Wednesday, August 21, 2019

Hello 2019!

Hello 2019!

It may sound a little bit strange to say hi to a new year when it almost end of the year. Hahaha. It just that I feel like writing because I technically quite free at this hour.

To cut things short, I now have two kids. They are amazing.Still enjoying my peaceful life in a felda school. Life is pretty simple here and em not planning for any transfer in 20years to come. LoL.


 Seth is now 4

Anis 1 already. Time flies so fastt 


Will find time to write regularly after this. hihi

Thursday, May 31, 2018

When I complain about work

Seperti mana yang aku selalu mention sebelum ni, sejak aku pindah tempat baru ni, aku lebih tenang. Aku rasa jadi cikgu ni kerja memang berlambak. Tak pernah pun sikit. Cuma yang membezakan kau rasa best tak kat sekolah tu ialah pressure dari orang kat sekolah tu dan rakan sekerja. 

Kalau pihak atasan pressure kan kau pasal result budak padahal ko dah pulun ajar sampai nak terberanak, tapi budak tak perform juga kau rasa nak hempuk tak budak tu? Mesti la kan. Kita ni kan manusia biasa. Bagi latihan tak buat. Tunjuk satu-satu pun tak  dapat juga. Tapi takde la hempuk kan. Kang tak pasal-pasal aku aku kena cerca nation wide jadi cikgu yang tak berintegriti. Hurm. Pokok pangkalnya, pendidikan tu tetap bermula dari rumah. Mustahil cikgu mampu nak ajar semua supaya pandai betul-betul.

Dulu, masa tahun akhir degree aku rasa nak quit. Teaching is not easy. Orang selalu cakap, cikgu senang. Padahal nak tercirit juga la nak jadi cikgu. Sebab tugas dia nak didik anak orang, but at the same time kau takde kuasa nak buat apa-apa untuk budak untuk didik dia dgn cara yang betul. Frankly speaking, kalau budak kurang ajar kau rasa nak luku tak kepala dia? Dia tak nak buat kerja rumah kau rasa nak halau tak? Pastu buat muka selamba. Sedangkan rasullah pun membolehkan rotan dengan tujuan mendidik, kenapa kita nak usulkan untuk anak murid kita tidak boleh disentuh.

Ok, leave this issue here.

Bila Amirul ambik aku dari sekolah aku, aku akan start cerita macam-macam pasal sekolah dekat dia. Mostly pasal apa yang aku tak puas hati. Tapi bila aku dah pindah sekolah baru, aku dah tak komplen sangat padahal aku banyak kerja plus pregnant. Sampaikan dia tanya "Takde nak cerita pape ke hari ni?" I avoid myself from talking too much about work. Lagi pun takde apa nak komplen. Sekolah ok, kawan-kawan sekerja pun ok. Semua jenis buat kerja sampaikan kalau kau tak buat kerja, kau rasa malu. 

Hari tu ada satu insiden yang aku memang tak puas hati sebab ianya berkaitan dengan pentadbiran. Amirul senyum je masa dengar aku cerita.

"Sayang, abang nak tanya ni."
"Apa dia?"
"Gaji sayang kurang tak bulan ni? Berapa gaji sayang?"

Aku dengan innnocent nya, dengan lurus bendul nya pergi jawab.

"Ntah, Kenapa Abang? Tak cjeck lagi dalam bank"

Lepas tu dia mula la ceramah al-kuliyah pasal kerja ni. Amirul nasihatkan selagi mana gaji tak kurang, biarkan ke orang nak kutuk kita ke. Cerca kita ke. Nak gaduh dengan kita ke, asalkan gaji kita cukup. Kita buat kerja kita. Kalau gaji berkurang baru bising.

Begitu lah kesudahan untuk setiap komplen ku pasal kerja :p 

Husband is always cool. That's why he is a stress free person while I'm not. Lol

Minggu ni kalut. Sebenarnya tiap-tiap minggu kalut. Asalkan kerja siap, suami cukup makan. K, bye

Thursday, January 26, 2017

Life is not a bed of roses

Assalamualaikum.

As we grow older, life getting tougher. Don't you think so? Or it's just me. Working became insanely stressful when you work with lazy  and inefficient people. Will I be like that too if I'm getting old later? Somehow, all the burden finally come to you. Phew!

I miss being young and free. Looking at photos at those time make me wanna be at those time again. I can do what ever I want without getting tired. Life now is full of commitment but of course in a good way. Being a working mother, I need extra hands to get everything done. I cannot satisfy everyone. What is more stressful is, some outsiders do interrupt in your life. Like, hey you shouldn't do this and that. This should be done like this and that. Eh, kurus nya anak. Tak bagi makan eh? Bersepahnya, tak kemas rumah eh. They don't know how many time do I clean the house to make every thing tidy. 

Monday, July 11, 2016

Life of having a baby

This should be and emotional post. Teheee
Lately, I've been writing about life as a mother je kan. Hope you don't get bored. 70% of my life is around me and my baby. My time basically divided into two, work and him. I feel that so many thing have changed. My life totally changed and my time is all truly yours, Seth. 

We have to sacrifice something to get something. It's like if you wanna have a child, you have to sacrifice your time, money and so many more. Mama tak kisah langsung, as long you are growing as a healthy baby. Seth is growing and showing tantrum. He threw my iPad and it crack so bad. Making mess. But Mama has to be extra patient. I reflected to my life. My parents must be this patient with me too.   

It makes me think about my parents. How much my parents have sacrificed for me and my siblings. Having kid makes you reflect about life a lot. It's true that people say when you have kid, you appreciate your parents even more. Ya Allah, masuk kan lah ibu bapa ku kedalam syurga mu tanpa hisab. 

                                 
                         Seth, mama loves you to the moon and back. And even more than that. 

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Juggling between work and motherhood

Assalamualaikum.

I miss blogging so much. Boleh la kot nak menulis 3 bulan sekali. LOls. Everyday is a busy day. I cannot find any moment in a day that I could steal to write. Very busy. Amboi busy nor kau kalau orang dengar kan. Macam la ko sorang kerja kan. Truth to be told, there  were so many times I feel like quiting my job. Too tired that I can't handle working and being a mother and being a wife. Extremely exhausted. Tak boleh imagine kalau ada anak tiga nanti. Fuhh. Semoga Allah bagi kekuatan untuk kita. Semoga Allah pelihara kesihatan kita. Semoga Allah pelihara perkahwinan kita. Insyaallah. 

Seth is a week to 9 month. Very active boy. Panjat sana sini. Mama nak fengsan. Letih tau. But knowing that active baby is a healthy baby and insyaallah intelligent one day, I sacrifice what I love. One of them is sleeping. I'm having sleep deprivation for almost 9 months too. huhu. No more time to read novelssss. HUUU. Maybe people think that I don't manage my time wisely. Like orang lain ada nak juga, tapi boleh je buat wht they like. Everyone is different. Support fro partner is very important here. 

Above all, I'm truly bless for having a healthy son. Walaupun penat nak layan because he's very clingy to mama only, at least I have a kid to look up when I'm sad, bored and when I need someone to hug. Balik rumah is just time for him. No more work. That's why I used my time to the fullest at school so I don't have to bring work home. Memang tak akan buat. Tak boleh nak buat. Suami haruslah memahmi situasi isteri yang bekerja dan pada masa jaga anak. Memang nampak macam biasa-biasa je. Tapi orang yag ada anak kecik je tahu betapa penatnya. You cannot handle it alone. Nak ja ga rumah tangga lagi kan? Nasib la husband memahami dan I do what I'm capable of only.

Salute all working mothers out there. Happy mother's Day.


                                   
                                  Seth: Sorry mama. I'm too energetic. Happy Mother's Day mama

Monday, February 29, 2016

Of having baby

Hello aunties, 
Seth is 6 months now. He's an active baby and loveeeee to eat so much. He started solid food at 5months ++ because he was still crying even after breastfeeding and looked so hungry. He enjoys food so much. Eating time would be the most happy time for him. Menurun dari sape tuuuuuu? 

Many things have changed when I have him. I realised that I have developed ultimate patience and I never imagine that I could have that much patience. I become so patience handling his tantrum. I become so patience when  I have to wake up 6-7 times at night just to breastfeed him. I become so tough waking up early to prepare fresh milk for him because he doesn't want frozen milk. At tea time, I will send so more milk to the baby sitter. I prepare porridge for him every day. Thinking of those sometimes make so feel extremely tired. But I don't want to miss any second seeing him growing up. Biar aku letih, asalkan aku dapat lihat semua tu. I set my mind I do it because I of love. I want the best for my son. I don't feel tired but I'm happy. In fact, I miss him. Balik kerja terus pergi ambik. Takde nak rehat-rehat dulu.

Sekarang dah takde dah nak tidur lepas balik kerja. kalau dulu wajib terbongkang tidur petang. Sekarang no no no. I have to entertain him. Even sometimes he sleeps in the evening, I can't sleep either because my schedule has changed. Now, no more bringing work to home. Wajib tak sentuh sebab kesian Seth menangis sebab takde orang nak main dengan dia. So, I use time at school to the fullest. My time at home is 90 % with him. I think he's clingy.... or actually he needs attention. 


Tuesday, August 4, 2015

36 weeks pregnant

Holla people!

Yea, it's been a while. Not been busy, just nothing much to say about. At the moment, I'm just happy and nervous at  the same time. I'm currently 36 weeks pregnant and I feel good about it. I gain so much weight. Oh man, gotta work out after giving birth, like so so hard. I still go to work like usual. Sometimes, I feel so tired but I'm more worried about my year 6 kids having UPSR in 3 weeks time. 

Everything is pretty much ready for our baby. I packed all my bags so Amirul won't be panic when the time come.I know he will be the calm one until he forgot what I need. Oh, baby can pop out any time sooner. 


Everything is ready for you baby ;)


P/s: Mohon kawan-kawan doakan kesejahteraan, keselamatan dan kesihatan untuk saya dan baby.