i am the most dump, retarded, stupid, irritating person on earth!
watever not nice words can be used to describe mi!
argh!
now then i know so much things.
which i think its too late.
whenever i think of it, i feel damn stupid.
heartache is the word.
sigh...
should i be happy tt she told mi?
when she told mi, i felt super sad.
and i know why she don wanna tell mi.
cos tis is the way how i would react.........
i need someone nice to guide mi!
my guardian angels are all gone already.............
bloody hell..been wakin up so damn early..jus cant slp.i slept at 5am in the mornin and woke up at 945am today.wth.. i don like wakin up early..spoke to ls for quite long.whahahaha!and i don even know if today's potluck is still on..ig is no where to be found. haharejected jen n frenz for countdown at sentosa..cos i know goin home time will be a crazy.and its been so damn long since i squeeze with thr crowd.the last time i squeeze with the crowd was with rod and frenz.which was like at least 4yrs back..damn sian. cannot even walk.
been quite sometime since i blogged.reason being im lazy!hahah! firstly, merry belated xmas to all readers!hahahaawas in HCMC from 23 dec to 27 dec..sad to say, the air and noise pollution there is really terrible!but it was an interesting experience though.i love the pho noodles there..much nicer then the ones i had at viet restaurant in houston! HAHAAthe french fine dining there was real cheap.food was cheap too!most of the was real yummy!and everymeal cost us by millions. hahaha!!like wat i told cat..we went there as millionair or mayb billionair if we combine all 8 ppl's money..but we come back almost being beggers.. HAHA!nothin much to shop there..but clothes are real cheap there!shopped with aunt leng and pauline.hahahaha we kept goin back to saigon centre for more clothes..din managed to buy much things and suoveniers..
hopefully the guys love the wine holder and the gals love the mirror!
really nth much to buy!
and thanks dearest bestie for helpin mi look after my bear!
hahahah!
ok.. i gtg le..goanna help mr kama forward out the sms to all sim peeps!hopefully everyone replies asap!HAHA!take care peeps!
its goanna be a supper duper long post.
enjoyed my day very very much..spoke alot..laughed alot..gossiped?? hmmm a little i guess!hahaha i think wat we suspect is goanna come out soon!! LOLlets wait...ls baby! im sure u r thinkin wat im thinkin!!
and i think u 2 were shock when i told ur the both of us can meet not up to 3 times a yr b4 sch start.. LOL
hahahahahaaahahah!!!
LOL.. jus reached home..my timin realli kok up.. hahahahaaai have been wakin up ard 7pm recently..end up i din attend dearest sis's 21st bdae party.party cos i overslept and im too lazy to travel all the way down to jurong!din acc thomas to town cos i overslept too. hahaso i tot i will be slackin at home..and ls and ian asked mi out for dinner!hahahaha..met lisan and ian and went to hougang for dinner..been sooooooooooo long since i last ate western la. hahabut was nice..
and its been sooooo long since the 3 of us went out jus to tok crap. haha
then went to airport's starbucks and ordered my toffee nut frap..my god.. it taste so nice.. hahahasuan suan n keep suanin..my god.. today i suan ian like there is no tml! and i asked if they wanna catch bolt..called thomas to check for timin and we ended up at cini!hahaasuper duper nice show!bolt is soooooooo cute!!!
there is another show comin up which we wanna catch too! HAHA
after the show wanted to meet sebas but he still needs ard another 2hrs..so we decided to go home..but who knows the moment i step into my house, marc called..omg... we'll miss the fun! HAHAHAbut its ok la. LOL
and john din join us cos when he called us, we jus stepped into the theatre..
wat a waste!
cos tonight i kept laughin..and i even did smt super embarrassing at airport's toilet..think of it now i will still laugh..haha.. omg..
i don expect myself to do tt man!
god damn funny!
haha and ya..like wat i told u guys..i hope the 8 of us wont split...else there is no more fun! HAHAHAHAHA....20+++ one can split but hopefully not the 8. HAHA
i agree tt 20+++ one is too big..
abit diff to be able to know each n everyone well.
hopefully wat ian said.. 8 is already small..
no need split.
cos i really love and appreciate the company of each and everyone.. hahaha
ok! supper session with all 8 ppl when ian is bacck!
ian teo! pls don forget my pokemon in front from japan and place it in front of my door!
a super big one! HAHAHA..
tt will be the best 21st bdae gift from u n ls man!
WHAHAHHAA *EVIL LAUGHS*
sch is starting...kinda not lookin forward to it..cos hahaha.. ya for some reasons...LOL.and the 3 of us were sayin, we can still go for supper every thus night and dinner on any nights after sch even when sch starts...tt's wat im lookin forward too.. hahaha
we were sayin last sem or last yr, the 8 of us should transfer over to RMIT melbourne to study.
it'll be so damn fun!
if those closer ones and there r gals goin, i don mind!
hahahaha! then i can go visit qing in sydney, joel in adelaide, liyan and serling in brisbane and jun hao in perth!
so damn fun!
the 3 of us were really talkin crap.
ian was sayin all of us should go to the states for a back packing trip..
and my last stop will definitely be houston! =)
miss houston tonnes!
also to melbourne to visit cynthia if we din transfer sch..
so many plans but hopefully we will get to go to either one of the places.
mayb jus the 8 of us? hahahaa..
too big a grp very tough to organise.
mr entertainer, i really feel like goin for wat i said!
hahahahaa.. i think i shall do it damn soon!
wait for my good news!!
sudd feel so!!
hopefully i can do it!! hahahaa
give mi the motivation! haha jk!
thinkin of the expected expression, motivates mi! HAHAHAHA
ok i need to bake the cookies real soon.
tis yr abit to lazy..
guess im not givin alot of ppl cos i donno y tis yr's one nt as gd as last yr's!
and i really need facial soon!
should i go b4 viet or after viet?!
i hate seeing the new pimple!
argh! shit.
cant wait for mon!
im so goanna meet my JL dearies!
its quite amazing on how we became good frenz from jus pure colleagues..
esp my dearest evil twin.
hearts her tonnes!
hmmmm... quite sad tt not all can make it.
guess its a small gathering ba..
cos onli thomas, chloe, rebakah and adilah confirm..
hopefully randy n peili can come too..
muthu n joel in camp.
liyan mia??
spoke to dearest tummy today..
miss her too!
its really once a yr ah gal?
LOL.. but next yr cny day 4 i don think i can meet u all..
gotta break the promise cos py was sayin to celebrate my bdae with the rest at her place..
im thinkin to tell her i don wan the whole OG..
onli wan the 8 ppl + her..
mayb don go her house..
go for steamboat or anywhere outside..
actually im still considering..
considering if i should org back the pri sch gathering..
i feel so bad rejecting rodney for so mani times whenever they ask mi out for supper..
cos yc and shaheena have been askin mi to org one...
but to organise is easy..
the buyin of food n gettin confirmation is the most sian thing....
maybe i should pass the responsibility of preparation to the guys! HAHAHA..
let the guys prepare while i get the confirmation! HAHA
now when i wanna book chalet for my bdae..
system down..
tmd... y always like tt..
when i wan to book aloha, fully booked.
when i wan to book downtown, system down.
shit it man!
not really lookin forward to the new yr...
cos tt means alot of dearies leaving for studies soon..
esp darling qing....
so many leaving....
and i have yet to meet my dearest noobie twinnie xy!
argh... y do we all need to leave for aussie, nz and states to study?!!!
why do we need a cert?!
haha ok im getting far too random!
jus came back from supper with thomas..hahahaha.. tt idiotic guy..had mac spicy for dinner..woke up late and we saw each other online..so jus met up for late dinner at np..slack..tok crap and updated each other..
though we r busy with our own lives..
we know we r still there for each another..
he is one whom i can speak almost quite freely with.
some things he said are quite true..and so i hope p will realise tt he is siding his love too much.too ultimate..he is blinded by love..and when i was tokin to thomas downstairs my block..i sudd felt the kick..shit.. i think im down with fever..its 38.4..i hope it goes off and i am still considering if i should go to bett's bdae..or to acc thomas to town......will c how..if tummy or est nv call.. then i might jus go town.skali i end up slackin at home..anw it was a nice meet up for the RJC on thus night.and i still don uds y the hell cass finds it so funny..til the extend she can laugh when she is home... my god.ok.. bakin session was quite a good one..ending part was even better..slacked and watched youtube.and my dear fren, i hope u r doin well..like i said, im always here for u when u need me =)take care....
there is no words i cann find to describe how am i feeling now.
too much accumulated things.
all the weird things seems to come back.
and im so not lookin forward to my 21st bdae..
i don wan it to be a cursed one..
its forever cursed..
i jus wan a happy birthday..
ok i think im crazy..
and i think i should go back n be a closed book..
no more opening of the book anymore.
no more.
bye.
good bye.
having super bad gastric pain now..i think cos was too hungry then i sudd eat..argh....din slp the whole night.how great.kok up sleepin time...went enrollment tis mornin..kama picked chloe lisan ian and i up..enrollment was damn fast.quite happy. hahaa.went to holland v with them for lunch.subway..slack awhile and we went home.. reached home ard 3..slp all the way til 7..and im goanna go out to meet the rest soon.waitin for kama to pick us..thanks kama...thanks alot! hahaa...ok...
i thinkk i am crazy..
very happy today but oso very heartache...
u make me feel like a piece of shit to u.
im not ur spare tire ok!
i really regret.
regret to the max.
wanted so much to tok to ig n stranger.
but when i am about to start.. i donno how to start..
cos i know wat they goanna say..
and i don wan them to judge mi with a colored eye..
tell lala is useless.. she can onli listen but canot do anythin..
so she advise mi to tok to them..
haiz.. i really donno wat to do.
i fuckin heard so mani things tt affect mi.
and now have to include u.
u fuckin know i have alot of things to settle, to think about n to clear.
but still u wan to add onto it..
what a good fren..
i have nv been so pissed, so upset before.
and now u choose to do such things at such time.
i've gt nth to say.
seriously nth.
totally speechless.
fuck off bitch.
for the past 2 nights..
i've been havin weird dreams...
why ah???
and damn.. i don like it at all....
its time to put a stop =D
DAMN!!!!!!!!!!if j and i cant find a present..
then i think we will give it a miss...
was so upset jus now..
and jus nice bestie text mi..
so i called her back..
my poor gal.. she injured her knee...
if i can wake up, i'll acc u to the doc ok!
told her everything..
from stretch til the end..
tis time i think i did it the best..
very calm though i cried quite badly..
i hate myself for cryin.. really freakin hate it..
i controlled.. but i realised whenever ppl hit tis topic.. i sure cry.
i know she cannot do anythin but to hear mi rant..
lala knows mi well enough.
actually p oso knows mi quite well..
they know will rather choose frenz over studies..
but im stuck. i cant do wat i wanted else my mom will really slaughter mi.
but at the same time.. i know if we cont like tis, things will end soon.
who knows it will realli happen in sem 2? wth...
and i tot of indian guy n stranger cos they know almost everything.
quite scared to contact them cos i scare im irritating them..
cant possibly call stranger cos i nv chat with him on the phone b4..
somemore tis time is with a prob..
n after sometime i decided to text ig..
he asked mi to call him in awhile..
ig is abit diff.. cos sometimes we do chat a little on the phone..
so when he called mi back.. i told him briefly..
quite sad though.. and i feel so f. stupid.
i told him i donno wat to do.
i tried to control but at the same time i cant control.
ok i think u donno wth am i tokin about..
ig told mi he will tok to mi tml..
but i don think so la.. too mani ppl..
and they know mi best.. they know i don tok about it if there r more then the 3 of us..
sometimes im really grateful to have them as my frenz..
ok not sometimes but always la.. haha..
cos they r like my elder bro..
advise mi and tell mi wat i should n wat i should not do.
i really appreciate it..
i am not doin typin tis jus to please u guys..
but i really meant wat i say.
morever i know u guys haven accept the invitation to access tis blog. hahaha
ok really thank you..
to really thank them for watever they did..
from coachin mi in studies til guiding mi in life.
i am thinkin of getting them xmas presents..
but i donno wat to get!! HAHA.. how idiotic am i..
but still.. i really miss study week sessions at yishun the most..
o ya!
lisan baby is back in spore!
hahaha im glad u enjoyed ur trip!
i'll try and get u ur bag from viet ok?!
hopefully la! HAHA...
I AM NOT YOUR SPARE TIRE!i feel like typin in the sms "
FUCK OFF AND DIE!"
fucking pissed with you.
really.
disappointed too.
u said u called mi n i rejected ur call.
my phone din even fuckin rang.
and it don even have a missed call there!
com'on!
stop givin mi excuses!
and if u know me well enough.
u should know im fuckin pissed by the way i replied u.
don fuckin come n text mi when u already reached there.
and said u tried to contact mi but in fact u din!
stop tryin to deceive urself jus to feel better..
sometimes i feel i don even know you
for a moment, you can be so nice.
sayin u wanna plan my bdae for mi.
b'cos u know every yr i don pin hopes on it..
and the next moment, tis is how u treat ur so called good fren.
now i uds y joel is so fuckin pissed off with u.
i am seriously stuck.
stuck with so many things and now i donno how to communicate with u.
f.u.c.k!
what should i do!
everytime when i wan to make things better..
try to be patient..
u jus have to do smt to start the fire.
haiya. watver.
fuck.
i am fuckin fuckin dulan!
fuck!
bear's cage is damn big n heavy!hahahaha how am i goin to bring it to lala's place!! HAHAHAla come over take with mi la! HAHAHAand i haven start doin my xmas shoppin....dead.. so dead...tis yr JL's R family xmas dinner we haven even plan..lazy sia... hahahaha..mayb havin xmas supper tml with classmates..the small night grp ppl..big grp one haven decided when..and to y..don try and push your luck.i think had enough..seriously enough...
stop findin excuses to defend yourself.
its of no use!
wait til the day i explode once more..jus wait..and i thidnk its time to let go.......
goodbye.......
i miss houston..i miss madelene ger n maxie boy!i miss factory outlets, shopping and crapping with aunt fong!
hopefully there will be another SIA or good airlines promotion and i'll go over again!
pervious SIA promo was a must go and i nv regretted goin!HAHA
last yr exactly tis period of time, aunt was in spore!hahahahhaaa.. so its another 6 more yrs to seeing her..hope to c u soon aunt!we all miss you!!next trip, pls bring baby madelene home!and stay over at our place..it'll be much more fun! HAHA
ytd was my grandma's birthday!..went dinner at some seafood restaurant at sin ming road..quite nice the food and i think we might be goin back there for cny reunion lunch on cny eve with maternal grandparents n relatives.after dinner, headed to town for movie..was slightly early so went to JL OR to look for my cleansing sheet..but still don have... so many JL(s) and JL expo no more.. wth..met up with the guys and we went for movie!watched sex drive with angela, john, kama, sebas and marc..very very funny show! hahahaafter tt they had their dinner and we headed off to orchard coffee club..thanks sebas for the treat! HAHAHAplayed uno n slack there til about 445am and was thinkin if we should go home..cos midnight charge ex la..so we decided to play cs at meridian!omg.. tot of playin til 6am then go home cos no more extra charge..but we play til too high le!my first time playin cs! damn fun!lucky sebas n angela took mi in!! HAHAHAHAAplayed til 745am then went back to cp for mac breakfast..haha then home sweet home...reached home around 945am.. slack awhile and fell asleep around 11am..my timin damn screwed up.. hahahah!tonight don think goin out..no supper..but rejected marc n mek mek for movie cos the timin when they watch i still damn slack and sian.. hahaa.. next week ok! cya guys soon!
jus not my day..sighhh...whenever i tok about it... i will break down..was ranting to ls about it..haiz............i tot everything was fine..kinda sad over somethings..
been thinkin about it for quite sometime..
i think there r jus too mani misunderstanding and im easily affected by watever things said and actions done.
i hate such feelings..........
supper/midnight hang out was fun..though tiring but alot of laughter at the ending..was late..supposed to meet them 10 at casurina curry but i ended up reachin around 11.30pm and the shop is closing..slack for awhile and we decided to head to balcony..hahaha.. a nice place.. on the way there, marc spotted john's car..quite funny la.. hahahaaafter lisan, ian, john n ls's fren left, we played uno..hahahaa...slack til around 4 and we went to geylang for beancurd..my gosh.. i miss tt so much!the last time i went there for it was before joel's departure!im like a pig la..order so much end up cannot finish..have to ask sebas help mi eat.. hahahai donno how many times i said already..but i am still goanna say it once again..i really appreciate the talks that we had in the car last night.and of cos with ms popular over on msn the previous evening..i know u guys are tryin very hard to help mi..i will try my best..i will.. =)and i am very happy when mr entertainer tried to make me feel so confident!hahaha i hope watever we said will happen!i need to buy baking ingrigents soon..argh.. lazy... hahahaa...and i haven start buyin xmas present.. die...
JL bastard R family.. r we havin an change tis yr? hahaha..we haven celebrate some belated birthday =Xi think onli reb can c tis post from jl..haha the rest no access...somehow i feel so much better and safer to blog now..cos there r onli 8 ppl who can read my blog..and another 3 more who haven accepted the invitation..can blog more freely.. heeeeo yeah..thanks kamal for picking and sendin mi back whenever we go out the past few days when u had car!hahahaha thanks sooooooo much!!! =))hope to c u guys soon!
I WILL!!I WILL!!I WILL!!hahah!!i cannot finish the sentence for some reasons! LOLbut i cant wait for tt day to come!hopefully it comes! HAHAHAHAAmy god! thanks for the encouragement mr entertainer!im sure u know who r u! HAHAA
its 7.56am and i am still god damn awake.
my timin is so damn good.
hahahhaha! ok im givin ecp a miss later with marc n lala cos its like my sleepin time!
cya guys soon ok! =)
actually i have alot of things to blog about..
but i donno how to start.
shit.
had quite a good tok ytd evenin with ms popular.
thanks for makin me feel better.
and shit.. i cant join marc n lala tml for ecp..
cos im goin to lin's mom shop.. hahahhaa
ok im goin out for supper now with classmates!
take care all...
why am i like tt?
i really hate it.
i suck to the max.
INFINITE!
i have a very unexplainable feelings hidden in mi which i donno how to put in words.
save mi.
pls save mi....
i know escaping is not a way out...
why am i facing such stupid things?
its 5.29am now and im still not asleep yet..
my timin is so screwed up.. hahaa
kinda disappointed and sad over some stuffs tt i read n heard..
but oso a little glad with smt..
more disappointed proportion than sad.
omg wat is tis?
"Friends are like bras, always there for support and close to the heart."quoted from mich's nick..we were discussin about it..and how true.. its not easy to find a comfortable one..different ppl different lvl of comfort n tell diff things..hahaha..i think i should b more serious..stranger n indian guy, if u happen to read tis post..i am seriously thankful for everything u all did..esp stranger..all ur advise n guidance..i enjoy yishun n amk mac study grp alot.the small scale study grp.. about 4 to 6 ppl one..thanks for u 2 high lvl of tolerance n patience!and tellin mi wat to study for theory.. hahhaa..i appreciate each n everyone of u guys company!angela u r in too! AHAHAHA ok i think i should stop here n get ready to meet lala n marc..im super late! HAHA
maybe u gurls are right.=)
but why it seems like its different? hahahaha
god, guide mi pls...
tell me what should i do..
and why is it always repeating?
hahahhaaa
many have been askin how am i goanna celebrate my 21st bdae..the initial plan was to book a chalet n celebrate my 21st bdae tgt with sebas's 23rd and von's 20th bdae..but whenever ms ang wans to book for mi, the units are already taken up..fated..now i have no mood to celebrate it..i told marc i don wanna celebrate and he said he skipped brunei trip for mi yet i told him no celebration..thomas is so goanna kill mi cos i told him im havin a chalet n he was so high over it..lala, joyce, n many more made noise..so sry my frenz..i feel like celebrating but chalets all taken up..spoil my mood...and people, pls don get mi another dog..else i will have big prob.. haha..i told py.. i tot of askin the night kakkies to my place on the actual day for steamboat or mayb out for a dinner..but i donno yet..sian... what should i do??tonight no supper..frenz busy.. haha..have been thinkin..thinkin of wat have been said on msn with 2 diff ppl for the past few nights..hmmmm.. ok enough.shall stop here.i miss my threesome, bastard R family and night kakkies hang out! HAHAHAHAA
somehow.. i think i am crazy..i don usually tell ppl that type of secret..but i traded secret with la.hahaha...i am stunt with myself y do i do so too.. hahahhaa..cos no matter how ppl ask. i jus say no.. LOL..ok mayb im crazy last night.watever said on msn stays on msn..heee..exam results are out..abit kek sim with accounts but oso happy.. hahaabut ok la.. 3Cr 1 Di..and kamal passed his tp!congrats my fren!! HAHAlisan posted so many pics on her blog.. hahahaalot of memories..supper been cancelled.so sad. i was cravin for my beef horfun n durian! hahabut its ok la..stay at home and rot..next week goanna meet marcus mek mek n lala..whoo~been so long since i last met them! HAHAHAAmarcus tan u sucks big time! HAHAHAwatch out!
im sooooo goanna suan u til u die..
n u remind mi so much of the time when we work at rob..
hahaha tt was one of the best working time!!
cya guys soon! =))
been out almost everynight with classmates..slacking at prata house, ian's house, play pool, movies, n i cant rem le..i love their company..nothin much to update..cos been slackin almost every day..onli tonight nv go out..cos we realised we have been meetin every single night..abit too ultimate.. so its a day to rest..and further more i reached home around 7am from belinda's bdae..hope she love the present LS baby n i chose for her..been so long since i last drank..so last nite i drank alittle with marc n john..then with sebas..but decided to stop cos i din have dinner.. had one more then 6hrs ago sharing with LS..and i was feeling hungry.. so i din wan to risk..i don wan to puke like the other time with lala.. hahaabeen thinkin abit recently..thinkin of the convo we had..im really not lookin forward to the day..thanks for always guiding and advising mi..u r a very good fren.. =)marcus tan called mi today with a super shock news..my god.. its been more then half a yr n i din know that the person was mek mek..im glad he is fine.goanna meet up with u lala n mek soon.u tis idiot! HAHAHAok.. updates soon..kl n genting pic with classmates r up at facebook..am uploadin the videos now..there is still 1 more with dearest cyn! hahahaa
very much appreciated and feel abit better..thanks for listening to my stupid reasons and being so patient..
its 9.50am and i haven slp..
i still have to wake up at 2.30pm latest to meet LS to buy present.
god bless.
verdict will be out in awhile's time..
i hope it wont postpone again..
such a waste of time..
you will be fine my fren..
we'll always be there for you =)
sometimes i donno if its jus a comment or wat..
and i donno if u all mean it..
but i wont call w/o a reason..
if u all really mind.. im really sorry..
