Breathe in, breathe out.

Wedding Madness again. I think the only time when I'm here is to complain about things related to the wedding preparation but it's different this time round! So we had a date planned after work and it was to make a payment for the hotel banquet. I was late but had to be the one going down with G coz we were using my card to pay. Hurriedly booked a cab and flew downstairs. G was waiting (he even had time to go home to change) but he wasn't the least bit irritated. If it was me I confirm kick up a fuss HAHAHA. So when we reached the hotel, I was trying to look for my wallet and I realised... I left it in office! FML moment. The hotel staff just laughed at me and G was in shock. But he wasn't even irritated! Felt horrible but he just suggested dinner. And even joked about looking for food to nourish/find my brain. OK end of story LOL but need to record it somewhere to remember to always appreciate the little things :)

23 Jun 17 - Got our wedding bands! :) 26 Jun 17 - Settled our bridal package! :) *** I thought I should document this down somewhere - this whole wedding planning journey hasn't been very smooth-sailing. We both had our fair share of unhappiness and quarrels over what we want in our wedding. Deep down, if given a choice... I wouldn't want to plan a wedding. I don't have a dream wedding. I still do not understand the fuss behind planning for one, looking for the perfect dress and venue. I would very much prefer to be spending all this money on our future home; unfortunately this isn't the case but we respect our parents' wants and requests. But I'm glad I'm experiencing this with G, because in all our squabbles, he's always the one taking a step back and trying to give in :( And that's why I realized how ridiculous I was. Nonetheless, I am excited at the thought of marriage (not so much on the wedding oops) and with that I hope this optimism...

Because I'm bad at remembering dates so I thought I should note it down here -  5 Mar 17 - We got ourselves a house! It felt like a shotgun marriage. We got it after looking around for a house for the past month or so. Our weekends were spent visiting houses and somehow there wasn't any feel. The houses were either way out of our budget (ya at that time our budget was S$600k) or it felt too old and in need of a massive reno. Somehow one thing led to another and we visited showrooms instead. It's our first big purchase and now we are both saddled with a huge debt. There are times when I kept questioning myself if it was the right decision (wtf S$776k debt) but we've already made the purchase so can only look forward lol. I have learnt to shut people out when they start criticising our choice because it felt like a personal attack (and I've already got the house so such comments are pretty unnecessary lol). 11 Mar 17 - We are getting married this year/next year...

   (http://www.buzzfeed.com/kirstenking/reasons-your-college-friends-will-be-your-friends-for-lif#.gyPGp7pBo) Thankful that we got to take our grad photos together. It was significant in a way, because it marked the end of school and the start of a phase in life. 4 years came by in a flash, thank you friendsss for being that constant pillar of support, especially through the difficult times. We may not talk 24/7 but I'm grateful for their listening ears, including the random gossip and food sessions.  I miss the old times but life goes on.

“ To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best day and night to make you like everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight and never stop fighting ”   -E. E. Cummings

Hello dead blog. I don't have much to say. But we're finally reaching the last lap. I'm glad things are more or less settled :) I've watched enough of sunrises from where I'm sitting right now, but as much as I enjoy working when it's quiet and the air is cool, I hate the fatigue that comes right after that. I hope I don't have to work through the night ever again :/ I'm just left with 1 final test, 2 exams, FYP report submission, FYP oral presentation, FYP poster presentation. And I'm done with school and 16 years of SG's education system. Wow. Hello grad trip, hello work, hello first payday. I CAN'T WAIT. P.S. G commented that I am on a lucky streak recently. And I realised it's quite true! Scored higher than him in the recent test, fared decently for another quiz, didn't get criticized too harshly for the first FYP draft and finally secured an offer that I really want :) Thankful.