sometimes i jus wonder...i donno why but i jus ponder...maybe you all can say tt somehow i chose to give up..i cant be bothered anymore..b'cos of tis, i became very paranoid.paranoid of every small little thing.worrying that history will happen.i am still very scare it will happen..but im glad best fren can take my nonsense..somehow i lost faith in everyone cos of the incident..i donno y but i learnt not to trust ppl too easily.and i hate myself for using tis as a benchmark before doing anything.sometimes i will still wonder if i made the wrong decision.i have reasons for boycotting them.cos they almost took her away.and the fuckin bitch face of hers, i c alrd fuckin dulan.tried to control my emotions over the phone..nvm..nobody understands.i wanna succeed, but at the same time im on the verge of breaking down.if not for lala, big eric, small eric, wai dek, zili, lin and yx i think i would have collapsed.thanks for all the encouragements esp from best.i think i should stoop bloggin for now.sorry for the emo post.i jus feel like bloggin so as to make myself feel better.can someone pls wake mi up! FUCK IT! KNN
what happened to me?when i don like means i don like.
and somehow u had to spoil ur own reputation.
fuck it la. knn
its 5.04am now...so dead cos i cant get to slp..been coughin alot...wat's worst?bestie got it from mi and she totally lost her voice on sunday.. how sad.. heheeepls don kill me..we r die hard buddies.. hahaaa.. i sick so u oso sick..but u sick i no need sick. hahaa..see i so good right?! HAHAsteamboat with frens on sat..hahaa.. heard alot of things..gosh.. i din expect such tings to happen to my dear fren..hopefully he is coping fine.learnt quite abit from alan on my way home..omg.. his dream house is damn nice!reached home and i K-O.took medicine, bathe and slept ard 2am all the way til sun afternoon 4.30pm.long one.. hehee..and my dear twinnie..i hope u r fine...don be too bothered ok?i really hope my aussie trip will be fulfilled!hahaaa..our aim of backpacking.. heheeebut hopefully it wont crash with europe trip...hopefully our 5 yrs promise will come through tis yr..hehee... but first thing is to earn alot of moneya and save up!hahaa alot of plans for end of tis yr!im so glad i found sucha good bestie =)
really happy tt the almost 1 yr of losing contact din break our frenship.
instead it brought us closer? hahaaa
journal exchange on tue! HAHA
maybe goin to plan lin's 21st bdae with lala..
haven spoke to her about it.. maybe on mon or tue ba..
hehee.. she definitely deserve smt good from us =)
don worry gal, we'll help u through!
give me some advice..
should i do VS, bathe and body works and coach spree?
aunt fong, wat do u think? hahaaa
ultimate sick..bloody hell.. don like the feelin at all..skipped proj meetin today cos was really bad..seen doc and he said at tis rate im coughin, asthma will come knockin at my door. hahatook a jab and slept throughout.for the first time, argar argar failed.donno y oso. hahaa..makes best and i feels so weird. ahahawat's best?we wore the same color dress and cardigan.so damn coincidental. hahaaand when im sick, the next moment she caught my virus! HAHAand she started naggin at mi.. then i told her, best fren must happy and sad tgt.so i sick she oso must sick. LOLgoanna rest tis few days..exams comin.. wth. hate exams!later im goin to buy a dozen of cooling water and drink up all!HATE SORE THROAT!FUCK
many things to blog..but abit lazy..okay.. so 2 sundays ago met up with best.wanted to go burberry sale. END UP END LIAO! wth wth wth!they say it ended in the mornin. WTH LAR!dinner at changing appetite..intro mudpie to her. hahaha.. yummy yummy.no pics cos we seldom take =X hahaaanext time la hor. hahaaproj assignment datelines are drawin close.first submission was jus now and i overslept!wth.. my bio clock seem to spoil again..been skippin too much lessons.. hahaa!!grades dropping..ultimate sianzation..L4d with 14 frenz.omg. it was like suana lor! damn hot but fun!keep kana scared by my fren! WTH!!gave sentosa a miss on sun cos i started to feel unwell.down with flu, cough, fever and sore throat.it suck big time!!baby LS and ian came over to my place to collect some notes.unknowingly chatted with them at the void deck for a close 2 hrs..haha nice chattin with u guys!reached home ard 1.40am and did my mystery shopper report..feeling hungry and was chattin to lala.hahaa.. sudd ard 3.45am she suggested goin mac for breakfast.told her to give mi 15 more mins to clear my report.almost cancelled it at 4am but we still ended up at yishun mac.catched up with her.hahaa.. it jus feels so nice to catch up with ur best/good frens.doin nothin but just slack and tok.hahaa.. reached home ard 630am and i couldnt slp!hahaa wth!!!today lunch at pizza hut bukit timah shopping center with ls, ian and belinda.hahaaa..we skipped sch for lunch.the lec too boring alrd. hahaamy stomach feels so shitty!damn pain! SIGH!!!!!!
i have a strong feeling that history will repeat once again.........
it feels so good to window shop/hang out with all my dearies..super last min decision to acc baby ls to j8 to get her c&k shoes. hahaend up she cant find the one she was eyeing for.been quite some time since the both of us hang out tgt..had yoshinoya for dinner..been so long since i had it and so i suggested it. hahahad the new jap curry and seriously it sucks! hahaspotted on a c&k bag.. but donno if i should get it!should i auntie? HAHA!more hang outs after exams ok?!met dearest twinnie today..was very late..went to bodyshop sale.. nothing much to buy..cos aunt leng bought me some jus before cny.. hahamy vs scrubs still have alot..lotions from vs n bath n body works still gt alot.haha thanks to aunt fong who got them for mi when she came back in 2007 and for my bdae last yr..had carls junior for dinner..been so long since i had it.i think the last time i had it was oso with twinnie before she left for her 6mths attachment at shanghai.chatted alot and we shared quite alot of things.what we worry are the same..worrying that we will drift off from our best fren.cos we are all at the junction where we have to choose our route.therefore too busy with life til we seldom meet.very worried darling bestie will choose to go overseas uni..though i don wish for tt day to come, but if she goes, i'll still wish her all the best there.will definitely visit her FOR SURE!but hopefully she doesn't choose to go..if she really leaves sg, i'll drop and collapse immediately.cos dearest lala is the one who will always be there.and dearest qing is alrd in newcastle.
its been a month there..
glad you are doin fine.. but after since sch started, i don get to see u online..
sometimes i ponder..how come i don get to meet my best fren or rather the closer ones often?rather i meet normal ones more..best and i have not met up for god damn long if u exclude bdae parties.the very last time i met her was 2007 cny shoppin lor.how pathetic is that!but at least we do "bo ding wah zok almost everynight? or maybe once every 2-3 days?i never once believe in resolutions.however wat i hope for 2009 is simple.hoping to pass my exams with a min GPA of 3.keeping all close frens near to me.meeting up with best at least once every 2 weeks.meet up with good frens at least once a month.less conflict with her.and something which i really wan to fufill is to travel with best by the end of tis yr.but somehow i know its impossible...really upset... =(we set tis dream since we were sec 4..which is 5 long years.. was lookin forward to this.but i know its impossible...cos i'm not workin and im very very broke..maybe if i work, hoping to go korea with her..but she jus went like 2 yrs back n i went i think 5yrs back with dee dearest!dee! im missing korea trip with u!!any other country will be fine too.except malaysia of cos..best, will this come through?... i guess not =(pls reply asap to the journal. i've got so much to say to you.. hahaaim extremely happy to see my gurls..bing bing and cow in particular.the feeling is so good when i meet them..never ending topic though we seldom meet.however we must meet at least once a month ok?! =)so glad.. finally meetin darling lala tis sun for shopping..and mon for job..hopefully it wont be cancelled.been so long since i last shopped and really hang out with you!i've closed all slots jus for you.. haha!!tue goin bugis with my gurls!baby ls, belinda n py.hahaha!! i wanna go change the ring.wrong size!jl darlings.. meet up after my exams ba.. missing you guys too...Labels: can you not go
attention: SINCE BABY LS READIN, IM GOANNA BLOG A LONG LONG ONE!
shitty shitty ass...kept recalling.. but still cannot recall..tmd.. really tryin my best to think wat i got for best for her previous b'daes.totally cannot rem majority loh!wat kinda fren am i man! LOL2004 i onli rem goin to kenny rogers but i cant rem the present.2005 i got her a white gold necklace with a pendant.in 2006 got her ipod nano, a hallmark card, a big box of rochers and a orea cheesecake from tcc.2007.. i read my blog archieves and realised tt i've given u 2 parts for ur bdae..but seriously i cant rem wat r the items i've given u. can u pls dig ur house and tell mi pls!2008.. i totally cannot rem.. wth.. 2009.. part 1 was the bdae cake which i baked for u.. =(part 2 was a big ballon and a stalk of sunflower which i find it damn pretty.. has it dried up alrd? HAHAA part 3 was the super big and uglyphotoframe with pics i did for u from sec sch days til working days til my 21st.part 4 coming up in may latest!sry darling for the delay of present!
still thinkin wat to buy for ur 21st..
darling y don u tell mi wat u wan! HAHA
but can u pls pls pls help mi recall?! HAHAAxmas present i oso cannot really rem clearly..i am seriously hoping to fufil our 21st bdae promise although the chances are f. low.. hahaaaultimate sad la..meet up more often gal! HAHAAmy bing n cow!we oso have to meet up soon!next sat for all sec sch peeps hor. whoever read jus come provided ur name is included.they are: lala, bing, cow, dog, gay (tekong), fir, nana, ah meelet mi know if i missed out any peeps.
I OVERSLEPT TODAY!
bloody hell! best too! HAHAA..
end up she din go to work i din go to sch. baby ls skipped sch too! LOL
whahaha. we r all naughty kids!
issued cleared and i removed all past entries which i cursed and swear at u.
sincere apologise.
but things don seem right.
proj, test n exams are killing me.
fuck fuck fuck.. tmd..
anw sometimes i think alot.
but most of the times im right.
other then tt clique bothering me.. i guess im satisfied with life.
i love chattin with bff, auntie ls, twinnie reb n some other closer ones.
esp best. i feel she changed. thanks alot baby! HAHAA
LISAN IS DAMN IDIOTIC!
actually i donno wat to blog le. jus tok crap for the sake of her! HAHA
make her tired of readin my post.
but she damn attitude lor!
she ........ mi leh!
IDIOTIC!! so evil!!
hahahaa ok la though she's evil, i still love her company!
best khakie to tok crap with lo!!
i love takin her hp n send random sms to her best fren. LOL
whahahahaha!!
when r we goin to play mj tgt! WHEN WHEN WHEN!
still thinkin if i should work..
i scare no clients leh bestie! HAHAA
but i need money!!
LOL so u can get good present from mi! WHAHAHHAAA
anw its been a long time since i met up with my dearest tummy and smlj sis!
miss u gurls loads la! HAHAA
bumped into est last week i think. whahaha..
oh tummy i saw u at airport once! JUS TT ONCE LA! hahaa
sry smlj sis. no money if not can go overseas tgt! HAHAA
but firstly is to clear my 21st bdae promise which i made when i was 16 with lala!
ok this entry is not goin anywhere..
damn long nv type such a long one.
auntie ls! its jus for ur sake u know! LOL
don get confused. sometimes i call her auntie sometimes i call her baby!
i call auntie cos i like to disturb her but call her baby cos she disturbed mi first in class!! WHAHAHA
so naughty!
she is ultimately evil ok! pls beware of her!
ok i need to bring bear for microchip soon.
bloody ms zeng.
knni jus screw her up tis mornin.
damn bloogy retarded lo.
ask mi make payment by 9 march but she sent mi the email tis mornin. wtf..
its goanna cost mi a bomb...
sob sob i need money! HAHAAA
ok since tis post is for bestie lala n goodie ls..
i goanna write something for ls..
lala one i wrote alot.
her bdae msg in the journal, in the frame, on 9 march post n today's.
best.. jus wanna stay thanks again for everythin!
hearts ya the most!
recent chats were great.
feels so much like our sec sch days! HAHA!!
beware i slap ur thigh, pull ur hair n PRANK u soon! whahahaa
u failed to prank mi! WHAHAA! im so proud of it! =)
baby ls! THOUGH U R DAMN DAMN EVIL, i jus wanna say thanks for everything!
thanks for always being there for me.
hearts ya tonnes la ok! HAHAA
but don worry.. i love disturbin u more! LOL!!!
don always pon sch la u naughty gal! HAHA
then always tok cock with mi in class then we nv listen..
c la all ur fault! WHAHAHA
ok la im oso the bad influence!
anw is this post long enough? next time then i write more la ok! HAHAA
hearts ya!
Labels: gisela help me recall while holisan reads the long entry
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING BFF,
GISELA SEOW WEN CHING!i'm really thankful for everything u did for me.u even woke up in the middle of the night jus to call me.. hahaa.. =)last time u wont even do this.. im ultimately sorry for my tone towards u last night..sorry sweets...cos actually im really affected and disappointed tt u din even manage to take a bite of it..but i know u r busy entertaining guest..cos i experienced it jus 1.5mths ago..so sorry my dear...though we don meet so often, though sometimes i does things to pissed u n u do things to pissed me..we wont be mad for each other for long.maybe jus for tt hr? hahaa.. im really surprised.u r the only fren whom we did not have any real quarrels since the first day we became best fren.jus wanna let u know i appreciate all your effort.i see u changing jus to maintain tis friendship.thanks for every single thing u did.and although i don express it out, i do love u as my best fren the most among all.. =)we gotta meet up more frequently ok!hahaha...hopefully our 21st yr old birthday promise will come through....alittle sad we might not be able to fulfil it...tag me if u read tis post hor!once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST LALA!!muacks!Labels: happy birthday bestie LALA
kinda disapponted but i hope u at least tried a mouth of it..
goodnight.
now then i realised tt its so fragile.
