Tuesday, February 21, 2006

many many things happened recently. all came bombin at a shot. donno where should i start off with. woke up around 12.30 to find out tt i have got an unread sms. well. was from lala. shall not talk about the content. replied her but she din reply mi back. she's been quite tighted up with her studies n her cheer. well. so its ok. had a short chat with her online ytd. anyway i hope things will turn out smoothly for her.

brought my silly dog to my cousin's house. spent 6.40 bucks on cab. lucky they stay near mi or i cant imagine how much would it cost. guess bear bear had lotsa fun. m aunt n cousin bot him some toys. he loves it damn loads. taught victoria basic grammer. at least she's much more easier to tutor compared to amanda. at least she concentrates.

at nite, my uncle reached home around 7.45pm. the moment he stepped into the house, he told mi tt he reprimanded wei liang today. felt damn bad. he told wei liang not to bother mi. he told him not to sms mi. was damn shocked to hear tt news. the moment he went to bath, i sms-ed n apologised to him. realli realli felt damn bad. actualli din dared to sms him to apologise cos i know he's with diane. diane would get jealous easliy. i jus cant understand. we r jus cousins n yet she's so narrow minded! lucky they broke up. orelse when they reali get tgt in future, i guess all of us would definitely give her a hard time. such a narrow minded gal. so childish of her!wat the hell is tis man! he din dared to sms mi n he said he would get back to mi at nite.

well, he din. so i sms-ed him at arould 12. again, i apologised to him. i realli felt bad n wanted to know wat my uncle told him. lucky, he wasnt angry. but im sure he will not dare to contact mi anymore. so that means my deal will be off. anyway i jus hope he will quit it bahx. he promised to quit smokin. he asked for a month n i said ok. he had oso agreed to quit clubbin on weekdays. he clubs far too often! but when i asked him where was he jus now, he said he was clubbin. so i din said much. guess he's feeling down. realli realli sorrie. boy, though i know u donno about my blog, i jus wan to say im realli realli sorrie. i hope grandma wont find out or both of us will b in deep shit.

reached home n was then feelin damn down. many many things happenin recently. well. was supposed to club on march 9 to celebrate lala's bdae. but im not sure if it's still on. cos it's like someone's bf don allow her to go. i jus don understand. its not as if we ask u to sell ur body. is there any prob tt u club with us? pls lo. f-u-c-k! tt guy said if my fren club once, he will club twice. i know he's concerned. but i think he should not do it in this manner lo. nana made the effort to postpone her class chalet. now comes tis f-u-c-k-ing shit. nana was damn sian lo. can u imagine how she feels?

the other person say she either have class chalet or she will be workin. cant she f-u-c-k-ing get an off if she's workin on tt day? if her chalet is booked, i will have nth to say. but the f-u-c-k-ing fact is tt it is not confirmed! chatted with dog for awhile. well, he agreeded with wat lala had said. i know the words she used hurts. but i strongly agree to it. i realli hate the f-u-c-k-ing way she respond to mi when i broke the news to her. so wat if i intend to quit my f-u-c-k-ing course? it is not as if im not goanna study. i jus wanna study wat i am realli interested in! even my pri sch teachers encouraged mi in doin so!

she said tt she said 'aiya, u all siao izzit. 'chi bao mei chi zhou' wan quit poly. then u waste one yr.'. well. she not onli said tt to mi. she said about lala too. obviously, the both of us were damn pissed. the next day she came n apologise to mi sayin tt she said tt to 'kei' mi. but i realli doubt so. non of my frenz gave mi tt comment of wat she said. everyone was very encouraging. thereaftere she called n tell mi she is tempted to change sch. she said us n yet she is tempted to do so! i kept quiet. watever she said tt very day, all my response was 'ya, ok, orh, icic, i donno, yes _ _ _ say he wan transfer'. i told nana about it. she told mi to give her time. well, again i did. but i was damn pissed. told -moon- about wat she said n he oso agreed tt she was far too much. he reason tt she said to kei mi was onli excuse. a very lame one indeed.

i know sooner or later she will read about tis. i don mind. i know she will b damn pissed. but its ok. i jus wan her to know that sometimes the way she talk n the words she used is far too much. i heard mani stories about her from mani mani ppl. some were even once closed frenz. i din feel much abt it until tt very matter happened. realli disappointed. anyway if u c tis post, i know u will b damn pissed. don ask mi anythin. u wan go ask lala or nana. i have no say. i realli hope all this will come to an end soon.

regardin my beggarsect, i guess it's sooner or later. no comments. its very sad if it will split. but if it were to split, i guess its ok. it can be accepted. it is not as if it is my first scattered clique. sometimes i realli wonder where r my buddies. they are all so busy with their daily life. sometimes til the extend tt they cant be contacted at all. when i have smt urgent to tell them, non of them are here. guess its fate. nvm. its ok. i hope things will turn out smoothly for lala n my beggarsect. lala, gay n dog, im sure u guys can get into wat u guys wan. shall end it here. goanna go slp. meeting amos, gab n char tml mornin. haha. hope i wont be late. take care


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Saturday, February 18, 2006

wat is happening?

haiz. im totally speechless now. am not in a very good mood. been feelin down for quite some time. true, i may look cheerful n happy go lucky. but tt's onli my appearence. do u think its the true part of mine? i really doubt so...

can some kind souls out there come n tell mi wat the hell is happening? y is my beloved beggarsect startin to split? is it really goanna drift apart? does everyone realli have each and others heart? y do some seems to bear grudges on each other? i really cant understand. can someone pls ans mi? do u guys know when was the last time we went out together as a group? i doubt u guys rem. it's actually on last auguest when everyone went out to celebrate nana n gay's bdae. first, bing and gay's prob. followed by nana n gay's. now become bing nana n my prob. i realli wonder if we r true frenz. is tis the way we should treat each n other?

maybe one reason being everyone is buzy with their own life. some buzy datin, some busy schooling while some busy workin. its relly very difficult to meet up lo. sometimes i really see no effort of some ppl saving tis frenship. it appears tt we r the best out of the best. but do u guys think we are? yes. mayb at times. but after since all the quarrells, everythin started to change. once i was even scolded when i tried to help gay bing n nana to solve their prob. how i wished they could b like last time. but it seems very impossible. i kept quiet when *tt someone* scolded mi. when i tried to help, i got nothin back but i got all the f-u-c-k-ing scoldings.

tis prob have been pendin for quite some time le. seems like nobody is lookin at it seriously. i realli miss those time we had together. all those supper at chiong pang, toys 'r' rus photo takin, slackin at northpoint n sembawang. will all these be back again or will we jus split n leave it as a memory? i beg to differ. can some kind souls tell mi wat will happen to tis beggarsect?!