wow...how long i didnt update my blog dy? erm...well,since my last blog was talk bout my birthday,then..should be quite long ago...wakaka...and y i'm here?erm...suddenly feel got mood to blog something...
quite alot of thing happen during tis ...err..3 month maybe...
1st,i finish my diploma,and currently work in a tuition centre as tutor...well,working is not my 1st choice actually..i always wan to continue my degree..but,$$$ is much more important than everything expecially when u need it to support ur dream...so,i 'temporary' quit study n working n try to earn some and get back to Uni ASAP...
i really hope everything can go smooth...pray hard for it...
another story bout my job..just feel that those kids was SO~~~~~HORRIBLE...i sure i'm not that naughty when i'm in tat age..i swear!!! suddenly feel hesitate bout having my own child...how can i handle them?think i will lose my patient when they start noisy and not listen to u and totally ignored ur word...feel so ^%$%@$&*^(*&)**....and really KNS...but my company was ok,everyone was kind and friendly..
let me think...wat else...err....
oh ya,me n my boy just having dinner to 'celebrate' our 6 month anniversary on 24/6...sound lame,but...nvm...something doesnt look fresh everyday,but we have to find something and do something to keep the feeling fresh....
i do have a feeling that i'm not only with him for 6 month..but,on the fact,it do! its just 6 month...err...feel like longer...and together,we pass through alot,and i can say this might be the most difficult relationship among all those relationship that i have..y? erm...tat's lot of reason to make tis statement actually...our age and mind gaps,his family,my attitude,our pass,our point of view,and everything around us that could make a bomb or an issue between us...
sometime,i do lose confidence ...not to him,but myself..we have so much different,and so much principle that we cannot give in,can we handle tis relationship well?
i know,he is a good guy,mature,caring,gentle...but..he is 29yrs old, and maybe i'm not that age and mature to understand his mind and he forgot how to understand the sound from 22yrs old..i do hope i can have some color and energy in life...some passion and little bit wild maybe..but for him,he just wan everything last longing,just like plain water,good for health,no any additional flavour...well,i know plain water is good for health,but,i do really think that life need something that 'out of the box' and sometime lost control to make it become interesting and attractive...
he is a good guy,but...he might not be a good lover...
Friday, June 26, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
22nd birthday (25/2)
erm....long time didnt touch my blog jor..
well,i know i did post something here..but..its not enuf lah...
ya,tat is wat my frenz told me..'not enuf' n he said i should write something about myself in blog,but not to post article...
helo! Mr W, i know u very free to 38 lah,but i think blog should be something 'up to me' one mah...walao...i can write anything i wan to write here...n i also can share some nice article that i think its nice..n tis is my blog lah...dun so many 'ki kak' ...wakakaka....sei mei?
erm...last wednesday, 25/2 ..i celebrate my 22nd birthday...yayaya..i know,i getting old..but...SO WAT??lolz...erm..tat day 12pm, i take bus to come back KL..i plan to back on friday,since i only have celebration with frenz on saturday..but,my dearest L ask me to back more early,coz tis is my 1st birthday celebration after we together..well,actually his birthday was more early than me,28/1,but hoh..tat time is CNY lah..so,cant celebrate loh..poor guy..wakaka..
k,back to topic..i reach KL around 5pm..then,he ask me to wait at pudu raya side,coz he say more convenience mah..then i'm damn hungry..so,i go over KFC side to buy something to eat..then,he have to turn back to pick me up..when i open his car door,i saw a rose in front of me,n tat time i think 'ei...tis felo will buy roses ah? but...y got 1 only?' haiz...hokkien always say 'no fish,prawn also can'..cant calculate too much bah..since i know he is not those kind of romantic guy..
then he drive me back for bath n change cloth,n he also wan to back his home for bath..he ask me to dress up myself..well,since its my birthday,so,i have no objection then i choose a dress for tat night..well,he so surprice when see me wearing dress..eh hum...i know,i'm not that often to wear skirt or dress..but i still girl lah,ok? dun so surprice..n,u r not GAY lah..walao...
erm..about 7pm ++,after everything done,he come n fetch me again,with another roses..ok,i got 2 roses dy..he drive me to somewhere in KL town..another surprice for me..erm..so far frm wat i know lah,tis felo will NEVER drive to KL town during trafic jam hour..well,i was so wonder where he goin to bring me..but i didnt ask,coz i know he won tell me,since he wan to keep secret,then just let him be lah...
his car park in a hotel carpark,and we take lift to 34th floor..once the door open,i saw 'LUNA BAR' in front of me...WOW!!! he remember eh...i did mention tat i curious bout luna car n wonder how it's look like b4..i swear i only mention 1 time..but he remember n finally he bring me there during my birthday..
talk bout LUNA..erm..its AWESOME..wow...KL tower just beside us..n KL nightview...wow...food,wine,music,nice view,n my lover beside me...hehe..but,everything have its price..i know my dear spending on tat meal..just for my romantic birthday...erm...thx dear!
and when we leave LUNA n get into his car..he take out another roses for me..wow...3rd roses...
next,he bring me to somewhere i always wan him to go,but he EVERYTIME reject my request one...guess was is it? well,its PASAR MALAM tmn cannought...SURPRICE,rite? yaya...tats TOO~ big different between LUNA n pasar malam...but,so happy he can accompany me to go..u know wat,he HATE those place the most..y? coz his size is not that 'mini'..hard to move in those place with too many ppl... we buy lot of thing that i love to eat...hehe..n then,my favourite-Choya..ya,the plum wine frm japan...kekeke...
same like b4,i get another roses when get into his car to go back home...4th...
reach his house...i saw the 5th roses on his bed...well,it really surprice me..erm..not only he buy me roses..but is the way he design..erm..maybe its not the smartest way,but i sure he wan roses to appear in the whole night of my birthday..the different roses appears in different time..just like his love was just surround me in everytime...
i love tis birthday..love everything he did..maybe its just simple thing, but i really feel so happy bout it...erm...how should i call him?i always call him 'uncle', or address him ask 'L'..but..should i call him 'dear'? erm...too command...nvm..i will give him another name when i have it in mind..
hey,L,thx for everything u did, u give me a memorable n happy birthday..thx for ur love,thx for ur care,thx for ur gentle...everything everything...thx u...
well,i know i did post something here..but..its not enuf lah...
ya,tat is wat my frenz told me..'not enuf' n he said i should write something about myself in blog,but not to post article...
helo! Mr W, i know u very free to 38 lah,but i think blog should be something 'up to me' one mah...walao...i can write anything i wan to write here...n i also can share some nice article that i think its nice..n tis is my blog lah...dun so many 'ki kak' ...wakakaka....sei mei?
erm...last wednesday, 25/2 ..i celebrate my 22nd birthday...yayaya..i know,i getting old..but...SO WAT??lolz...erm..tat day 12pm, i take bus to come back KL..i plan to back on friday,since i only have celebration with frenz on saturday..but,my dearest L ask me to back more early,coz tis is my 1st birthday celebration after we together..well,actually his birthday was more early than me,28/1,but hoh..tat time is CNY lah..so,cant celebrate loh..poor guy..wakaka..
k,back to topic..i reach KL around 5pm..then,he ask me to wait at pudu raya side,coz he say more convenience mah..then i'm damn hungry..so,i go over KFC side to buy something to eat..then,he have to turn back to pick me up..when i open his car door,i saw a rose in front of me,n tat time i think 'ei...tis felo will buy roses ah? but...y got 1 only?' haiz...hokkien always say 'no fish,prawn also can'..cant calculate too much bah..since i know he is not those kind of romantic guy..
then he drive me back for bath n change cloth,n he also wan to back his home for bath..he ask me to dress up myself..well,since its my birthday,so,i have no objection then i choose a dress for tat night..well,he so surprice when see me wearing dress..eh hum...i know,i'm not that often to wear skirt or dress..but i still girl lah,ok? dun so surprice..n,u r not GAY lah..walao...
erm..about 7pm ++,after everything done,he come n fetch me again,with another roses..ok,i got 2 roses dy..he drive me to somewhere in KL town..another surprice for me..erm..so far frm wat i know lah,tis felo will NEVER drive to KL town during trafic jam hour..well,i was so wonder where he goin to bring me..but i didnt ask,coz i know he won tell me,since he wan to keep secret,then just let him be lah...
his car park in a hotel carpark,and we take lift to 34th floor..once the door open,i saw 'LUNA BAR' in front of me...WOW!!! he remember eh...i did mention tat i curious bout luna car n wonder how it's look like b4..i swear i only mention 1 time..but he remember n finally he bring me there during my birthday..
talk bout LUNA..erm..its AWESOME..wow...KL tower just beside us..n KL nightview...wow...food,wine,music,nice view,n my lover beside me...hehe..but,everything have its price..i know my dear spending on tat meal..just for my romantic birthday...erm...thx dear!
and when we leave LUNA n get into his car..he take out another roses for me..wow...3rd roses...
next,he bring me to somewhere i always wan him to go,but he EVERYTIME reject my request one...guess was is it? well,its PASAR MALAM tmn cannought...SURPRICE,rite? yaya...tats TOO~ big different between LUNA n pasar malam...but,so happy he can accompany me to go..u know wat,he HATE those place the most..y? coz his size is not that 'mini'..hard to move in those place with too many ppl... we buy lot of thing that i love to eat...hehe..n then,my favourite-Choya..ya,the plum wine frm japan...kekeke...
same like b4,i get another roses when get into his car to go back home...4th...
reach his house...i saw the 5th roses on his bed...well,it really surprice me..erm..not only he buy me roses..but is the way he design..erm..maybe its not the smartest way,but i sure he wan roses to appear in the whole night of my birthday..the different roses appears in different time..just like his love was just surround me in everytime...
i love tis birthday..love everything he did..maybe its just simple thing, but i really feel so happy bout it...erm...how should i call him?i always call him 'uncle', or address him ask 'L'..but..should i call him 'dear'? erm...too command...nvm..i will give him another name when i have it in mind..
hey,L,thx for everything u did, u give me a memorable n happy birthday..thx for ur love,thx for ur care,thx for ur gentle...everything everything...thx u...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
好男人未必好情人
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小傑算是個百分百男人了，就算不到百分百，至少也有九十五。 有個深愛多年的女人─小梅。人家說年過三十就該娶妻生子、成家立業。 而小傑早過了而立之年又七歲啦！ 可是小梅偏偏就不點頭，答應這個愛她、呵護她的男人許諾一生一世。 荷倩總說小梅是生在福中不知福、專門面生來折騰人的，尤其是對小傑。 小梅進入法式餐廳，一眼就看到那個坐在指定位置上，不知等了多久的男人。 總是這樣，他總會在約定的時間前十幾分鐘到達，小梅曾經偷偷的提前到約會的地點。 然後躲在暗處等待小傑的出現，他永遠是那麼的"守時"，害她有一次一不小心塞車慢了一二十分鐘才到達約會地點， 就感到深深的抱歉與愧疚。而那個好男人─小傑還是照樣體貼入微的，拉開椅子輕聲的問：塞車？台北的交通真是的！累了吧！ 後來小梅只好再提前十五分鐘出發。 十五分鐘能做多少事：煮一杯咖啡；看四分之一的小品書籍；聽三首歌；細嚼慢曣的吃一個便當，還是........... 以前初認識時，小梅總會讓小傑接送到約會地點，只是他每次都會提前半小時在她家公寓樓下或客廳等候。 總之，體貼入微的讓人無法呼吸。他在一旁等時，小梅總是沒辦法幽雅、又慢條斯理打理自己，最扯的是自從有了親睨行為以後， 他常常會在房門口盯著她等她打理好，他說他最愛看著她的一舉一動。 剛開始小梅會因為這些貼心的舉動而感動不已，可是後來慢慢的深感壓力。 她沒有辦法好好的化個口紅、沒有辦法慢慢的換選喜愛的衣服、不能給他驚豔和讓自己驚喜，兩人之間的交往平淡的像白開水。 止渴，但沒滋味。 小傑人很好，雖然長得不是很帥，卻也斯文有禮。對小梅的朋友或親戚，甚至是舊情人都很"彬彬有禮\"。 交往三年了，連做愛的模式和動作還有問話都一模一樣，總是呵護備至的前戲，完事後還會體貼入微的關心。 只是小梅開始對這些感到厭煩，尤其是在小傑的前女友、和前前女友，還有她的好朋友曉玟的介入之後，更是如此。 小傑的前前女友是個潑辣強勢的女人，從大學時期就和小傑出雙入對，後來是因為劈腿有了別人的小孩休學奉子成婚。 而她結婚時，小傑還體貼到包了一大包紅包外加當男儐相，只因為那個劈腿的男人正好也是小傑的同學。 而這一切根據前前女友對小梅的說法是：小傑很愛她，所以不忍心讓她為難或感到抱歉。 包括前前女友婚後對丈夫的不貼心，對公婆的不滿，以及對家庭的無力感，都在小傑一次又一次的安慰下化解。 甚至有次小傑在小梅家過夜，凌晨三點還接到前前女友打來哭訴丈夫喝酒不歸的難過，而身旁的那個他─小傑， 竟然就當著小梅的面聽她講到天空微亮才掛電話說她想去睡了。 對於前女友不開心時，小傑也是貼心的哄著，從不會拒接來電或惡言相向。 而前女友分手的原因則是因為前前女友有一次喝醉酒，心情不佳抱著小傑猛哭， 然後醋勁大發的甩了前前女友一巴掌將她拉離小傑身上，小傑看初戀女友跌倒趕緊扶她起來，還擁著護送她回家。 前女友氣得火冒三丈的對小傑說：有她就沒有我，叫輛計程車送她回家就好， 不然打電話叫她老公來接，你要是敢送她回去，那我們就分手吧！ 小傑只是用很淡、很輕、很彬彬有禮的口氣說：她丈夫手機不通、讓她自己坐車回去太危險了。 就轉身送前前女友回家。 至於最愛到小梅家串門子的曉紋，也是因為小傑人太好，所以常常巴著小傑請客、看電影， 甚至小梅到國外出差時還天天約小傑膩在一起兩個多禮拜。 沒錢時還跟小傑借了一二十萬，去還她刷卡買名牌的循環債務。 根據小傑的說法是：她是妳好朋友，自然也是我的朋友，幫她些小忙不打緊。 說這話時還是那麼的彬彬有禮、頭頭是道，感覺上要是小梅為了這等小事吃醋，只是顯得她氣度不夠、潑辣無理。 荷倩則更是不用說了。因為和小傑是同事，幾乎天天把小傑當免費的司機。而小傑的說法和對待曉紋的說法一樣， 載她上下班只是因為她是小梅的好朋友，反正順路。 常常順路載她去吃同一家想吃的飯館；順路載她去她也想看的電影；順路載她去順路的百貨公司。 小傑之所以會對女人那麼好、那樣體貼，不是沒有道理的。最主要是因為小傑是單親家庭，而小傑的媽媽是個受到家暴的婦女， 從小就不斷的灌輸小傑：女人是用來疼的，不是用來打的；女人說的話八成不會有錯，千錯萬錯問題一定出在男人身上。 其實小傑最疼最寵的女人不是小梅，是他媽媽。每天一定照三餐叮嚀母親吃飯，外食一定提前外帶回去給媽媽吃； 連買任何給小梅的禮物都一定會有媽媽的一份； 最誇張的是據小梅所知，他連晚上睡覺起床尿尿經過母親房間都還會進去看他媽媽被子有沒有蓋好， 就連他和小梅的交往也是他那個看起來很樸實健康實則精明厲害的母親指示的。這麼孝順的男人，真是好到不行的好。 真是個好男人，對所有人都很好，如果是朋友的話一定是最上等的異性知己，只是不適合當情人。 所有親戚都催著她答應小傑的求婚(他連求婚都平淡到只買了個戒子，沒有下跪、沒有浪漫的求婚宣言，只說了句我們該結婚了。)， 尤其是小梅的媽媽更是再三叮囑小梅，錯過了這個男人妳再也找不到這麼好的了。 只是小梅真的沒辦法接受，接受這個備受眾人誇讚卻讓她的愛情沒了空氣的好男人。 沒辦法接受這個會在小梅出差奪命連環call也沒有，卻偷偷跟蹤她的好男人。 沒辦法接受這個完全以她的喜好為喜好，連吃個飯都一定要她決定要去那裡吃的好男人。 最最沒辦法接受的是，沒辦法接受這個對所有雌性動物都呵護倍至的好男人。 所以答應小傑的求婚喔？再說吧！
小傑算是個百分百男人了，就算不到百分百，至少也有九十五。 有個深愛多年的女人─小梅。人家說年過三十就該娶妻生子、成家立業。 而小傑早過了而立之年又七歲啦！ 可是小梅偏偏就不點頭，答應這個愛她、呵護她的男人許諾一生一世。 荷倩總說小梅是生在福中不知福、專門面生來折騰人的，尤其是對小傑。 小梅進入法式餐廳，一眼就看到那個坐在指定位置上，不知等了多久的男人。 總是這樣，他總會在約定的時間前十幾分鐘到達，小梅曾經偷偷的提前到約會的地點。 然後躲在暗處等待小傑的出現，他永遠是那麼的"守時"，害她有一次一不小心塞車慢了一二十分鐘才到達約會地點， 就感到深深的抱歉與愧疚。而那個好男人─小傑還是照樣體貼入微的，拉開椅子輕聲的問：塞車？台北的交通真是的！累了吧！ 後來小梅只好再提前十五分鐘出發。 十五分鐘能做多少事：煮一杯咖啡；看四分之一的小品書籍；聽三首歌；細嚼慢曣的吃一個便當，還是........... 以前初認識時，小梅總會讓小傑接送到約會地點，只是他每次都會提前半小時在她家公寓樓下或客廳等候。 總之，體貼入微的讓人無法呼吸。他在一旁等時，小梅總是沒辦法幽雅、又慢條斯理打理自己，最扯的是自從有了親睨行為以後， 他常常會在房門口盯著她等她打理好，他說他最愛看著她的一舉一動。 剛開始小梅會因為這些貼心的舉動而感動不已，可是後來慢慢的深感壓力。 她沒有辦法好好的化個口紅、沒有辦法慢慢的換選喜愛的衣服、不能給他驚豔和讓自己驚喜，兩人之間的交往平淡的像白開水。 止渴，但沒滋味。 小傑人很好，雖然長得不是很帥，卻也斯文有禮。對小梅的朋友或親戚，甚至是舊情人都很"彬彬有禮\"。 交往三年了，連做愛的模式和動作還有問話都一模一樣，總是呵護備至的前戲，完事後還會體貼入微的關心。 只是小梅開始對這些感到厭煩，尤其是在小傑的前女友、和前前女友，還有她的好朋友曉玟的介入之後，更是如此。 小傑的前前女友是個潑辣強勢的女人，從大學時期就和小傑出雙入對，後來是因為劈腿有了別人的小孩休學奉子成婚。 而她結婚時，小傑還體貼到包了一大包紅包外加當男儐相，只因為那個劈腿的男人正好也是小傑的同學。 而這一切根據前前女友對小梅的說法是：小傑很愛她，所以不忍心讓她為難或感到抱歉。 包括前前女友婚後對丈夫的不貼心，對公婆的不滿，以及對家庭的無力感，都在小傑一次又一次的安慰下化解。 甚至有次小傑在小梅家過夜，凌晨三點還接到前前女友打來哭訴丈夫喝酒不歸的難過，而身旁的那個他─小傑， 竟然就當著小梅的面聽她講到天空微亮才掛電話說她想去睡了。 對於前女友不開心時，小傑也是貼心的哄著，從不會拒接來電或惡言相向。 而前女友分手的原因則是因為前前女友有一次喝醉酒，心情不佳抱著小傑猛哭， 然後醋勁大發的甩了前前女友一巴掌將她拉離小傑身上，小傑看初戀女友跌倒趕緊扶她起來，還擁著護送她回家。 前女友氣得火冒三丈的對小傑說：有她就沒有我，叫輛計程車送她回家就好， 不然打電話叫她老公來接，你要是敢送她回去，那我們就分手吧！ 小傑只是用很淡、很輕、很彬彬有禮的口氣說：她丈夫手機不通、讓她自己坐車回去太危險了。 就轉身送前前女友回家。 至於最愛到小梅家串門子的曉紋，也是因為小傑人太好，所以常常巴著小傑請客、看電影， 甚至小梅到國外出差時還天天約小傑膩在一起兩個多禮拜。 沒錢時還跟小傑借了一二十萬，去還她刷卡買名牌的循環債務。 根據小傑的說法是：她是妳好朋友，自然也是我的朋友，幫她些小忙不打緊。 說這話時還是那麼的彬彬有禮、頭頭是道，感覺上要是小梅為了這等小事吃醋，只是顯得她氣度不夠、潑辣無理。 荷倩則更是不用說了。因為和小傑是同事，幾乎天天把小傑當免費的司機。而小傑的說法和對待曉紋的說法一樣， 載她上下班只是因為她是小梅的好朋友，反正順路。 常常順路載她去吃同一家想吃的飯館；順路載她去她也想看的電影；順路載她去順路的百貨公司。 小傑之所以會對女人那麼好、那樣體貼，不是沒有道理的。最主要是因為小傑是單親家庭，而小傑的媽媽是個受到家暴的婦女， 從小就不斷的灌輸小傑：女人是用來疼的，不是用來打的；女人說的話八成不會有錯，千錯萬錯問題一定出在男人身上。 其實小傑最疼最寵的女人不是小梅，是他媽媽。每天一定照三餐叮嚀母親吃飯，外食一定提前外帶回去給媽媽吃； 連買任何給小梅的禮物都一定會有媽媽的一份； 最誇張的是據小梅所知，他連晚上睡覺起床尿尿經過母親房間都還會進去看他媽媽被子有沒有蓋好， 就連他和小梅的交往也是他那個看起來很樸實健康實則精明厲害的母親指示的。這麼孝順的男人，真是好到不行的好。 真是個好男人，對所有人都很好，如果是朋友的話一定是最上等的異性知己，只是不適合當情人。 所有親戚都催著她答應小傑的求婚(他連求婚都平淡到只買了個戒子，沒有下跪、沒有浪漫的求婚宣言，只說了句我們該結婚了。)， 尤其是小梅的媽媽更是再三叮囑小梅，錯過了這個男人妳再也找不到這麼好的了。 只是小梅真的沒辦法接受，接受這個備受眾人誇讚卻讓她的愛情沒了空氣的好男人。 沒辦法接受這個會在小梅出差奪命連環call也沒有，卻偷偷跟蹤她的好男人。 沒辦法接受這個完全以她的喜好為喜好，連吃個飯都一定要她決定要去那裡吃的好男人。 最最沒辦法接受的是，沒辦法接受這個對所有雌性動物都呵護倍至的好男人。 所以答應小傑的求婚喔？再說吧！
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