In just two more days the year 2008 will come to an end. Looking back at this year I realized that I started the year with lots of doubts, worries, anxiety, and etc. as there were loads of changes. But through God’s grace and mercy that never fails, everything just falls into place just the way I wanted it to be and frankly it was way better than I’ve ever expected. And this song by Steven Curtis titled My Surrender really really spoke to me. Through it I’ve actually learn to trust God in everything and just submitting all that it is to him. I really come to see the difference and the impact in my life throughout this whole year (growing spiritually, mentally, physically *lol according to some ppl*). I’m also grateful that God put a certain people in my life that would always pick me up when I’m off track. I’m thankful as well that I’m always surrounded by friends and family who are always supportive in everything I do. To all my friends out there (you know who you are) thank you so much by just being there for me giving me little notes, letter, gifts, mails, scriptures of comfort and everything else just when I needed it most throughout the whole year. You people had really been a great blessing to me. Apart from that, we should always appreciate our love ones and not take them for granted before is too late. I’ve gone through 2 lost this year within a time frame of 3 weeks I think. The first was my grandpa (maternal) who was all of a sudden diagnosed with kidney ulcer then internal bleeding and then he’s just gone. Although I never really had a relationship with him because to me he was always the very fierce grandpa (even my mom and aunts don’t talk to him so naturally we don’t too) I still miss him somehow. Then the second lost was my grandma (paternal) who was diagnosed with leukaemia beginning of this year. The doctor actually told us that she would only have a few months left to live but somehow she manage to hang in there till a few months back where her condition gotten worst. I used to get really annoyed when she starts nagging at me and my sisters whenever she stays with my family but now that she’s gone I really really miss her. *sighs* And a few weeks ago my somehow related grandaunt also pass away. Later on Christmas night itself I got a call from Rebecca saying that Winson's dad just pass away. It's so sad to lose a dad at such a young age... sigh.... I manage to achieve tons of stuff this year like being able to end all my semesters with satisfying grades, doing my final year project now, graduating soon (can’t wait), kept a very important commitment therefore I have broken my own record for it, saw another side of my dad, and etc… (if I would to type more this post would never end LOL) But apart from that, I've to say 2008 wasn’t a total smooth sailing journey either. But overall I think my 2008 year had been a BLAST…!! (would love to type more time is catching up already) I guess this would be the last post of the year… till then HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!! xoxoxo, QR

In just two more days the year 2008 will come to an end. Looking back at this year I realized that I started the year with lots of doubts, worries, anxiety, and etc. as there were loads of changes. But through God’s grace and mercy that never fails, everything just falls into place just the way I wanted it to be and frankly it was way better than I’ve ever expected. And this song by Steven Curtis titled My Surrender really really spoke to me. Through it I’ve actually learn to trust God in everything and just submitting all that it is to him. I really come to see the difference and the impact in my life throughout this whole year (growing spiritually, mentally, physically *lol according to some ppl*).

Not only have I grown LOL, I in fact manage to achieve tons of stuff this year like being able to end all my semesters with satisfying grades, doing my final year project now, graduating soon (can’t wait), kept a very important commitment therefore I have broken my own record for it, saw another side of my dad, and bla… bla.. bla.. (if I would to type more this post would never end LOL) Frankly, 2008 wasn’t a total smooth sailing journey. But overall I think my 2008 year had been a BLAST…!! (I would love to type more but time is catching up already) I guess this would be the last post of the year… till then HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!!

tsk.. tsk.. I have an empty brain right now….. There’s tons of stuff that I want to write about my 2008 year but somehow it all slips my mind right now. Feeling like an air head!!!

just weirdddddnezzzzz

xoxo,QR

LOL guess what I chicken out and actually deleted the movie IT that I had mentioned before in my previous post. I guess I really can’t find myself watching that terrifying movie again. Sigh….. Anyway here’s a song that had been playing in my head over and over again for the past few days… It really describes me now. Being someone else to please someone…..

LET ME BE MYSELF

I guess I just got lost,
Being someone else,
I tried to kill the pain,
But nothing ever helps,
I left myself behind,
Somewhere along the way,
Hoping to come back around to find myself someday.

*CHORUS

But lately I'm so tired of waiting for you,
To say that it's okay,
Tell me please,
Would you one time,
Let me be myself so I can shine,
With my own light,
And let me be myself.

Would you let me be myself?
Cause I'll never find my heart,
Behind someone else,
I'll never see the light of day,
Living in this cell,
It's time to make my way,
Into the world I knew,
And then take back all these times that I gave into you.

*CHORUS
That's all I've ever wanted from this world,
Is to let me be me.

Please, would you one time,
Let me be myself so I can shine,
With my own light,
Let me be myself.

Please, would you one time,
Let me be myself so I can shine,
With my own light,
And let me be myself for awhile,
If you don't mind,
Let me be myself so I can shine,
With my own light,
And let me be myself,
Would you one time,
Oooh, let me be myself,
Let me be me

xoxo,
royal out...

I started having Coulrophobia since I was a kid. In lay man's term I have the fear of clowns lar.. I know it’s a little strange but it’s actually quite common. Ever since I watch the movie called IT, (I just found out it is actually a book written by Stephen King and then made into a movie) I had been really terrified of clowns, mimes or anyone that has their face painted like a clown. Anyway, while I was shopping the other day at Carrefour I saw this CD with a scary clown face on it. So as curious as I am I actually went there to take a look at it. And it was the show IT as a result the moment I saw it I stoned and gosh it really brings back bad memories. Later that night, I had an awful nightmare of clowns. I told my sisters about it so they were like try overcoming your fear by watching IT again. And hence the following day I googled IT the clown and there it was with a bunch of other stuff with it. Then I downloaded the movie and it’s finally done. So here I am wondering whether I should watch it again…....

I WANNA WATCH TRANSPORTER 3

Jason Statham is super YING lorrr.... LOL

xoxoxo
royal out...

Christmas shopping is finally done after a long day hunting for presents in Mid Valley.

Manage to find some time to pose :P

royal OUT

xoxoxox

Nickelback Dark Horse album is finally released... And they never fail to come out with good songs...

here's some of the songs that I really like from this album

• Gotta Be Somebody
  
• I'd Come For You
  
• Never Gonna Be Alone

do check it out!!! enjoy...

Royal OUT!!

I realized I haven’t been blogging about what’s happening in my life lately. So here’s a quick update (tragic stuff) swt... As some of you know I have started doing my final year project already. yup.. yup.. I’ve started writing my thesis and so far things hadn’t been easy. Tons of my title had been rejected and modified, my proposal had been rejected once and not to mention I have two group members who doesn’t speak a word of English and hence my mandarin is improving *coughs* (blessing in disguise). Despite all that I have finally gotten a proper title for my thesis. But things hadn’t gotten much better (maybe a little though). There’s still tons of stuff for me to work on. tsk.. tsk..

Apart from that, my family and I had to go through two lost within the time frame of 3 weeks. My maternal grandpa passed away about 2 weeks ago due to some ulcer in kidney. And just 2 days ago my paternal grandma who was diagnosed with leukemia about 8 months ago had also passed away. Two lost within 3 weeks. Things had been really tough for my family and me.
Although there’s heaps of stuff that I want to blog about (too many things had been happening), but I guess that’s about it for now. I’m too tired to carry on typing….

Physically, and mentally exhausted….
royal out!!!
(2.08 am)

Does it all sound the same?
Are my words getting through?
I've been trying so hard
And I'm about to break

So here I am, with all I have

And I'm giving it all back to You, all back to You
I surrender
Yeah, I'm giving it all back to You, all back to You
This is my surrender
Take it all

And what song can I sing
But the song that You give?
I have nothing to bring
That did not come from Your hand

So here I am, with all I have

And I'm giving it all back to You, all back to You
I surrender
Yeah, I'm giving it all back to You, all back to You
This is my surrender

All my prayers and all my dreams
I'm giving it all to You
I lay it all down at Your feet, I'm Yours
So what song can I sing, but this song?

I'm giving it all back to You, all back to You
I surrender
I'm giving it all back to You, all back to You
This is my surrenderTake it all
Take it allLord, take it all
Take it all

Great song...

xoxoxoxo,
royal OUT!!

Randomnezzzzz

Picky, picky
You are so perky
I find you very jerky
Making everyone so freaky

Touchy, touchy
You are so twitchyI
find you very unsteady
Making everyone so dizzy

Witchy, witchy
Why you are so b****y
Everyone found you very itchy
Making me so damn scratchy

i randomly found this weird poem. and frankly i kinda like it.. haha :)

xoxoxoxo

My new MSN look that goes well with my wallpaper...

fabulous isn't it

Gotham City

man i love my Dark Knight MSN skin

xoxoxoxoxo

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I’m going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much I no along the way
Then I heard you sayI promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand
I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I
Been so afraid ooh
And just when I
Have thought I’ve lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That’s when I heard you sayI promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand
When I’m weary
Well I no you’ll be there
And I can feel youWhen you say
I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand


I'm so in Love with this song....

xoxoxoxo,
royal OUT!!

It had been nearly a month ago that I’ve sprained my ankle. But there’s still a sharp pain on and off as if there’s a needle poking my ankle. Then my dad decided that I should go to some old uncle who massage peoples sprained leg, backbone, or whatever in another word the torture massage centre in Hulu Langat. So my dad took me there this morning but before that, we stopped by a shop and ate “Ching Tong Hor Fun” and wow that is honestly the BEST “hor fun” I ever ate. The soup is just awesome and the price is really reasonable too it only cost RM 3. Unbelievable right..? Well after my nice breakfast, we continued our journey and finally we arrived. At first, the uncle took ginger that was burn or something anyway the ginger was hot then he placed it on my legs and gently rub it around my ankle. Then I was like hmmm that feels nice but after a while my misery started. He brought out some Chinese herb medicine thingy in a mug then he started rubbing my leg with it and gosh the pain was super duper uber excruciating. Frankly I wanted so much to use my other leg to kick him in the face. And he had the guts to ask me “tong mou?” >_<> The torture went on for 30minutes when he was done I was like good riddance. So we paid up just when we were about to leave, tsk…tsk.. My dad had to asked him so when should she come back again? As a result, I have to go back there again either tomorrow or Saturday. Argh.. I have to go through another session of torture. HELP…..!!!!

bandage again

Did you ever feel so empty that you pondered in despair?
About life and about living and at the wall you stand and stare
And of emotions your soul empty of anger, laughter, joy or tears
And you feel your life's been wasted you reflect on wasted years.

Of the opportunities you wasted and of such you've had your share
And you left your chances go by at the time you didn't care
But the years keep creeping on you time for anyone doesn't wait
And you feel your time drawing nearer to the dreaded 'use by date'.

It may be some consolation to know you are not alone
That the empty sort of feeling many others too has known
And like you they feel without hope staring at the bedroom wall
It's just part of human nature you are human after all.

Empty moments we experience after years of trying to cope
After years of trying to struggle up life's never ending slope
And our better years behind us and our hopes for success gone
But the will to live is stronger and it keeps us keeping on.

So you have known those empty moments you are not one of the few
And if it serves as a consolation others have those moments too
There are times we feel so empty we stand staring at the wall
But its part of our existence we are human after all.

Have you ever felt like this (melting)?

when someone serenade you with songs like Hero by Enrique Iglesias, Collide, Best I Ever Had, You & Me, Without You, Right Here Waiting & etc. with a guitar or piano. But just when you thought you caught a glimpse of heaven the song comes to an end. And all the warm fussy feelings just disappear. Then all of a sudden you realised you’re as solid and as hard as a rock again.

LOL confusing feeling!!

randomnezzz.... :)

BROKEN LEG!!??

Here's a quick update. My internet connection is down so i'm practically blogging with my phone now at 3.24am. Last saturday i went to Rebec's place to support her in an event so while i was at her place, i sprain my leg. How? Lol i was walking down the stairs all of a sudden i missed a step. But before i realised what happened i was already on the floor and man my leg was aching like crap and i knew that is gonna be... So went home but couldn't even climb the stairs up to my place. Then someone i've never expected carried me all the way up to my house my dad was shocked beyond description. So back to today, i've been stuck at home since saturday night till now can u imagine 3days without leaving the house. My leg still hurt like crap and is freaking swollen i really hope i didn't break a bone. I want to walk!! I feel like a retard because i can't do anything ish... Can't even sleep well!!

yay.. examz are finally over. i'm as free as a bird now. LOL i was right today's paper was super uber easy!!! (imagine the marks) haha =)

cheers,
royal out

Look what my Dad got me. A new Graphic Card..

I so love the colour. The blue looks great.

Just when I thought my day would get better, another crappy thing happened today. My whole folder named Regina from my PC had been erased (along with my whole 2 years of assignment in it and some of my thesis info) what really ticks me is that no one wants to admit that they deleted it… I’m…. argh... and guess what most of my course mate decided to do their THESIS the following semester because they still have some pending subjects so that leaves me alone doing my thesis this October with some people whom I barely know. If I choose to follow my course mate I’ll graduate later (something I don’t want). So I got 2 Chinese educated people who can’t speak a word of English as my thesis partner and all they can speak is mandarin and gosh my mandarin is…. I’m so dead…. I’m having second thoughts…. I think I might consider doing my thesis alone :(

OUT!!!

Grumpy…

I thought my day was full of crap yesterday. It turns out that Rebec had a crappier day than me LOL and we both ended up grumbling to each other about how crappy our day was only to find out both of our days were just as crappy. Despite all that something good came out of it because we both learn something out of it… and man grumbling at and to someone is fun hehehe… and the beauty of it is when you wake up in the morning, it feels as if nothing bothers you anymore and you feel a whole lot better. Grumbles…

P/S: LOL grumble more you might look like this…

Grumpiness,
QueenR

I’m currently having my finals so to those people who just asked me out for shopping buzz off k don’t lure me to go out… LOL haha.. By the way here’s some pictures of the stuff I got for my Birthday. Since I have no time to resize it I’ll just post pictures that are taken from my phone instead of pictures from camera… bare with the low quality pics..

CAKE OF THE YEAR!!

My moon

Lunch

Garlic Bread

Perfume (love the smell) from Kelvin

A wooden puzzle pig (cool huh)

LOL I got two stuff pigs this year this if from H2

this is from....

This was given to me really random by Isaac.

Samm gave me this :)

A top from the SPCG gurls

A lovely card by SPCG gurlz

Signed by all members

This is one super cool key chain thingy from Jon

My chocolate cake from...

meaningful bookmark from Caris

Isn't it nicely wrapped

Perfume oil from Buffy

Kung Fu Panda from Chicken Wing who actually thinks I look like it :(

Royal OUT