i'm in Dunedin

hi

safely landed at Dunedin domestic terminal around 6 yesterday evening. it was cold but it's still ok because i expect it to be extremely cold but it's not. so, thank god. i still can survive. well, Dunedin is way down south. harusla sejuk sebab dh nak dekat dengan Antartika gituh.

so here we go, photos of day 1. ( i forgot to put the filter on and i didnt edit the photos)

Christchurch from my window.awh, it's snowing. awesome.

Cathedral beside the Octagon

will update more later! bye

it's Sunday

(entry yang tergendala)
yes, it's Sunday. means end of the weekend right? but it doesnt really matter these day because it's winter break anyway. everyday is weekend. wihii. last night i stayed at Hawa's place because today i got netball friendly match against UMNO. i dont wanna get late because today's match started at 7 am. and i was like what the? mind you, now is winter and 7 am is obviously still very dark. luckily they changed the time to 7.30 am. ok la kan. but still i woke up at 6 kot hari ni. i didnt check my phone so i assumed the match was at still 7. i got up early because i need to have proper breakfast, get my mind mentally ready and focus. i'm a morning person. i dont like waking up late. if i do wake up late, the whole day would be disaster.
the game was fun. we won. Alhamdullilah our skill is improving and the communication between us is working and getting better i should say. UMNO team was not bad seriously. they are good, fast and effecient. btw, for those who dont know, UMNO is a club for Malaysian here, not only for Malay. everyone can join and it has nothing to do with the political thing and UMSA (united Malaysia Student Assosiation) is the main assosiation for Malaysian students in Auckland.

my teammate

right after the match, i went to Avondale Sunday marketdgn housemates y tercintah. how i miss something like this. back in Malaysia i always go to so called pasar minggu at my home town. even takde pape nak beli, pergi menempek muka because it's pasar kot. pergi tengok2. i like this Sunday market because i can get everything with super duper cheap bargain. they have everything here. you name it. tempe, kuew tiau, mee kuning and everything that we hardly get in the city. sayur mayur dan buah buahan pun sangat murah sampai jadi tamak haloba nak beli semua. kalau ikut nafsu nak makan tu, boleh tercirit sebab lawas makan buah kononnya gila la buah murah. hahaha.

Avondale Sunday market

i'm back

hey, i'm back.

i privated my blog last week for some personal reasons actually. one thing for sure is i was stressed out with everything. everything seems doesnt goes well. at the moment i'm busy with training because BERSATU is just in 1 week time, less than one week to be exact. today i got severe hip muscle pain. this is very unusual because like before this i'll only got muscle sore when i woke up in the morning the day after training. by the time i got home this afternoon, i sat on the floor to take of my shoes and seriously i crawled into my room. so painful to stand and sit properly. well i guess because today's practice was stressful. i got netball at 9 until 11 and straight after that i got badminton until 1 something. badminton training made my hip even worse because i need to spread out my leg wide. but i'm happy to have training without thinking about academic stuff. exam is over. all i need to focus now is only for BERSATU. i'll be leaving to Dunedin this Wednesday and so far i havent got any email about flight cancelation. meaning than, i'll still flying no matter how. many people stranded at the airport now because most of the airline system have cancelled their flight to most of their destinations because of the ash effects. the ash that come from Chile volcano eruption really spoils us here. somehow, we couldnt see anything even though it is sunny. we only can see thing in the short distance. uhh, because of that, New Zealand domestic flights also cancelled too. but Air New Zealand havent cancelled any of their flight. yeah, Air New Zealand rocks. even it is the expensive flight compare to the others, worth it la kan.

p/s: majulah sukan untuk negara. erk, motip?

being apart

assalamualaikum and hi all

this morning i read my eldest brother's status on fb saying " selamat tinggal semenanjung". all of sudden i feel so sad. he'll be working at Sarawak Airforce port. once we were posted, we will definetely stay there for at least 5 years. it's a long time seriously. this is unbearable. now i know how my mother feel about me studying overseas. the feeeling of letting someone you love to be apart from you is so emotional i should say. well, actually my mum wasnt not fully agree with the idea of studying overseas.but for future, she let m go with open hear but burst of tear.oh my god, 5 years at least. what a long period of time. ni baru berpisah within Malaysia. at least he will have some time to go back home. me? T_____T.homesick lagi.

complete exhaustion

assalamualaikum and hi all
it's pretty awesome to lay down on my bed right now. whoah, the feeling is so incerdibley great because after had a restless weekend i'm finally home. but honestly it was awesome. yesterday i went to Coromandel for the second time this year. this time around i went with the juniors. but pity them because the weather wasn't that good. they couldnt feel the sensation of Coromandel region. sayang sangat sebab Coromandel tu cantik bangat. we just there for sunset. tak merasa pergi pantai untuk surfing. and the worst of course the driver. nasib baik semua cool je. enjoy and have fun right? well, it took 4 hours drive to Cathedral Cove, the place we really wanted to go at Coromandel. yeah, it was a long way just for the beach. but it worth it really. however because now is winter, day is extremely short. we arrive at Cathedral cove around 3. after prayer, we headed down to the cove. it was almost dark actually. ambik gambar kejap and then mendaki balik bukit, dalam kegelapan dan kesejukan. lepas tu terus balik Auckland . on the way balik, behenti kt Tarua because the girls wanna have fish and chip. memang berbaloi sebab area situ memang figh and chip memang terbaik la. Bila dh smpai Auckland, kitaorng nak pergi makan kat satu kedai Malaysia area Parnell, tapi terlajak ke Auckland bridge dan plan nak buat light trail kt Westhaven terpaksa dibatalkan juga. so, alang-alang dah di North Shore terus pergi ke Devonport. memang plan asalnya nak tunggu sun rise kt Mt. Wellington, Devonport. terus pergi sana ambik gambar tapi tak jumpa kedai makan. harus la sorang-sorang nak jadi macam harimau sebab lapor. yang ada hanya bar dan fish and chip lagi. so, ambik keputusan untuk balik ke Auckland. satu kereta, Mirul, Kamilah, Yana dan Nadia balik dulu sebab diorng nak pulangkan kereta pagi ni. kitaorng, saya, Izzati, Qallam dan Halwani pergi ke Auckland untuk makan dan balik semula ke Devonport untuk ambik gambar sunrise. lepas makan kt Empire, minta Qallam hantar balik rumah kejap sebab nak ambil baju untuk dan sport shoes untuk friendly match dengan UMNO. dan berlaku la insiden ada orang reverse tanpa tengok belakang, terus langgar kereta kitaorng. drama kejap. blablabala. lepas baru rumah terus ke Devonport semula and parked the car and we slept in the car at Mt. Wellington entrance. bangun pagi esok, terus pergi tengok sunrise tapi malangnya pagi tadi agak mendung. oleh sebas itu, terus bergegas balik ke Auckland dan suruh Qallam hantar ke rec centre terus. truthfuly, dengan tak mandi. tak breakfast.ada certain orang memang tak mandi kalau ada sport waktu pagi sebab bazir je mandi kan. tapi saya mesti mandi sebab nanti mesti panas lain macam. masuk rec terus tukar baju. pergi isi air. jumpa husband k.Zati, borak jap. lepas tu terus main dalm group sementara tunggu. ok, this is too long. let meke it short

1) i'm so tired because of a long journey to Coromandel and the way back to Auckland was so tiring even though i'm not driving
2) sleep late
3) slept in the car
4) no shower, no breakfast
5) i got freindly match against UMNO club
6) pakai baju terbalik dan berjalan dengan confident nya satu rec centre tu. dengan brand tag terjojol keluar. kalau atas bahu takpe juga. ni kt tepi. orang punya sikit nak ramai kt rec. tapi xde orang tegur. mugkin diorng kesian kt saya
7)sebab dah tidur dalam kereta, tudung bagai menggila. senget benget. kerongsang dh nak sampai ke telinga
8) tetiba hari ni diorng ambil gambar team. pergh! ini la resultnya

letih.it's 8'40 pm and i think i need to go to bed now.bye peeps

of being healthy and fit but not thin

this morning i went to Candi Soo fitness training. the owner of this fitness centre is a Malaysian. married to Don, a white guy from Melbourne if i not mistaken. actually fitness training ni dibuka oleh Candi Soo di Melbourne and then after 5 years, she bring the concept back to Malaysia. kat Malaysia, Candi Soo fitness training ni ada kt 1 Utama, Desa Srihartamas dan ada beberapa cawangan lagi. this morning i did Zumba and it wasn't as exciting as the one i always joined at Uni rec centre last year. tak berpeluh sangat pun. after zumba, i went to Barbell Matrix. ya ampun, angkat segala mak nenek tu. maskular i tau. sakit bahu. siap angkat barbell sambil bergerak kesana dan kemari. nak pengsan rasanya. biasalah, orang jenis malas bersenam macam saya ni memang pancit la. even skrng ni pun rasa macam nak tercabut bahu. lenguh semua otot-otot. malam sebelum tidur mesti berazam, okeh esok lepas subuh nak pergi gym. tapi kesudahannya mesti oh tak larat. online je lah. it goes around and around everyday. kadang-kadang bangun pagi tak nampak pe. kabus menggila. mesti lagi malas.tapi bila hari cerah mesti gembira because i know the day wont definetely be very cold. tapiiiiii malas juga.btw, say hi to sun.

dari balcony rumah kami

memandang kan sekarang ni agak sejuk, terasa keinginan untuk memakan benda panas sangat mengigit jiwa. ok, ayat cam pelik sikit. last few weeks i went to this Turkey pizza shop. i like this shop because the pizza is very authentic. it's firewood pizza. terasa sangat di middle east. if you know how much i'm dying to go to middle east, you will understand why i like this shop. dengan lagu Turkey tak leh bla, dengan design kedainya. and everything la. so far, baru 3 kali pergi kedai ni even i'm here for almost 2 years la sekrang ni sebab kedai macam mahal sikit compare to kedai kebab dan pizza lain. tapi, chicken and mushroom pizza dia memang A lah!

tiba pak cik tuh!

sayang tanpa syarat

when i was five, i was admitted to the hospital to undergo lower abdomen surgery because i had some sort of abnormality in my abdomen. at that time, my parent had to do a very hard decision either to continue the surgery or not because i was too little to undergo an abdomen surgery. anyhow, i really needed the surgery to be done because if not, i'll suffer at my teen age.if not i wont be able to enjoy my teen age like i do now. thanks mak and ayah for making the decision. i dont wanna tell what exactly the term is because i dont want you to google it up..hahahha, sorry guys. well, basically what happens is the content of the body capacity bulge out of the area where they are normally contained. it has a potential risk of having blood supply cut off. if the blood supply is cut off, it becomes a medical and surgical emergency as the tissue needs oxygen whichis transported by the blood supply. the doctor suggested to have the surgery immediately becaue if my parent want to wait until i grow up, i have to face the risk. the risk would be i cant breath out of sudden because of blood supply cut off or simply because yeah you what right? hard to describe. because of the surgery and all, my kindergarten life wasn't like yours. in one year, i only went to kindergarten like few days. because of the surgery, i was off from school for 4 months if i not mistaken. even before the sugery, i had to comute to the hospital every month or every week ( sorry, i cant remember because it was long time ago). even so, because of my mum and of course my dad too, i could read fluently compared to those who went to school every day. in fact, at the age of six, i was selected to represent my kindergarten for penyampaian ucapan, pidato or something like that. i was selected because i was the only one who could read very well and brave enough to stand in front of the crowd ( i'm not showing off here, lol).
i still remember, before the surgery i had to fast. happened to be i was really annoyed to have medicine but i had to take it a lot everyday. the day before the surgery, i had to fast but at the same time i had to have medicinetoo. before the surgery of course you cannot take even a drop of water. it's a BIG NO for water before surgery because if you do take water, you die, seriously. so, could you imagine having medicine without drinking water. because of that, i had the wrong idea of fasting. i thought we can take medicine while Ramadhan fasting too. that was so pathetic. hahaha. my mum and dad take a good care of me. thinking of those day, i really greatful. Thanks Allah for my parent. they are the greatest people you have placed in my life. and yeah, because of the surgery i have about 6cm big surgical scar at my lower abdomen. i never show it to anyone including my close friends.

*love you fillah till Jannah*
i'm easily affected by anything actually. when i was at IPTI i was so sick because when dengue was widely spread in Johor i was affected too. the symptom of dengue is when you feel like paralyse throught out the dusk. i suffered you know. when the dusk came, i would be like dead people. i coudnt hold anything. if i do try, i'll definetely drop it off. like seriously bad. i couldnt reply the message.so my mum call me. i only could speak tu pun perlahan macam orang kentut.hahaha. here's the story about dengue. before i fly on to New Zealand, i was admitted to the hospital,again. kali ni sbb taun boley. even last summer, i wgot severe stomachache. brpa kali pergi klinik dan hospital.macam-macam penyakit. kalau ada penyakit berjangkit for sure kena. easily affected but easily discovered. Alhamdullillah. Allah is fair.

i got the parcel that my dad had posted to me last week. so i got my baju raya even though it's just Rejab. hehehe. happy to see these baju raya. i got tudung too. kerongsang too. sayang tanpa syarat yang saya maksudkan diatas is about my parent. they are great people. they are the one who inspired me so much. my life keep moving because of them. they love me so much i know. theyr love me without condition because it is a nature for parent to love their children without hoping anything in return. i love my mum and my dad. this entry is tributed to my parent because May and June is mother's and father's month. i know my mum will read my blog once in a while. *saya malu*

put a smile

another demotivating day but manage to smile because i know life offers unexpected things. so, never stop hoping for the best. and dont forget to put a smile on your face. who knows your smile would be the medicine for any heartache. tehee

Never let life's hardships disturb you. no one can avoid problems, not even saints or sages.
-Nichiren Daishonen-

thank you Sizuka for the photo

kejayaan tak datang bergolek

assalamualaikum and good morning all
it's 9.46 a.m in Auckland. i'm currently at uni revising my notes for Primary Maths exam tomorrow. well, just spending about 15 minutes to write this. speaking of exam, we all struggling so hard right? and some even give their very best effort, for the better future of course. without sacrifice, we won't be able to taste the sweetness of success. last night i talked to my friend. nothing much, just friend to friend conversation. he said, nothing in life is easy. even he himself, struggling with drawing, port folio, model and everything. he asked me if i know matlutfi and of course i do. like kitaorng satu rumah kot suka tengok video matlutfi. he said, that is the most creative architectural video people ever made, for him la. sangat kena dengan budak architecture.cara hidup. cara study. tension. well,as for me i see this video from different angle because i'm not an architecture student. so i see it in more humanistic way. kata cikgu. hahhaha check out his video here. i couldnt put his video in this entry. i have no idea why

gambar ini didedikasikan untuk para housemates saya.teheee

from my observation, he tries to convey the messege that he's tired. he put his very best effort for that but he didn't get what he expected. that's really frustrating. i know how it feels. but he turns his frustration into a positive way. the great messege from this video is, we can't never ever give up in our life. we dont know what the future holds. that's why never stop hoping and at the same time put our very best effort. in the end, it's not result that matter. it's EFFORT people. yeah, it always about effort. Allah will judge you based on what you did, not based what you get because he gives everthing that you have. Allah will reward you based on our effort that you put in, not based on the result you get. Allah will reward you regardless of the result you get because he knows what best for you. study and struggle while maintaining your faith and belief is fundamenatal because Allah is the only one you can rely on. anyhow, study is study. you can deny that. a student must struggle in uni. if you think you're burdened, just think about people others.they might have even worse issue than you do. yours might be like nothing. think and reflect.
wish you best of health and iman
p/s: i spent 45 minutes writing this. dugh!

miscommunication

* this entry is intended to be monotonous *
till then Assalamualaikum and hi peeps.how are you?
it's very important to read this entry with no emotion because i'm not too. at the moment, i'm not angry, i'm not sad, and i'm not happy either. just so-so because life is pretty dull these days because exam is approaching.study mood la sangat kononnya.nothing much good or bad thing's going on. lately, people have mistakenly judge my emotion. they said i was grumpy when i'm completely not. people said i'm being rude when i have no ittention to be rude at all. ok, lets get straight to the point. i wrote an email to one of my lecturers and she has mistakenly understood what i was saying. she said i was being grumpy. i just can smiled and explained to her that i wasn't when i met her. another case was, one of the lecturers ( again ) said that i'm complaining about her. what?(remainder: i'm not angry right now). why should i do that? i dont simply complaining things and i dont even get angry very easy, just so you know that i always put my anger at the right place. and one more thing, some of my friends said i was sad, emotional and so whatever. people! i'm not okey. ok, put this aside.

He is the apple of our eyes
hey people, you know what, i always had good dream about my cat. i love him sooo much. it's pretty weird because i love him the way i love human. when i'm thinking about him, i can feel something inside my left chest. it's my heart pounding right? this really crazy. lol!

kena cakap kt dia ni mmg perkara biasa la. hari tu masa duk rumah, habis berparut tangan!

nikmat merdeka utk sejenak

assalamualaikum
yeah, merdeka buat seketika. i've submitted my last assignment for this sem. owuh, i wish today is the day i handed in my last assignment as undergraduate student. but how could it possible. one and half year to go. Chiayok bebeh!

exams WAITING! but i need to go out to catch a breath after a tiring week. i'm going to REBEL instead of Glassons, JayJay, Cotton On, Lizzy ( yeke?) Supre and whatever it is. ok, weird

wah

assalamualaikum

mesti orang ingat saya ni emosi kan sebab selalu tulis something yang macam negative lately. i'm perfectly fine. ok je. just kadang-kadang je terharu bagai. masih menjalani kehidupan yang sempurna gitu. tadi cari adapter, tak jumpa and terus cari belakang meja kecik tepi katil dan then tetiba meja tu terbalik. bunyi bagai orang mengamuk. zati terus panggil nama saya.dia ingat saya mengamuk sebab cari tak jumpa..hahaha. tetiba tengok nk pengsan seba jenuh nak kemas balik.aih!

ptng tadi lpas MSD meeting terus g warehouse sbb ada bakal-bakal isteri nak beli pyrex. beli utk mama juga.lepas tu teman Mard baiki laptop kt tempat saya kerja bersama housemates, tpi sayangnya Guleed takde. tak boleh kenal Guleed ye kawan-kawan? sempat berhenti untuk sembahyang Magrib dekat masjid Mt. Roskill. masjidnya besar. kawasan Mt. Roskill ni komuniti islam nya ramai berbanding tempat lain. saya seronok kerja kt sini sebab kebanyakan orang yang saya jumpa semua Islam.kebanyakannya dari Palestin, Iraq, Somalia, Turkey dan kebanyakan negara arab lain. bila saya jaga kedai mesti diorng akan bagi salam dan address saya sebagai sister instead of girl or ladies. that is so warmth. berasa sangat bahagia dalam suasana Islam yang memang sangat susah nak dapat bila Islam itu sangat minority disini. bahagia!

masjid Mt Roskill

Subhanallah! masjid ni penuh dan parking pun penuh. siap parking atas jalan. tersumbat-sumbat. this is seriously unexpected. diorng pergi masjid semata-mata untuk sembahyang berjemaah. punya la islam diorng ni sangat kuat. ah yea, kebanyakan orng kt sini pakai jubah even budak-budak kecik yang keluar pergi main.

saya tenang

assalamualaikum
saya dah submit research proposal. Alhamdulillah, tenang dan setenangnya. dan semestinya saya mengharapkan yang terbaik kerana saya dah bagi almost the best of my effort. ni la sem yang paling derita bagi saya. saya banyak cemas. berdebar. tak lena tidur memikirkan marks. menangis. sengsara. di landa kemurungan. banyak ujian.banyak benda hilang. cukup la sampai disini. tadi saya ada terbaca satu artikel dari langit ilahi. baca la. sangat motivated. dan saya

tertarik dengan ayat ni

Air mata, penderitaan, keperitan, kelelahan, tusukan duri ujian dan dugaan kehidupan adalah warna warni dalam meniti sebuah perjuangan. Kehidupan tanpa genggaman perjuangan adalah suatu keaiban. Hiduplah dengan jiwa yang kental dengan ruh perjuangan yang nyata dan benar.”

dan saya tahu, saya tak pernah boleh cakap saya letih dengan semua ni. lagi kita cuba melawan, lagi banyak dugaan yang datang. *cuba untuk bermujahadah* . kena perbetulkan niat. maybe kita tengok kawan kita ok je, tak payah usaha pun, tapi ok je. bila dia tak ok, dia mengeluh sedangkan dia tak berusaha. well, tepuk dada tanya selera. *refleksi diri*
and yeah, toworrow we got a meeting with MSD (Malaysian student division), discussing about study stuff i guess. bila teringat meeting yang last year memang memalukan gila. let it rests as a secret. memalukan je.oh!hahaha