its friday again. and had the usuals, lifegroup. really like this part of the conversation between pam and jerry,
How do you explain your personal encounter with God?
Through the things He had done in our lives.
How do you know it's not just luck? that certain things happen, that you're just being lucky.
Because with God with us, we'll always be lucky.
mannn, Thank God for You.
:) (:
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Saturday, August 21, 2010
goodbye love.
when yumin first entered uni, entered the world of melbourne, it was like entering herself into a bad holiday, bad destination, where she just cant wait for the holiday to end so she can get back home. everything just felt wrong and out of place. and then she tells herself, "nvm lah, three years very fast one, just keep yourself busy and it'll pass before you know it. yeaa that's the plan. confirm!" so she started living her life without really living it. waste time because time passes faster this way. complain and whine to herself why there isn't an invention to turn time to three years later so she can graduate and get out of here now.
here and there she meets people who are older than her, (who are already working) talking about their uni friends, "oh i met him/her in uni and we've been very close since then..", "my best friend and i met in our uni days..", "the bunch of us met in uni..".
how do you get close friends from uni? let alone best friends, that's insane. "you don't get close friends from uni, especially in this sucky uni and in this sucky place, you just don't".
three years sound short, but truth is, it is really not short, not short at all. it has only been 2 years now and i can feel all the difference in the world. think of all the things i have missed out in every aspect; missing out being a part of my friends' and family's life, missing out growing in and with singapore.
the first point is fairly intangible and you probably cant feel as much the impact when you read it. i can elaborate on the second point though, by just tangibly listing how much i've missed out in growing with singapore. before i left, there is no Orchard Ion, no Marina Barage, no RWS, no Sands, no Khoo Teck Phuat Hospital, no Northpoint extension, no F1 race, no YOG and no circle line. magically each time i return, something new just pops out like popcorn chicken (yums).
that is how long two years can be (measured by the number of changes/activities that took place), and how the world still transforms rather dynamically regardless of your wish for it to stay stagnant for you. went for Contact Singapore's overseas career event in melbourne this afternoon and they were introducing Singapore as a young, growing nation full of opportunities. how true changes are everywhere right under our nose. it probably won't be that obvious if i've never left though, because like i said, i've missed out growing with it. that's why any subtle changes just jump right out to me everytime i return. it's sad in a way, when i read articles or see comments about YOG thinking i have no idea how it is like in singapore, to be basking in the YOG-is-now feel.
anyhow, as much as i've missed out in these two years, i've gained as much, just like a balance sheet which always balances up (if your balance sheet don't balance, then you can go bang the wall cause you have to go through so much work all over to find out why, i know, its frustrating).
the 'bad holiday' turns out to be the best decision i've ever made. and if i were to choose it one thousand times over, my choice would still be the same.
yumin then realises there is no fast forward button in life for a reason. time painfully/unknowingly shapes you, toughen you, like fire does to steel. yumin thank God for widening her narrow mind, for shaping her incomplete values and personality and for bringing her her melbourne buddies, best friends from uni, from melbourne which she never thought she will ever have.
"you do get close friends, best friends from uni, because you just do."
because we were late, most of the graduates have either already returned their gowns or were gone
yumin loves you val dear, you are too cute to forget :)
will i sound too insincere if i say, "yumin loves you cheryl dear, you are too cute to forget :)" again? but i mean it!
awesomest neighbour
sexybabe charl
the non-graduates
graduation is such a joyous occasion, and i feel so proud of each and everyone of the graduates. it got me thinking about my graduation, i think i will so miss this place when its my turn to graduate and leave, like for good.
melbourne, the place i use to distaste so much has sneakily creeped in and found a place in the heart.
here and there she meets people who are older than her, (who are already working) talking about their uni friends, "oh i met him/her in uni and we've been very close since then..", "my best friend and i met in our uni days..", "the bunch of us met in uni..".
how do you get close friends from uni? let alone best friends, that's insane. "you don't get close friends from uni, especially in this sucky uni and in this sucky place, you just don't".
three years sound short, but truth is, it is really not short, not short at all. it has only been 2 years now and i can feel all the difference in the world. think of all the things i have missed out in every aspect; missing out being a part of my friends' and family's life, missing out growing in and with singapore.
the first point is fairly intangible and you probably cant feel as much the impact when you read it. i can elaborate on the second point though, by just tangibly listing how much i've missed out in growing with singapore. before i left, there is no Orchard Ion, no Marina Barage, no RWS, no Sands, no Khoo Teck Phuat Hospital, no Northpoint extension, no F1 race, no YOG and no circle line. magically each time i return, something new just pops out like popcorn chicken (yums).
that is how long two years can be (measured by the number of changes/activities that took place), and how the world still transforms rather dynamically regardless of your wish for it to stay stagnant for you. went for Contact Singapore's overseas career event in melbourne this afternoon and they were introducing Singapore as a young, growing nation full of opportunities. how true changes are everywhere right under our nose. it probably won't be that obvious if i've never left though, because like i said, i've missed out growing with it. that's why any subtle changes just jump right out to me everytime i return. it's sad in a way, when i read articles or see comments about YOG thinking i have no idea how it is like in singapore, to be basking in the YOG-is-now feel.
anyhow, as much as i've missed out in these two years, i've gained as much, just like a balance sheet which always balances up (if your balance sheet don't balance, then you can go bang the wall cause you have to go through so much work all over to find out why, i know, its frustrating).
the 'bad holiday' turns out to be the best decision i've ever made. and if i were to choose it one thousand times over, my choice would still be the same.
yumin then realises there is no fast forward button in life for a reason. time painfully/unknowingly shapes you, toughen you, like fire does to steel. yumin thank God for widening her narrow mind, for shaping her incomplete values and personality and for bringing her her melbourne buddies, best friends from uni, from melbourne which she never thought she will ever have.
"you do get close friends, best friends from uni, because you just do."
because we were late, most of the graduates have either already returned their gowns or were gone
yumin loves you val dear, you are too cute to forget :)
will i sound too insincere if i say, "yumin loves you cheryl dear, you are too cute to forget :)" again? but i mean it!
awesomest neighbour
sexybabe charl
the non-graduates
graduation is such a joyous occasion, and i feel so proud of each and everyone of the graduates. it got me thinking about my graduation, i think i will so miss this place when its my turn to graduate and leave, like for good.
melbourne, the place i use to distaste so much has sneakily creeped in and found a place in the heart.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
when panic attacks and stress mounts up
my study table which is in an organised mess
apple cinnamon tart in a cold winter night (UNDYING LOVE FOR TARTS)
when studying at home gets unproductive, you need a change of enviornment. that's serious pamsies at work. :)
what do i do without kere kere?
wonder why and how it got so foggy that night.
alrights, back to work. i need a kinder bueno. (please accept me even if i go back with a pumpkin-like face)
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
a cat with tail
i think its true that we are brought up learning not to speak our mind if whatever we have to say will possibly cause discomfort, anger or negative feelings in another person (like to strangers). societal norms train us from birth not to show negative emotions in public. so we always just swallow and say it's okay, forget it, whenever is possible.
but there will come a time when this really irresponsible, annoying and pushy someone keeps stepping on your tail that you have to be firm and fend for your rights by telling her off. telling people off isnt easy ehh. because i've never really told anyone off seriously before. now its time to learn, hone and store this skill for future use/reference.
if you're wondering who im talking about, its just this super horrendous (third level cheryl) australian group mate im working with for an assignment. this person who gets on my nerves and made my blood boil all the way till my temple. and who made the originally inactive volcano erupt in me.
no way you are pushing me round again. drink some responsibility juice. goodbye.
but there will come a time when this really irresponsible, annoying and pushy someone keeps stepping on your tail that you have to be firm and fend for your rights by telling her off. telling people off isnt easy ehh. because i've never really told anyone off seriously before. now its time to learn, hone and store this skill for future use/reference.
if you're wondering who im talking about, its just this super horrendous (third level cheryl) australian group mate im working with for an assignment. this person who gets on my nerves and made my blood boil all the way till my temple. and who made the originally inactive volcano erupt in me.
no way you are pushing me round again. drink some responsibility juice. goodbye.
Friday, May 28, 2010
because pictures speak a thousand words
“分胜负重要 还是 陪家人吃饭重要？”
(分完胜负再回家吃饭)
do you know what movie i've watched by now? my first movie this semester, and prolly the last too.
tomorrow's the last day of this really intensive semester and guess what? i still have jap quiz tomorrow and after working on Ford, Toyota and McDonalds, im now looking at beauty parlour for services marketing. yes, tmr's the last day of school, and im still looking at assignments. *heaves a deep breath
I AM OFFICIALLY DEAD FOR EXAMS
have never felt so unprepared before by week 12. i played too hard this semester. and assignment-ed too hard too. like all my weekends and weekdays are dedicated to assignments since end of April, not kidding. didnt do revision for new concepts at all. which is highly worrying now that exams are so close to the toe.
and with all the new commitments, new friendships to maintain, new responsibilities in the house, new year 3 marketing and management subjects all demanding thousands of words' reports, i need better time management and wisdom in allocating priorities.
this was last friday after my jap speaking test, when we went St Kilda's for a late brunch, close to tea. and i got back my Toyota and Ford's assignment, first H1 assignment in Melb Uni! calls for a real celebration after all the shit that few weeks. Thank God our hard work paid off. :))
my two loves in melb uni, plus val dear of course. <3
cheryl bomb!
and mickey dear
i know, this is really quite random, but just thinking i've never shared a photo of our lecture hall before, so snapped this photo after product management (its a marketing subject not management heehee) lecture. neways this is just a normal lecture hall, think the one at The Spot building is da ultimate bomb, dynamite! will share a photo of it if i ever have lecture there again.
when i discovered a flower in between the leaves of chinese brocolli, kai lan, while preparing dinner. haha.
now im torn between spring or autumn for my favourite season of the year. :(
on board the car after sunday service, just look at the trees outside the windows, arhhh im tempted to change my favourite season to autumn. haha.
the youths at Victory Family Church (VFC), lunch at Nelayans indonesian restaurant after sunday service
check out my favourite coffee stall in school, they've got the best latte EVER.
the stall's called kere kere :)
right, i've decided, spring is still my favourite season of the year, for it represents blooming life and hope. autumn is pretty with red and orange leaves, but they wither and succumb to the bitter cold, i dont like that.
still, i'll end this post with a tinge of yellow.
sweet dreams my darlings. its wonderful tonight.
its late in the evening, she's wondering what clothes to wear
she puts on her make-up, and brushes her long blonde hair
and then she asks me, do i look alright?
and i say, yes, you looked wonderful tonight
we go to a party, and everyone turns to see
this beautiful lady, that's walking around with me
and then she asks me, do you feel alright?
and i say, yes, i feel wonderful tonight
i feel wonderful, because i see the love light in your eyes
and the wonder of it all, is that you just don't realise, how much i love you
its time to go home now, and i've got an aching head
so i gave her the car keys, and she helps me to bed
and then i tell her, as i turn out the lights
i say, my darling, you were wonderful tonight
oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight.
(分完胜负再回家吃饭)
do you know what movie i've watched by now? my first movie this semester, and prolly the last too.
tomorrow's the last day of this really intensive semester and guess what? i still have jap quiz tomorrow and after working on Ford, Toyota and McDonalds, im now looking at beauty parlour for services marketing. yes, tmr's the last day of school, and im still looking at assignments. *heaves a deep breath
I AM OFFICIALLY DEAD FOR EXAMS
have never felt so unprepared before by week 12. i played too hard this semester. and assignment-ed too hard too. like all my weekends and weekdays are dedicated to assignments since end of April, not kidding. didnt do revision for new concepts at all. which is highly worrying now that exams are so close to the toe.
and with all the new commitments, new friendships to maintain, new responsibilities in the house, new year 3 marketing and management subjects all demanding thousands of words' reports, i need better time management and wisdom in allocating priorities.
this was last friday after my jap speaking test, when we went St Kilda's for a late brunch, close to tea. and i got back my Toyota and Ford's assignment, first H1 assignment in Melb Uni! calls for a real celebration after all the shit that few weeks. Thank God our hard work paid off. :))
my two loves in melb uni, plus val dear of course. <3
cheryl bomb!
and mickey dear
i know, this is really quite random, but just thinking i've never shared a photo of our lecture hall before, so snapped this photo after product management (its a marketing subject not management heehee) lecture. neways this is just a normal lecture hall, think the one at The Spot building is da ultimate bomb, dynamite! will share a photo of it if i ever have lecture there again.
when i discovered a flower in between the leaves of chinese brocolli, kai lan, while preparing dinner. haha.
now im torn between spring or autumn for my favourite season of the year. :(
on board the car after sunday service, just look at the trees outside the windows, arhhh im tempted to change my favourite season to autumn. haha.
the youths at Victory Family Church (VFC), lunch at Nelayans indonesian restaurant after sunday service
check out my favourite coffee stall in school, they've got the best latte EVER.
the stall's called kere kere :)
right, i've decided, spring is still my favourite season of the year, for it represents blooming life and hope. autumn is pretty with red and orange leaves, but they wither and succumb to the bitter cold, i dont like that.
still, i'll end this post with a tinge of yellow.
sweet dreams my darlings. its wonderful tonight.
its late in the evening, she's wondering what clothes to wear
she puts on her make-up, and brushes her long blonde hair
and then she asks me, do i look alright?
and i say, yes, you looked wonderful tonight
we go to a party, and everyone turns to see
this beautiful lady, that's walking around with me
and then she asks me, do you feel alright?
and i say, yes, i feel wonderful tonight
i feel wonderful, because i see the love light in your eyes
and the wonder of it all, is that you just don't realise, how much i love you
its time to go home now, and i've got an aching head
so i gave her the car keys, and she helps me to bed
and then i tell her, as i turn out the lights
i say, my darling, you were wonderful tonight
oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
photo book
how can the evening sky be this beautiful? it was last saturday evening, May 8 btw. :)
home-made apple pies by mic because i like them. thanks darling! <3
even though it takes quite abit of time and effort to prepare this, im actually liking it. cooking, and cooking for others is such a joy. :)
it must be in me since i was young for the only toy i remember playing with was masa masa the cooking set? always cooking and pretending to serve the invisible friends. and tailing madam (and be a 跟屁虫) when she was preparing dinner in the kitchen, fighting to fry the vege and garlic.
the melbourne loves for they make melbourne more than bearable, exciting and enjoyable. <3
you know autumn is ending when these leaves start to disappear, leaving only the empty, strong branches alone to brave the cold.
love the cafe culture and weather in melbourne. if only its the holidays, i can leisurely grab a book, spend the whole day in a cafe and posion myself with caffeine.
strawberry cheesecake cupcake <3
天冷你就回来
从前对着收音机 学唱旧的歌
我问妈妈为么 伤心像快乐
妈妈笑着 说她也不懂得
我想出去走一走 哦妈妈点点头
天冷你就回来 别在风中徘徊
哦妈妈眼里有明白 还有一丝无奈
天冷我想回家 童年已经不再
昨天的雨点砸下来 那滋味叫做爱
唔唔~ 别在风中徘徊.. 唔唔~ 天冷就回来..
渐渐对着收音机 学唱新的歌
我问朋友为么 做梦也快乐
朋友笑说 她从不相信梦
我想出去走一走 哦朋友点点头
天冷你就回来 别在风中徘徊
朋友的眼里有明白 还有一份期待
天冷我想回家 年少已经不再
今天的雨点砸下来 那滋味就是爱
我问妈妈为么 伤心像快乐
妈妈笑着 说她也不懂得
我想出去走一走 哦妈妈点点头
天冷你就回来 别在风中徘徊
哦妈妈眼里有明白 还有一丝无奈
天冷我想回家 童年已经不再
昨天的雨点砸下来 那滋味叫做爱
唔唔~ 别在风中徘徊.. 唔唔~ 天冷就回来..
渐渐对着收音机 学唱新的歌
我问朋友为么 做梦也快乐
朋友笑说 她从不相信梦
我想出去走一走 哦朋友点点头
天冷你就回来 别在风中徘徊
朋友的眼里有明白 还有一份期待
天冷我想回家 年少已经不再
今天的雨点砸下来 那滋味就是爱
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
winter is finally here
after all the talks about how strangely cool and sunny may's weather had been when its suppose to be turning winter, it has finally arrive tonight. abit later than before but yes gloomy winter is back again. the temperature is sitting at 6 degrees now and i just went to the balcony to smell the chilly winter air. niceee. :)
i have frozen fingers and feets now though.
after wrestling with Toyota and Ford for one and a half weeks (and it was a hell of one and a half week), im now looking at McDonald's hotel for a marketing report. yes, it is McDonald's and hotel. McDonald's as in the Big Mac, McChicken, sundae MacDonald's. you didnt see wrongly. haha.
if you are interested you can google about it, they use to have a McDonald's hotel in Switzerland in 2001 but the idea flopped and the hotel was bought over in 2003, so Mackers is essentially back to food again. we are just exploring the possibilities of having another one in the US now. won't it be so interesting if it is successful? sleeping with Ronald MacDonald's and friends. :)
okay back to the report.
ps. i am so gonna have Grainwaves now. ahhh horrible weather making me all greedy again.
i have frozen fingers and feets now though.
after wrestling with Toyota and Ford for one and a half weeks (and it was a hell of one and a half week), im now looking at McDonald's hotel for a marketing report. yes, it is McDonald's and hotel. McDonald's as in the Big Mac, McChicken, sundae MacDonald's. you didnt see wrongly. haha.
if you are interested you can google about it, they use to have a McDonald's hotel in Switzerland in 2001 but the idea flopped and the hotel was bought over in 2003, so Mackers is essentially back to food again. we are just exploring the possibilities of having another one in the US now. won't it be so interesting if it is successful? sleeping with Ronald MacDonald's and friends. :)
okay back to the report.
ps. i am so gonna have Grainwaves now. ahhh horrible weather making me all greedy again.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
holy fridays
just had the best lifegroup/bible study/youth fellowship yet tonight. it was so awesome to exchange, share and learn so much more about Christ through discussions as simple as tonight's. no paper, no bible (well a little), no pens, no notes, just pure thoughts and discussions.
still remember there was this phase after i've just decided to receive Christ, i was worried if i can stay faithful and committed to my decision, i was worried if my decision was a rash one because everything happened so quickly. like in a blink of eye. like how can you change all that you've believed in your entire life in just one month? i find it hard to believe myself.
but things just happen, things just change. through God's grace of course. felisha gave me this book called Being Christian and there are five categories of christian experience in it; earnestly curious, recently committed, suddenly saved, lapsed but returning, committed but seeking reinvigoration.
i would say mine for sure to be suddenly saved. like literally suddenly saved. Thank You Lord more than anything else for that, and for filling my life with so much more now.
right i digressed. the point is my initial worries are redundant on hindsight. praying the saving prayer (which huishan lead me unknowingly into, i thought she was just gonna pray for me! haha well not that i wouldnt if i knew it's the saving prayer. looking back the whole thing's so funny now haha) isnt the end to the battle of Christianity. but really it just mark the start of our lifelong journey with Christ.
there is so much to learn of and so much to think about. even tonight's 3H discussion isnt enough, its amazing how each topic just link to the next bigger topic and how every one of them are as exciting as the previous's. i am just so intrigued to find out more about everything to not stay committed and faithful. its a lifelong journey! :)
then it came the issue of my church hunt in melbourne. what else can i say other than be thankful and more thankful? so many large and established churches in melbourne city catering to uni students; CrossCulture, LifeEx, PlanetShakers, so on, and i ended in this small church in Boxhill which requires a 30mins train ride to get there.
the church is so small everybody just knows everybody after at most 2 sunday services. but its really amazing just how much the values of that church coincide with my desired values of a church, and how fast i just sorta settled in and down. and the initial 'right' feeling when i got into the church. everything just fell nicely into place.
i'm now blessed with a group of kind-hearted and nice bunch of youths to support and grow spiritually together with, and with each passing day i just feel my faith strengthening and myself learning so much more. what else can i say?
Hallelujah! Thank You Jesus, Thank You Lord!
still remember there was this phase after i've just decided to receive Christ, i was worried if i can stay faithful and committed to my decision, i was worried if my decision was a rash one because everything happened so quickly. like in a blink of eye. like how can you change all that you've believed in your entire life in just one month? i find it hard to believe myself.
but things just happen, things just change. through God's grace of course. felisha gave me this book called Being Christian and there are five categories of christian experience in it; earnestly curious, recently committed, suddenly saved, lapsed but returning, committed but seeking reinvigoration.
i would say mine for sure to be suddenly saved. like literally suddenly saved. Thank You Lord more than anything else for that, and for filling my life with so much more now.
right i digressed. the point is my initial worries are redundant on hindsight. praying the saving prayer (which huishan lead me unknowingly into, i thought she was just gonna pray for me! haha well not that i wouldnt if i knew it's the saving prayer. looking back the whole thing's so funny now haha) isnt the end to the battle of Christianity. but really it just mark the start of our lifelong journey with Christ.
there is so much to learn of and so much to think about. even tonight's 3H discussion isnt enough, its amazing how each topic just link to the next bigger topic and how every one of them are as exciting as the previous's. i am just so intrigued to find out more about everything to not stay committed and faithful. its a lifelong journey! :)
then it came the issue of my church hunt in melbourne. what else can i say other than be thankful and more thankful? so many large and established churches in melbourne city catering to uni students; CrossCulture, LifeEx, PlanetShakers, so on, and i ended in this small church in Boxhill which requires a 30mins train ride to get there.
the church is so small everybody just knows everybody after at most 2 sunday services. but its really amazing just how much the values of that church coincide with my desired values of a church, and how fast i just sorta settled in and down. and the initial 'right' feeling when i got into the church. everything just fell nicely into place.
i'm now blessed with a group of kind-hearted and nice bunch of youths to support and grow spiritually together with, and with each passing day i just feel my faith strengthening and myself learning so much more. what else can i say?
Hallelujah! Thank You Jesus, Thank You Lord!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
awesome thursdays
sleep in thursdays are the best. waking up without the alarming ringgg of clocks. stopping by the window, taking in yet another beautiful day granted. leisurely prepare brunch. leisurely prepare for the afternoon lessons.
no rush , no hurry, no temper.
how nice to start a day like this everyday.
enjoyed brunch today. its baked apple oats with cinnamon sugar and garlic bread. eating oats make me feel healthier than i am.
check out my new school bag. :)
and i went for mama mia's musical yesterday night. all i can say is...
"mama mia~ here i go again. my my, how can i resist you? mama mia~ does it show again? my my, just how much i missed you"
no rush , no hurry, no temper.
how nice to start a day like this everyday.
enjoyed brunch today. its baked apple oats with cinnamon sugar and garlic bread. eating oats make me feel healthier than i am.
check out my new school bag. :)
and i went for mama mia's musical yesterday night. all i can say is...
"mama mia~ here i go again. my my, how can i resist you? mama mia~ does it show again? my my, just how much i missed you"
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
