the echo loft

To this point, let me cease your life.
It's been an enjoyable 3 years.
From my joy to my sorrows,
from my fatness to my obesity,
from my JC tabloid to Uni scandals(woops!),
from Cambodia to Germany to Italy,
you've traveled the world with me.
you were my alter ego.

From what i was to who i am
I cannot thank you more,
for you always consumed and never retaliated.
you always listened and never provoked.
It's all part of a wonderful memory edged in the depths of me.

Dear the echo loft,
you shall breathe your last from now.
Not so far away from here,
we'll make a new beginning there.

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I have second thoughts about sky diving for the upcoming NZ trip after barely ascending 150 meters last night on the DHL Hot air balloon somewhere in Bugis. I know im damn lousy but hey when the wind blows, it was slightly scary! The night view of the skyscrapers in Singapore is quite a sight, really. Im guessing it's cause' now's the festive season with all the light-ups so it adds more glitz to the scene. DHL balloon is afterall a tourist attraction so it only makes sense to show Singapore off to the world(although i dont know who woould pay $23 for a 10min ride to see Singapore and its man-made scenery).

Wow if not for Maia and her relentless chantings of wanting to get on the balloon, i would never have gotten this opportunity too. See, the power of a ultra cute girl and one who is very much doted by her grandpa. =) My grandpa dotes me in his own budget ways about 15 years ago by buying me loads of 10c balloons. heh. Times have changed and it's not enough to just own balloons for a 2year old kid! Anyhow, i've a lot to thank this kid =) though she may never be able to read this!

Dinner was how should i say? I liked it because i've never tried something like that before. Its some Japanese bbq restaurant and they serve like every part of the cow! Im beef-phobic but last night, i ate more beef than i ever did my whole life and im not kidding! All that, to make the $58++ worth it. Besides, i think it is very rude to start being picky on a dinner table especially when they invited you, yes? Ah well, the beef's in me now and i erm.. am fine! For someone who rather not eat meat, I give that place a 'pass' for their beef since it didn't quite stink!

Alright, gotta fly down to pick up my doll!

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Im disgruntled that level 6 of CL is empty. A week ago, a stone's throw would hit any silly fellow studying for exams. Today, any stone throw and you hit the silly desk or chair. It doesn't help that i am so friggin' cold, so hungry and mostly grouchy that i have a big fat disgusting pimple on my chin and imminent ones appearing up my forehead.

Hello, meet me, the silly cow who started her exams on the 25th and is only ending on the 8th of Dec.

Anyhow, despite all my complaints, i actually had more fun than i ever did studying for exams this sem. Besides for the long long days of breaks meant for studying, i spent my long long days of breaks thinning my savings at Pull & Bear(say hello to ultra mini checkerd skirt and sparkly purple top!) and watching 2 movies, ah not forgetting the numerous feast which delighted my palate but made my wallet a very sad being. In one week, i visited Sabai(spelling?) , White Dog Cafe, Coduoroy Cafe and Akashi.

And you thought it was all? No. I had my fair share of Macdonalds day in day out seeing that i made myself a permanent resident there since the days of my studying. Im telling you that i eat more than i study and i sleep more than i eat. Which means, im basically pudgy and heavy and refuse to meet the world this Friday lest Zoukout on Sat. *Sigh* It'll be more apt if it were Flabsout la!

Yet surprisingly, im still alive after Standard Chartered's 10km run 2 days back. Boy, Impossible is Nothing.I truly got the essence of that cliche Adidas line after i completed the race. Woot! A short distance runner and i can frigging run 10km!Tantamount to 25 rounds of the track. Quite an achievement eh? But ask me now how im feeling and i'll tell you i have 3 unglam Muscle Relief plaster on my back. I'll be back for the 21km half marathon next year , if im still in S'pore and if i seriously transform my lazy bones to erm that of a marathoner.

For now, let me return to the ghost zone of CL and do what a student's is to be doing. A student whose paper is in less than 24hrs.

Posted by Joanne at 10:13 | Permalink

an unsung melody.
a sinking outlook.

i against me.

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when u choose to put your sorrows against a myriad of similars, it'll hit u real hard.
yet when u choose to put your happiness against a myriad of similars, it may not necessarily yield the same positive effect as the former. Why? Have we grown so cynical about life that perhaps, happiness is but just happiness , holding no depths of association with emotions?

i know of a person who is hardly satisfied with herself. Her elixir of happiness is very short-lived but one thing for sure, her happiness is made tangible somehow somewhere.
i know of a person whose shadow is her sadness. it fades in and out of her life. It works in ways which no one could comprehend. she could see the negative happiness(yea no pun intended) of every single aspect in life. she was morbid as the word spells. she wishes to miscommunicate more than to communicate to others about herself. Her heart, was beyond the tatters of your torn rags.There was null sense of self efficacy.


then he came and planted seeds in her heart. a heart of hatred and negativity void of fertility of any sense.Exceeding courage, passion and love. The plentifulness patience of his alter ego. Slowly and gently, he ploughed through the fields of her heart to reform one which he picked up. her laughter, he composed them. the tune of joy she had in her, he taught her to it. she steals glances at him during their music lessons, to remind herself of the treasure in front of her. And they, they just sat amongst the music...

how could she not see it.
you picked up a dying heart,
which was on its way for a transplant.
but no, u revived it in ways i have always been unsatisfied of.

did i say 'i'?

Posted by Joanne at 00:00 | Permalink

reliance and compliance.
Caught in the middle of 2.
these gray areas,
i question but yield no answer.

Im some of us learning to be some of you.
just let me face the fcuking fact that,
im running in circles.

I cant restrain.
there's another world behind this facade.
delusional.
strangling.

The screaming never went beyond the bleeding heart.

Posted by Joanne at 02:42 | Permalink

Because if i do not focus and start ploughing through those *love letters* which my lecturers lovingly wrote to me, im most likely to suffer the epiphenomenom of my own incompetence for this friday's CA.

...im slipping off the edge,
...imhanging by a thread...


What song is that?
i need to remember the title.

Posted by Joanne at 23:13 | Permalink

Ai Xin french toast.
Ai Xin teh-peng.
Ba Kut Teh.
Gelare with Apple Crunch Yoghurt ice cream.
potato chips.

would you lie here and forget the world with me?

Posted by Joanne at 23:31 | Permalink

On Tuesday...
Maybe the only thing i am genuinely thankful to God for is not the completion of my term papers or anything to do with the 'self' anymore. Rather, im truly grateful that by god's grace i managed to bring someone so close to me for CG on tuesday. Hearing that so many of my CG mates embarked on a failed mission to bring a friend along for that day's 'community' session, im indeed very pleased with mr someone. It's not even about imposing Catholocism on someone else because Catholics just do not do that! But rather, it's about bringing someone along to attend a highly sensitive domain and experience community through gaming at Settler's! See, we're not all about the Word of God. We can be but, i rather live my life well and true to my faith than to come to you at a MRT station and read you the bible!oops.


On Wednesday...
The xiao long bao mission day but we saw something more 'siao'.


This truck is actually driven like a normal car as a mode of transportation. But its even more helluva cool that i spotted it in Holland.V, parking indiscriminately on a random grass patch! Part of me is super intrigued but the other part of me is like.. just cos it's driven by Ang Mo doesn't give him more right to destroy the greenery. Im all for go-green la sorry.




Then when i was at sunset way to buy 4D with him, we spotted a Hello Kitty automobile! It's actually a Toyota Yaris but the position where the 'yaris' is suppose to be is replaced by 'hello kitty'.


2 cool cars in less than 2hours . Why haven't we struck 4D? =p

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