Too little time

Oh mannnnn. I should have finished my endless entry about my graduation. Yeah, I wanna write all about it because it was the happiest moment in my life. Seriously, graduation means so much to me. You know, just happy. I couldn't describe it. I wonder how it's like being married because people always tell you that being married is the happiest moment in life ( I mean the wedding ceremony here). Hahaha. Insyaallah, someday. The story becomes so yesterday because I don't have time. Very busy with working life and other responsibilities. 

Actually, I wanna share the movies I watched and all. But I don't have time to write. I've been watching great movies lately. I wanna write how I feel about them, but priority comes first. Just so you know, the most awesome was Escape Plan. I'm satisfied with the movie. I never feel this satisfied for quite some time. 

Ini lah kekangannya. Need to finish marking papers and key in the data that due very very soon. This can be stressful. This is just 1/5 from the papers that I need to mark. Tak mampu nak bawak balik rumah semua. 

Will be writing when I'm done! 

In deed very cheesy

I've been watching this video like hundreds time and I still laugh every time I watch it. Even I just watch the video, I make the same reactions, just like the girls did. Oh my God, so chessy. In our culture, it's completely poyo. 

"Can I get your picture to prove to all my friends that angel really exist? "

"Do you know is there an airport nearby? or it just that my heart taking off because you walk pass"

My reaction was...Oh my God!!!. Just like other girls. Not that I'm melting, it just something cute to say, but it's not practical and realistic. 

Spring Graduation day 2

Lepas Emma balik dari toilet dan cakap ramai gila polis berkeliaran, kitaorang sambung tidur balik atas sofa yang bising dengan bunyi kartun purple. Dah mengantuk, tidur aje. 

The next morning, while I was performing Subuh prayer, Emma went to Emirates counter. We would be flying with Emirates from Singapore to Brisbane and Brisbane to Auckland. Later after she came back, she said  "weh, kita kena apply Australia visa sebab kita akan transit more than 8 hours". We could apply for the visa online and pay some amount of money. Emma and me got problem with our cards and decided to seek help from the people behind the counter to do visa application for us since we only need to pay 50 dollar. If we apply on our own, we have to pay 42 dollar. No much different. It was a long process. We have to wait for everybody whose flying with us to check in. Until then, they settle our visa application. We paid 50dollar per person.

While waiting, what else to do? I read. Then we both fell asleep. Bangun. Baca. Sambung tidur balik. Aku dengan Emma, memang tu je lah kerjanya. Sampaikan the guy who helped us with visa application woke us up. Tidur sampai tak sedar diri tau. Then, he said my Australia visa was still valid. I was like really? I think the last time I went to Australia was like a year ago. I was wondering why it was still valid. Or maybe, I applied for 2 years visa before this. So, I got back my 50dollar. Yeay!   

 Book is the best company while travelling. An intellectual way to kill some time. Later, I fell asleep on the sofa, ignoring who ever watching. I'm sleepy. I don't care.

We managed to get in plane on time. Sebabkan aku dengan Emma lambat check in sebab masalah visa, kitaorang tercampak jauh betoi. Takpe. Layankan je. I missed the meal in flight. I was damn hungry. The mat salleh sitting beside me didn't wake me up.Eh, mengharapkan orang pulak kejutkan. Or at least ask me. Dah la dia besar. Tak gemuk tapi huge. Dia curi space aku. Aku pun mengecil. Lenguh 8 jam duduk mengecil.

We arrived in Brisbane midnight at local time. We were the last passenger to pass the custom check. The immigration staff asked why we were so late. We went to the toilet and took photos. Tehee. At the immigration, Emma had to step into a class tube or something like that. Raise both hands up and spread her leg. That procedure was for custom check to ensure you are 'clean'. Better what? During my last visit to Australia, I was picked for random body inspection. It was like this...

Malu seyh. The staff touch every single inch of my body. Imagine that. Seriau tahu. You know what, dalam ramai-rmai orang beratur, aku kena full body inspection. One of the reasons, I'm a Muslim. Maybe. Others were picked too, if they look suspicious. 

Kitaorang sampai Brisbane midnight. So, terus cari tempat nak tidur. Sekali lagi, kali kitaorng je yang ada dalam departure hall sebab like seriously the next flight was in 10 hours, mana ada orang nak check in awal. Kitaorng yang transit ni je lah yang ada. Tidur je tempat yang ada. Terpaksa tidur macam ni sebab takde tempat. Dah sampai Brisbane ni harus la sejukkkkkk. Kitaorng tidur dalam keadaan kesejukan. Tetiba aku dengan Emma terbangun tengah malam sebab tak tahan sejuk. Sejuk yang terlamapau. Dah tak boleh dibendung dengan sweater lagi. Padahal dah pakai baju berapa lapis tu. So kitaorang beralih ke tempat yang sempit. Pergi ke gate betul-betul depan pintu masuk ke kapal terbang. Kat situ warm la sikit.

Gigih sungguh rasa trip kali ni. Bila bangun pagi esok, tengok glass wall kat tepi, I see this. Love it!

Then I know it

My younger brother keep humming this song.

Aí Se Eu Te Pego means Then I know it. Even though I don't understand this song, I find it's rocking! 

Azam. Tehee

Tetiba nak berazam sekarang ni. So pelik kan. Orang lain buat resolution awal-awal tahun. Tetiba aku baru terkial-kial nak buat sangat kan. Hehehe. Bukan apa, just kena berazam. So that aku lebih bersemangat dan berdisiplin.  So, here the list. 

1. Aku berazam nak bangun 15 minit awal setiap hari. 

So that, takde la aku sampai terpaksa bawa kereta macam bawak jet nak pergi kerja. Sampai nak terhumban dalam longkang. So that I can have proper breakfast. Bukan main makan je apa yang ada dalam kereta. So that, I can drive in a relax manner. Takde la drive sambil rasa nak pecah jantung. I can't be late. Yeah, that 15 minutes could make a difference.

2. No procrastination.

Seriously I can't. During the last meeting we had, I almost get migraine. Tugasan yang perlu disettle kan sebelum end of November adalah sebanyak 4 helai kerja, muka surat depan belakang. Sesak nafas terus tengok. Banyak gilerrrr. Sebab tu, tugasan yang perlu didahulukan perlu dilaksanakan terlebih dahulu. Kalau tak, by the end of November, kau dah boleh burnout. All these tasks are apart from teaching. 

3. Menembah pengetahuan

Truth be told, aku ni tahu naik kereta dengan isi minyak je. Pam tayar tak tahu. Nak tengok-tengok enjin habuk tak tahu. Tukar minyak hitam? Servis? Ape tu? hahaha. Sebab tu abang aku selalu cakap, kalau kereta bekas perempuan guna, orang dah takkan beli. Sebeb jenis perempuan macam ni lah. Hahaha.Sepanjang aku naik kereta, aku tak pernah pam tayar. Tunggu balik Terengganu baru ayah aku pamkan tayar.

Dulu masa belajar, skuter aku pakai aku tak pernah pam tayar. Geleng kepala abang aku tahu. Pernah la cuba nak pam, last-last aku dengan Izzati tercegat kat depan pam 10 minit, tak tahu nak buat apa. Lepas tu, terpaksa minta coursemate lelaki yang tolong pam kan. So, azam nya kena belajar la. Memandangkan aku kena travel jauh nak balik rumah, aku kena tahu check air, bila nak kena tukar minyak hitam dan tukar tayar etc. Lepas ni boleh tukar tayar sendiri. Okey, mampu nak terlalu ambitious nak tukar tayar. Fareha, seriously ko kena tahu mana nak isi air untuk viper dulu. Baby step Fareha. Baby step.

4. Menanam kesabaran hahap yang paling tertinggi.

Paling tertinggi. Ayat salah. Paling dan Ter dah salah satu menunjukkan 'sangat'. Tapi tak peduli. Nak menunjukkan betapa aku kena bersabar tahap yang paling tinggi yang aku boleh kecapi. This field requires me to be super patient. You know, the last words My lecturer said to me, " Be a patient teacher". Yes, I will.

Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder

Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) is some kind of childhood disorder in children. The symptoms include difficulty staying focus and difficulty controlling behaviour. In the simplest words, a child cannot stay still, acting impulsively, have difficulty in learning and very hard to handle. Children with ADHD look perfectly normal. They are not like special children even though they are 'special' in their own way. They have problem in relationship too. So, ADHD children are usually alone and choose not to speak to others. ADHD is approximately three time more frequent in boys than in girls. Do you get what I'm trying to tell here? These children are hyperactive. Active beyond their age suggest. Dalam kata lain, nakal tu luar biasa sikit meh. 

I have this one student in my school who was diagnosed for having ADHA. His name is Rifqi ( not the real name). I think all teachers knew that he's having ADHD. For most of the time, when he's playing where he shouldn't be playing, the teacher just ignore him because they know Rifqi. Just let him be. There no point you yell at him, he will just ignore you with his innocent face. No reaction at all! 

In my degree years, one of the compulsory paper we had to take was early child development. We learnt all kind of learning difficulties like autism, ADHD and dyslexia. Children with this disorders look normal. You never know that they are having any disorder or learning problem. Same goes to Rifqi. I always  heard the teachers in school say " Sayang la Rifqi tu macam gitu. Muka handsome, tapi ADHD ".  He's indeed very handsome. Tapi nak buat macam mana, dia dah memang macam tu kan. 

The story is, Rifqi is placed in the last class, 2 Emerald ( again, not the real class) because of his learning problem, so he does not perform. I do not teach his class. I just take his class for NILAM. I take many many many of NILAM hours, so could you imagine how many classes I meet in a week. So, I barely know the students because I just meet them once a week for 30 minutes. I once went to his class for relief. He was sitting at the back of the class, parallel to my seat. He didn't do anything. Just stared. When I asked him to take out his book, he just stood there, staring at the floor. Whatever effort I put, it seemed useless because he just like a stone there. When I wasn't looking, he played. Aduhai.

So today, his whole class went to the library for NILAM. I remind you guys again. They were in last class. I was busy because I involved in library activity with year 6 students. At the same time, I was preparing for my observation. A senior teacher observed me today. She's a GC okey. How shouldn't I get nervous? Inferior? Creepy. But she's really kind and sporting. So, basically I was doing 3 tasks at the same time. Insane isn't it? Not effective multi-tasking. Kelas last ni biasala lah, datang library lambat. Tak bawak buku. Then, that 30 minutes ended.

Later, a male teacher came.

" Ni kelas ko eh, Fareha? 2 Emerald?"

" Aah. Kenapa?"

" Ko sedar tak Rifqi takde dalam kelas? Aku jumpa dia kat padang"

Ya tuhan. Rasa berdetum petir. I'm so dead.

Do you know what this indicates? I failed to take care of the class . Means I'm not alert with the students. Knowing Rifqi is 'special', I imagine all those bad things. He might get himself hurt or dead for worse. Oh my God, I felt so bad at that time. But, it was no one fault. He lost in between of the periods. Not during my class. Luckily, that male teacher knew it was nobody's fault. He just said, " Kau jangan bagi muka sangat kat dia. Attitude dia ni sebenarnya boleh dibentuk". Rifqi only scared of that male teacher. Kebetulan dah nak rehat, I told him to go for recess. As always, he just stood there. I being firm. I somehow force him to go. Finally he said " Tak bawak duit". That's broke my heart. 

Children like Rifqi shouldn't be left alone. He imagine himself as an ultraman. His job is to fight the monster. When he was in year 1, he hide behind the door. When girl passed by, he beat the girls with broom. 

It could be controlled r shaped eventually by time. Or it just stay that way maybe for forever. But definitely there's a way out. 

Spring Graduation Day 1

Bismillah

I'll write the whole thing about my graduation. So that one day  when I read my blog, I could remember all the good memories that I've been through. It's gonna be long and heap of photos. 

On 20th September I headed to KLIA from JB after school with my brother. He drove because I was quite tired after a hectic day at school. I noticed when we about to enter Negeri Sembilan, he was a bit off. There were times that he couldn't control the car. I knew he was sleepy. So we changed because I had been sleeping all the way from JB. hahaha.As for this trip, I tried to make thing simple. I just brought things that I really needed. Very basic toiletries, simple make up and limited clothes. But being female, it's hard to be simple. Sigh! My luggage still packed. 

Direct flight from KL to Auckland only took approximately 11-12 hours (MAS). But this time I'm not travelling with MAS. MAS, why you so expensive? My friend paid RM 4000++. I'm not gonna do that. I just barely started working and I haven't even got my first salary. Harus la tak mampu nak beli MAS hoih. So the solution is, I took transit flight that cost me only RM2000++. First transit point was Changi, Singapore and the next one was Brisbane, Australia. I swear to God, this was my longest journey I ever done. 33 hours.

Emma and me while waiting for our flight. Still in KLIA. Just both of us. No one sending us off.

My flight ( Jetstar) from KLIA to Changi was 11.50 pm. We arrived in Changi around 1.00 am. I was amazed with Changi airport. Sophisticated. Even though from the outside it just look like plain normal building, the interior was super great. It provides good services too. Free internet. Comfortable waiting area. Water coolers are everywhere and much more. After we walked around, we decided to find a place to sleep. 

 Kid section

Emma and I couldn't sleep because it was past midnight. Do you ever heard, if you are not going to sleep before or around 12, you won't be sleepy for the whole morning. I guess that happened to us. After walking around and went online, we found this place. It was isolated from other spaces and the cushion was comfortable. It was just the TV distracting us. The most annoying part was, the speaker was allocated at each cushion. So, masa nak tidur kau dah boleh dengar semua binatang tu cakap apa. Dah la aku tak boleh tidur kalau ada apa-apa bunyi pun. But I fell asleep anyway :p .

Around 3.30 am, I was awaken by man's voice. Three Singapore policemen were standing next to Emma and asking so many questions. He was curious why we were there because THERE WERE ONLY TWO OF US in departure hall. Malu aahh, masa kau tidur tetiba ada orang tengok kau tidur. Aku lagi segan sebab dua lagi polis yang berdiri kat tepi polis yang duk bersoal jawab dengan Emma tu Melayu. Melayu Singapore. Emma showed her itinerary and bla bla. They left. Emma went to the toilet and when she back, 

"Weh, ramai gila polis berkeliaran. Takut aku. Ada polis je"

To be continued...