Brrr

It's very chilly in the farm house today. While we totally gutted the house, i mean like down to the 2x4's I thought i did a good job of insulating. IF ever did this again, big IF, or if any of you ever do this, do blown in insulation. I'm beginning to wonder how good i did b/c it's COLD in here. When the wind comes out of the north on a very windy day like today we darn near freeze!! Our heat pump can't keep up and the temp has been 67 since i came downstairs at 7.
We put all new windows in accept the front two. I know that's where 80% of the cold air is coming in from. If we'd get the trim on the windows i think that would help dramatically!

Kiddos are sleeping and have been since 11!! I know way early but something about going to church on Sunday's wears them out. Heck it wears ME out!! Children sermon today consisted of C man going up but Miss A couldn't STAND to be left behind. 30 seconds in she comes waddling down the aisle (i'm upfront b/c i play the piano) he makes sure Pastor knows his sister is coming. Well she doesn't sit still for NOTHING and C man CLEARLY is not paying attention. She goes back to daddy and C'man yells for her to come back. She goes BACK and he extends his arms out for her to walk right in to and gives her the biggest hug. Precious but a little out of content when Pastor is trying to tell the other 2 about how baby Jesus will be in the manager tomorrow. So yeah....that's how it went today.

Going to try and make it to the city this afternoon. DH's aunt is back in the hospital. LONG story but tell me....if she's not home for Christmas would you still have Christmas in her home?? I guess will find out tomorrow if she gets to come home but Hospice needs to find someone to stay with her 24/7. Isn't that what nursing homes are for? And i didn't even know there was such a service. WOW!!

ok off to go get warmed up in the kitchen!!

Merry Christmas everyone!! We are off to my parents tomorrow AM and then Christmas day is a hubbub of activity.

12 Days of Christmas

This is pretty good!! Can someone tell me how i can make the video appear with out having to list it this way?? where the video/TV thing just appears??
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fe11OlMiz8

Presents are under the tree

We have presents under the tree!! Of course most of them are for friends and family, but still I got them wrapped and under the tree. C man help me deliver them to the tree. Figure since he 'knows' Santa he doesn't KNOW the difference between Santa and me wrapping them. I even manage to wrap a present for him while he ran another one to the tree.
Last night we met my parents at the local mall (1/2 way spot for us to meet) and we had C mans b-day meal. It was fun and he was totally hilarious when the staff sang Happy Birthday to him. I'll post pictures later.
I still have some presents i need to get, well I guess my DH does. Still nothing for his brothers. I don't know what he's going to do but maybe I just shouldn't worry about it. It's always a hard 'gathering' with his family. WE don't draw names and some years you get stuff from all 3 Brothers and there families and some years you don't. We simply can not afford to give everyone $25+ gifts but we do try to get each brother and SIL and $10-15 gift. I'm giving SIL's Tastefully Simple Beer Bread mix, variety of dips and a can of beer:) (that's for the mix of course) We don't get the nieces anything, way to many. I'd like to draw names, tried it once didn't fly. Tried doing a grab bag thing, not any raves reviews, so I guess....but it just bothers me b/c i feel very weird getting lots of gifts and not being able to give much back!? What do your families do??
My family, we draw names for the adults. $25 limit and that's that.
Oh and we got a Christmas card!! Here's the picture we used, not the best as C man either smiles like he is here or some goofy smile. But i like it and it looks good on our card!!
Oh shoot...i haven't downloaded it yet. I'll post it by itself later!!

Very moving!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zCdZwitrNoY

Happy Birthday

Our little man, or C'man, is THREE today. I want to share an email I'd sent to my dear friend Laura about the day he was born. I found it while cleaning up files on our computer and it moved me to tears as well as bring back the memories. Three years.....


So a year ago I was sitting here thinking this could be my last day here at work. Will it be today he’ll be born!? Shortly after lunch my cell ph rings…rock a bye baby tune. Oh my GOSH my heart skipped many of beats. Could this be IT!! Everyone that was at work with me, rushed to my office. It was BM's mom, BM's water broke. Come on up he’s coming!! So after saying my joyful good byes here at work I jumped in my car, called DH and said he’s coming!! It’s time!! I’ll meet you at the hospital!! I call mom, laura, ruth, and gosh I’m not even sure who else!!

Once to the hospital I was taken to the delivery room. Not sure how to approach the situation, I quietly walked in and was happily greated by BM and her mom. BM was having contractions and not even feeling them. We conversed the rest of the afternoon. To be honest I’m not even sure about WHAT!! DH made it and we all hung out for awhile. Then towards supper time it was decided we should go grab a bite to eat and let them have some quality family time. BM's dad and brother were there by then. Upon leaving her mom said, ‘go enjoy yourself, this is your last meal as just a couple’. We ate at subway, talking on the phone to everyone we could expressing our excitement. But we inhaled our food and got back to the hospital to find that BM was taking a bath. Her favorite!! We went to put our stuff in the family waiting room where BM's MOM came and said, she’s a 10, he’s coming!!!!!!! So we rushed down the hallway where we listened as our son was being born. Hearing her screaming brought tears to my eyes as I thought a/b the unselfish act she was doing. Going thru all this pain (she had no epidural) to give this child to a family knowing that she may never see again.

We stood in the hallway listening to her mom saying you can do it!! And I was saying push push sweety push!! I grabbed my phone calling my mom and LAURA. (remember that!!) You were the first to hear his cries!!! Yes he came out screaming!! BM's mom, came out and got us and said we could stand in the little room in labor and delivery. We quietly walked in and watched as our sweet baby boy laid whaling on the table to be cleaned up. Boy did he have a set of lungs. It felt like forever but here came BM's mom with our son warmly swaddled in blankets. She handed him to me and said ‘here he is’. I just cried and replied he’s beautiful!! I felt tears of joy and tears of sadness as his birth g’ma laid him in our arms!!

The next 72 hrs were long. But we also had some great time with BM. Times to encourage her in her future plans, thank her for this gift of life, and just how much we cared a/b her. We had some amazing moments that her, nor us, will ever forget. We met all the family, and I mean ALL the family, VERY ackward and will not let that happen again. We left that nite exhausted. I went to my parents thinking I’m a MOM!!

Emotions were high for me. I went from a wife to a mom and wife in less then 6 hrs. I was so happy but so emotionally warn out. Was I going to be a good mom? Would I love him like my own? Would BM be ok? Would he be ok? What happens if he stops breathing? I’m sure ‘normal’ questions and fear.

72 hrs later we left the hospital with our son. He was beautiful, amazing truly a gift from God and BM. We took some final pictures and said our goodbyes to BM and her mom. And then it was time for us to leave. Life began for us as we left that hospital as a family.

God bless BM for her decision. Our hope is that as this one year anniversary is here she continues to be happy with her decision. We are told she has had NO regrets. That she will continue to seek comfort in knowing he is loved and taken real good care of. That family and friends will continue to support her in any way she feels is needed. Not many days to past that we don’t think of her and wonder how she is. But we trust the Lord is taking good care of her and that she is loved by us.

Blessings to you BM. You made our dreams of having a family come true. Thank you!!









Three years ago NOW!!!


Goll it seems like that was just yesterday!! Now i'm off to find his CARS cupcake wrapper thingies that he took off with. Where would a 3 year old take them too?? Off on my mission.....

I'm here

Sorry I'm here....been having internet problems and been on the phone with my provider MANY of times in the last 48 hours. On hold with them right now. It's snowing pretty good here. Looks like a winter wonderland. Oh and i tried round number THREE of Christmas pictures. I'll post them too. I think i'm going to just stick with the first idea of writing a letter and on the back side putting pictures from through out the year.
OK posting now to see if this will work. What a mess I tell ya!!

Pictures Round One AND Two

We attempted pictures today. Note ATTEMPTED!! First attempt was at HyVee. Well Miss A was thrusting herself before we even got in the room to have them done. C'man didn't want to do much either or when he was ready the camera lady wasn't. Ahhh..the camera lady. She SUCKED and that's putting it nicely. After about 30 min of what felt like pure torture, and exhaustion, she suggested we see what we had so far and if we don't have any she'll save them and we can add to them the next time we 'try again'. So i knew heading out of the room, she didn't get any good shots. That would be NONE, Zero, ZIPPO!!! She said to me i'm so sorry i just don't feel good, i was up all night and i'm just not with it today and neither our your kids!!! EXCUSE ME??? You don't feel good so you come to work in the first place and contaminant my kids and ME and then you try to pass the buck on MY kids not being in the mood, or C'man has chapped lips. Nice try lady!!! So yeah didn't even look at them. She handed me a coupon for 3 free sheets and no sitting fee the next time. When i told her we live 40miles away i think she felt just a tad bad. What should i do?? Let it be?? complain?

So then it was out to JC Penny's. They had an opening. Mind you we had the kids out of there Christmas clothes. We ate and then got them ready. Well Miss A was her normal fussy self unless she could walk around. But C'man was in rare form. He had a blast. Posing like Mr Mini GQ!!! So we did get a 3yr old picture....his b-day is 12-13!! Oh and one pretty good one of him and A together. They seem to cooperate just a little better at Penny's. But i scheduled another appt for Monday LATE afternoon. Will try that.

In the mean time i fully intend on trying to take some myself. Will get our tree out (not REAL excited about that) and I'll put them in front of it and try it. I'd like to get something b/c it's much cheaper to order cards via snapfish then thru Penny's!! Which i won't do anyway....

Miss A has a horrible cough and it sometimes sounds like croup to me. C'man was up a lot coughing last night too. I really was seriously thinking a/b cxl my appt. I should have!

Working Cattle

For those of you thinking DH got beat up over some hot Thomas toy @ Target, fear not. He actually was beat up (by me) while working cattle. Let me explain. The day after T'giving isn't only for shopping but the day DH, his brother, dad and the vet work cattle. Working cattle means shots and de-nutting them. You know, Rockie Mountain Oysters?? Ever heard of them?? Well it's the nuts/testicle of a cow!! EWWW but you want to know what?? there are Rocky Mountain Festivals around here!! and 'stags' where the men EAT THEM!! They are a delagasie!! Yup people actually eat them. Around here the only ones eating them are the dogs and that grosses me out to no end then we're talking people eat them??? oooffftttaa.
In order to do this someone, DH, had to coral the cow into a shoot. From there the gate is slammed shut (brothers job), and well you know the other 'stuff is done' Well DH is the lucky one that usually ends up getting the cow coraled. The vet is a chicken and wants to do things in a more complicated way then DH and brother prefer which means more stress gets put on the cow. I mean come on, would you like to be shoved in a shoot and then realize you're going to get your manly hood chopped off. So the cow kicked DH in the knee and the door got slammed shut on his face.
That's what happened to poor dh. Every year he can get pretty beat up but this is the worse. Now he's hobbling around and that blood won't come off of his nose. His head is looking much better and actually so is his nose. I'll have to take an updated picture much to his displeasure.
There you have it. I know i have some readers that aren't familiar at all with this 'farming' stuff so if you have any questions, ask away:) Or email me.

Why NOT to go shopping....

This is what happens when you go shopping the day after Thanksgiving....

Thanksgiving 2007

Thanksgiving yesterday was quite by my parents. Just DH, myself and the kids. Then my G'pa and a family friend. The feast was great!! WAY to much food. I wished my camera wouldn’t have ran out of memory space and battery b/c I laughed so hard when I saw dad walk from the garage to the neighbors tree with this at least 12 ft board. Wondered what in the heck!?? Well he got the dogs toy stuck in the tree and he was going to try and get it out with that. Well mom and I watched and things were not going well. Shortly there after he was in the garage and out he came with a ladder. Oh my goodness he was going to climb the ladder AND use this 12 ft board that when lifted in the air that high got top heavy. I grabbed the camera but the sound wasn’t on. We called DH to go out and help b/c we (mom and I) knew this was going to end with either dad on the ground or the board thru a car windshield. Jeff got it out in one try but by then I was laughing so hard and the words coming out of dad’s mouth were hilarious. I so wish the sound, even if the video didn’t turn out, would have been on. You all would have been laying on the floor holding your stomachs!!

So yes that was a funny part of the day as well as C'man and G’pa eating the turkey NECK and HEART!! Oh my gosh is was horrible. Video below showing it….Carson thought it was the best thing since butter on bread.

We had plenty of food and everyone was stuffed. I brought some wine to wash it all down with. $4.99 WINE (is that even considered wine?!) but man we all thought it tasted pretty darn good!!

DH was crazy enough to go shopping this am. He shined his cell phone light in to my eyes @ 430 asking me if I wanted anything… I mubbled ‘you are freakin IN SANE’ Well he ended up not leaving till 7 (he said he had a gut ache) and yes he shopped. Best Buy wasn’t bad but Target was horrible. He called me and said ‘it’s NUTS in here. I’m shopping with 500 WOMEN who are nasty to one another and have no regards for anyone or thing” I chuckled and said THAT’S why I stay home.

He went to Lowes, Menards, HyVee AND K-Mart. I think he HAD to been smoking something to do all of that!!! Now he’s heading out to work cattle. I think he’ll be crashing by 6 tonite. If the shopping didn’t do him in the cattle most certainly will. Hopefully he has enough energy to stay alert with the cows. He’ll come home bruised, beatin and exhausted if he isn’t!

What did you all do for Thanksgiving?? Any family traditions shared? New ones started? Any hilarious moments at your gathering???

Thanksgiving

Yeah!! I can finally type. For the last couple days i could not post!? I did some reserach and made some changes....seems to be working. It's cold here. My feet are freezing, need to go get my fuzzy slippers on. What will i do when it's actually like 0 degrees out there instead of 32 now!? But it's the wind making it feel even colder.
Off to my parents tomorrow for Thanksgiving. Please take a moment and think about the things you are thankful for!! Just to be a little snarky, i'm thankful my kids are napping right now. It's been a tough couple days with them.

Gobble gobble....

She was a good one

I'm referring to my car of course:) My, or rather OUR, Honda Accord is gone. She has gone to a new home. Lots of memories in that car. We brought C man home from the hospital in that car.
DH leaving the hospital with Carson and I in back!!
Carson in the back of the Honda. It was SOOO cold!!

I drove it back and forth to work for SEVEN years. It's been to omaha who knows how many times for all my IVF trips. It's seen its days of happiness and sadness. Happiness when we brought C man home after all the discouraging trips to Omaha for IVF treatments. Man if that car could talk i'm sure she'd have some pretty good stories to tell. I bet she could tell of the time i had to pull over and give myself a shot and talked to myself outloud that i can do this!! Just poke yourself dog gone it and be done with it. Or the stories she could tell about talking myself out of tickets to mr cop man or the one hell of a ride we had bareling down a ditch at 60+ mph after loosing control. The one HAD to been a good one to hear recited:)
Carson now!!! Carson having one least seat in it.

So yeah, she went to a new home, and i think a good one at that. She started having some issues a/b 9 months ago, new tires needed, breaks, and then she got real sick and her check engine light came on. Luckly we were able to easily fix that however here again it came on and we sold it with it on. We didn't really need her anymore b/c i'm not driving to and from work and I wanted to scale back on expenses (insurance, licensing, etc) just didn't seem necessary to hold on to her.

So yeah, here you go an entire post, and a rather long one at that, about my CAR for gosh sakes!! but yes the memories it holds. Enjoy the pics and honda monda.....may you enjoy your new home.

Your faithful driver

Day after Halloween

Weeee...did we have fun last night trick or treating with th ekids. As you can see from there costumes aren't they just ADORABLE!! A was simply the cutest girl i'd seen all night. Cuter then the daycare baby whom are very close in age, she was a pumpkin and really, that fitted her if you know what I mean. We started off the afternoon with naps and then i tried C's costume on. Lion #1 new this year, well i got it at a garage sale. He did NOT like it. He's been scared of that thing now since I took it out of the bag. BUT he did not have a problem wearing the one her wore last year. Then miss A who has a terrible cold slept ALL afternoon. WE dressed her after she finally woke up and caputured some great shots of the two of them.

We ate at club casmo http://www.clubcasmo.com/ before heading to a couple homes and then to the nursing home. It is so nice to do this inside however it had to been 100 + degrees in there. I really like the man who for every 1 piece of candy he'd hand out, he pocketed 4 for him. hehe A caught on real quick that the residents had candy in there buckets!! C was polite and said his thank you's after taking a HANDFUL of candy. Some residents were trite that they only could have 1, or 2 but others, they'd say 'ohhhh sweetie...take MORRRREEE' i was like no really this is quite enough b/c they'll stop on there way back up the hall. They scored more candy then will ever eat. I think just a couple weeks ago i thru out some of last years!! We aren't real big candy eaters here.

Exhaustion settled in and colds were getting the best of the kids. It was good to get home and C didn't want to get out of his costume. Enjoy the shots!

Rough nite of sleep for all. I woke up @ 315am to A's light on. There she sat in her bed and C was sitting in her rocking chair. I shooed him back to bed protesting like crazy. He didn't fall back to sleep till @ 515!! Grrrr on top of this i came downstairs this AM to the rug gone in the dining and kids room!! Apparently Mocha must have ate some road kill and crapt'd it out all over the freakin place!! DH said i'm glad i didn't see it. I replied, 'no you're glad I didn't see it' So he's doing his carpet cleaning this AM bright and early. Dang dog!!

early at em

I spent ALL day selling purses at an employee fair of some sorts. Man what a long day. Up at 6 kids to sitter by 7 and they were not happy with me. C man would crawl in bed every time i turned my back. A was happy to be woken up but that changed once at the sitters. We left in the dark.....it's been JULY since we've been up this early and here of lately i'm lucky if i'm awake BEFORE 7!! C stood by the van and profused loudley that he did not want to go to gingies (sitter) and that he was even willing to go back to bed. I left him clinging to the van door while i took Miss A in. She sreamed so loud it woke up the 5 kids sleeping on the floor and i believe the neighbors! Back out to bring C kicking and screaming in to which A was quite b/c she was amused with his screaming. I go to hand him off to the oldest boy and by the time i turn my back they BOTH are screaming, crying, ahhhhh I shut the door and thought thank God i do not have to do this every day. ( i also couldn't help but smile and say a day of not hearing that)

DH picked them up and i left the 'fair' hr early. Enough was enough i was ready to get out of there. Barely made enough to pay the sitter. Came home to the kids playing in the yard and they were fairly happy to seem me but knew that it now would be time to come in. More screaming and protesting. DH left to unload wagons and I ate listening to them scream, whine, you name it. I do need to call the sitter and find out what they ate for lunch b/c i sure as heck can't figure it out based on what C is telling me. A was sleeping by 710 and C by 730. They both have colds, as does DH. I'd rather the kids have colds then DH, what a baby....but anyway

All is quite and i'm ready to turn in myself.

Night night!!!!

Road Trip 101

Butt buzzers....hate them dam things!! You know those things that are warning you to stop....those things that if you go over at 3 mph will shake the entire contents of your fully loaded van so hard that even your teeth clatter. Yeah...those things.
The kids and I went on Mankato MN where my sister and her family life. We left Thursday after the funeral. Which was very sad as to be expected. I got stuck behind 3 gravel trucks for the first 45 min of the 3 1/2 hr drive. So when we came to those rumble bars i had to go very slow over them. That woke the kids up who'd only been sleeping for 45 min!! I just about turned around i was so mad. They were a little on the fussy side and who could blame them. They probably thought the world was caving in on them.
We ended up having to stop 1 1/2 in to the drive at mcdonalds and play at the germville they had there. I hated to have them crawling around in there but i knew they wouldn't make it otherwise and it was to cold to do anything else.
We made it to Mankato and the rest of the trip there was uneventful Addie did end up falling asleep again. We went to the Mall of America on Friday. Grrr....it wasn't so bad till we had to eat lunch with 5000+ of my BFF's. Holy moly..it was like a feeding troft. Finding a place to sit was the worst and then standing in line and then sitting down trying to feed to small kids while everyone is bumping in to me, kids are trying to escape and THREE times water spilled on me. Our own, but none the less. Do NOT attempt to eat in the cafe court. Go to one of the nice sit down places. Well worth the money to keep you sane!!
Saturday we went to a pumpkinland and that was fun. FINALLY no rain that day and we saw the SUN!! Unbelievable but we did!
Sunday AM we left for home and once again the kids slept for like 1 hr of the trip. We did stop at my parents tho which is 1 hr from being home. That was a nice break and really the kids did great sitting in the car.
I think my van is very happy to be home. My sister drove to the mall and p'kin land and i swear to god that van was pushed harder then it ever had been. Man that women is a crazy driver. She thought the breaks were bad on the van, i politely said no....i think it's just you.
But we did have a nice time and it was a nice break and change of scenerary. Niece 'jo jo- 12 yrs old, had fun with her cousins and they all got to experience first had A's lovely screaming!!
ok folks i'm outta here....The Hills are on!! That show rocks my world:)

I hate it

I hate suicide. Now seriously who really 'likes' it. Why am i even blogging about this!? Well we got news Sunday nite that DH's cousin did it. He shot himself!! Dam it!! WHY!?? Didn't he know what it would do to everyone!? Didn't he think about his father? His brother? his nieces, his family that loved him so much?? What was he THINKING!!!
He has been battling depression, bi-polar, and who knows what else for YEARS!! Probably since he was born some 50+ years ago. He was on meds but he's feel better and stop taking them. Once a year, or more, he'd receive shock treatments and it was being noted amongst my husband & BIL that this last treatment wasn't seeming to work.
I could go on and on about the last couple years and what has all happened to the poor guy but what good would it do. We all leave hard lives from time to time and while we may not have the depression, bi-polar, etc we all have our moments when we look from the ground up and think can i ever pull myself up!??
DH says his aunt is very bitter. I say she has every right to be BUT we can not begin to imagine how he was feeling. We don't know what it's like to feel so badly that you'd want to shoot yourself. People in this situation can't see past the moment they simply can't.
I can remember back to my IVF cycles and with each failed cycle i would wonder, what next? How much lower to the ground can i fall and still keep going. The last IVF cycle i did I hit rock bottom. I was lower then dirt, i was in the hole. I seriously could not see any sort of light what so ever. I cried in desperation to God saying' Why me?' Why are you doing this to me? How can you want to see me hurt so bad.
Maybe this is just some of what he was feeling!? Maybe he felt 10 ft UNDER. I dug myself out of that hole and stood up stronger then ever and said you have a plan for me?? Show it to me!!! But he couldn't see that. He hurt to much to pull his head up. His burdens were to heavy. Can you imagine feeling so burden you can't lift your head up!? How long had he been feeling this way? Years? Months? Days? Or maybe even just a couple min. We don't know. But now we need to pull ourselves up from wherever we are and look forward. We as a family need to support those left behind and encourage one another.
Suicide is tough. It's hard to put a positive spin on this funeral. This isn't the 2nd suicide funeral i've been to but dear GOD i pray it's the LAST!!
May he rest in peace. Peace from his illness. God loved him and God knew he was sick. God will clear his mind now and allow him to live a life of freedom. But his poor dad, his poor dad. To loose a son that you loved so much to something as tragic as suicide. I simply can not imagine. I simple can not.
I'll stop now as tears are welling in my eyes making the monitor very blurry.....will miss you Dennis. Will miss hearing about how much you love your dog, the stories of the college basketball teams you followed with such passion. You were a good man, friend, son, brother, uncle, cousin and master to your dog.

tough life

Hello!! Sorry for the absence. I really have SO much i could blog about that it's almost easier to jsut not blog as to not overwhelm any readers.
Last week was a tough week for me. Especially Thursday. Addison is not sleeping well at nite and Carson is extremely whiny and not napping well. Thursday was the breaking point for me. I cried more then i smiled that day. EVERYTHING was going wrong and i felt i was living someone elses life. It took all my strength to put one foot in front of the other. Jeff is harvesting which means spending ALL day alone with the kids. The days can get long. My eyes burned so bad Friday from all the crying. Do you ever get that feeling like 10 lb sandbags on your eyelids!? I do not operate well with little sleep. That's why i don't want anymore kids. I need my sleep, and like 6 hrs at least and would prefer 8!!
Things are going better this week which includes Carson taking good naps, 2 hrs and addie!? Well she's still waking up during the nite but i let her CIO. BUT i don't think she woke up last night. Can't even remember.
I had two purse parties saturday and that made for a pretty good day!

So today i somehow caught some of Oprah. It was Dr Oz answering questions from males in the audience. He said that sex 4 x's a day can increase the life of your husband. Shit, it's not looking good for J.

Edited to change the sex to 4 x's a day was supposed to be 4x's/WEEK!! I about fell off my chair when i saw i typed /DAY!! Man not only would he be dead, so would I!!!

Random thoughts and statements

Since I don't want to write a book here i'll see if i can make some random thoughts and goings within the walls of the farm house:)

Carson: He got to ride on Thomas the tank yesterday. It was passanger cars with thomas pulling us. He enjoyed it accept for the loud horn blowing. His favorite tho was the toy tent where he scored some great new thomas toys thanks to G'ma L and the extra money she sent with us.

He continues to crack me up with his sentences. Like any time i'm in the kitchen baking or cookie he'll ask 'cup of sugar?' or 'ummmm cup of sugar' Said matter of factly. We went to our schools homecoming parade too last nite and that was probably more fun then Thomas. He loved getting the candy, waving and looking at the sirens.

Addison: She rode Thomas too and enjoyed her little ride as well. No thomas toys for her tho. She is developing a stronger and stronger temper every day. She HATES her changing table like no other i've seen. But her smiles are plenty. She can walk however chooses not to unless all attention is on her. She prefers her scootin. Still will wake up screaming bloody murder throughout the nite but most times she'll put herself back to sleep within 1-5 min. Little stinker...scares the crap out of me to be awakin that way.

Jeff: He's anxiously waiting to get in the field. The chopping is done and like Thomas, the combine has made its yearly appearance. Oh the stories i could tell you all about 'the combine' It can be the most worthless piece of crap when it's not working, which um....is most of the time. Although last year they got a different one and things went smoother. The 'old' one should rest in junk yard piece but every year the guys seem to resurrect it.

Me: I'm hanging in here at home. I'm starting to enjoy it and feel good about what i'm doing. My purse parties have just taken off, in fact next sat. I'm doing two!! Just when i get used to being home and trying to put out of my mind all the things i left behind at my old place, i get a call from a large employer in the area. I know the HR person, she's C's godmother, and they have a job opening. The are looking for someone to join there marketing/advertising dept. M-F 8-430. Pay starts at $13 and you must have a BS degree. I really can say i'm not interested for a number of reasons:

hours

pay

position

just to name a few. But part of me is thinking turn in your resume, take the tests they need you to take, and just see what happens. Maybe i'll be to good for them to not think hey lets work with her. Ideally, work from home at least 1/2 the time or work part time and then i'd have to make more too. I left making quite a bit more then that however i have to consider the average wages in this area, $13/hr is pretty high. But yeah i really want to be home with my kids and wouldn't want to work a 5 day week. I also would have to find daycare, blah blah you get the point and i'm seeing it too. No go. But i will ask them to keep me in mind for small/temp jobs or in 6 years.

so yeah that's been the coming and goings. I have an entire post i could do on my 'friend' who is pregnant and wants to give the baby up. She is more of an aquantince and someone i'm trying to help out and minister to her. But yeah my mind is flooded right now with way to many things.

Thanks for sticking to reading this all and feel free to comment on anything or everything.

Am I cut out for this

I'm starting to wonder if i'm cut out for this SAHM business. Man I want to love it and be happy but i'm struggling. The days get long, the kids have been whinny, and i'm exhausted. I feel like i'm doing a crap job b/c the kids are so demanding. But then, like now, when they are sleeping i start to feel re-energized. But then they wake up so quick and i'm thrown back in the ring. My patience levels are about maxed out. I so wish just one nite every two weeks even, i could get together with other moms over drinks and greasy food:)

Aren't they sweet tho playing side by side, even if A is eating SAND

BUT i am still getting ready for my garage sale and i'm feeling very good about that. I have so much stuff it's rather sad. I had a friend buy over $53 worth of A's stuff and another one coming to go thru C's stuff. Then i have gobs of home interior stuff and then mine and my moms clothes! Wooohooo..not sure what i'll do with the money, assuming i'll make some:) The money i make off the kids clothes i plan on keeping cash on hand for things that pop up that they need (socks, underwear are MUCH needed right now) That money is theres, but everything else, for me. Suggestions??





Then on the purse front i have officially booked my september with parties. I'm so stoaked. So that boosts my confidence. I currently have 4 with a 5th in the works.





Offer me suggestions on what i could do with the garage sale money:)


Later

Playing in sandbox

When it rains it pours

That statement has GOT to be my motto, and literally it did that this AM. At about 9AM it got so dark in the house I had to turn lights on. Then the phone rings, it's my MIL wanting me to go to there house and look on FIL's desk for MONEY that they/he LOST. They are on vacation somewhere b/w IA and CO and apprantley he can not find his money. He thinks someone stole it, MIL thinks it's sitting on his desk at home. Cops are coming, inlaws are in a panic. Note to everone, THIS is why one does NOT travel with cash. Well maybe $100 b/c you will find that if you need towing, tire fixed, etc companies will not do it unless you have cash to pay them. So anyway, miss A is down for a nap and the skys just open up and it pours. It pours so hard the rain can't get out of the window sills fast enough and the wind is horrendous. I'm not going anywhere for sure!

I call her back and tell her when the rain stops i'll go. After about 30 min of drenching downpours, it lets up. I get A up from her nap buckle her in Honda, then C who has now pee'd in his pants, look under the car and make sure no kittens are under and start the car. Well the check engine light is on and the car sounds horrible. So turn off the honda move the kids to the van, which has VERY LITTLE gas (little trip to the lakes yesterday to late by the time we got home to put gas in) and drive to the farm. Well, i get there to fine my BIL's pickup in the garage. I walk in and there he is looking for the money talking to my MIL. I was FURIOUS. I said why didn't someone call me? He said he tried but got no answer and was just a tad snarky with me. I replied 'Well if I don't answer it's probably b/c i'm on my way over here and why didn't you call my cell phone, my honda sounds like crap, i had to wake A up to get over here, the van has like no gas, I have a leak somewhere in my attic, C pee'd his pants, and all this b/c i was trying to get over here!!! Thanks a lot' and i stormed out in tears.

I know maybe a little dramatic, but if you don't know my by now, i am dramatic but not overly. I don't think, others would disagree. OH and i had to move the stinken yellow pickup (yeah the pickup that was buried in snow this spring) in which i had to just let off the break and let it coast back till i slammed the breaks and made it come to a SCREECHING HAULT right in the gravel. Darn near gave myself whiplash. So yeah, lovely day!!!!!!!!!

There's more but this is the gist of it and probably more then enough for you all to read. I'm home obviuosly and the kids are napping for what i hope is a couple hours. They had to endure me during all of this. When i got in the van from storming out of inlaws house, C says 'what wrong mommy' so sincere!!

***********i'm also going to start making my blog private. I want to know whos out there reading it, if anyone. It's to protect my family and all the freaks out there that i don't want seeing pics of my kiddos and who knows whatelse may appear on it. So please, take a moment and drop me an email and let me know you're reading it and i'll grant you access to it. Thanks so much!!

I'm going to go wring out my umbrella and surf the net:)

crazy day and it's only mid afternoon

OK so this is one of those days where i need to blog:) Lets start back this AM. C was whiny all AM. He wanted a 'dippy' (sippy) he wanted to lay on the couch, he just was being a whiny kid. Miss A had a hard time going down for her nap. It probably had nothing to do with the fact i missed the timeframe b/c i was busy putting totes and garbage bags of stuff up in the attic. It wasn't 120 degrees up there so i took advantage of that. Well as i'm sitting at the computer, i see a motorcycle at the end of the driveway. First thought is what is my BIL doing here!? AND my dogs HATE cycles. Then the light goes on, the appraiser was to be here today!! CRAP i didn't even have a freakin bra on. I was like running thru my house trying to find one and pick up a couple things. I thought i have a/b 1 min to get my bra on before he's at my door. But wait, what about the dogs out there about to take his leg.

Well i went for getting the bra on, on the opposite side of the house being aware of any windows, then out to get the dogs. It ended up that i had plenty of time b/c he had to take pictures, blah blah. Did i mention I wasn't even sure C was clothed. Thank goodness he was! As we're outside C decided to pee. Off comes the bottomw and he hangs his 'stuff' over the cement and pees. I was like oh geez louise!!

Once inside C was just thrilled to have a visitor to which the appraiser replies 'one thing about farm kids, they sure get exicted to see company' i was like what the $!(@#* it's not like we live in a CAVE!!

OK so he leaves and it's time to get lunch ready and get the kids to bed. C won't go down and neither will A. I'm rocking A he's crying. I rock him A's crying. AHHHH eventually all is quite and i sneek down to finish my COLD lunch when i here C whimpering again. I thought he was asleep!? Go up there and take him in bed with me. He falls asleep i think sweet....well that lasted a/b 20 min and he was down here.

At that point i here someone come bareling down our driveway. I thought maybe it was DH hauling a wagon. He's at an auction today. It was the UPS man. WHY DOES HE HAVE TO DRIVE LIKE A BAT OUTTA HELL!! THen he honks his horn. So all 3 dogs are flipping out. I run out there get my box and he leaves. But by then Miss A is fussing. I let her be and i haven't heard a peep but now C is down here laying on the couch.

I think tonite i might go to a movie ALONE! Never would have done that in my earlier years, but the idea of a nite alone is sounding just fine. Oh and yesterday was another dentist appt for C. I'll blog about that later. I'm blogged out!

She's ONE

I tried posting this yesterday but it wouldn't let me. So here it is today. This farm house now has a 2 yr old AND 1 yr old!! Miss A turned ONE yesterday. I couldn't believe it where did the year go. At nap time I sat upstairs in the rocking chair and rocked her as she babbled away as if she was telling me about how in 16 years i'll be taking her to get her drivers license. NOOOO....I had tears streaming down my face as she fell asleep in my arms and i thought about how lucky i am. After all the IVF treatments and the adoption process and here I sat with this child that I thought I'd never have. God definately had a plan in mind for us and sometimes I wonder if i messed with his plan by doing the IVF cycles. It's like he wanted us to adopt and then he blessed us with a pregnancy. Not many people can have this many experiences in there journey to be a parent. Although it was through all those IVF's that made my faith in God come out! Anyway, she is a little chunker now, she was so petite when she was born. She has quite a personality of wanting things now and her way. She hates being told no and if she's by the TV her brother will come over and gently pull her down. She'll sit down, clench her fists and growl. She's easily excited. She jumps up and down on her toosh and flings her arms. She loves to eat and while she isn't TO picky she loves her grapes and yogurt.
We celebrated the day by going on a little road trip with friends of ours and then out for breakfast. She had a great nap almost all afternoon and we went out to eat with DH's parents and brother.
Happy Birthday Baby and we wish you MANY more!

Uggg

Wow what a night. I'm not sure what Miss A's problem is but she will NOT sleep. She has a cold, maybe getting some teeth but last nite was horrible. She went to bed by 7 after barely napping all day and at 1030PM she as up. I thought it had to be like 3 AM. I had just fallen asleep. I was so annoyed. I don't handle this waking up business very well. Never have, never will. I need my sleep, uninterupted too. DH has a cold so i now i have THREE sick babies. I'm sure my turn is coming. So, we were up till midnight. We would set her down and she'd play and be happy then in 2 min she was wailing. I tried earlier to let her CIO (cry it out) and DH came and took her. She fussed off and on sleeping a couple minutes here and there. Finally around midnight she fell asleep in DH's arms. I finished my shopping @ this online pharmacy store. The only place I could find A's binkies. So i took her and she immediatly woke up. At which point DH took her in the the bedroom downstairs and i went upstairs. I couldn't take it ANYMORE.

6AM DH wakes me up, he's leaving for work. A slept 6 hours of which 3 of them were restless. I came downstairs and of course she wakes up and starts crying at the site of me. Hmmm...i felt like doing the same!

9AM she is now sleeping!!!!!

Mr C man is watching Spongebob, one episode. Show drives me nuts. He is a little touchy too but at least he sleeps at nite. That is once he falls asleep. The crib is coming down and he's going to have to sleep in the toddler bed. He gets out of the crib. He loves his crib but if he can get out then it's time to go the toddler bed.

Daddys little girl and she's needing more daddy time. Obviously this was taken a couple weeks ago.

I'm tired, have had a neck ache and just need a break. Oh crap, i've been at this 4 weeks now and i'm already saying i need a break. I knew this stay at home wouldn't be easy but i'm EXHAUSTED! THis is the longest i've sat in probably 4 weeks, aside from sleeping. My patience level leaves a lot to be desired. DH is working this week at the post office so at least he's out of my hair. I can be such a schedule person. Doesn't have to be minute by minute but i like some structure. As in DH leaving to go do farm work by 7 or 8 and then coming home 5-6. Does that make sense?

No regrets a/b leaving my job just wish i could get a better handle on staying home, or on me!

Cultural Experience

This farm wife and mother just came from quite the cultural experience. Now I hope that sentence didn't come off that I live in the middle of the USA and have had NO cultural experiences. I've actually traveled to most of the states here, was a nanny in Chicago, visited our Foreign Exchange student in China Town NY, not to mention the many summers spend in New York City, as my mom grew up near NYC. But tonight was interesting. My BIL (brother in law) got married, this would be Jeff's brother, to a Vietnamese lady. I'm not sure how they communicate as she speaks little English, but I like her. I think this is a MUCH better match then his first wife. They couldn't communicate either and they both spoke English!

But yeah, lets see. The wedding was at 11 AM, weird time. So the kids and I didn't attend. We went to the reception which started at 5pm. It was at a Chinese Restaurant that they closed down for the reception. It was a NINE course meal!!! We had it all, I need to try and get a copy of the menu to give one an idea of it all. But besides the meal they had karaoke. Well imagine twangy music and then people singing in Vietnamese. I'm sorry if i offend anyone, but it was HORRIBLE I mean THREE HOURS of sangggg sunnngggg sooooo whaaaaa. My poor C man was covering his ears. It was ear piercing, gut wrenching. It was so bad that i just laughed so hard I was crying. I mean the 80 yr old g'ma even sang. Then we had the future Vietnam. Idol give it a shot. Remember William HUNG?? Well it was like that but worse on the singing!! Oh, lets see we had a couple duets with Mr Move and Mr Freeze face.

Oh and my car that they borrowed b/c it's white. Let me tell you i ought to get an extra $500 for that way that was decorated. It was done tastefully but i could just see my Honda blushing!! BUT BIL is trying to sell it for me. I'm sad about that, I'll post about that another time.

Of course we had to create our own drama when DH put Miss A in the high chair much against her will. He didn't put her legs b/w the straps and out she came BUT she got stuck. What a drama. People yelling to try turning her head someone else saying no no, pull her up, I think i actually froze. The waitress came at that point and took care of it all for us. For once DH actually realized he screwed up by doing it. That was a first. She was a horrible fuss bucket from that point on and we were only to course 6!!

So yeah, more cultural things were done. like going to each table and having a toast. That my FIL (father in law) would have nothing of. At one point our names were read and we had to go stand up front and everyone clapped, and other speeches. For all we know they were probably talking about us and how we all our stupid:) Who knows couldn't understand it. DH actually said that was one place he wouldn't have minded singing b/c it couldn't have been any worse then what was being sung.

OK I'll stop the ramblings. I do think that i asked those of you whom i know via my old job to email me, but I'm not sure i have my address listed anywhere. Email me at likelabs@yahoo.com

OK everyone farewell till the next time. The people within this ol' farm house are exhausted and in need of just peaceful music.

I'm home

Here i am now a stay at home mom, and loving it It is so wierd to just enjoy the day. No worries a/b having to wake up at 6AM and making sure i get to bed on time. No thoughts thru out the day of wondering what my kids are doing without me. No crying from the C Man when i leave each AM or no horrible crabby moods to come home too. I can get supper ready all day if i want. I don't have to rush around trying to manage kids, husband and supper all in the first 15 min of me getting home at night. No more work 'issues' nonsense crap brought on b/c someone has to much time on there hands. No more eating at 1130 every day and be careful to make sure i'm back or done eating by 1230. So yeah, i'm glad to be home! It has it's challenging moments but all in all so far so good.

Yesterday after nap time Mr C and I went to town to pick up insurance quotes, mail letters and get some groceries all while daddy stayed home with miss A. I found baby kittens in our barn so the last two AM's we make trips out to see them. Evenings have been spents outside watching C and A swim. Miss A gets me up b/w 6-630, but it just doesn't seem so bad having her wake me up vs my alarm. Yeah i'm still very tired and probably will be the rest of my life. BUT i could lay down and take a nap if I really needed too.

We are planning on heading out East here in september so i'm busy checking out airfare. Speaking of East coast, my Easy coast friends, please if any of you read this drop me a quick note so i can have your email address!! Didn't get that before leaving.

Ok mommy needs to get some lunch!! Babies are sleeping

I have RESIGNED

WEll folks, i did it! I have resigned from my job. I didn't leave on the terms i wanted to, but i must look forward now. I had 2 things that I said if happened i would resign. They were 1. work Fridays and 2. move my office from the tec bldg to the other bldg (the hen house) well the later happened today.
This is no rush decision i made. I have moved my office in the last NINE years more then 15+ times. I have been pooped on way to many times and enough was enough. Prior to me leaving last year on maternity leave some things were said to me that really hurt. I didn't want to come back and the only thing that made me go back was knowing i'd be in an office with the guys. WEll a couple weeks ago they changed who i had to 'report' too and that came to me in an email, didn't appreciate that AT ALL. But i got over it. Well today this thing came to me in an impromptu meeting called my the manager. Just told me Rachel your're moving back over here. Ok i thought.....i'm outta here. They were busy visuallizing how everything was going to look and eye contact by my 2 favorite co-workers was not looking at me. They knew what was coming.
Came back to my office, called my mom went and talked to two of the guys and then typed up my resignation. Office manager came over to 'talk to me' but the damage was done. I handed her my resignation. She left, came back later with the other 'manager' see here are you following all these 'manager's one of our problems is we have to many chiefs and not enough indians!!
They tried to persuade me otherwise but by then I saw an email come in from my dad saying 'Way to go' I'm never disappointed in you' I said i just got all the affirmation I needed from my husband and my dad.
Well then they told me I could leave at noon. THAT HURT!! I was fully planning on staying the 2 weeks and tying up the loose ends of which were MANY! I really lost it at that point. Of course not till they were gone and the two guys i work with came up and were shocked at what they just told me a/b leaving at noon.

SOOOOO here i am AT HOME!! I'm a STAY AT HOME MOM=SAHM that's me!! Dam proud too. I'm hurt that after 9 years i ended like this. Hurt that the real manager never came over to talk to me. Hurt that they didn't talk to me a/b this prior, but you know, that's life. It's full of hurts and disappointments and in the long run, i'm coming out ahead.

God will make it work, i know He will!! There were some things that kind of fell in to place prior to today that makes me think God was orchestrating this. But now i must not get discouraged being home. I must be happy for my hubby. I must not complain.

Dad called me this evening to see how i was doing. He said he's releaved for me and he even started to cry as we talked a/b me not ever disappointing him. Did i tell you he's an owner. There will be lots of explaining to come i'm sure, at the next board meeting. One of the owners daughters LEFT!? What the @#*$( happened!! Dad said an email was sent to the board members that i had quit, HATE that word. Said that i will be greatly missed...blah blah. Why am I always making the sacrifices and being pooped on. Myself and one other girl i work with always get the short end of the stick. We really do I'm not making this up.

So yeah, I'll stop now this has gotten way long. DH was over here saying are you recappng your story?? I replied yeah but i'm not sure any one even reads this. LOL Shot out if you do!

Well i should be able to blog more often now!!

Laura is Coming

My dear friend Laura ie LaLa, is coming from NEW JERSEY TOMORROW!! YEAH!! I met Laura when we sold her and her hubby 2 lab puppies, back in the day when we raised pups. It's amazing how God brought us together. Lets see, that would have been 4 years ago?? I posted an ad somewhere on the internet, she searched for Black Labs and came up with my ad along with a couple others. We continued to email back and forth till she said she would take ours. Did you catch that, TWO LABS!! Now we would have to ship these little lovers too!! What an experience but it was amazing. We continued to keep in touch.

I was rather interested in her life story and her love for labs. I wondered if she had kids, found out she didn't. I was going thru one of my SIX freakin mind you, IVF cycles, and wondered what her life story was. Well as i always say God brings people in to my life for a reason. She had walked in my shoes some years earlier. It was AMAZING!! I was going thru IVF with NO support from anyone that 'had done' it and here I meet this lady who knows EXACTLY what i'm going thru. Trust me, unless you've done IVF you do NOT know what it's like. Another post about that some time later.

So we shipped to lab puppies to her that she was going to suprise her husband with! It was so exciting. Marley and Dreyfus now live a WONDERFUL life in Stockton NJ. They have a great place to run around, swim and they even get spa treatments. They have a wonderful doggy hotel that they stay at and i'm telling you these dogs live a better life then most kids!

These dogs brought Laura and I together and we have formed a relationship/friendship that is just amazing. I've been out to see her and her here. We email sometimes daily, sometimes every other day. We've seen eachother thru sadness and happiness. Lauras dear daddy passed away during the early years of our friendship. I was still getting to know her then but it was very sad then already to see my friend hurting. It was then i knew we had something. THEN she saw us thru the many IVF cycles and then on to adoption. She was on my cell phone when Carson took his first cries!! She was on one phone and my mom on Jeff's phone. She was there, miles away, but she was there. She cried tears of joy with me!! It was the most amazing moment for me. Sob sob i have tears in my eyes now!!!

Then she was the first person I called that Christmas Day evening when i took a pregnancy test and it was POSITIVE. I called her right away. We cried, we cheered, we laughed we were also speechless. Then 9 months later i called her within seconds of Addison being born. To be honest, i really don't even remember that conversation. And you want to know who addison is named after?? Laura's mother. Her mother goes by Addie and i always loved that name.

Laura and her husband own a restaurant, here check it out www.chamberswalk.com I tell you i'm so dang proud of them. This place is amazing!! Please take a moment and check out the site. For my NJ friends, we shall meet here some day when i'm out there for lunch!!

So my eyes are now tearing up again. Tearing up for the joy Laura has brought in to my life. Everyone should have a friend like her. I could go on and on about her. I'm actually very blessed to not only have her as one of my very dear friends but also Shannan and Erica. Posts on them too some day!! So Laura....i can't WAIT TO SEE YOU!! I just can't wait!!
Love ya and thanks for being such an amazing, wonderful, great, trustworthy, honest friend. God blessed me when he brought you in to my life! Safe travels!!

C sliding in to pool

Eyes

SEVEN days from now i'll be free from my glasses!! Lasik surgery HERE I COME!! Went for my pre-op today. Had to get my eyes dilated 3 times what they normally would do. It was horrible. I had to wear those sexy glasses thingys and then drive back to work. Once at work and looking at my computer my eyes told me i was drunk but my brain said nope!! I couldn't do it. Everything was just a blur. So i left early. Actually driving wasn't to bad with my sunglass thingys.
Shocked the babysitter by being home 3 1/2 hrs early. Yesterday Jeff walked in the house and she was in the bathroom with the door open LOL!!!!! Jeff was in front of the door when she said 'ah, i'm in the bathroom and the door is NOT shut' Jeff was WAY more embarrased then she was. When you walk in from the garage you see the mirror in the bathroom which shows everything. Still getting a good ol' chuckle out of that one!
C got to swim this afternoon in the swimming pool. Mom and dad bought us a new one b/c we thought our old one was broke. It wasn't we just didn't have the right air plugs in. So now we have TWO b/c we didn't figure that out till AFTER we opened the new one. It's not inflated yet so maybe I can squeze it back in the box?? Yeah RIGHT:)

Kids are upstairs. C is learning to go to sleep with NO BINKY!! Last nite he kepts saying 'binky. binky' and i was like HERE!! Now tonite he's not asking for it, just wants his daddy. But all is quite now. @ 15 min of crying he did, or whining.

Our 'farm' not our house but the actual farm place/home place is being over ran by skunks. Well guess WHAT BOJI got sprayed!! A momma skunk and 4 little ones were somewhere and boji found them. Jeff said the momma ran boji down. It's not HORRIBLE but i have given him one bath (outside in the doggy pool) with Plumeria bubble bath. One hot smellin dog he is!!

C is whimpering again....if i go up there i know i'll cave and give him a binky....hohum... I think he's getting out of his crib. Time to go see what's going on...that noise didn't sound good!

More vidoe of Parade

Parade

Parade Time

We were in our first parade today!! The town near us was having a 125th celebration and C, DH and I were in the parade. What with you ask?? MY PURSES!! I was a BAG LADY. Daddy and C drove a lawnmower. NO purses attached to him. It was hotter then....well you know what. My gosh pushing that cart filled with purses was no easy task and i bet the parade was over 1 1/2 miles long. People were great. They loved my 'bag lady' idea, oh I didn't mention that I borrowed a grocery cart:) Many people took pictures of me and then of DH and C. C had much fun throwing canie...i know, CANDY but he calls it 'fro canie' although he never did get it down to throw it to the people, not before or after we went by them. Then he'd shake his bag wanting more...mo...mo he'd sign to us. He did wave to people and i'll try to attach a short clip of that.

Miss A was with her Godmother enjoying the parade from the shade of some great trees. She was happy to see us when we went by. I had this fear that'd we walk down the street knowing knowone and everyone would be like...oh...BORING...but they weren't and i knew many people. Especially the guy that said 'Hi RACHEL..' I was like do i know you? He said yeah you do...come to find out he was doing that to everyone and then i remembered i had my name on the cart. Dah...good one buddy!!

After i mustered enough energy to pry myself off the ground from the heat exhausion i took the lawnmower and cart to the park where i sold purses out of the cart!! Great idea eh?? It was...i sold @ 15 at least. Not to mention all the business cards i have floating around out there. What a great publicity this was and it didn't cost me anything to be in the parade. The lawn mower was provided by an implement dealer in the area that DH's friend works at. They even supplied candy. Chocolate...BAD IDEA On a 90 degree day, in the shade. Luckly they froze it prior.

This evening we went back to the town and ate and then they had a petting zoo. G'pa and G'ma L were with us. The petting zoo had every of goat. C kept calling them sheep and saying 'aww...that cute' he was having a blast till he got bucked up the nose with an antler!! My poor baby. His nose even bleed. Then it was time to go. I think what happened is he was going down as the goat was coming up. I found a gouch on his head too during bath time. But not much blood. Oh and one of the animals chewed on Miss A's sandal thru the gates. She liked that. and she was happy too till one nibbled on her hands. That ended her visit at the zoo.

Tomorrow we're heading up to my parents for the day. Will try and make it up in time for church! That's @ 930. It'll be interesting if we can do it.

Father's Day tomorrow!! happy dad's day to all!!

Did i mention how hot it was ?? Oh yeah i did. Just wanted to make sure i didn't for get that. LOL

Farm house is quite

Kids are sleeping, dogs aren't here and it's peaceful in the house. I was home from work today because our sitter couldn't babysite today. I tried till 1015 last nite trying to call our other sitter and got no answer. DH is busy mowing so he can bale. He promises after this he'll be around more. I'm not sure if that's good or not hahaha.

So i'm really struggling right now with what to do about work. I really want to stay home but then i have a day like today and it's like AM I SURE I want to stay home?? Miss A is SUCH a fuss bucket. She did sleep all afternoon and C to a nice long nap too. THANK HEAVEN for NAPS!! But then I got called by work about issues and I sat and instant messaged the supervisor in tears b/c i was so frustrated that things have to go wrong when i'm gone and that i'm sure will have a 'talk' tomorrow. Nothing i can really do about issues that come up like they did today. I really need everyone else to step up to the place instead of calling me. I will put down a hr of working for today. I have set my resignation point and when one or both are reached I will resign. Can't stand the word 'quit' b/c i am SO NOT a quitter.

Quitter...not in my vocab. After 5 + IVF attempts, one failed adoption (we had to end it) and heck look at my house! I don't QUIT!! So mom came up with RESIGNING. MUCH better!

SO today, the yard got 1/2 mowed. Man I HATE mowing. I hate the bugs, flying grass and good grief if there is anything in my way i have no mercy. I did something to the mower that left it unusable. No suprise. I see grass i mow it no matter whats underneath it. Much to DH's dismay!! but then don't put me on it. I haven't mowed since last summer when i saw a snake that ended that. But i braved it this time! Saw no snakes. Got two play things put together that i bought out of the paper. One is a Step 2 play and climby thing and the other is a house.

Quit? man was i tempted to throw both things out. WOW what an undertaking THAT was. But they are together and i had to wait for DH to come home and finish it. While working on it I came in to check on the kids and email and someone pulled up in to our driveway. I didn't recognize him so i snuck away from the computer and ran upstairs. He knocked forever. He had a blue tooth, papers, noteboook, and i didn't recognize the license plate. NOw i wished the dogs were here b/c KNOWONE stops when they see THREE dogs laying in the driveway. Heck don't even think about pulling IN TO our driveway with out the rath of MOCHA!!

So i'm not sure who he was but he left and left nothing on the door. No I don't think he was a Jehovah Witness. They know better then to come around here.

Well folks, i think i jumped from one subject to another. But that's my life. Constantly doing something else while thinking something too:) Goodnight house!!

Rocker boy

I just had to post these pics of C rocking with his guitar and then the sunglasses. At no prompting by us he did this all by himself. He keeps saying 'rock'n'roll' I have a GREAT video that i will try to post too sometime.

Bath Time

Isn't this picture(s) ADORABLE!!

Tried going garage saling today. I bought NOTHING!! It was not good or fun for that matter. I'm not going to even think a/b the gas money I spent-DEPRESSING!! If gas prices keep going up it is not going to be worth it to drive to work every day. (I drive 40 miles one way) I have been pricing out insurance and I think we could swing it assuming I really picked up my purse business. Maybe I could make a website with my purses?? Anyone have an 'easy' program to do that?

Besides gas costs work is just really getting to me. Big changes have been going on and I fear the day they tell me I have to move back to the other office, with the women. That is the day I'll walk. Here it is on my blog!! I will do it!!

Kids are great. They are sleeping now. But not after C dumped my laundry baskets out. As you'll see from the pic I don't know how many days of laundry i had to fold, but it was a lot. Miss A had pulled them out before everything was folded. C did it after everything was folded. AND I think he might have hit A with the laundry basket. She was a wailing! When i discovered what he did, I was unloading the dishwasher, there were clothes EVERYWHERE! I freaked but he said 'i sorry' to A I was like, hmmm what did you do to her??

So they are in bed and sound asleep.

Enjoy the pics!!

Active place

This ol' farm house is a rockin!! Or something like that. Kids are busy, daddy's busy and yes I got my wisdom teeth out. Don't worry tho, the wisdom didn't go with them. Although I think the pain med did something to me. Right before I went in work called. They had MAJOR problems with a cut we did Thursday night. SO....after my teeth were yanked, and yes my blood pressure was elevated, I went in to work. Yah....real lovely I looked. No make up on, sweatpant gouchos and a pink T-shirt. THEN the really nasty part was my mouth. Couldn't feel my tongue and i was gagging on blood. BUT I still was able to call someone an arrogant jack arse!!

Yup sure did. Couldn't help it it just slipped. I was so frustrated with this arrogant guy with Qwest that I was talking to. Wow was he rude and I had had enough. Come on BUDDY my frickin mouth was killing me, I had a cancer center that couldn't accept any calls, and he thought I was out of my mind. So yes the words came out of my mouth. Everyone around me scampered away and I was left with no choice but to hang up before some other nasty words came out of my mouth. I must say those two words came out loud and clear!



Problems were fixed 2 1/2 hrs later and I came home to the kiddos.



Right now they are sleeping. I couldn't keep C awake. I don't think he's feeling the best. His nose is runny and he just seems sluggish. I had to take the two of them to church today. Now wasn't that fun. I got there and within 3 min. Pastor says Rachel the piano quit working. Well after some plugging and unplugging we realized a fuse was blown. Betty and I fixed it!! My words when i went up to test the piano to the congregation 'Never underestimate the power of two women". There was 2 bapitisms today so the church was full, normaly we have maybe 30 people in church and thats on a good Sunday. So Pastor was greatly relieved. But the good part was I have her Addie while i worked things out. Well by the time I got upstairs she was sitting at the pulpit with Addie LOL!! Carson was with me so I walked him to the bench and then I walked forward and got her. Only in Cushing IA would a Pastor walk down the aisle with our 9 month old. Actually only Pastor Sheryl hahaha



The other big news is my friend/car pooling buddy had her baby. Baby Girl 'Andrea Delsie' Delsie was the fathers moms name, she passed away while giving birth to daddy's youngest brother. V nice that they honored her with naming the first baby girl after her. Not sure where Andrea came from, not a name you hear of to often these days!? But the Andrea I work with is a DOLL!! This means that there's a chance that 'Andrea' and 'Addison' might be in the same grade!! Might, b/c with Addie's August b-day she could either be the youngest or oldest in her class.



We went to see the new baby and mommy yesterday. Just the kids and I. C pee'd his pants just as we got there and as usual, I had NO back up clothes. WHY!!!! We didn't stay long as mommy was tired and the baby was in the nursery. I then decided to be brave and took the kids to the "Olive Garden' Yup ALL BY MYSELF!! It went really well!! The food was great, especially with my soar mouth. I didn't even know C man was with me he ate so good. Miss A did good too!



Graduation party last nite and today.



So, here are some pics of C and his toys. I get SUCH a kick out of listening and watching him play. He has a 'papa' and a 'Delbut' (delbert) farmer and those two take care of the animal. I wonder many times what he was thinking when i find animals or 'people' in wierd places. I hope you see the humor and cutness in this as much as I did.



Farewell!!