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Lots and lots of updates...
Hey all... been feeling very blue recently becos of endless work and endless things on my mind.
Sometimes i just feel that no one understands me, no one understands my feelings.
That night i was waiting for someone to reply my sms,
and admist of waiting i fell asleep...

When i woke up i felt an acute pain on my chest..
to tell the truth, it was no laughing matter...
the pain made my heart numb, made my whole right hand numb and i could feel my head aching.
Just one side of the body but that was enough to send tears down my cheeks...

I dunno what is happening to me...
was so panicky and quickly sms dar..
he did a few checks on me and confirmed my safety...
I guess all was that due to my stress....

Yun is finally back in SGP!!!! yay! miss her so much,
think will ask her out for a cup of kopi soon and some shopping =)

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tiredEzz

TireDddddneSssss

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=Xx

Lazy to blog.. maybe after my exams bahs.. Exams had been making me busy and dun feel like working, especially during saturday when i returned to work, so many things were not working.. and my pc is dying... pls save him!

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Wow.... cool D&D

To bad the mood abit spoiled due to too many absenties on our table.. sigh.. anyway

hope u all liked the pics ^^

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Lazy

Hey all, been so lzay recently.. haiis hais.. its really tiring being here and there...
rushing for driving, rushing for lessons and rushing for work...zZzz
Shall keep all updated.... hmmmm? if anyone cares? lolz

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Long time no update liaos

Hiya think long time no update blog liaos... things had been going on lar.. busy busy lo..
lookin fwd to dnd lor... haha not do not disturb...pple say i had been growing thinner.. but dunno lehs... haha not that thin right? =x

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Days of unrest . . .

Its been days of unrest for me..

Much had been on my mind..

my past, my sad past.

Easy to say to put them behind me..

but how much i went through still i was a young child..

who knows? who bothers? who is there to empathise me?

Not that i refuse to let them go..

but past memories haunt me..

painful and sad memories that i wish to let go..

why do they re surfaced again?

Will be going driving again tmr... will be into stage 2 le....I am so broke le... tmr is also

project due date.. *prays hard i will do well*

really spent alot of time on it...hope lecturer appreciates my hard work.

So tired... chiong so many calls today...70plus lor...

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Tired Tired Tired

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Busy

Wow busy week lehz.... one more tiny step stage cleared. My instructor say can go to main road next lesson ler... but i wun get to see him leh... so sad leh... coz friday plan to go out... so will replace lesson on thursday lor...hmm... ths US lecturer dunno how to teach leh... bth.. me and DT wanna sleep liao lor.... he spend so much time on useless things n his ppt slides crap lor... haiiz

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wow cool... today on the road again.. with the same instructor... and there i go banging onto the same spot again... must be very careful.. but like what my instructor said, it is generally easier to drive on the road compared to in the circuit.. nevermind will try again tmr ^^

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Today is full of crappy calls lor... esp my last call.. this auntie v v v jialat lorrrrr......
cant take it.. ask to check this and that... dispute this and that... want change this and that.. wante remove this and that... one single bill plan repeated to her like how many hundred times and she keep asking stilll... finally hang up after 2omins lor... then ask me check her husband a/c smmore.. omg!

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yippie........ driving is fun tmr go drive again...but weekends are so expensive lor.. its like $10 more than normal days.. sometimes really can cough blood. >.<
HRM Project now at 1k/3k words... 1/3 only zZzz...
Wooo... guess who i've met? Met AK's gf (Sheena) in PSB .. she was beside my class only haha...she seems to have some difficulties in coping with her Marketing project....
such a coincidence right? Its a small world after all... =Ppp
I am a happy gal.... Next week is XIONG week coz Mon-Fri Work... Mon-Fri Sch... except friday no sch but weekends both got classes and Mon back to work!!! Gosh.... =.=

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no time to lose

I got no time to lose.... wow been real busy since school started. Sometimes i just wish that i had more time to learn driving.. to study.. to clear projects.. to go for classes.. gotta clear my HR project real soon coz the Marketing project is coming up already... goodness...

Yippie today had my first driving class... OMG! I cant believe i can drive a car??? haha... amazing lolz. Within 15-30mins of the lesson i was already driving.. controlling the movement of the car. Budden ok lar.. nearly rammed into other people's car 2x today at the same curve... Luckily my instructor was quick enough to make the E-brake lolz... Thanks Mr Ng for the wonderful first lesson...he chat with me also, and it puts me at ease. I think he wanted to test if i paid attention while on the road or not also lor haha. You're just great Mr Ng. ^^

Went to meet Aunty Chris aft that coz she wasnt feeling good due to lots of crappy calls today... we went to la kopi... Popular bookshop and NTUC lolz.. but we din bought anything.. had a nice chat.. then walk her to her mother-in-law place then i walked home by myself... thinking of my bf tht time... coz he used to walk me home everytime =)

Told chris i wanna have my own house soon and she asked when when when? Where ? where? where? haha... i only answered plan on 2009 but well... we shall see =)

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You Tube Show Recomendations...

Are you bored? Thinking of what to watch? Below are some show recomendations...Check em out!



This show DreamsLink is re-scripted by chong yao... if you've watch Yi Lian You Meng long time back... this is actually different... so check out .. if u like the story u can watch it on you tube. Currently is uploaded till episode 17. =) Meaningful Love story... kinda sad though...


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another interesting show... check it out! Theres Chen Ling in it haha.. kinda funny love...=Ppp
Huan Huan Ai... Exchange Love =)


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Super Super Duper sad Japanese show... about an illness that takes away her life...
It really made me cried... coz its so sad... but the story line is good! Check it out!
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Tokyo Juliet... Check it out... story about love and fashion designing... Its cool..... ^^ Enjoy these shows

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Deep Sleep

Went into deep sleep just now coz my chest was so painful... my stomach was so pain... feeling so nauseous... so uncomfortable.. cldnt even eat... Feeling so tight... so upset... and there is just no one there for me... no one to care for me... only sms that annoys me further.... my head still spinning...

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AQ Last day

Woo... sincerely thanks AQ for bringing me into this job... tmr she's leaving me once again to pursue her dreams in a new job... i wish her all the best. Hope she is feeling better from our food poisioning... Gotta start hunting for D&D dress soon... i plan to get 2 dresses... one more fanciful one and the other plain one for dear's col's wedding de... so tired after a long long day....
Finally can start to learn driving next week!!!! WeEEee so excited keke.... next time must buy car =P

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Rainy...

Wat a rainny day... i am sneezing non-stop liaoz... o_o

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-=Ratatouille=-

I want i want! i want to watch Ratatouille... I even wanna hunt for the rat soft toy after it is out haha... but that isnt my piority.. i am still hunting for my meow meow ....tink i woke up quite late today already.. planning to do my HRM Project brieft, HRM Chapter 2 notes & work out the Case Study answers.. but later gotta do abit of refresh & revision for my FT also. Nevermind coz i still have tmr afternoon to do the rest of the "incompletes" but i cannot drag liaoz... Now so hungry coz i havent ate anything all morning haha... Go complete my Huan huan Ai denz see what to do ... OIL is so cool haha... dun haf to face nasty customers.... pui!
=Pppp

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Bored

Bored.... no off day till sat n sat is not off day!!!! is school day =/

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This is my life...

I have a very strict mother whom i respect very much.

Today i poured my heart to her, coz i decided

that i shall not keep quiet forever.

I wanted my mum to know how much i love her deeply,

and that its not only through the words i say,

but my actions and deep in my heart how i feel.

Parents care for us, hence they tend to get over anxious about us.

Sometimes they only think of our safety. My mum is one

who believes in self-integrity, responsibility and

initiativeness.

But i need her to know sometimes i want to lead life,

my way. I need time with friends, with her...

also what i did is necessary.

Not so that i feel like a heroine after telling her all that,

but so that she knows how much i loved her.

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The passing of a great man

As some of you might have heard me mentioned about this great man... He is Mr Tham my tourism lecturer cum mentor for 2 years during my poly education. As i was a cross stream student, i get to see Mr Tham for 2 years instead of the normal 1 year which most tourism student might have encountered, others maybe even lesser.





He have taught me a great deal of things including life lessons as well as he was the one who recomend me into Abacus to work. He also agreeded to be my referer without any hesitation. This great man brought the whole group for Hong Kong trip as well as introduced us alot about tourism and work life.

I have last seen him about 4mths back and he was strong and fit as a fiddle. Life is so unpredictable.. hes gone now... and all i am left with is memories and teachings left behind by this great man. You will greatly be remembered and loved by all of us.

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Clock

Nice Clock rite?

Reminds me of how time flies pass everyday =)

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Feeling Pissed

Something happened today to make me question... who am i? Am i really who i am?
I was kinda upset when i reached home and realised that one of my fav shirt flew down the window and landed on the pillar of my neighbour's house. Guess wat? I went to press the bell, went to knock the door and still no answer. I even had to resort to pasting a post-it note to get em to sweep my shirt off.... still no action. Ended up my mum had to help me with it.

Of course, before hand that wasnt wat she said? She told me it was just a cheap piece of clothing that wasnt worth wasting time over? Have she thought of how i felt? She reminded me of once when i had a quarrel over a piece of clothing... my fav shorts with my ex. His mum offered to buy me a new piece, i rejected. Coz he can never find the same piece again....Dont anyone get it? I dont want just anything? or anyone? Its that particular thing that gives me tat feel? Nothing can replace it....Becos of that i made everyone upset... sometimes i just hate myself so much.

Is it that i am being selfish? Or that i am over sentimental? Of course She also mentioned that i am too impulsive... cant ever depend on me that sorta thing which upsets me alot...
Well i cried.... thats all... I just feel down... hope to cheer myself up soon. She even mentioned many things that hurt... i know its not true but i just dun wish to add on...

Didnt wanna bother anyone so i juz kept these feelings within me after the conversation with her.. didnt wanna tell my boi abt it too... Dar... sorry to keep this with me if u happen to read my blog... but i juz dun feel like mentioning.. at least not at this point in time.

At work LE treat us all Orange Juice today and stopped me for coaching... the word coaching really scares me alot... i was wondering what i did wrongly again... ended up heng... its just monthily coaching to set target and all... i am just too tired.. i might just go ahead with a break... i am dying...SOMEONE ANYONE.... HELP!

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~Tiredness~

Woots... today very tiring siahs...
Network is down then answer about 85 calls haha.... one of my collegue more power lor.. answer 100 over calls.. then they brought us Crysanthenum Gingseng Tea for all staff... shiok leh... this is what i call caring for your staff =Ppp...

Later got farewell dinner to attend.. but havent confirm going or not... check with mum if she will be cooking or not first haha. Shiaks... forgot to ask LE if get can No pay Leave if used up all my AL or not.. haiz haiz... forgot to reply for the fireworks tickets also.. alamakz... 120 pairs.. dunno still got chance or not lehs... me so tired... Friday then i think i try to send bahs haha...

Ok take care all.... my voice gone soon lol.... Happy national day! ^^ n looking forward to D&D.

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Sadden

haha those that already know yeah i flunk it again... its becoming no biggie now lolz...
oh but the sad news is that AQ will be tendering tmr... so =( left me alone lor... bery sad leh...
dunno can ask christina move back sit beside me mah.. or time for me to leave "home" haha..
Nevertheless i wish her all the best in her new job =)

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busy day

Aiyo i make a big mistake today.. tot that AQ come in at 8 oso.. end up its for sat only lar.

Tht ger make me happy for nothing...met Vera on the bus stop on the way home...shes on half way n goin imm buy groceries keke... today calls not too bad.. hit my 60 calls zhun zhun as usual to avoid last 5mins curse lolz.

Anyway i got myself scald in the pantry in the morn coz i took med in the morning.. n nearly

fell down the steps on the way to mrt to work and alot alot... keep sleeping everywhere i go..

even when AQ speak to me i could hardly n i mean really hardly hear her words..

and i am going huh huh huh today ...

later go bbdc take test at night lo... pray for me ok everyone!!!! scared later sleepy

see things wrongly... hope not. Today is die die must pass... coz i am v dissapointed wif myself le.

I must prove everyone wrong tat i can do it de...omg thunder >.<>

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~ Back frm doc~

Hi all... i am back from the doc..

sometimes i feel that doc arnt that great afterall..

they analyze our words and they tell us the verdict we already know haha...

etc. Anyway i saw mum on the way to see my doc, she wanted to see her company doc..but end up they have closed and will only be opened later in the afternoon.. so i dragged mum to see

my doctor instead since she was having a bad ache...

Its all the pimple cream's fault... sighs... now that i have to take 4 kinds of sensitive skin medicine everyday... i hate em! hate em! hate em! =(

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HarloW eVerybOdi

Thursday and my off day

What does a normal teen does on her off day?

Well... go out with friends... go shopping... have fun.. dating...sleep at home? watch movie? etc...

So guess what i have been doing today?

*lol* Housework.... I changed 2 beds today, did the laundry, sweeped the floor...

cleared the rubbish in my room .... *Tiredness*

Of coz i took sometime to watch clip on youtube also... then did abit of

planning for the next 3 mths for school and scheduling for my driving too...

gosh... no money to pump for driving already... haha

Still owe mum $$, if i pay her this month means my POSB bank will drain after i pump for driving... but i also dun wanna drag too long.. dun like the feeling of owing ppl $$...

Can you understand how i feel? being so broke... really hope i could do something

to earn an extra income somewhere... somehow.. but now that i am

still studying.. its hard.. have to even sacrifice my leave

Some alwful rashes have been developed all over my face after i used a new pimple
cream product.. i am not sure is it that i use too much (overdose).. or is it my

skin is naturally sensitive to the product? But it says Gentle to the skin ph 5.5... sighs...

look what i've done to myself...? now i am one ugly woman =(

How to face the people when i go to work tmr?

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----Updates---

HOT ! HOT ! HOT !

Mass updates...

Wednesday... went to BBDC to attend the final theory revision class... wow it was good...

yeah also to welcome my precious back in singapore haha... gosh hes tanned and he looks like a crab lolz... only from the back... the front is okie...

Thursday trip opened my eyes with regards to operations line... din know my mei li so

big that so many ppl were asking about me.

The best was when tht guy ask auntie Susan who am i.. and she answered... Towkay lor..

she is my boss... lolz.. in my heart i am thinking... yah for one day.

You shld had seen how his jaws dropped...

SO my final result to Jeffery is No... i will not accept his job offer,

anyway the job is under paid even if i take it.. and i won't be so dumb.. its almost free labor.

Friday when going home heard some annoucement on the train abt disrupted train

service to Clementi.. wonder what happened.. but hack i am not interested.

Saturday... this few days keep on rainning non stop... good or bad? Didnt go to CS Bash on friday coz AQ had a bad neck ache while myself having a bad cough, and it was rainning... ,

but heard that batch 04 mosty went... LK, Jaq, Janice,HY, Alvin.. all went lehz

Sunday.... Nua at home lolz

Monday... wow heard alot about the bash... LE was mentioning to us about

hunks wearing G-string walking arnd... and the ladees were screaming..

Irene spunk the butt of the hunks and stuffs....

Also heard from HY n Janice that they juz went there to drink only....

Dunno good or bad that i didnt go haha....

Anyway i am still thinking wanna join IDD performance at MOS or not...but school

is starting which means i wun have time for rehersals with the gals.... how can make it in 1 mths time wor... when they all already started rehersing?

Good luck to me... August is ending which means next mth end.. sch is re-Opening YAY!!!!!

Rashes are back by the way... sighs... super itchy... gosh... i forgot to buy eye mo =(

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Changed Skin again...

Haha... never satisfied with my blogskin.... so lazy to change yet insist that i must change lolz...
been very sian and moody recently.. pardon me all esp all those that have faced my coldness..
I just need a shoulder to rely on...

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Results

One Good news & 1 Bad...
Bad first .... Flunk FT again and gotta retake evaluation.... supersians...
Good News.... I cleared my 2 degree modules.... both C grade... not very well done...
time to buck up.... i guess i was too stressed with so many things that time... hence cant really do well lor... well know whaT? EXcuses lar.... haha...... better luck next time!

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Events

Woooo.. today is my off day & later i'll be going BBDC for my FT test again *prays hard for pass*. Currently having a super sorethroat feeling very uncomfortable right here...Sighs my nose & my throat... =(

Looking forward to our CS Bash on 20/07...since AQ confirm she's going.. think we will drag Cass and her another friend along too hahaz... wonder if HY, JaQ n co... all coming or not.. @@ Another upcoming wld be our co 10 Anniversary D&D on 25Oct07...
that day got nothing on lehs... maybe i will go too.. hahas....

Next week 3 days wont have darling wiz me... so sad =~( ..yst went out... for more details.. refer to my other blog lolz... Dun wanna say much ler.. mum still not talking to me..
she make me feel more n more strongly that i should move out!

Oh btw guys n gals..... any comments on my new blog layout???

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Yippie....

Today is actually not a good day.. But becos of one cute customer... she really made my day!

At that point of ime i was thinking... since today i cant hit quota already, at least

make my customer happy. And so I talked to her... She said.. sorry i cant speak chinese very well, i hope you can understand my poor mandrain..i could sense a strong cantonese tone and i

asked her in chinese...

Do you wish to speak in cantonese? I cant speak it very well....but i can understand

what you say and i will reply in mandrain to you...

You could sense the reliveness in her voice as she spoke to me in cantonese..

and she was so greatful that i could listen and speak to her.. as

she need not try hard to speak in mandrain hehe....

kept thanking me at the end of the call... she made my day...

i also felt i went a little extra mile for her since it was within my means...

=)

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_u4kGVhgA4




Enjoys this very nice song ^^

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Wat a pathetic day... today when i reach office.. saw then my cluster got no one...
got a shock.. tot coz its rainning hence everyone late...
Marcus ran over i heard he said something like " oh so u will be late.. u want me to tell which tm". Then end up told Marcus that Lisa will be in later.. n ya me alone lolz....
But later on AQ came lar... but only both of us lor... so pathetic... SL was super low.... RED one lor.. see also demoralizing then got this customer telling grand papa story.... wah can Zzzz

Wahaha.... plan to get a pet next time if i dun wanna haf children... so i can have some companion keke... ^^ Latest update.... i wan a carrrrrr.......hmm... red or white car... *winKs*

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No MoOD

No MoOd

I really have got no mood today.. to work. Almost got into trouble with AC my sup. Coz i didnt wanna follow up someone else's case as i think that before you go on leave, you should leave a remark for others to follow up your outstanding case and not to let the other person who doesnt know what is going on to wipe yer ass.

Even myself when i am doing my stuffs, i do not just leave em lying around. I make sure i do a proper wrap up or follow up my job till the end and not let em dangle in mid air.

That is why .... i've made up my mind to go for my degree as i do not wanna be being STEPPED at right at the bottom...

This suxXXXX! I am getting sick of the nonsense... its a matter of time i'll go!

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Made Pasta for mama...

Sorry pics not v clear... =X Pic of pasta i made for mum to try ^^ Top one is clam chowder soup....

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Check it out!!!! Some birthday stuffs haha

Flowers frm a fren ^^ & Cake & Bracelet frm him... heee

Dun ask me what i did for my birthday...
sounds silly i know....
i slept 3/4 of the day after working lolz...

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Latest Creation...

Nice>>>> ?

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~Weee BoreD~

Hey wanna take a look at my collection of my most fav heels? hee..

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MusIC

Enjoys!

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YeaH!

Hiya Ladees & Gentleman!!!!! *drumb roll*....
I've passed my FT Evaluation!!! The next available FT test will be on the 26/6/07 but i booked on the 27/2/07 hehe... hope that someone sells his/her slot so i can take on an earlier date.. haiis haiis...

Now still having my 2 mths break.. dunno when my friends wanna go pay up school fees leh...gotta wait lor... else maybe after my birthday i just go and pay alone.. =D
Everything is so far so good... still trying to struggle on to settle those little things in my brain.. having such a big headache...

Think in 3weeks time many things will be settled lar... esp when pay comes.. then very fast the pay will be gone too.. haha...i need money badly leh.. anyone can recomend temp job for like few days or few weeks de? Can work in evening de?.. haiis haiis... >.<

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Collarge ^^

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Job market

Saw this email.... din knowjob market so good now
Satisfied with your monthly salary?


Courses ALL
Average Wages per month for all courses (SGD)
ITE Graduate - $1,448
Diploma Fresh Graduate - $1,673
Diploma Post-NS Graduate - $1,975
Degree Graduate - $2,548


Source: Ministry of Manpower

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Letter to prog advisor

TOday really dulans... till now case study mark not released!!!! Go complain to prog advisor le...

Hi ,
Our exams have ended and till now we have yet to receive our Purchasing and Operations Management module case study marks and case study assignment back.
Not only we were not able to gauge how well we did in our case study and if we were on the right track but that had certainly caused some inconvenice during revision for us. Time had been given to the school and according to the local tutor, he have finished marking the paper quite some time back and had submitted to be send to LU for assessment.
Untill now, we have yet to receive any updates eversince we received the acknowlegement of the project submission.
Please explain for the delay of the marks and expedite the release, so that at least we can be assured of how we fare for our case study.
Appreciate your reply and assistance.

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Today

Ahhhhs..... Flunk My FT Evaluation again...
getting more and more demoralized le... Maybe i really not talented in this field bahs?
Yesterday's sweetness pours in me.. lasted till today still quite good mood.

Today answer only bout 40plus calls, same as yesterday. All becos of some auntie lo... SR some ppl do things only 1/2 way.. what to do? Gotta email pcso to follow up case lor...

Hmm... my dear finish work already.. should i call him later?
Like quiet leh...? Dunno wat to say leh?
Haiis... dun really like...

You guys saw the news? Another sch got into trouble and now like wanna close down lidat..
Why life lidat ah sometimes... sian hor?

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Life's so fragile n so unpredictable..

Hey heys... today not too bad a day to answer 50calls in all.. hee..
okie lar.. suddenly had alot of emotions surging inside me for the
fear of losing loved ones.. as i just heard from my boi that his manager's father had passed away...
I too had received several calls about those whose who passed away and they need the line terminated..

I guess this is life cycle... i faced the first departure when my grandfather (paternal) left me...followed by
my grandmother (maternal)... And i am fearing to lose my grandmother (paternal) coz he is 80plus le
and the last time i saw her was shortly after she had a heart surgery.

Seems like my family line is down with diebetics & heart problem...
really fear to lose my loved ones lo... sometimes i wonder what will i do?
How will i react and how i should i pick up and move on...

Its unlike the feeling of break ups & graduations... as you'll still see eachother in life,
its either u love em, or hate em, talk to em, or ignore em...

For me, even a break up is unbearable... let alone say a sudden departure of my loved ones....
*sad*

Well, Huiying saw me and said i look like auntie.. abit sad lo.. its becos of my fringe too short that i had to clip up.. and maybe my dressing.. juz so no mood to dress up due to my rashes.. and i had to wear correctly to hide em.. or i will seriously scare ppl away...

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Back frm doc

Well... My doc is back liaos...
finally go see him regarding my rashes...
according to him its "feng mo". Dunno wat are the causes for it also..
just say its skin sensitive. $41 spend on that plus last time one.... $32++ or something...
total spend is like $70++ on that stupid rash le.. sighs...
From today till i get better... no CHOCs, no EGGs and no SEAFOOD.
oh my goodness... sighs means all my fav food is nono...
*crys out loud*

anyway i fail my FT again haiis... mum says everything comes with hard work,
coz i was blaming the genes... why u all din pass me the driving genes...
my mum replied... my dad didnt pass me any either... n i was laughing
when i was reading the sms coz i find it funny lor...
Find that i am closer to mum when i sms her.. maybe coz i cld
easily tell her i love you... rather than face to face.. i do hug her still
and tell her how much i do love her.. but when one gets older.. it gets harder....

=)

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Wu fa Kai Kou...

Really lovely song and meaningful lyrics which i wanna share with all...
sang by william soh... read the lyrics kinda sad =)

无法开口

如果我知道太多
那关于相遇的错过
奋不顾身的追求能找到什么
如果你等得太久
请相信我不曾经过
想装上翅膀飞到你身后
爱很浓心很空
该怎么停在你心中
只剩长已久的寂寞时间
带不走
爱很多心很痛
究竟有多少次错过
这唯一的承诺深深埋在心中
我却无法开口
相信放在心中愿随时为你保留
真爱在我口袋别让风把它带走
思念不能放开它就像潮水
难以回收
就算相拥一秒种就已足够
如果我知道太多
那关于相遇的错过
奋不顾身的追求能找到什么
如果你等得太久
请相信我不曾经过
想装上翅膀飞到你身后
爱很浓心很空
该怎么停在你心中
只剩长已久的寂寞时间
带不走
爱很多心很痛
究竟有多少次错过
这唯一的承诺深深埋在心中
我却无法开口
相信放在心中愿随时为你保留
真爱在我口袋别让风把它带走
思念不能放开它就像潮水
难以回收
就算相拥一秒种就已足够
爱很浓心很空
该怎么停在你心中
只剩下依旧的寂寞
时间带不走
爱很多心很痛
究竟有多少次
错过这唯一的承诺
深深埋在心中
我却无法开口

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Plans Plans...

Plans for my future
~2007-2008~
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-First step to pass my Final Theory Test first then... Get Driving licence... by2007/ 2008
-Get First class Honours / 2nd Upper Honours Business Degree in 2008 (Next year wor... faster lai )
- Go back to hotel line as a Catering Sales Executive/ Marketing Executive (Either in IR if not those guest house, under fareast organization they have some).
-Or Go into Events Management Co. (Have to be highly independent and motivated to chiong, coz no day, no nights de!)
-If not stay in same co as now, but change to full-time and wanna work in another department coz this current department cannot sustain my interest for long.
-Take up Yoga!
Looks like 2008 is gonna be another busy , exciting & Challenging year...

By 3 years after graduation...
- I aim to be a Marketing Manager...
- Pursue my interest in Arts & Drama if i have the opportunity ...

If all goes well.. settle down by 2010 ~ 2011 (haha shy la...)

Next up would be to try to start my own business
-I plan to retire by 40 years old to do that...
-Tour the world, go cruising, go to all parts of the world lar... lol Maritius, Maldives, Europe, France, NewZealand, Perth, Sydney, USA... etc etc...
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I want to be a very successful person ^^

Other plans:
I might want to migrate to Australia and not remain in Singapore... will attend more talks on that to find out on how i can move over to Australia.

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Photos for pleasure...

Well over the examination week i did some stuff to destress... like cooking... hehe....

Here are some pics of some simple dishes i've made... enjoy...

Dumpling cooking in progress..

Finished product w/o soup haha...

Okie... and i tried to imitate chawanmushi (i dunno how to spell lolz)

Nice or not my Steam Egg.... kekeke.... its actually higher but sunk coz the steam is released mahs...

Close up =D

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Troubled & mixed Fillings

Does it always happens that in a relationship u'll expect more and more? .....
Anyway went out to relex today, its my last day before i start mugging on my books!
Wat will i be expecting?

-Mugging for the next few days.
-Expecting results for case study (pray that i score well)
-Work and more work untill finish work lolz (pray OT cancelled.. i am really tired & drainned)
-Hope the strange rashes on me dissapear soon...

- i am moody lah... maybe its the whether... sighs! & Ah di! I changed the skin for u le lor... hope u can see now... sorry jie no time pei u go eat coz hibernation period haha...

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Wow finally blogger is ok now...

Seriously speaking, so much updates untill i also dunno wat i shld say haha. Anways, juz keep all updated..
This few weeks its all about studies, preparing for exams and in work is alot of polishing of skills...
Had very low calls answered this few days coz all are long and draggy cases.. and my cust stats not that good lo...

Just passed 1 mth anniversary, we didnt do any celebration, my boi juz came down to find me and we had simple chit chat session and makan at mcdonalds... it was a simple night but was happy and glad coz after work he still had to travel all the way here to find me lo... really appreciate all this small details.

Hmm...will chiong for my FT test after my exams and hope to start driving a real car soon. Envy my boi lo.. he can drive hee...I wanna be like him...then GSS coming.. so can go shop abit... though now very financially strainned. I juz asked mum if can take out the insurance sum to use...but heard its not so much... so guess cant help. I better depend on myself! Driving needs more money to learn too..

Thats all for now... wll go back to EX co to visit my EX collegues soon... prolly go back with AQ aft exams! And perhaps follow up with some friends and of coz i look forward to everyday's new challenges!

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Test Post...

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Test Post...

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Fever fevery~

Gosh....... this few days my body temperature is killing me...highest hit was around 39.4-39.7degrees. And dun ask me go see doc k... i hate antibiotics and i hate panadol more... anyway i did took panadol these few days and today i have been drinking alot of water to cool my temp down. But still feeling headache and muscle ache...

My guy got a shock yesterday when he pick me up coz when he felt my forehead it was burning. Yet i could still go to work like normal, i could still smile at him.. still joke with him.... I was jokingly saying.. maybe one day i would die smiling but no one knows whats wrong wif me coz i am juz appearing to be normal.

Mum finally spoke to me yesterday asking me if i want dinner... ok abit of improvement here. I juz wish i could get well soon and she would forgive me so that i can bring her to eat on Sunday? or... maybe Saturday after work i could tarbao sushi for her...

Did quite alot today... i packed my closet and i realised its so full now i cant hang anymore clothes... omg...next time gotta have one room just for my clothes... but of course i decided that before i get married i will get rid of alot of clothes... (make space for new ones) haha... no lar juz dun wanna keep so many things lor...

Still feeling feverish leh....dun feel like eating again sighs... this fever really takes away all my appetite. I must revenge once i get well... lots of things to do tmr at work.. must remember to check if all my leave had been approved lehz.... else too late ler... okie dokies! Peace out till next time.

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Alone in the room...

Been hiding myself in my room ever since i've gotten home today. Guess i have to recover quickly as i have to go to work tomorrow bringing that smile on my face and following up whatever is to be done.

AQ wouldnt be around to help me, so i'll be alone to cope and adapt work this coming week. Also this week will be my first Sat working...awws.. i am still feeling very very tired... emotionally heavy..So much for being happy for the month long....... its time for a little break....

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NerVoUss

Wow... dunno why after i switch job my life is sooooo eventful. Over the week i made Almond pudding for my mum and him. It was very successful as both of them enjoyed the pudding very much hee.. *Secret recepie orrh*

Vera broke the news on Thurs that i will be graduating from FT early... wow why? She mentioned coz the fishes all wld be working A3 next week so they wanted me to go cluster earlier. Which means next week onwards i am on P/T and that i will be in the deep ocean.... aWww... good or bad? Anyway i felt my trainning was really short time but she mentioned that my calls were alright (i feel alot of incomplete info) shiaks...

Anyway, I'm a strong gal... i will take things by my stride... =D
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Today is also meet the parents session ah yo.... cant help feeling nervous. Dunno how i would fare in front of his mum and relatives and siblings... Hummmpss..... We shall see ok? haha... Think i will fare well dun worry.. My classmate said i have those guai guai face and i am small bulit so likely hood that parents would like me lolz.... think it has to do with my character also... =D Well... will keep u all updated!

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~wEeee~

Sunday is gone like that? OMG! I cant believe it... its so fast..
and what had i been doing? Case study lor... Friday gotta submit and i'm like super duper behind time lidat...Anyway i managed to scribble something out... and guess thats it for now.. untill i recheck during the week.

Tried the Silk Pro skin renewal juz now... wah.. hot... but the thermal effect is good.. my face looks smooth and silky haha... like silk pro lolz... i like promoting the product.. got mum to try it too... keke...

well... if i never remembered wrongly, i've ever been spotted on Orchard road for a shampoo Advertisement.. keke... or was it that my friend was saying i can go flim one... argh i cant remember but nevermind... I had appeared on the newspaper for a project back in my secondary school days... thats enough for now lolz...

Anyway... i am feeling happy today... just happy.. dunno why... guess everything had been smooth so far. Was watching the MSU just now and the last qn they had was what would u do if your mum finally rejected your true love?

I liked the lady who answered, i will tell my darling to win over my mum like how he won me over... haha... i think i would do the same. Firstly, i will explain to my mother why i choose him.. then i would try and convince her that he is a good man and to-be husband. Then if all fails, i'll get the man to convince my mother that he is able to take care of me and treat me well.... guess thats about it.

Coz i am not so fake to say that i'll give the man up coz i love my mother so much. As true love is hard to come by... if hes juz an average, i wun even bring him home in the first place... like my mum says... its disgrace if it doesnt all work out!

I'm feeling so so hot now.... *perspire...* Signing off here for tonight... ^^

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Unfair......so unfair

Its soooooooo unfair....
guys can go out late and return home late but gers cant!
Does it mean that its safe for them to return home late then?
Accident only happens on gals and not guys? UNTRUE!
How does it feels when u are enjoying yourself out there and
someone at home is worrying for you? Bet u wun ask yourself this
question when u are out there enjoying....

I finally understood how mum felt...

Went to KTV with CL & Vincent today... we all totally no form lor.. dunno
what we are singing, singing crappy songs...and the food.. was so so only .. wanted Salmon but end up we ate curry chicken set... all i can say was the sound system sucks...CL had a bit of problem adjusting the key.. and funny thing room 8 got CL fren, 9
got Vincent fren and we are at 10.
So we finished singing at room 10 and proceed in front to room 9. Think the service crew chased us so many times... coz we like already exceeded the timing by like... 45mins? haha.......

Then we go walk walk around Cine for BC present... got pillow case and a nice hp strap for her... i was thinking of buying that too... budden i feel...my precious keep changing HP due nature of job and i dun see him using any hp accessories... so i din get it.... it has got bears on it and is kinda cute lor... Vincent and CL say next time when they have gf they will patronize that store alot haha... but the lady boss hor very attitude one lolz...

I am super sian now.. if i know.. i rather go chiong through the night lor.. dun care anything juz play, juz have fun... i know i am being selfish but i cant help feeling unfairness.... i know its normal to like go eat and talk after work... i finished my news... finish the tv prog also... now 12 something... nearly 1am still no sms... am i like narrow minded or what...?

Sighs... i should just keep quiet ... log out... go to sleep!

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Trainning Plus life call

WeEee....Been very tired this week ... like having a crash training course. Not sure if it is good... or bad.. but already solo listening to calls.. Been having the feeling that my precious is like a father to me ... good or bad u judge it.. =D Kinda nervous on my first few calls that i am going all over the place looking for information yet i am like providing wrong information smmore... sighs lor...

This week dunno what has gotten over me also.. walking into GENTs gosh... and today open wrong door go out... so malu lor... aiyer actually got alot of interesting calls one... juz that i am chatting with precious and too lazy to type... =X... update u all next time k.. think blogger hafin some probs.. sians.

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good news!

Yippies.... i am slowly ripping my returns...

I believe most of you have already heard of my good news.... 2 piece...
1) I am no longer single ler...... yep.. as i promised myself no more online/un-realistic relationship.. i have fullfilled my own wish.. i finally walked out of the "curse" as my previous have failed and i have lost trust in those unrealistic relationship....this one is different.. its my first REAL REAL relationship... started off real life... not online one haha... bad news for those who are still waiting for a chance lolz....

2) I checked my results today and yes everyone..... i have cleared my exam....yippie....^^
this 2 papers are really very tough... but lucky enough i managed to clear my exams... sms my god mother and ex collegues too.. everyone is happy for me.. thank u all..

My shifu also just tell me he needs someone to help out with his new venture in 3 years time.. i hope it all works out well and i will be a lady boss! keke.... With my expertise i believe we can all do it... but play safe ah.. i better safekeep some money and work harder now...

I will continue to work hard to acheive my dreams... and turn them into reality.. i am only at the begainning stage now.. i promise to work even harder! cheers!

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Great weekend!

Great weekend... great fun... the best part is the "haunted house" a little secret hideout shared by 2 persons... haha... shhhhhh!

Hmm.... since it'll be left vacant.. it shall be our Rendevouz place muahaha.... ok lar.. i like the idea of the peace & tranqulity in the haunted house lolz.. but no dun ask me be in there alone lar... still will scared wors...

Tmr gotta go back to work liao wors.. i will be all alone... untill 3pm maybe can tell Jill that i join back my with bacth 04/07... Tmr morning go meet mama Grace first before we will be seperated and must remind myself to punch card...working really hard to built a better tomorrow for myself and my half... ^^

Ok lars... today wake up late... yst too hyper end up cant slp lolz....
*the song sings: I'm thinking of u.... i'm thinking of u.... all i can do... is thinking of u...*
Juz like how i feel now.... i will carry on think of u and work on case study liaos!
Woots all... tk cares till my next blog entry ^^

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Cheese!

Our Miss ET who is going to palagong! *smiLes*

Seeing her makes me wanna get married too.... dun she look blissful?

Our "thorn" in the class... keke

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Last day @ NSA in ROC

My Triangle lover hahas... "My other leg" missing...

My dEaresT Carmen looking so tired... aWwws

Our Mummy!!!! MuaHs!

So adorable *pinCh*

Weee........ The 2 gals flying keke

Dont we look cute? *wiNks* Me & my "other leg".

The NSA batch 04/07 Gang!

TwiST......MuahS! Weee... Drama QueeNs!
Thanks gals for all the fun times... through the good and bad... i'll remember u all always!

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Vietnam

Hi All,
I am back from Vietnam, Sorry yun... didnt have time to update my blog. Basically its a general short trip started off with me sleeping in my auntie's car by the roadside and feeding mosquitos.. Then we reached Ho Chin Min.. I stayed in Saigon Pink hotel which cost like 25USD per night, if u get those single bed it cost around 20UsD only... haha.. anyway Vietnam is a nice place, lots of scooters and hardly any pedestrians... well they will let u pass if u pass the road...

We also went shopping and the food there is more to the sweet side ya... Basically they'll give u a plate of vegetables to go with the soup noodles lor.. Then the ice coffee was really good, so were the sea food and the ice blened fruit drinks.. i had mango ice, coconut ice as well as mango ice... yummylicious...I didnt get to take alot of photos.. but some of the interesting things i saw was that one scooter can carry like 4-5 people... some carry dogs.. and the doggie knows how to hold the handle.. really hillarious sight! But yah.. i didnt get to take those shots as they were too fast. There were alot of beggers and from the words of my auntie's friend.. they actually have a begger's clan.. and they like report to the head. The beggers "kids" are really very fierce.. they shout at you if u dont give them money and normally the mother will follow behind them at some distance away.. really terrible right?

Reflect on how fortunate we are in Singapore... Well i went the Chinatown there too.. like a whole sale center... went to walk in their supermarket etc... Nothing much lar.. but was really an eye opener for me.. will post some photos which i Have soon... Was happy to be back coz someone is waiting patiently for me here ^^

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Moody

Hi all... I am feeling preety moody mans... wonder wats getting into me.
I feel like i am stucked in a complicated relationship right now and like i dun really like where i am? Anyway juz to share wif u an accident... today was at JP double index shop and i was browsing thru the new arrivals... and saw this blouse that i quite liked... the sales gal saw and she was like "this one left size S only" i was like... do u expect me to wear M or L. She cant judge my size meh... and soon i left the shop.. was like pissed off lor...

When when it comes to love... i guess i am not that fortunate.. coz so far no one guy had done something that was so memoriable or so romantic and touching.. i would say i have some nice and some really bad encounters though...

Good but not there yet ones
- A guy ever had some flowers delievered to my office on Valentine's Day for me.. and it was a flower set not a boquet.. it came with chocs and a lion toy in a heart which i later learned that it should be a monkey toy. They had substitute the toy without letting him know. There were sunflowers... cant exactly remember if there were any roses... Felt quite shy coz every other collegue that passed by was asking whos the sender and i couldnt reveal...

-My buddy who actually listened to my love story and he cried? Not exactly romantic but i felt he cares so much for me... He actually bring me out to the park for walks and listen to me pour out my woes and stuff... Sometimes he also threatens me wiz stuff like if u dont listen to me and go try hurt yourself... i will do the same.. or i will kneel the whole night...... though i dunno if he really did that.. i trust that he is not a liar.. coz so far he had been honest with me.


Bad to the bones
-Ex that scolds me and still can have the mood to throw me alone in the living room to cry while his sister watches me. Had a quarrel and tells me i will not send u home, u can go home now if u want... allows me to run down the stairs "from 12th floor" and take a cab and went home all alone when i was angry...... Make me travel from Jurong to Bugis, Bugis to Bedok (his place).. coz he was mad at something...tells me that its our 2nd yr anniversary but pls dun expect any flowers or anything from him...as i am already his girlfriend.. Expect me not to fold my arms, put my hands in my pocket or do certain things coz they look ugly? He do have some good points though, like he will cut the food ready for u to chew... debone yr ribs for u ......can be quite caring at times ...

-Ex that made me rush to his house to stop him from playing games yet cldnt? Had to sms him till he begged me to stop sms him and calling him as he wanted to play his games...and simply coz i didnt like him to play so much and do nothing else...

Sighs... really scared of being in a relationship coz of so many bad experiences.. unless that guy did something to touch my heart.. i guess its still a NO!

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Thank God Its Friday!

TGIF!
Yes ladeez... I finally took my re-test.. phew.. no one informed me and jess that its gonna be MCQ but still MCQ need to study.. cant say juz let it pass..they can be so tricky!!!BL gonna be last week in 1B soon.. havnt had time to meet her.. kinda missed her...

Tmr gonna still have one full day of lesson... followed by Sunday and all the way to Thurs except Monday... pants... i hope the London lecturer is good.. well.. he better be! I am so broke... Sighs.. i wonder how much $$ i still owe mum... all of my savings have gone into my investment in my degree... how painful it is.. but i believe thats for the future good... *smiles* Aww... I wanna go prawn fishing wiz him and his coll but.. sighs Sunday got class how to go...? S0obz...

Sunshine activity today was to share your love experiences wiz everyone haha... We heard Alvin, we heard Elaine...Lee Chin and Grace hehe... whos next?

I am so tired...havent had chance to listen to calls... coz of the retest again... I was telling Jess we better make sure its the final time we go up there! I really dun wan another one! *prays hard*...

Thats all for today!!!

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27March07

Awws.. I am having so much fun! Bez trainning program ever... both stressed up and information overloading as well. I love my batch! Love everyone Muacks! Hope we all do well for all our upcoming test and stay bonded yeah! -- Short update today coz too tired and K.O. so fast.. haha.. i'll add u all on friendster later onz k... too busy with stuff... old already lar...
Ciaos... Tag my board lolz

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Thanks ex collegues for such a wonderful time!

Thats me and my ARC team!!! Wee Weet... Thanks Mr Johnathan for the position of VP in the Recreational club... my other VP is standing behind... Mr Adrian keke... and our President is Mr Marthy from phil... hes the one in grey... dont we make a great team?

Wow... See? My whole company... or rather almost the whole company is here already except few who did not turn up. Of course this picture excludes those that join us after july 2007. This photo was taken in a Hala Turkey Restaurant *sorry i cant remember the name* it has a really "house" like structure.. Missing most of them... haiis.. Well, guess we'll meet someday, somehow, sometime where our roads will cross eachother again! Thanks for all the wonderful memories guys! We are a happy family! Thanks for a great 1 year plus guys!

*sorri bout bad pixels*

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Vincent and Cheng Li Birthday Celebration 18th March 07

Guess Who buah the cream on Vincent?


Culprit!!! Still make face lolz BC...

2 Guys Cutting Bdae Cake

Group photo oh yeah!

Another Pic.. this one taken at another cafe where you can go up the stage to sing!

Wee... The photos for ChengLi and Vincent's Birthday Is out!!!

Photos are taken last saturday @ Minds Cafe.

We played alot of games like taboo (most funny one) topple the bucket, then snatching cards here and there also lolz... btw the tauhuey at Selegie can eat... smooth and the syrup is orange de.. not too sweet ^^, the Wanton noodles that Baochuan bring us for dinner was also not too bad.

Had alot of fun and made alot of new friends
-[BaoChuan] & to be boyfriend -Qian Liang
-[Lynn Png] & boyfriend

-[Ger that sat beside me and tried to take pic wiz me] +Lynn+

-[Ger that came early and played games with Vincent and me] +Zi Jun+

Thanks Cheng Li for the Names contribution. *lol*

keke... some of them see them around in NP before..some from my IS module one.

Xiexie ni men jio me along... it was shoo fun!

See their face? kenna sabo till so jialat =.= Poor thing...Apologies for only posting few pics.. coz many are xcensoredx then take very long to upload also lolz...

[Thanks Vincent for sending me the photos]

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New Job..New Hopes..New Dreams..

Hi Everyone, thank you for visitng my blog. Much have been happening in the past week. Let me do some back-dated updates =).

[Monday] 19Mar07
- Went to sign new work contract. I was so blur that I did not pay while I was in the shuttle bus to IBP. Coz Audrey didnt mentioned. When i came back, I thank the uncle for letting me off, he smiled and said no need to say thank you, you have to pay 20cents... I thought he was joking... *MALU*. Went home to rest, eat and went for night study class as per usual.
- Was happy to see WY, HW and Wendy again... Diana didnt came for lessons last week, glad to see her back!
-The lecture was okie... as usual Mr Leong cracked jokes and fed us with alot of information.
-Went home and was all ready for Orientation the next day.

[Tuesday] 20Mar07
-Met Audrey to go to work together. So glad to see her again.
-Met Jessica and HY @ the security.... so happy that we are in the same batch hee...
-Met Man Yong my trainner for Orientation ... Tmr is down to Aljunied... man so far... xSobsx
-Made new friends:
[x] Jessica
[x] Hui Ying
[x] Grace Mary
[x] Lee Chin
[x] Alvin
[x] Elaine
[x] Terry
[x] Jacqueline
[x] Insyria<- Duno how to spell...
[x] Carmen
[x] Janice [Sit beside Lee Chin] Rather quiet gal... Thanks Jessica for contribution lolz

[Wednesday/Thursday] 21Mar07 & 22Mar07
Trainning + Tiredness+ Information Overload

[Friday] 23Mar07
Test today!!! Heng i cleared 82% Luckily MCQ got 25/25 else i sure cant make it already... Phew~then went for night class as usual..
The kitten outside is very cute... I miao miao him... He meows back *lol*
Someone came and pick me up from Night class wor... dun tell u who... u guess? keke...

[Sat] 24Mar07
Woots... Went for Medicial Check up.. that someone appeared again *lolz*
Thanks to him else the check up sure very sian one... hope he din go work late late haiiz..
i feel bad for making him w8 1hr. I was sooo late... *sorry!!!*
Then at night played literati wifz Jess & HY. Sooo funny.. we kept talking bout guys.. shh!!!

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