【start】

after a few weeks time of arguement, finally my parents let me to work the job that i want. Honestly, i'm really so surprise for what they had decided, and one of their sentences do really touched me. Is a sentence that i'm been waiting the hear for more than 10 years.

but, good things won't last long. It only last for a day. Mom became so good but dad remain the same. Everyday after from work i have to keep on telling him the same things, i'm really so fedup with all this.

【下雨了】

早上醒來陪家人去晨跑

突然下大雨

在大雨中奔跑的感覺是多么的棒

看著樹葉一直一直的被風吹下來

再看著雨從小慢慢的變大

一面跑一面感受這一切

可是雨實在太大了

只好躲在植物公園里避雨

等到一切靜下來了 才發現自己沒有好好看過這地方

是用心去看 用心去感受 感受這大自然

爸爸堅持一個人去淋雨

然後把車駕到門口

可是我卻很堅持不讓他一個人去

到最後 我堅持跟他去了

我接受不了自己看著他的背影在雨中里

可是就是這樣 我就是明白做爸爸的偉大

 被他溺愛著

已經是很幸福了

【penang】

I have move back to Penang. I really don't wanted to live in penang actually. After 5 years of staying, I fall in love with KL, I have all my friends there, my freedom there, my churchmates there. I can find a job and work there, but my parents wanted me to back to hometown to accompany them.

I refuse for quite many times, but at alst I agree. I know they have been work so hard for so many years just to raise me up and they had spend so much money on me. What they want is just me to be by their side at all times. Daddy has retired, I know his life is bored at home everyday. Without me in Penang, his life is even more boring. I know they are old, so manybe I should really back to accompany them. If that's the way that can make them happier, so why not.

But I know I am not happy, all the while I don't love to back Penang, Penang will only makes me feel sad. i have been studying 4 years for a subject that I don't love but just because of they want me to study, and now, I will just follow their way agin. If by following their way, make them happy, then I'll just follow.

When the moment i decided to back to penang, I am emo every night, I could even cried when I know that I am gona be far away from all my KL friends and my churchmates. But i know I have to overcome it.

As what i told Daniel, i will work very very hard in Penang to earn more money, so that I can fly to KL more often to meet with them.

The night before I back Pg, i received a few text that my friends offer to fetch me to the airport, but I have promise my churchmates to let them send me to the airport. I really feel so touched. I wanted to give my last time in KL to my churchmates, and i really thanks the 8 of them waking up so early and send me off. I will not forget the last prayer before i step into the departure hall. Thanks for it. =)

【23rd Birthday】

last year my birthday was almost perfect to me with all my loved one celebrating with me.

and this year, i am even much more happier than last year. It is because every effort that they done for me, makes me feel how blessed i am with their present in my life.

the earliest surprise

emin is back as well

they had planned it early to give me this surprise. Honestly, it really surprised me!!! Maybe because my birthday is still far away from that time. haha. but i am truely appreciate what they had done for me.

the second surprise

nn text me and told me to come out my house now, i am wondering who wanted to find me, and when the moment i go out, i saw this at my doorstep!! It's really a big surprise till I stunned there for few seconds. It's from her and lala. Thanks so much. We knew each other for few months time but what they have done for me really touches my heart.

 

 

and this is the Mickey from them! i love it so much. Someone can accompany me sleep every night! How great it s. Hahahaha =)

the 3rd special

having a high class dinner at bangsar with my classmates

best cake ever!!

I am quite surprise when the waitress took the cake and walk towards me, because I know that the dinner that night is not expensive so I never thought they would spend money on the cake. I love the cake so much, it looks so romantic to me, and is true that it was the best cake over my 23 years of birthday.

my lovely classmates!!!!

thanks so much for the great night! they even go first round to the restaurant just to hide the cake and came back to fetch us, so that i won't suspect anything. i really appreciate what you guys have done for me.

the 4th special

having a great dinner with my KL besties at ampang point! i love the view there! it is so romantic

having a dinner with such a beautiful KL night view is just so perfect!

and this is the one that surprised me the most

they even wanted me to close my eyes and walk up there, and special corner, and the moment i opened my eyes i saw this in front of me. till now i cant even forget the every single moment. the birthday song that the restaurant played make the surprised even perfect.

the bear is really so big!! i can't even carry it properly. it's one of my wishes to having such a big bear!! i love it so much!! and could you see the balloons at the back? they even tied those balloons at upstairs the restaurant before i came. they planned everything. they are just so great!

and his name is dadali. after i back to penang, he gona accompany throught out my days without u all..

the 5th special

just plan to go for a dinner with yeevon and others, but when i got up the car, i saw this..

flowers from khaiwei and those chocolates from yeevon and even the card from the lim's families!! i am really so touched for it, quite surprise me!! haahhaha..could feel the warmth from their families. thanks =)

and that's the end of the story. but not to forget all the wishes through sms, fb,msn and phone calls.
i appreciate so much, and those that called on 12am sharp and the those that sang the birthday song through the phone. this year birthday is just so great. get an iphone from daddy, a mickey towel from emin, a mickey from nn and lala,a flower from khaiwei, a big bear from my kl deariers and a lovely keychain from kc. i'm quite touch to receive the keychain, because i know what is the true meaning of that keychain and you wanted me to chase for my own dreams. i will keep it in my mind and maybe one day i will go for my dreams. =)

and out of all, i love my parents wishes the most. they want me to be strong and keep up my faith on Him. yes i will, their words touches my heart.

wanna thanks to my chuchmates for the lovely prayer. and also the meaningful christian book by them, and the lovely pen drive and cards which contain a lot of blessing and wishes from my dearest xinyi.

my birthday had end. and my birthday won't be perfect without you all. thanks for everything. it makes me know how much love i have from you all. a uncountable LOVE!!!

lastly, thanks to my beloved Father Lord. You heard me, You listen me. i know because of Your love only i could have all the love from them. Father in Heaven, I pray that you continue to bless them, like how they have bless me with all the love, continue to strengthen their heart and fill their heart with love. oh God, hold me close and let Your love surround me. I pray that Your spirit continue to leads me on with the power of Your love. Amen.

【stress】

 

i don't know what's going on with me. Oh, lots of things need to update, my photos and my blog. I am jobless now but i seems like not having much time. Birthday had over and is going to the month of March. 

besides of smiling to everyone, what other thing else can I do? I feel so lost! a feeling that i hate so much. Please don't ask me why. I just dont know where to start if you ask me this question. I always say that my EQ is high emough, but sometimes i am just too tired of letting it to be so high. I want it to be lower. So i just shout at room, jump at room, cry at room. and now i love to be like this. No one could understand what is my situation, no matter my friends or my family. Only I know what's next. and my dear Father Lord, please use your mighty hands and lead me to the right way.

p/s: i will update all the previous post soon!!!

【新年？】

農曆新年 大家都好期待 除了我
打從很久以前我就很不喜歡這一個季節了
不喜歡親戚問東問西
不喜歡親戚批評我不比其他人棒
還有好多好多
給我的感覺一點都不溫馨
就像年三十晚
還要看到媽媽做工很累了還要煮很多東西
我知道大家注重的是這個意義這個季節
可是大家在吃的時候，有沒有想過廚房的那些人煮得有多辛苦啊！
有人說最期待拿紅包 可是其實自己的家人還不是一樣要包紅包給其他人
其實到頭來都一樣
有人期待吃新年餅 可是吃了會更肥叻
哎喲 到底這季節的意義在哪裡
我大概知道一個
就是全部家人從外地的會回來咯！
可是畢竟我們家人不會說很少看到 所以還好
有人期待放鞭炮 可是我覺得等於拿錢去炸！
而且萬一有什麽意外呢

我知道我是極度的悲觀！所以讀了就忘了吧！

我不懂那意義 所以我做了新年餅給我愛的人吃
傳給他們滿滿的祝福！
這就是我農曆新年里最感受得到的意義了！！

【CNY eve】

it's Chinese New Year eve today. for the past few years we used to be having our all relatives and family reunion dinner at my grandma house. but this year it's abit different, we have it in our house. I love this changes honestly, at least i dont have to face the things that i don't want to face.

For the very first time we had steamboat for our reunion dinner. The food looks not that much compare to a lot of houses, but we couldn't even finish it. haha. after the dinner, lots of things need to be tidy up, and i'm so tired to doing all the tidy up but, no choice!

after dinner and that's the end of my reunion dinner. It's so simple and i'm very okay with it. I have no idea what to do right now except to blog this now. Mom went to work, bro and dad busy with their stuff. I don't want to watch astro, i don't know why, it's so not like me. I just went up my room. Somehow i felt a bit lonely in some way but  i'm still so happy with those friends that text with me the whole night. It makes my cny eve more better.

【reunion lunch】

reunion with penang babes since everyone is back at last =)

went to Starview for the reunion lunch and lou sang as well

it's great to lou sang with friends.

xuan 's house for rummy and gossip after that. Continue with movie 'homecoming'. and dinner at xuan sheng ramen again!! aikz..
New bar 'overtime' opened besides coffee island, so we went there for a try.

the german beer 'starker' no bad, i love the taste but it seems like mixed with a lot of water.
anyway, the environment there is not bad. will go back there again =)

had a great time with my penang babes! looking forward for our next meet up! ^^

【盼】

 

和家人去機場接哥哥

機場很多人

仔細觀察了大家的表情

心情突然有點改變了

看著那些人等著自己的家人情人

每個出來的都會看是不是他們等的人

我媽也是其中一個

每個人的眼睛都緊盯著出來的每個人

而我的視線從沒離開我媽

媽一整天都嘔吐和暈的狀態

可是卻堅持站在那裡等自己的兒子

媽的那個表情讓我明白了

家人每天能做的事

就是盼望他們孩子回來的那一天

而永遠都是短短的幾天后就要離開了

突然看到媽笑了

代表哥出來了

看到她笑 我也笑了

【累】

 

我很不開心

很突然的

我 感覺好累

我做這麼多 爲了什麽

給了再多的愛

總有一天我自己會干掉嗎

我不知道

無論如何 還是不可以放棄

在我還在活著

我都要把滿滿的愛傳出去

這樣大家才會開心 

世界才會充滿愛 

有時候

到了夜深人靜的夜晚

就會特別感傷

終覺得爲什麽就是沒人能懂

唉。。。

【cookies】

baked a lot of cookies for the past few days.
almond cookies, pineapple cookies and chocolate chip cookies.
giving out all the blessing to my dearest friends in penang. I'm so sorry to all the kl babes, because u all are just too far away for me to sending out those cookies.

in this CNY, not to just receiving love and blessing but also giving out all the blessing to the those  that i love and care. May they receive the blessing and can be blessed forever in the rabbit year.

【a NEW on 2011】

 

if you know me, you should know i have my previous blog in wretch but now i'm switching it to blogspot. oh, not to say switch but is start a new one here for 2011 maybe b'cos i've too long didn't update at there. and copy what hanz say "沒有臉更新新文章" haha

january is going to come to an end soon

which means CNY SOON!!!!

i don't like it!!

freeze the time please.. =(