It was almost two years ago that my life took a drastic and unforeseen change. Until now the shock waves are still rippling in the distance. But oh wells, it's time to embrace and enjoy the future!!! Looking back, it has been a very tough two year for me emotionally. I was quite naive and dumb hah.

But I would give thanks to God for bringing me through. There were times when I felt he was simply toying with me, and until now I cannot totally understand his plans for me, but only in the word "Faith" Can I find my answer for now. He's already blessed me with things I did not realize in my blindness. For once my old wish list was pretty much covered haha, and I can make a new one now. I have a firm belief things will get better.

Enough about abstract things. Had an awesome lunch with Mok and Mark, (Hmm now then I realized their names can be a good alliteration); Thanks Mok for your treat!! Ate till a feeling of immense satisfaction, talked about the past Army events where stupid boys like us did stupids things from getting chased by dogs to making people drunk (not me for the latter). Buffet Town was awesome, from the food to the service (Nice girl assiduously cleaned up our mountain of plates).

不久前回了一次上海，再一次感到了家的温暖。奶奶和姑姑还是那么的宠我，亲戚们还是那么的友善，弟弟和妹妹一样还是和我感情好到爆炸。三年了，本来还只是想回去度一个假，但是家终究还是家。回去的亲切感总是让我感到温馨。不过现在新加坡已经是我真正习惯的地方了。有空还是回去看看吧。

两年前我认识了一个女孩。她对我的友善我误解了。两年中我一直没有忘记她，但是到了现在，心里只有对她的遗憾。作为一个绝对痴情的人，我现在要找那个上帝为我安排的她，忘记过去，寻找那个值得我去浪漫，去疼，去尽心尽力对待的人；如果人一生有两个愿望的话，我要永远与神同在，然后做一个女生的守护天使。

Where all of the stars, have faded away,
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need, and be on your way
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Funny how sometimes time doesn't make a difference. How as I grew older I find harder and harder to believe in Fairy Tale endings, Heroes and real Love and Trust. Sometimes I just wish everything would be different, wish so hard that I would not have done some things it gets me stuck in the past.

About 10 months into NS I am slowly getting okay with the routine, but I'll never appreciate it, at least not now. Need to start saving up since my combat pay is gone now argh haha.

I wish I could be less stupid, could see God's plans, I wish I can go back to last year this time even if it means I have to go through NS all over again. I should stop dreaming.

I'll go back to December turn it round and change my own mind.

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New Phase of Life beginning. Very excited about what's coming up.

Aussie trip was not bad cause it's a first time going out with the Army (And I am glad it's the first one and only lol ZZzZ) 18 Days with the SAF rawr.

I will slowly update over the next few weeks abt the Australia Adventure here, sorry didnt talk much throughout the week cause I was so happily busy nua-ing =3

Embarking on a big project. Everything else is a secret but I hope it'll succeed, cause it'll be great fun for everyone yay.

Looking forward to my new posting! Finally achieved my goal, after climbing mountains and seas whee.

Great song to top it off for this post


Chose this version cause it's very real, better than the MV, if you have watched the Movie. It's an important moment haha.
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This week passes fast. Good times always pass fast. Ytd went out to bball with Jia Ning then Pool then Buffet!!! Wooo; think my back injury needs some serious healing liao... =S.

It sucks to feel unwanted and it sucks the most to see blind people and bad people enjoying their lives whilst your life sucks even though you try your best to be a kind person. Wdf is wrong with this world. I see so many people thinking the same thing but they're just contributing to it. Maybe I am too, =/. But at least..argh nvm.

Once again JIA YOU WOOOO YOU GUYS CAN DO IT!!! To all my friends out there who're fighting hard to excel their EOYs. Hardwork pays off don't worry, even if life is unfair and miracles are flukes. Shit happens, but hardwork pays off.
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还记得，以前在这里说过，这个博客的主人是世界上最大的猪头。他到现在还是个大猪头，一个无可救药的笨蛋哈哈。

不管怎么看，总是觉得某人超级无敌的蠢。从几年前就是这样，蠢，天真，自以为是。以为这个以为那个。跌了也不知道走路小心点，直到去年年底跌的好重，现在好像有点醒过来了。现在回头看看，好像做了太多后悔的事情啊。想要跟谁道歉也来不及了，说出去的话好像收不回来了。还是那人太笨，自以为了不起。为什么每一次看到其他人牵手时就嫉妒。大概是是他太白痴了，不够资格去喜欢自己想喜欢的人吧。从中学开始那个人就犯了错，骗了自己也骗了人家的感情，直道要读大学了还认为他很受欢迎，乱给别人表白，最后跌了个狗啃泥。哈哈。

不过这个人蠢也蠢到了一种令人敬佩得受不了的境界。居然过了大半年还是想念，想要一辈子照顾守护自己永远得不到的人。不过这种机会不是一个人能够想要就得的到的，所以他还是多做点梦安慰自己吧。傻瓜不配真正的幸福。希望他能够早点完全醒过来，看清楚这个世界，也许会觉得好受一些。

祝他早点放弃吧。
【天使.右翼】，Home of the Silver Cross.

Oh yea, 这首歌让那个笨蛋开始喜欢上写歌:

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The past weekend has been a chaotic one. Whole week last week was super busy with Wallaby stuff, going for Ex. Wallaby soon, from 28th September till 16th October, so will only be back by that Saturday morning, then the end of 2010 will approach.

A good portion of the year has been gone, in fact most of it haha. The events that happened last year December still seemed very close to me. Quite a happening year, and I feel very tired at times, getting dragged into things I don't want to do at all most of the time. Trying to recover from every not so nice things that have happened to me since last Christmas, and learning to be more persevering, more realistic.

Anyways going to Down Pes in time, probably after I come back from Australia, then see what happens bah. Oh yea the previous weekend.

Friday morning booked in, chiong office stuff from 9am to 5pm then rested. Darn tired but at least the work is done. Saturday morning book out, then went home and met up with Sun Shuo for late lunch before going back to HCJC for MAF. It was a blast, so good to see and greet the old friends, teachers and some of my Juniors from 09A11. Student life is still the best wahahaha. Jemima, Sarah and the rest of you guys I will be praying for you folks to do well for your upcoming As!

Then Saturday night went to sleep early cause sunday got Army Half Marathon in the VERY EARLY MORNING haiz. It was quite a sight though, the first time I went for an event like this. So many people running together. The idea sounds dumb, but when you see throngs of people jogging around the Singapore skyline in the morning it is quite a sight. I walked with some of my friends at first but it was too darn slow so I walked "abit faster" and now both my legs are aching like mad.

THEN today morning booked in again -.-, cause Encik suddenly wanted us to help out in stuff. Wells, that gives me two days of off to claim muahahaha.

God, thank you for guiding me through thick and thin, though I can't see where I am now, I know I would see it in time, just please bring me rest and content asap >.<

SONGGG of the, er week lah, last week! By JJ Lin, very nice soothing song.

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Ah, another week has passed. Next week will be very interesting. Friday doing COS duty (As a private, me no SGT rank) So No Hari Raya for me D=, but got off =D. Every week in army is a fight, but at least it's way better now than in BMT. I still remembered the series of disasters that struck me in the early months of this year. Not bad that I survived through them. Sometimes I wonder if things would have been totally different if those shit didn't rain onto my head.

Cook house food sucked balls most of the time this week, although one or two meals were actually good, to be fair. Breakfast is generally lousy, but it's not a chalet so too bad we all suck thumb lol. Next weekend is something I look forward to, Friday slack COS (I think), Saturday MAF celebration and meeting up with loads of friends, Sunday morning AHM and then Monday off. Woots. =D

Played LAN with Jason Ah Dom and James today. YOU GUYS WERE ALL LATE, WHO TELL ME 12.30PM ONE AH ._. -.-; I thought I would be slightly late but in the end I was the earliest lol. We played several games, and got this funny to the max Ghost Recon 2 game. Guys, DON'T EVER PLAY THIS GAME unless you have patience or haxxor shooting and reaction skills. When I mean haxxor I mean it:

The game is like Call of Duty modern warfare but the enemies kill you in an INSTANT. Yes the game constructors wanted to make it to be realistic, for example people die when they are shot by a bullet. However, those game creators forgot that it does make a bloody difference when you hold a gun and run around and shoot in real war and when you are holding a mouse and keyboard and the bloody terrain and sound effects coming from a 16 inch computer screen...

The enemy is encamped so well you don't see them until you get shot in the ass. So usually how we kill the enemy is when one of us dies and we see the trajectory of the bullets coming from unfriendly rifles. And we move like snails. Of all the first person shooting games I played this game makes you feel like you're moving in a swamp complete with fieldpack + signal set + matador + jerry can on you. And the worst thing is, when you die, you SPAWN BACK TO THE VERY BEGINNING OF THE MAP. Imagine u finally moved around for 5 mins killed some enemies and reached a certain spot quite far away from your spawn point, and you DIE. You have to re-spawn and walk all the way....pain in the ass. We did this for 30mins until we all gave up and quit the game.

Ok! Song of the week:


455 more days to go. Enter my inner world, if you are willing and want a challenge.
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