I hate my body

心没有那么难受过。

今早洗澡出来照镜子，发现自己肥了，讨厌自己为什么那么贪吃那么容易变胖

为什么那么努力运动缺不能像其他女生那样狂吃不运动都这么瘦，随便穿都那么好看

超级无奈。

I always believe god made everything happen for a reason.

Was at the hospital running errands like usual. 

病人穿着病服走来走去，孩子穿着病服在医院里跑着也很开心 

每次在等电梯那短短两分钟，都可以感觉到温情。也许你现在不会明白我在说什么， 可是我深深感受到

有些人不能走路只能靠电梯因为行动不便，孩子推着轮椅一直念爸爸不争气；爸爸觉得很烦可是他不懂站在后面推着轮椅的孩子眼眶泛泪

一位老伯伯，看得出年长，行动很慢但是硬着头皮一个人看完医生走回病房

妈妈怀着孕，孩子穿着病服，老公忙着推椅车，我想不用我说你们都知道那种心酸吧

电梯门开了，大家互相礼让慢慢地走进去

只有我..可以深深感受到电梯里只有我最幸福的..

突然有人从门外大喊，“等一下！”

我手一快顶着门，门一开

看见一位阿姨拖着氧气桶，后面跟着另一位阿姨推着女孩的轮椅，女孩没有头发，绑着头巾。

阿姨忙着说谢谢，女孩哽咽说谢谢然后在电梯里大哭起来....

阿姨带着微笑安慰她说，“不要哭啦，医生说了还要一个疗程，过后吃药就没事啦”

“ 为什么是我...真的很辛苦..我不想要治疗了",哭着说

“ 不可以这样说话的，忍多一下就过去了”

“ 你不懂我有多怕多辛苦..!"

画面真的很酸很酸。姐的眼泪都快流出来了.

这时老伯伯就说 “ 小妹妹，不要灰心，药一定要吃，医生讲话一定要听，uncle 80岁了还在打药都没有放弃，你这样你家人会很心痛你知道吗？不要灰心！”

女孩大声地哭起来，但默默地点头

老伯伯继续说，“我也很痛很辛苦，我没有家人，但是我没有灰心，要看开默默接受，这样比较开心。你比我更幸福，有家人帮你推轮椅，如果我今天不能走路，你说我要怎么办？”

女孩开始冷静下来, 阿姨拍拍她头安慰地说“ 没事的，有我在，乖.."

我想阿姨心里有多痛多难受多苦不堪言......

女孩得的是癌症，人家所谓的贵富病

医药费非常昂贵，不懂负担得起医药费吗；就算负担得起，会好起来吗？还是个未知数..........

唉。

我每天都在嫌腿肥，有脚能走能跳就好了

每天嫌胸部不够大，没有肿瘤就好了

嫌手臂不够瘦，有手没伤疤就好了

容易变胖，可以随吃自己爱的就好了

懒惰出门懒惰运动，可以走路已经很幸福了

哎哟呀人生其实真的很短

为什么要那么在意小小事情搞到自己这么不开心

想想有多少人多想要你现在的生活

不病是不会体会到那种心酸

只能说，有得必有失

珍惜现在所拥有的一切

开心最重要，用自己的快乐正能量影响身边的人

也许你不知道这感染力有多大，但女孩刚和阿姨道歉自己胡说八道，答应会乖乖治疗

老伯伯也有苦说不出口，大家都有苦说不出口..但是这重要吗？

你自己去想想吧

我说你，黄燕妮。

The Replacement - Lodge and Kitchen

Greetings from JB!

Every month, same routine, same place, same task, same food but this time is different. Decided to explore cafes in JB. Nearly every Saturday me and baby brother will explore new cafes together.
So why not JB? This place is developing quickly, passed by  new mall today and realised it's Paradigm Mall??  😳  Chinese property developers flooding in JB,  mainland chinese everywhereeee.

Off to this cafe right after work to grab some good coffee, complete some paper work.

The Replacement - Lodge and Kitchen

33 Jalan Dhoby 

Johor Bahru 

Johor 80000 

Malaysia 

Mon - Fri 9am - 8pm

Sat - Sun 8am - 8pm 

Located corner of the street. Typical "subang cafe" cozy design.

This is just gonna be a sharing post. Don't expect for long reviews. No, i am not gonna do that lol.

I love to google cafes/bars to see reviews but I don't see any updated reviews from bloggers these days. I noticed many new cafes in Instagram but when I try to look for reviews , mostly are  sponsored post.

What information I would expect to know from internet before exploring a new place? First of all, picture picture picture, second off is Review. Instagram cant give much input in terms of review... picture taken focusing on their face/baju or typical instagram picture shoot from top angle to look like a professional instagrammer. Lol

Anyway 废话少说,  我不会review什么鬼东东长话连篇 but instead will just give short review that's it. Why? 快 loh. Scroll scroll, swipe swipe, absorb important info , and reay to rolllll.
How many of you actually bother to read a long post or 注意我用的bombastic助词? Maybe it's just me but i am just being honest here.

Ok picture from my seat's angle. I purposely choose a corner table ok. 拍照没有这样尴尬

Of course food menu will be provided, 还用说的吗

If you look at the description closely 都蛮诱人的坦白说，creative到来全部都想试

I ordered B&B toast , Md 不是讲笑的感动，banana caramelised 到刚刚好，脆🉐️来不会太甜口感刚刚好，toast外脆内香，搭上bacon的咸和香蕉的甜.

Wah, this is the bomb.

 

 

Forgot to take a picture from outside. Sorry oh. Lol

On a scale 1-10, i will rate 7? 

They have outdoor seats too, smoking area.

Wifi speed OK. Password if not mistaken is 999999999

If you are visiting JB or leaving to SG, should drop by 一下, at least try their Churros Salted Egg Yoke, super tempted to try but no kaki. 

Ranting part 1

Oh hi 👋🏼

Blog is dying and probably that's the reason why I'm here.
I'm am not here to share photos or products to gain followrs/viewers/ earn money or whatsoever.

I just want to rant about life, share about MY feelings like how I used to do.

Blog these days are all about advertising, getting fame, commercialised.. whatever. I'm just sick of that. Wonder if there are still people that just blog because they want a platform to share things that they love and record words in their mind?

I doubt so.

I remember myself started blogging through another blog space called 无名小站. And I realised I really love writing, though I don't like to read but I love to write. I know my writing skills are not good 但是华语还是ok的好不好. To express what's in  mind convert into words you thought so easy is it..but I know this is not writing, basically ranting to be accurate. Haha

Anyway. Queennie has now started working unlike 6 years ago still a student trying to earn easy money and gain followers through blogging. Trying to expand circles through blogging. Boost own confidence by writing some shitty post to myself and getting recognition from people. Man, that sounds kinda sad isnt it lol


Oh ya also to rant about my ex bf because he never gives a F about my blog, and I get really irritated about it.  Lol good old days

At this stage of life, man..growing up sucks seriously. Lol

I mean, I know I need to work I need money to live (of course  I love my job) but there are so many things to keep up at the same time. I felt like I'm running out of time.  5 more years to 30 and I don't know why do I set my goals so high and everything wish to be done before 30. Fml.

Don't tell me " Eh do planning lah, that's what your problem is, time management " . Md need you to tell me meh.. when you have to work more than 8 hours a day,  Want bikini body is it? Go gym. Want  to maintain a balance social life? Catch up with friends. Family time much needed? Spend more time at home. Need a short getaway? Go travelling .  Broke like shit? Stay at home. They are so many things to keep up and it's so tiring. And I can't lose any of them. 也许真的逼太多东西太紧了 , 会死掉 And all of this needs time and money okay.

没有赚钱就没有life, 有life就没有时间， 有时间就没有钱

All of my friends know I have a Auntie Dream.

Be a homemaker. Make breakfast for the family. Stay at home do some gardening.. Send kids to school. Teach them moral. Teach them to be kind.  Make sure they finish food that i cook. Spend time with the family.  Just being an ordinary Auntie.

有些人觉得我sot了 but I don't see that as a problem because I really appreciate what my mum has sacrificed for me. And this is my Auntie dream. To be like my mum.
She was also a successful lady in work but still she gave up everything she had and chose to give her 100% to us.  I just wanna be like her. PROVIDED I found a man like dad. Finding the right man is not easy yooooo. Otherwise... eat jagung loh everyday. 😂.

I always believe that everything happen for a reason. Just like now, me ranting about life,

其实自己还是知道工还是要做，要更上进努力不要颓废, so that's the reason why I am here. Just to rant about ir, release 一下.

OK 现在屁放完了 can continue to work now.

If you actually finished reading this stupid post...send me your instagram link, I will like all your photos. Hahahahah.

Till then 😘