Ok, janji. Kali ni je aku akan tulis macam ni.
I know I shouldn't be saying all these things. But only sharing these would make me much better even though I know not so many would read. Truth be told, I'm stress. Stress to the extend that I cried when I arrived home from work. Gila fragile aku jadi sekarang ni. I cried in the car when I listened to sad song. I was just so emotional.
I got to do many work. I'm busy. Well, everybody is busy. Tapi busy buat aku stress sebab I'm not happy. Kadang-kadang busy tu bagus to keep you occupied. Most of the time, it's not.I hardly take a tea break because my schedule is packed. I only take lunch and that's it for the rest of the day. Last few weeks, I vomited every morning and night. Stress sangat sampai muntah. Pagi-pagi mesti wek wek dulu baru ok. Selalunya ambik breakfast, tapi bila macam ni nak minum air pun tak selera. I'm losing weigh. My friends were asking me either I'm on diet. I'm never on diet ever in my life. I just do everything like usual routine. Eat moderately and exercise. I noticed that I'm losing weigh when my skinny jeans also loose with me. My hip looks like it belong to 12 years old girl. It scares me sometimes. Hahaha
I won't say anything about work place. Let alone I handle everything on my own. I just feel it's something too private and confidential to share because it involves many parties.Somehow, all these make me an extremely impatient person. Dear Lord, I never wish to be this kind of person.
I used to be lovely
Now, I find good place for running. Not far from my house. When ever I feel lemau, I'd go for running. Running after all the best medicine for me. Not putting on ear phone and layan all those sad songs.
p/s: Don't get me wrong. I love my job. It just that the surrounding is not so supportive due to certain extreme. Please know that I'm not stress all the time. Just sometimes it's just so unbearable that I couldn't take it anymore.