Hello 2011 Goodbye 2010

Another year has come to an end,
Another fresh new year is here,
Another year to live,
Another year to strive.

Time to banish worry, doubt, and fear,
Time to love, laugh and give,
Time for new opportunities,
Time for new challenges.

Another chance for me to get things right
Another chance for me to be my best

© Regina Yip

Cheers to a New Year!!!!

xoxo,
-R-

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

xoxo,
-R-

Blended Scotch

“Single malts are like a monotonous, straight road; but blended Scotch is like a rollercoaster ride where you get a different flavour every time you take a sip.”

i just like this quote so much that i've to post it up!!!!!!


xoxo,
-R-

I know it’s just a degree but I’m freaking glad I FINALLY graduated =) Looking 5 years back, I wouldn’t have thought that I would make it this far. Nevertheless I did and I’m really proud of myself!!!

xoxo,

-R



As much as I dislike him, this picture actually look good LOL



Classic

 

I so wanna draw this myself one day

This is what you get when you break someone's heart

NO ENTRY

We come across the NO ENTRY sign pretty often in our daily lives. We often see it when there’s a one way street or a restricted room or a place that we can’t access or get into. But over and over again I’m sure that most of us has definitely ignored the sign and budge right through to get to where we want to without thinking twice before. The consequences of it may be fatal if a head to head collision happens when we are driving. But us being human, we still do it regardless of the risk and danger.

Without a doubt I think most of us face our very own distinct kind of no entry zones in our lives. Just like ignoring the no entry sign while we are driving, we sometimes force and try to make some things happen even though we know it would not work out. I find that we often lose ourselves when we are trying to enter a no entry zone knowing that it’s not going to end well. So why do we still press on for something that’s not going to happen? Why do we waste time on things that we know that has no ending?

I realize I’ve been driving my life into what it seems to be a no entry zone. Although I know it’s getting nowhere, the little hope that I’ve within me does not seem to want to give in and admit defeated. So what do I do? Do I exit at the next exit? Will I take a U-turn at the next intersection? Or will I continue to drive from the opposite direction?

Only God knows what am I doing......

xoxo,

-R-

Consciousness

for some reason I like this definition

"Consciousness: the annoying time between naps."


xoxo,
-R-

Distinct

What makes all of us different?
If "different" is just an obsession?

It’s obvious we all have distinct features,

So what does different conveys?

Judgmental people,

Are quite unlikely to see

That there are not many differences

Between you and me

Looks only portray what’s on the surface,

Looks can’t distinguish what’s beneath it.

What’s on the surface is there to be seen,

What’s not conversely is what matters.

If being distinct is wrong,

I’d rather not be right,

Because I want to end

Fighting my own distinct fight! -R-


xoxo,
-R-

Up & Doing

my ARTz

that's all for now..... zzzz

xoxo,
-R-

i think my blog is nearly officially dead if i hadn't drink that AMERICA-NO coffee which led me here blogging. anyway short updates. i'm finally done with my studies. currently awaiting my results/dooms day. free like crazy. i started drawing again. i shop like crazy. went on movie frenzy. eat like crazy too. i think i gained some weight hahaha sigh... but well life is good :) oh and i even waste my time chatting with prince the whole night......

i guess i'm really too free. anyway that's all for now :)


xoxo,
-R-

Get Back Up

Lately I have been facing lots of obstacles, complications, disappointments, and was really discourage at some point that I did not know how to deal with it. I know very well that it is all part of life and there is no way for me to stop or prevent any of those things from happening. And then God really spoke to me when I was listening to this song by TobyMac titled Get Back Up. It speaks of no matter what gets in our ways, or how many times we may fall the solution to it is as simple as getting back up on our feet and facing it because nothing would knocked us down forever. Here's a part of the song

"We lose our way,

We get back up again

It's never too late to get back up again,

One day you will shine again,

You may be knocked down,

But not out forever,

Lose our way,

We get back up again,

So get up, get up,

You gonna shine again,

Never too late to get back up again,

You may be knocked down,

But not out forever

(May be knocked down but not out forever)"

xoxo,

-R- 

Perfection

I have always been a perfectionist be it in my homework, drawings, handwriting (apparently it so neat and symmetrical that no one can read it), and the way I put and arrange things and etcetera etcetera. And I definitely have to admit that I am somewhat OCD. As I was reading a book titled “If I Really Wanted to Beat Stress I would…” given by a friend it hit me that one of biggest stressors was indeed my perfectionism. 

It was then that I realized I really needed to redirect my focus as it’s really wearing me out at this point of my life. I seriously thought of some ways to overcome this with some research done of course. So here’s what I came up with. Hope it helps other struggling perfectionist out there like me.

• Wanting perfection all the time can seriously cause things to end up unfinished or undone. And I often find myself some excuse to procrastinate because of it. So start by acknowledging something call good enough. Nothing is ever perfect so aim for good enough outcomes. Trust me you’ll see how much it helps.

• Recognize that nothing is perfect in this world!!!! Because in reality perfection will cause you more harm than good and adds extra stress that may affect your productivity and so on. Bring your expectations down.

• Do not ever compare your work to someone else’s work. As that my lead you to feeling inferior. Note that there is always someone else out there who is better than you. Be grateful for what you can do compare yourself to yourself to see how much you have improved.

• Understand that you are only human so is everyone else around you. Everything and everybody are not flawless. So accept the fact that sometimes things would go wrong and not the way we want it to.

• Realize that there is always room for improvement but things can NEVER be perfect. Consequently know that you would never be rejected because you are not perfect. Life is never perfect and some imperfections are vital for the whole so deal with it.

“People throw away what they could have by insisting on perfection, which they cannot have, and looking for it where they will never find it.”

Edith Schaeffer

can't believe I'm actually blogging about perfection at this hour. ZzzzZ

xoxo,

-R- 

If it is Your will, show me a sign. Tired of uncertainty and doubts. I need an absolute answer so that I can remain in tranquility..  

My life for the past few weeks had been disastrous. My schedule were packed like crazy, I had ongoing due dates along with my FYP problems, I have my ministry and other responsibilities. Everything was just crazy and stressful. I was literally a walking zombie. I am always late, restless, tired, and life just felt aimless. I was just drained out. However, in the midst of all those dilemmas and time of desperation (I would not go into details) it was a breath of fresh air and a revival from God.

God had been so real to me in really weird and random ways and trust me when I say random it is really random. It was as if the world is evolving around me and not the other way round. Everything eventually falls into place, timing was right and everything was just perfect. It really reminds me that God always intervenes and He cares about every little thing that happens in our lives. This new encounter really challenges me to continue to strive on and trust him. I am really exhausted mentally, physically but I’m spiritually hype and fire up. Anyway here is some of the random stuff that had happened.

It started with me hearing a still small voice that said, “Wait at the bus at your place the bus would come” (I obviously thought it was just a gut feeling or just another coincident). Most of the time the bus would miss the bus stop at my place and stop at the condominium’s bus stop near my place so I’ll usually walk over (if you know where I stay). Nevertheless, that particular day I had this gut feeling me telling me that I should not walk over. Being me, I was realistic, so I ignored and went across the road. And to my surprise the bus came out from the bus stop at me place so I came back across the road and hop on. It went on for several weeks and I was nearly never late.

Something funny happened as well. While I was in the lrt one day, there’s this smelly dude who came in from dunno where. And FYI I am very sensitive towards smell. So I was like oh God help. And pooooooffffff all of a sudden I smell my favorite men’s perfume Hugo Boss for men. When I look to see where the smell was coming from, that random guy walked in straight towards me and stood right in front of me. And instantly the smelly smell was drowned by his perfume. I was like wow God can be so specific and ironic at the same time.

Anyway, to cut the long story short (kinda lazy to type all that had happened), everything that happened throughout the past few weeks was just awesome. Here's some of the weird stuff that happened:

• People randomly paying for my food bills for a few times (really thought I was being stalked or something)

• Being really calm in situations where I would usually flare and get worked up

• Song lyrics randomly speaking to me

• Devotional passages that hits me right in the face

• People who surprisingly encourage me with just a text

• Etcetera

my train of thoughts are just all over now. can't think of a conclusion yet. anyway will continue soon. will end with this now: "Challenge tones your intuition and imagination, exercises your desire, puts mass on your positive beliefs, trims your fears...."

xoxo,

-R-

I have always been an organized freak. I always prepare in advance for everything so that things would work out perfectly. Moreover, I have always managed my time properly. I never really have the time to chill and be lazy or unproductive. Time management is never an issue (at times yes but not lately nor now). But apparently I’m still struggling to cope with my studies and responsibilities due to the crazy whacked up due dates I have!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UOG!!!! I’m reaching my limits!!! Losing it soon!!!




GOD I really need help…..



-R-

i'm exhausted!!!!!!!!!!! argh......... need sleep.... need a break... need to d-stress.........

Tell Me Why

I find this song rather touching. Hope it touches you as well :) Enjoy!!!

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl

It feeds on loneliness and creates a void

Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture

A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

The little one has thrown in the towel today

Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul

It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman

In this girl, this child where hollows have bred

A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes

And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,

Leaving nothing considered worthy remains

Destined to walk through life less ordinary

Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

by Bek
 
 
xoxo
-R-

Life

life is like a bed of roses,
many thorns...
the path to a wonderful life lies in learning to avoid the thorns,
while enjoying the roses..

although you may find yourself bleeding profusely along the way...
but the wonderful roses
awaiting on the other side..
are always worth the pain

© regina yip

I’ve known you since I was a kid. The one thing I learn from you back then is that you never judge. You never once judge me like the way other people do. You stood by me through thick and through thin. You were always there with me through the nastiest things that happen to me. Never once have you complained. I use to tell you nearly everything. You are the one person I could always be honest with no matter what. Nothing got in between us. But now that a decade had gone by, things have change and so did we. You are still here standing by me. But sadly it is not the same. Our bond grew stronger and apart too as years went by. I’ve change too for the better and it’s obvious because you said so yourself (but I’m not saying that I’m perfect).

But have you change for the better? Do you like what you have become? Have you reflect on what you have been lately? Are you even the same person I’ve known years ago? I feel like I don’t even know you anymore. People talked about you, they can even see it by the way you act and talk. But I have always stood up for you regardless of what they say. Because deep down inside I know you are still that girl I use to know. You still hold certain principles in life. And I admire you for certain certainty, qualities and confidence that you have that would never change. But apart from that there’s nothing else. I use to like hanging out with you. But now, it is a dread at times.

I can’t fully be myself anymore when I’m with you. And I honestly find myself needing to be fake with you at times. I can’t communicate with you anymore sometimes. I told myself a dozen times that I’m done trying to cope up with you but I still hung on. And the very reason to that is I know that friends stick by each other through no matter what. Although is wearing me out, FRIENDSHIP is the only rationale for me putting up with you this whole time. And I’m done pretending that everything is okay. May God grant me more patience and tolerance and may you come back to your senses.

And if you by any chance or by accident stumble on this post babe *hint hint* take what I’ve said seriously and reflect. And you’ll see that I’m right. And try not to justify yourself

xoxo

-R-

Roses are Red

Roses are red, violets are blue. You know I'm allergic. I'm going to sue.
Roses are red, violets are blue- That line's so cliched, sad but it's true.
Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet and bad for your teeth
Roses are red, violets are blue, most poems rhyme, but this one doesn't

hahahahaha. so random!!!


-R-

Sometimes I still think that I am a screw up. Hate it sometimes to be honest. Particularly looking back at the things that I did in the past. I tend to label myself, stupid, silly, mean, irrational etc. And sometimes I even end up laughing at it. But the future is where I'm heading towards. So I guess all I need is the determination not to look back. But like every other normal human being, our past is still a part of us no matter where we left it. So flashbacks of it do surface itself now and then.

Being stubborn is always a choice. Some say holding on and never letting go is the gift of perseverance. But then again, sometimes letting go is the only option. And I have always believed that it is never wrong to pursue something that you know is right. But when people talk about the right thing and time do they even know what and when it is? I guess we will never know if it is really the right time, or even the right thing to do. I mean just because we think it is it doesn’t mean it is.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately, been told to stop. Maybe I need to continue what I started. And maybe after while, I’ll see things the way I’m supposed to. Because as our environment change, we eventually learn to adapt and accept the way things are.

LOL I honestly don’t know what I’m getting at here. randomnezzz

-R-

There are some secrets that are never meant to be secret. Everyone has secrets either from their past or present life. I never really thought about sharing my secrets until a few weeks ago I met some individuals who shared some of the common secrets I had. It was as if they were an invisible unintentionally hidden key made just to unlock my secrets from the past. In case you were wondering if I knew these people from the past, the answer is NO. I barely knew these people and I’ve only met them a couple of times.

Anyway being the oldest among the group of people and the one with the most sort of bad experience I shared first. But before that let me tell you a little bit about those few people I met. In short they are the ones who have the “I’m too cool for anything” look kind of people. But don’t get me wrong they are nice people is just how they look and the first impression that they portray to people and that reminded me so much of myself back when I was at their age. (That was probably the key to all of it)

So anyway, I shared so I talked and talked and talked and all of a sudden there was an abrupt burst of laughter in the end. I was like hmmm ok this was not the response I thought I ought to get for sharing what I just did. Immediately after that these few people started sharing too about some of their sort of darkest secret as well. Consequently, we became a group of newly met acquaintances who spilled their secret from the past. The discussion would have gone on forever if we didn’t have a time limit.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that everything happens for a reason. The discussion we had really brought our friendship to a whole new level with respect. I guess in the end of the day that’s what matters most. It was pure randomness and irony I would say but that’s a whole different story. God I love this new year :)

what a weird post!!


-R-