msn a lil and im back here. Quick day overall, simple and considering i had 3hrs of slp, i didnt feel like going out =) sry pps, ps everyone today..
Going to sleep now. niteS

Logging

Statement : ok i give... i wont be around , as much as possible...
Query: Do i have funny tastes in everything...?

Suay sia...This mornin woke up , finally got my bi-weekly contacts. Too tired from the lack of sleep over the past few days and when i tried to put my contact in, i blured out and dropped the right contact into the sink !$#^^!#$. Lucky the right contact is not astetic, just the normal one so i can go get a quick replacement..

So went off to school. When i left the house half way to the bus stop, Fu Yong chicken ! I forgot to bring my iwgd assignment 2 to school.. So went back home and copied into my ipod then left again..DBMS test took place , saw question 1,2 and 3 and was stunned already. 3/3 questions...good game..

While doing the test half way , the coconut pen ran out of ink. FU YONG CHICKEN @#$^. So i had to borrow a pen from yong he... After that went to buy evenlope and cd then went to the club. Joshua was there, then Chalk came later. Chalk overslept and missed his Internet security test.. lol.. So went with him to clementi to take MC and went to his house for a pick-me-up drink. Coke + vodka , orange + i-forgot-wad-liquor-name and Orange. Went back to school and completed the printing of the assignment. Wanted to support captain ball tourny but well change my mind....

It started raining and i was watching the Sports club vs EEE soccer match. EEE is .....'superb'. They had many chances but nothing materialsed..Also the rain was a major factor as the pitch turned into mud and mini ponds.

At the ending of the match EEE conceded 2 goals in 2 mins, kind of sad. If held to a draw MIT would have a slightly bigger chance of qualifying for the semi finals.

6pm slacked till 7pm then went to my house with Felix,Chalk,Yap meng, Shawn , Jin , Amy146, Qiuhui and Xue jia. Slack summore till 11pm then met james at the bus stop and proceeded to school for the nightwalk route planing thing.

Ended at 214am and left for my home and Mr Ker left for his home. Cook, ate a huge meal with everyone and it ended at 4:30am +-. Now almost everyone is sleeping and im here, bored, guess im going to take a nap soon.

'Just a tiny bit sad la, but generally happy' - How many times mus i say today ar -_-

Logging

Yea yea, ill go away, far far, not disturbing anything anymore.

Today went to sch for vb prac exam. Enjoy myself siaa, i like to code vb, much more common sense then java. Finished the test in 1 hr then did a bit of IWGD , utopia and enjoy the aircon. Looked around..briefly..z

After that went to KFC and ate lunch..After that went to fc3 and saw that waffle town was taken over by waffleton,malay version sia.After that went home and slept. Slept till 330 when yong hee called me abt iwgd crap.. sia la even when my fone is on poke mode it woke me up.

Slacked around till night then had dinner at home.

At 8+ Najib called me and i went to bk for 2nd dinner..also discovered something on the way..Team mo sut was there, wif alvin , afiq,candy,queenstown and jun hao. Went home at 930, shower and study dbms. 45 mins all read finish.Msn msn msn until now 1am.

zzz whats going on now? Its looping again sia.. one big loop again. If it was only that easy to disappear.

Logging. 1:05am 06/01/2005

-Java rocks-

Opsy test at 9am. Oh joy. Went in and gave 15+ marks back to them because i never studied chapter 1 lol.. After opsy went to lucky plaza to play pool. Went to the 6th floor and ate the friend muslim chicken rice =/ gaaah flashback =( . After that went to the arcade and played pool @ $3.50 / hour. Cheap sia. Played 1 proper round then my form decreased after that first round. Thought of the previous times playing pool..a bit sad la..After that went down and played FIFA 06 at sum shop that had a demo set there wif tc. Wigan almost won Manutd =D lol.. Tc using manutd, drew at 0-0 game.

Went to NYP after that. Fucking daryl kicked my ball, FUCKER @$%& lucky only the left ball ar u fucking pcb ... ill get you when you least expect it.. Ok back to NYP Went to NYP for some ebay talk, Chalk say 3pm - 5pm . lasted from 330pm to 4pm @#^ you cheat my feeling ar Chalk.

Walked around NYP after that. I declared the group that was there that we were from NP - EEE lol.. Then when walking around james must say out loud "Why the girls in NYP look like pri sch girls ar" liew.. the got 1 girl walk past. Later on walk by that girl again james say out loud again " why the girls in nyp look like pri sch girls ar". Then after that hear the girl talk to sum guy abt wad james said lol..

Walk walk walk until 5pm+ then go back home.. Went on mrt ar, felt sadded already. Flashback so much today o.O . Went to one corner of the MRT and went to sleep.. Then went to collect my contacts and went home after that. Slack around and before i know it, it was 830 pm. Dinner,shower msn till 930. Then i did the 3 web site page wif fotoshop in 30 mins =D so fast.

Now im here again, being abit sad. Yea what ever, tml vb.

Logging

Statement : Im sad la ok..?

NetF test today, many many blanks, at least 30 marks goes back to the teacher. Didnt care much anyways. After that went to study a bit of OPSY then went off to clementi wif TC to find bob and daryl to play pool..

Updating : Pool v 0.5 to v 2.5 .

Ive decided, its time to train and properly play pool once again. Nothing in -nuT v .04- will stop me. -nuT v.05- wont stop me either. Who ever knew alot of time was spent at clementi snookerium. Just looking back, i never played properly in 2005. Due to something stupid in 2004 , i said never to play pool properly anymore..Wonder why i did that. But who cares, its 2 years ago already. If its something stupid, why bother. So im eager to re train and get back again. Today play pool slightly better then in the ending of 2005. Slightly better in placing and shooting. But my frinch must go lol.. Kept blocking my view. So far i need to brush up on everything especially on my angle shots... Always miss by a little now.. So updating 'pool' program

Then went back to school for the unofficial proj meeting.. I have too much time to kill. And i dont want to study. No mood to study once again, like the semestral exam last term, no mood. Reached home at 4pm, saw something which made me ponder again. Slacked around till 1830 till i felt i needed a nap.. slept till 1915. Woke up and studied OPSY for 15 mins before dinner. Slacked till 9pm and started studying again . Studied till 0000. Power sia.. 3 hours straight i studied.. Now im here again going to sleep soon. Time is 1:09am.

Going back to the summary, how MIT club help ar.. Well i figured if i have so much time to slack and since i quit dota and most games, better to do something productive. So i decided to meet new people (amazing since i had no mood for it but i figured, whats the point of being held back?). So i enter the MIT club. Siao liao.. I volunteer for alot of things, siao kia. Why i volunteer? cos no one else wants to do it.. ( so technically being the person i am, i volunteer, im the last person you would look for if no one else dares or wants to do it) I didnt care if i dont have friends going with me, no friends? No problem. Make new ones. Simple as that. In the process, found another bunch of great people.. Also ive entered the 1st MIT Voyeurgraphy Club as Publications head.. And im the self declared Welfare comm head for FO camp planning =D lol..

Alot of stupid things were done in the process. Alot of problems ive tried to solve. Alot of things ive been told as a confidant. Maybe its time i hanged up my role again. Similiar in sec 2 , but i stopped after a period of time. Reasons were there for me to stop. Like now reasons are here for me to stop too.

Reasons
No 1 . Some times people are just irritating
No 2 . They are irritating that they get in your face
No 3 . I need room for myself so fuck off a while can
No 4 . Tell u also dun listen
nuff said.
You can tell me what you want, follow my advise if you want but remember, if you dont wanna listen and keep whining, then fuck off lar whine in my face also can help you do what.

Also a major change from -nuT v.04- to -nuT v.05- is that ive taken up a new language.. Fucking amazing that i picked up chinese. A CLB student taking up chinese, using it more then english. Maybe cos i was influenced in the whole 2005, from the time i started working at M1 , then hanging out in the first sem. Now my chinese is better then my 2 sis, one of which finished JC and now in Uni and the other taking O lvls now if im not wrong =x.. I pwned them =D they made a fool of themselves in taiwan lol..

Another amazing discovery, im in the same church as chalk.. He goes when he feels like and im being forced to go.. My limit now is half a sermon , which is not bad considering i started off from 0%.

Pretty much summed up the 2nd half of the year of -nuT v .05- 's log.

Well now is already 04/01/2005 1:30am. 1 week to bleach, few more hours to OPSY mst.
Im thinking abt bleach.
Im thinking abt how to put video into my ipod.
Im thinking abt cramming for OPSY in 30 mins tml.
Im thinking abt what im going to do.
Im thinking abt you.

Log complete.

142am. Last word
Maplers pfffft.

WARNING : Uploaded program 'NetF' is fragmented.
Ignore? Y/N - Hell yea.
NetF you suck. Woke up at 10am and started studying NetF. Studied till 1145 then went to watch tv till 1215 when i went out for lunch wif my family add my sis's bf and her friend that was staying over at our house due to a attachment in SG. Ate till 1430 then everyone left to do their own things. I left too and finally delivered this present from v .05 . Yea what ever...finally out of my sight..

Error : Processor malfunction
Continue? Y/N - no....
When i finally gave it, i was stoned. I also pretty much didnt know what to do lol.. *scratch* whats wrong hmmm. When i left i felt so light. So light i almost flew =D I also froze up *shrug* maybe something is wrong arr knn.

Now altogether ar after celebrating New year, in general im stoned and blur. My body clock is screwed, my brain is malfunctioning, im freezing up. Like a computer processor whos cooler has been removed, auto malfunction. Went home thinking what i should have said but whats the point arrrr.

Went home and studied again. Sent an sms but the reply machiam like cold cold one, as cold as T2026 aircon on Friday morning. Den i tink a bit, jus now see the person happy happy den the reply cold cold hmmm. Yea whatever again, back to NetF.

Study until 1830 then i went to watch tv. Watch tv and msn, throw in dinner ant its 9pm already. Studied till 10pm and i gave up again, back to tv till 2230. Studied until 2315 and i finally finished my fragmented NetF studies!
-COMPLETE- nuff said. I dont care, as long as i have bits and pieces, its alright to keep me alive.

And so now im here pondering. ERROR la fragment of v .05 is present.
ahem as you know, new software will always have bugs, nothing is perfect =)

Come to think of it, if i havent decided to become a full nuT at the start, all this wouldnt probally happen wouldnt it.. Given that i took 1 week to decide, i couldnt live the mundane life of going home early each day or listening to lectures. And so i decided to become nuT once again.. Still remember , i got tired and just blended in wif bob ,cj , ceed , fugly , angeline, chelsea , yong he , daryl , thats all i could remember. Went to the spGG arcade, and ended up late for math due to ceed playing marvel v capcom 2.

Walked in at 150pm for a MATH lesson that started at 1pm and ends at 2pm . When walking in we saw siyu who if im not wrong, just came back from jp . Dont know which day, i met derrick , and hanged out with him.. keep picking up after him.. covering him..the works, what did i want? nothing..

Hanged out with Derrick, Brendan , siyu , jenn, geok leong for the whole of the first sem. Went every where did many things together. Actually yong he also can one but he like to go home early and cant stay out late so.. there.

Every friday after webp we had a dota sessions. ( Ive quit dota already, 1st to quit, many followed later ..) Derrick who didnt like dota then played GTA.. couldnt really remember what the rest was doing except brendan who was dota-in wif me.. and maybe one or 2 more people..

CD was fun, had 4 lessons and LKY never came again. Played magic, CS etcetc while waiting for 1A01 ( then) to finish. It was a thursday.

Wednesdays, we ended uber early, and thus went out alot. Kbox etcetc

Tuesdays , rather much the same but ended at 330 after math tutorial..

Mondays, ... also the same lar

In a nutshell, everyday chiong go out.. Then everyone suddenly played wc3.. Jenn into dota, the rest into enfo.. after a while amazingly ar amazingly siyu play standard game rofl.. play 2 v Computer(easy/normal) i there front line force..when i battle the com weak or dieing then she assist lol.. also can la, trained my normal game a bit..I remember,i chose from NE to undead and finally ended off with orc...

That was part A of sem 1. Part B started after the MST which was relative easy...didnt need to study much then. And so Part B started.

Part B. Was happy with part B. Happy till the semestal exams. But yea.. sadly ar.. the peace was broken.. and went into the holidays immdiately after the exams. I could sense tension on the last day of the exam. Felt 2.5 bad vibes. Brendan sorry again about the ipod incident, a tad too playful. At least i know the reason for 1 / 2.5 bad vibes. The other 1.5...what ever..

Spent first 2 weeks going out with bob,ceed,tc,cj and tc's friend lenette ( whos my frn now duh). Had some kind of happiness over that 2 weeks not by going out...another happiness...But was it true or false? That 2 weeks what was going on? Ill guess ill never know.
Then the last 2 weeks, fell into slight depression but was helped la.. almost everyday go out wif the new group..

2 weeks into school reopen and i was kind of down, but not so down la. Down to only a point where i jus dun feel like going out or meeting new people. Never organise any outing so didnt go out. Let me say, SLIGHT ONLY meW~. After which i got much better, 10 times better at least. I didnt let group decisions affect me much anymore. Everything i decide to do even if u people dont want to do it. Thus i joined FO planning com. Booted to welfare..very quiet there.. Nothing much going on there la. But i became PRO-MIT club...what else happened then? Ill say later.. gotta sleep early for the stupid netf test tml..

Logging..

-nuT v .06- compiling some memories of -nuT v.05-

Umaku ienai koto ga ari-sugiru mainichi
Dare ka kizutsukenai ka itsu datte kowakute
Kitto tozashita kimochi de zutto jibun tsukutte 'ru
Da kedo Da kedo sore ja ikenai yo ne
Sore ja watashi ja nai sou ne

Everyday there are too much things
I can't say I always fear I might hurt someone
Surely I'm making myself with pent-up feelings
But But It shouldn't be like that
That just isn't me

Donna namida mo One More Chance
Hajimete 'nai koto aru hazu yo
Donna itami mo One More Chance
Sore wa kikkake ni dekiru kara
Sukoshi demo ii Atarashii nani ka mitsuketai

No matter how much tears One More Chance
There ought to be things that have yet to begin
No matter how much pain One More Chance
For I can do it
Even if it be small I wanna discover something new

Minna to onaji fuku de
Medatanaku shite 'reba
Kirawarenai hazu da to
Tsumaranai seikaku

Saying I won't be despised
If I wear the same clothes as the rest
And blend with them
What a boring character

Motto shite mitai koto mo
Nanka gaman wo shite ita
Itsu mo Itsu mo waza to waratte 'tari
Muri ni ukarete 'tari shite 'ru

I've been somewhat holding back
On things I wanted to do some more
Always laughing on purpose
And being impossbly bubbly

Donna namida mo One More Chance
Mata kizutsuite mo ii hazu yo
Donna nayami mo One more Chance
Sore wa kikkake ni dekiru kara
Akiramenai Shoujiki na hitomi mitsuketai

No matter how much tears One More Chance
It ought to be all right to be hurt again
No matter how many troubles One More Chance
For I can do it
Don't give up I wanna find those honest eyes

One more chance - Nakama Yukie

-nuT v .06- Reformatting nHD. Updating OS to v .06 . Rebooting System , Please wait.

2006 has arrived. Updated myself with a new mindset. Welcome to nuT v .06
Updates

1) New software update to outspoken from v 1.0 to v 2.5, of which software will be activated more often

2) New software update to confidence from v 0.4 to v 1.5, of which software will be more prominent

3) Slight software downgrade to other-ppl-problem-solving from v 2.0 to v 0.5 (Solve your problems now please, i dont want to be burdened with your stuff that much anymore) Though program will still be present to help when it is really required

4) Software upgrade to steel nerves from v 1.0 to v 3.0, causes OS not to break easily.

5) Attempts to change hardware '6 pac' back to orginal glory within the next 365 days.

6) Software downgrade to program peer-pressure from v 3.0 to v 0.2 . Causes OS to make decisions and not relying on other terminals.

7) New program 'Goals' installed at v 1.0 . OS will now set short term goals and achieve them.

7 updates from nuT v .05 to nuT v .06

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Spent 26th to 29th december in Taipei.
Went to the various night markets and went shopping...Bought 2 shirts,2 pants and 1 pair of shoes over the 4 days. What i noticed that the people there love Jay , every 3 shops u visit at least 1 is playing Jay's cd. Also they like to play the basketball machine in the sg arcades and the claw grabbing machine to grab soft toys. Their arcade mainly consists of these 2 machines.

Came back on 29th night and slacked. Before continuing on finishing the present.. Slept at 3am and 30th came. Friday, woke up and worked on the present again.. Left for orchard to meet TC CJ Jackie Brendan and Nickky to eat sushi buffet..After which i went to PS to try get tix for a movie " Chinese tall story " Tickets were sold out so we went to play at the B1 arcade. But before that i went to visit the stupid Audrey who was working her last day at Ps B1. Tsk tsk no commitment at all, work not even a month and then she quits.

Went back to cine to watch the chinese tall story and i wasted $9.50. Complete waste of time..
Almost fell asleep but i kept reminding myself "oi i paid $9.50 for this , i better watch the end of it" After that i went to buy my sis the new robbie williams cd >_>.. Also saw the ipod video... 30gb for $548... i want! lol.. Went back and try to finish the present.. slept at 3 again.

Next day 31st ,woke up at 10am and once again, work on the present till 1pm.. then slacked until at night then went out to meet the MIT people at cityhall. Met from 10pm then went to Esplanade to see the fireworks...Beautiful...Wished you were here. Anyways walked to lau pa sat and ate supper after that. Had a few beers there and ys went crazy...The guy is too damn emo ar...Like that see her turn siao and for a guy who never drank before he became an alcoholic , demanded more beer.. Got quite pissed with him but never said anyting cos i was tired...

You never drank before and claimed your not drunk when everyone around you knows that you are. Drinking never solves anyting. And to make this clear, i never drank over anyone. I always said i want to but after careful consideration, what does drinking solve? Nothing. So i only drink socially now, one group of friends happy happy go drink then end result everyone also happy. But he was too much and in the end made up a big fuss.

Walked to clarke quay and slacked there till 6am. Talked alot of crap for this whole night. Then left for mcdonalds and ate bfast there.. Afterwhich left for church at 730... Reached there at 815am..

Ok let me say this, TON 1 NIGHT + CHURCH SERMON = FALLING ASLEEP.
lol went with chalk to grace assembly and we there both buay tahan.. almost nodded off many times and chalk went to slp..Woke him up only when he started snoring... Well after that rushed home , shower and now im here. Going to sleep now...

End of memory log

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